CHAPTER XXX.

ROSE RETIRES FROM THE STAGE.

‘I think,’ said Rose to her husband that night, ‘I shall give up the

stage. I have been without an engagement long; I have refused everything

of the kind.’

‘Yet, darling, you are not growing old.’

‘No, it is not that.’

‘But what?’

‘That I care less and less for the artificial atmosphere of the stage.

We lead such a conventional life and breathe such a conventional air;

there is so much of insincerity. “Suppose any given theatre,” writes Mr.

Thomas Archer in one of his clever essays, “suppose any given theatre

suddenly turned into a Palace of Truth, and all the members of the

company forced to state their true opinion of each other’s performances,

the Palace of Truth would be a pandemonium.” And then there are other

considerations.’

‘For instance?’

‘Well, to begin with, the atmosphere of self-consciousness in which the

actor lives and moves and has his being. Mr. Henry James tells us the

artist performs great feats in a dream; we must not wake him up lest he

should lose his balance. The actor, alas! has always to be wide awake—to

think of the applause to be won. I am sure too much of that sort of life

cannot be good for anyone.’

‘And I have long been expecting you to say as much.’

‘But you are not sorry, are you?’

‘On the contrary; it is the very thing I have been looking for all along.

It is nice to feel when the public applaud an actress that she is your

own; but how much nicer to feel as I do now,’ said Wentworth, with a

loving caress, ‘that she is all my own! You were happy on the stage; you

will be ten times happier off it.’

‘Ah, that I know well enough.’

‘I fancy you little people of the mimic world are rather inclined to

overrate your importance. By the side of it the editorial “we” is

modesty itself. You actors and actresses are not such great folk after

all. Admired one day, forgotten the next! As I think of all the men and

women I have known upon the stage, who were lions of their day, for whom

the public went into fits of madness, and then see how completely they

are forgotten, it has always seemed to me that to illustrate the vanity

of life and the nothingness of human applause I should point to the

stage.’

One morning there came the manager of the theatre.

‘No, I shall never go back to the stage,’ replied the actress.

‘Why not, my dear?’ said the manager, a gentleman of showy manners, and

suspected of being rather over-sweet.

‘Because I don’t like the life behind the scenes.’

‘I am surprised to hear that. If you knew how young ladies of really

good position bother me to give them a trial!’

‘Ah, they are ignorant.’

‘Yes,’ said the manager; ‘remember the old lines:

‘“Where ignorance is bliss,

’Tis folly to be wise.’”

‘Folly or not,’ replied Rose, ‘my eyes have been opened by experience.

Once I was ignorant as they, and thought how delightful the life behind

the scenes must be; but now I know better. I only wish I could have a

quiet chat with some of those stage-struck girls, and warn them before it

is too late. The life is only possible for the children of parents who

are on the stage. It is the atmosphere in which they have been brought

up. But as to other girls, the stage is the last thing they should think

of if I had my way.’

‘But what do you object to?’

‘Why, to everything: the language one is obliged to hear; the dresses,

which are often actually indecent; the way in which one is persecuted by

men supposed to be gentlemen—the free-and-easy way in which they attempt

familiarities is decidedly unpleasant. No, I have been behind the

scenes; I have no more illusions on that score. I have done with the

whole affair. I am off the boards, and I have no wish to reappear on

them again.’

‘No money will tempt you?’ said the manager.

‘None,’ was the reply.

‘You will be exposed to no inconvenience, you know.’

‘That is true; but I should have to give my sanction to much that I

disapprove of. You must reform what goes on behind the scenes.’

‘Oh, that is impossible.’

‘That’s what I fear.’

‘Well, as you’ve made up your mind, it is no use, I fear, discussing the

subject any longer.’

His appeal was in vain.

She did not want money, she did not care for applause; she had plenty of

excitement in real life. She wanted time to think, and read, and feel.

Behind the footlights every night, what time has actor or actress to

realize the great ends of life as something real, and not a show with its

pretended tragedy or farce?

‘In fact,’ said the lady, ‘I wish to live and not to act.’

‘And then return to the stage when you are getting old,’ said the manager

in dismay. ‘Well, the public are indulgent, I admit. A favourite is a

favourite, whether old or young. There are old men and women now on the

stage who ought to have retired years ago. They cannot act decently;

with all their making up they are scarcely presentable. Their memory and

their power are gone, or something very like it, still the public

applaud. They do not understand what failures the poor creatures have

become, and they praise them as liberally as when they were in their

prime and could act. One cannot much wonder that under the circumstances

the veteran actor lags superfluous on the stage.’

‘But are they not afraid of the newspaper critics?’

Here the manager laughed.

‘Excuse me—that is too ridiculous. Who cares for theatrical criticism?

