THE GRINDING OF THE MILLS

Now, be it understood at the first word that I have never believed

in astrology as an exact science, or even a working hypothesis to

explain the curious happenings of life which we ascribe to luck, fate,

Providence, the law of cause and effect, or, latterly, to mortal mind.

Nor do I offer this story with any intent to help the astrologers

in their difficult efforts to prove their science correct; for it

proves nothing beyond the scope of coincidence--unless, possibly, that

the laws, mathematical and other, beyond human soul life, are past

our present comprehension. This is merely the contribution of an

experienced old man, grown gray and tired in the effort to understand

his fellowman, and who has at last given up the problem, trusting that

it may aid some younger investigator.

My acquaintance with them began early, very early--in fact I was

present at, and assisted at, their birth, which occurred at the same

moment, their mothers lying side by side on the same narrow cot in the

crowded hospital. There had been a railroad accident, and these two

injured women had been carried to the nearby institution where I was

serving my apprenticeship in medicine. They recovered in time, went to

their separate homes unacquainted, and resumed their lives, one the

wife of a wealthy man, the other a scrubwoman. They never met again,

nor did their lives conflict; but their children, born at the same

moment, and at the same spot, lived out careers that were strangely

parallel, strangely consistent with what the astrologers teach.

In my later capacity of visiting physician to that hospital I often

met young Dunbar, the scrub-woman's boy, as he progressed through the

ailments and accidents of childhood; and as family physician to the

wealthy Lance family I as often met their pampered youngster. After a

few years I noticed that if anything was wrong with one, something--not

necessarily the same thing--happened to the other. For instance,

young Dunbar broke his arm at the time young Lance had the measles.

The latter sprained his wrist, and the former came to the free clinic

the same day with a black eye, acquired in a fight. I called this

coincidence for a while, until both mothers died at the same hour,

of the same disease. Then I recalled that I, who had been present

at that other momentous event in their widely divergent lives, was

now the useless physician to each. I began to take notes, but never

investigated the lives of the mothers; my studies and speculations were

concerned with the lives of the sons. And I first learned that since

birth they had never met.

Each in his own environment, these two boys grew up, as different in

physique, mentality, and morals as can be imagined. At sixteen their

characters were shaped, and at this age I invoiced their attributes.

Each was what the other was not. Dunbar was a tough, Lance a gentleman;

but Dunbar possessed physical courage of the highest order, while

Lance, up to this period in his life, had never voluntarily placed

himself in the way of pain or punishment. He would run from an angry

goose or girl playmate. On the other hand, he possessed moral courage,

while Dunbar was a moral coward. Lance proudly bore himself through a

storm of boyish ridicule when caught playing with dolls and toy-houses,

while Dunbar hid himself in shame because of defeat at the hands of a

larger, heavier boy. Lance was truthful, polite, and with a high sense

of honor and justice; Dunbar a liar, a bully, and a bad example. His

associates were the worst in the town, and when there came the time

that my safe was robbed, and the loot was found upon Dunbar, I could

not have saved him, even though I had believed him innocent. It was

simply a case of the People against Dunbar, and I was prosecuting

witness.

Others had robbed me, and Dunbar, unthinkingly, had held the goods

until arrested. I could not prove this at the time, and so Dunbar

was convicted. But, as an incident in this story, on the day that

he entered prison to begin a four-years' sentence, Lance, the most

effeminate boy I had known in my experience, entered the Naval Academy

at Annapolis, there to begin a four-year tutelage in a profession where

the most masculine attributes are required.

I saw him on his four vacations at home, each time more mature, more

certain of himself, more effeminate in speech and mannerisms, yet

graceful in bearing and possessed of what might be called masculine

beauty. He was tall, erect, with curly hair and a pink complexion,

untouched by the tan of sun and sea and wind; for he had not yet begun

his two years' sea cruise.

I visited Dunbar in prison as often as I saw Lance, for my own

vacations took me into his vicinity. On the first three occasions

he was sulky and resentful, but on the fourth and last was utterly

changed. He begged my forgiveness, was earnest and hopeful of the

future. He asked for books to read, and advice on his plans. I met

him more than half-way, and soon learned the cause of the change in

him--the warden's daughter. She had lent him her small store of books,

had sympathized with him as she dared or cared, and had become his

Goddess of Light and Hope. I talked with her before I left; she was a

tall, willowy sort of girl with a very sweet, spiritual face--not so

beautiful as compelling. She could exercise a strong influence on any

man of Dunbar's rugged type. Dunbar was tall, broad, and intensely

masculine. He was dark of complexion and dark of mood, for his

limitations bore heavily upon him; he knew that he must start life and

ambition handicapped by a term in prison. But the dogged, courageous

spirit of the man triumphed over this, and he had planned for a

seafaring career, in which not too much would be asked of a man's past,

and not too much would be required in the way of refinement to insure

success.

