While the Coromandel was throbbing out her regulation number of knots
towards Colombo, October was passing over Bengal. It went with lethargy,
the rains were too close on its heels; but at the end of the long hot
days, when the resplendent sun struck down on the glossy trees and the
over-lush Maidan, there often stole through Calcutta a breath of the
coming respite of December. The blue smoke of the people's cooking fires
began to hang again in the streets, the pungent smell of it was pleasant
in the still air. The south wind turned back at the Sunderbunds; instead
of it, one met round corners a sudden crispness that stayed just long
enough to be recognised and melted damply away. A week might have two or
three of such promises and foretastes.
Hilda Howe, approaching the end of her probation at the Baker
Institution, threw the dormitory window wide to them, went out to seek
them. They gave her a new stirring of vitality, something deep within
her leaped up responding to the voucher the evenings brought that
presently they would bring something new and different. She vibrated to
an irrepressible pulse of accord with that; it made her hand strong and
her brain clear for the unimportant matters that remained within the
scope of the monotonous moment. There had come upon her a stimulating
assurance that it would be only a moment--now. She did not consider
this, she could hardly be said to be intelligently aware of it, but
it underlay all that she said and did. Her spirits gained an enviable
lightness, she began again to see beautiful, touching things in the life
that carried her on with it. She explained to Stephen Arnold that
she was immensely happy at having passed the last of her nursing
examinations.
“I hardly dare ask you,” he said, “what you are going to do now.”
He looked furtive and anxious; she saw that he did, and the perception
irritated her. She had to tell herself that she had given him the right
to look in any way he pleased--indeed yes.
“I hardly dare ask myself,” she answered, and was immediately conscious
that for the first time in the history of their relations she had spoken
to him that which was expedient.
“I hope the Sisters are not trying to influence you,” he said firmly.
“Fancy!” she cried irrelevantly. “I heard the other day that Sister Ann
Frances had described me as the pride of the Baker Institution!” She
laughed with delight at the humour of it, and he smiled too. When she
laughed, he had nearly always now confidence enough to smile too.
“You might ask for another six months.”
“Heavens, no! No--I shall make up my mind.”
“Then you may go away,” Arnold said. They were standing at the crossing
of the wide red road from which they would go in different directions.
She saw that the question was momentous to him. She also saw how
curiously the sun sallowed him, and how many more hollows he had in his
face than most people. She had a pathetic impression of the figure he
made in his coarse gown and shoes. “God's wayfarer,” she murmured. There
was pity in her mind, infinite pity. Her thought had no other tinge. It
was a curiously simple feeling, and seemed to bring her an inconsistent
lightness of heart.
“Come too,” she said aloud, “come and be a Clarke Brother where the
climatic conditions suit you better. The world wants Clarke Brothers
everywhere.”
He looked at her and tried to smile, but his lips quivered. He opened
them in an effort to speak, gave it up, and turned away silently,
lifting his hat. Hilda watched him for an instant as he went. His figure
took strange proportions through the tears that sprang to her eyes,
and she marvelled at the gaiety with which she had touched, had almost
revealed, her heart's desire.