"For I know I'm a bad investment, Doc," he said, "because I didn't go

to school when I could, and I traveled with the worst playmates I could

find. But I think I can make it up. I'll have that girl ahead of me, to

reach for and work for if I get her. She understands about my kind of

men. There are a lot of us here."

I wished him good luck, and when his time had expired--he served the

full term with no commutation--I secured him a berth with a relative of

mine who commanded a ship, and he went to sea. The ship sailed on the

day that Lance's leave expired, and, on that day, Lance, too, went to

sea on his practice cruise.

Astrologers say that, given the date, place, and exact minute of a

person's birth, a calculation can be made that will prophesy the

happenings for good or evil in that person's life, and fix the dates

or the periods of time; and, conversely, if given the dates of the

happenings and departures, the exact minute and place of birth can be

determined. If this is true, it would equally apply to the case of two

persons born side by side, giving them similar experiences varying only

by the pressure of environment and the initial distance apart when

born. And Lance and Dunbar seemed to be proving it true.

Shortly after they left, the jail warden was elected sheriff, and moved

his goods and family to the county seat, the small town where we lived.

The daughter, now about seventeen, was welcomed in the best society of

the place. I saw her often; and the more I learned of her beautiful

mind, the more I deplored Dunbar's unfortunate infatuation, and felt

that a lesser girl would have answered the purpose. But now I know that

a lesser girl could not have reached him. He needed a star of the first

magnitude.

In two years Lance was back, a passed midshipman, waiting for his

commission as ensign and an assignment to a ship. Dunbar did not

appear, and I wondered if the connection was broken; but was relieved

on this point by a letter from my relative, which apprised me that

Dunbar had quit him to ship second mate with another skipper; and on

comparing dates I found that this was simultaneous with the return

of Lance, though Dunbar was in San Francisco at the time. But there

seemed to be other influences entering into the environment of Lance.

He met Miss Ella Madison, the daughter of the Sheriff. Now, while the

best society of the small town had welcomed this splendid girl, Lance,

invested with wealth and the aroma of a commission, was not affected

by the general estimate. To him she was a find, a pretty girl to flirt

with. I saw them together very often, but never arrived at a conception

of his attitude until he expounded his philosophy of life in answer to

a query of mine--a quest born of my interest in Dunbar.

"Are you to be married?" I asked.

"Married? No. I don't believe in marriage. I consider marriage, the

linking of two human beings together, to be a crime worse than the

tying of a dog and cat together by a rope and turning them adrift to

fight it out. Marriage, Doctor? Why, marriage is an institution of

human society worse than slavery--responsible for more crime, sin,

sorrow, suffering, and murder than anything that ever afflicted the

human race."

"Well," I answered, somewhat amazed, "what will you substitute for

marriage, admitting that what you say may be true?"

"Association of two who love, until each is tired of the association,

then separation."

"And do you apply such a code to your interest in Miss Madison?"

"Of course; but she's old-fashioned in her notions. Likes to be loved,

but wants to be married. She resists my philosophy."

"She's right, you young scoundrel," I said. "Get out of my office."

My anger, of course, has no place in this story, and I soon forgot

it, trusting in the girl's nobility of soul; and a letter from Dunbar,

the first he had written, roused my hopes that there might soon be

an antidote for Lance. It was a long communication, written from

Liverpool, which apprised me that he had obtained a first mate's

license and was in a fair way soon to obtain command; but the diction

and style of that letter surprised me. With all my acquirements, coming

of a university education and a daily correspondence with educated

people, I could not have edited that letter. It was a masterpiece of

English, and I answered it, giving him the news of Miss Madison that he

asked for, and advising him to appear.

But he did not appear; and four years went on--years of fruitless suit

on the part of Lance, and fruitful pursuit on the part of Dunbar, as

evidenced by his letters. Miss Madison remained invulnerable; Lance

steadily disintegrated, becoming more masculine, more dissipated, more

fixed in his reactionary philosophy of life. He resigned from the navy

two months after his return and remained in the small town, except

for occasional visits to New York. His father died, and with all the

property in his control, he bought a schooner yacht, and invited me to

a trip--which invitation I declined. Dunbar had become a first mate,

and later a captain of a small bark which, in a letter, he said would

sail from Honolulu for New York. I hoped he would come home, for in

every letter he had written was the request for news of Ella Madison,

and his assurance of a soul-born worship of her. I knew something of

feminine psychology. I felt that here was the need of a strong man;

for in my few talks with the girl I had not impressed her with Lance's

unworthiness.

Lance continued in his reversion to type. His dissipated habits

brought him into contact with men who expounded only the physical.

He had a fight, in the small town, with a bartender, and actually

thrashed the man--a feat I would not have accredited to him. Again he

stopped a runaway horse and saved from certain death the occupants

of the carriage. He bore these honors modestly, but I could not help

speculating upon the question as to whether or not he was drawing upon

his affinity, Dunbar, a sailor who risked his life daily in the earning

of his daily bread. Dunbar's increasing refinement, as evidenced by

his letters, bore out such a speculation, and it seemed that each,

without knowing the other, was benefiting by the psychic association.

But Miss Madison the link between the two, who was lifting Dunbar up

and dragging Lance down, remained normal, uninfluenced by Lance and

unremembering of Dunbar; for, in a short talk with her, I found that

she had forgotten him.

Now Sheriff Madison died, and as the girl was without friends or

relatives, I took her into my home as a member of the family, satisfied

to have such a rare and beauteous creature under my care, and glad of

my vested power to keep Lance at a distance. But it came too late; I

noticed her abstraction, then saw tears in her eyes, and, long before

my professional knowledge told me, I guessed that Lance had won.

There was a stormy scene when I met him, upbraided him, and appealed

to his manhood, and was met by flippant philosophy, ridicule, and

defiance. In that talk I caught him by the throat and only relinquished

my grip as I realized that his death would not avail. He must marry

her, I thought, and that thought saved his miserable life. He went out,

angry at me and insistent that his position was justified by human

experience.

He went on a yachting trip soon after, and before he came back I read

in the New York papers of a rescue at sea. The yacht _Sylph_, cruising,

with owner on board, had come upon the dismantled wreck of the bark

_Holyoke_, Captain John Dunbar, and rescued all hands at the moment of

sinking. A feature of the rescue was the plunging into the sea of Mr.

George Lance, owner of the yacht, and his saving the life of Captain

Dunbar, who had remained until the last, and who, hampered by his

oilskins would have drowned in the turmoil caused by the sinking hull,

but for the heroic action of Mr. Lance.

I read this to Miss Madison. She was pleased at Lance's heroism, but

expressed no interest in Captain Dunbar, the last to leave his sinking

ship.

Shortly after, Dunbar came home and his first visit was to me. With all

my predilection to think well of him I was more than surprised, and

agreeably so. I had last seen him in a cell, a convict, a jail-bird,

with the prison pallor on his face and the prison flavor in his soul.

He stood before me now a big, broad-shouldered, handsome fellow of

twenty-eight, with dark, curly hair, a dark, sunburned face, a cheery,

optimistic smile, and a voice that rang with suppressed laughter. His

diction was faultless; he had read and studied deeply. He used words

and phrases only at the command of educated men. Had I not known his

antecedents I would have pronounced him a university graduate; yet I

knew that he was John Dunbar, a self-made man, and I approved of his

handiwork. I introduced him to Miss Madison. His attitude toward her

was that of a religious devotee in the presence of an idol. Hers was

that of a woman wearied of life and life's ideals. She did not know

him--did not realize that this big, splendid man was a product of her

own creation--a failure, inspired by her beautiful face and a few kind

words toward effort, struggle, and victory. Dunbar was a success; he

had made it so, and nothing could take it from him. But she did not

know, and I could not tell her now.

In his talk with me he outlined his plans. "I'll get another ship,

soon," he said, "for the owners don't count it against me that a leaky

old tub started a butt in a Hatteras gale and went down. Besides, she

was well insured. But, meanwhile, I've accepted command of Mr. Lance's

yacht. I'll have to study up a little on yacht etiquette, and I'm all

right. Say, isn't he a fine fellow?"

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