Of course, we managers are civil to the critics, who give themselves

amusing airs, and have a high opinion of their own abilities, and we get

an advertisement gratuitously, which, of course, is an advantage. But a

theatrical critic always swims with the stream—applauds what the public

applaud, and blames what they blame. The public don’t care a rap for the

theatrical critic. I often wonder newspaper editors take the trouble to

print what they write. That no one reads it, except on a wet Sunday,

they know as well as I. But you will come back to us soon?’ said the

manager, with his most beseeching air.

‘No, I think not,’ said the lady. ‘The life is too exciting to be

healthy, either for the heart or the head. It is all very well for a

little while, but not for long. I have been happy on the stage, but I

believe I shall be equally happy off. Let the younger ones have a

chance. Every dog has his day.’

And the manager departed, thinking that the lady had made a great

mistake, that perhaps she only needed a little more pressing. At any

rate, he said, as he bowed himself out:

‘Madame, you shall hear from me again.’

‘It is no use,’ was her reply.

‘I am glad you have come to such an opinion. I also have obtained my

freedom,’ said Wentworth. ‘My work at the newspaper office is done. It

has been rather unpleasant of late. The proprietors depend on the

Liberal Government; the Liberal Government fancy that to me it is due

that a Tory was returned for Sloville. It was hinted to me that I was

too independent—too negligent as to the interests of the party; that I

was not severe enough on the sins of the opposition; that, in short, I

was not enough of a party hack. Our manager is a keen party man; indeed,

he expects one of these days to be knighted. And now I am free, and so

are you, and we can set about a work I have long had in contemplation.

You and I have often talked of Southey’s and Coleridge’s pantisocracy—I

believe the time has come for some such an enterprise. It is true they

never carried it out, it is true that when Robert Owen tried to do

something of the kind it failed; but that is no reason why we should

fail.’

‘Of course not,’ said Rose. ‘Yes, let us emigrate. Let us leave Sodom

and Gomorrah to their fate. The sooner we are off the better.’

‘Let us have old Buxton down to talk over the matter,’ said Wentworth,

making a signal by applying the poker to the ceiling.

In a moment or two he was in the room, a big burly man, with a big head

and a big beard—given to the immoderate use of tobacco; averse to wearing

new clothes, and not overfond of soap and water; rather inclined to be

lazy; ready to say with Lord Melbourne, when reforming action was

proposed: ‘Why can’t you leave it alone?’ Such men have their uses in a

land where fussy people—as much with a view to their own personal

gratification as to the welfare of the public—are always putting

themselves forward; attempting to wash the blackamoor white, to have the

Ethiopian change his skin or the leopard his spots.

‘What’s up now?’ said he as he shuffled in. ‘You look uncommonly grave.’

‘Listen to me,’ said Wentworth. ‘You have read my article in this

morning’s paper?’

‘Not a line.’

‘Read it then.’

Buxton shrugged his shoulders and sat down.

Wentworth continued:

‘Listen to my ideas, which I have published in the paper.’

‘By all means.’

‘If in the multitude of counsellors there is safety, the England of

to-day has little to fear, in spite of the undeniable facts that she is

losing her trade and commerce, that her national debt seems impossible of

payment, that her expenditure increases as her income declines, and that

the unemployed and pauper class threaten, like the lean kine Joseph saw

in his dream, to swallow up all the rest. As long as I can remember I

have heard statesmen, and clergymen of all denominations, and politicians

of all creeds, say something must be done; and they are still saying it

in the most hopeless of tones, and with air the most dejected. We have

not had our French Revolution yet. At the worst, the hungry mobs have

contented themselves with an occasional raid on an unfortunate butcher or

baker, or on some imprudent jeweller, whose attractive windows have

proved too strong a temptation for the horny-handed. In the meanwhile,

people of a hopeful turn of mind tell us—and truly—that the working

classes were never better off, better paid, or better fed. But still,

somehow or other, it is apparent that outside of the hopeless pauperism

which the idiotic legislation of our fathers has called into

existence—outside the depraved, whom drink and dishonesty have removed

from the ranks of labour, to swell the bitter cry which ever ascends from

city slums, where all foul things congregate, and where decent life is

impossible—there are hundreds, nay, thousands, who are ready to work, but

for whom, though to seek it they rise early and sit up late, no work is

to be had. Is there any hope for such? Are they to be uncared for till

they have lost all heart, and sink down to the pit of misery and despair,

never more, till death comes to them as a friend, to rise again? Is it

not time that we think of them? In Ireland, a hundred patriots would

have rent the air with the story of their wrongs. In England, we take

small note of them. Yet they are our flesh and blood, with honest hearts

and hands. A scheme has been devised for their benefit. That it is

worth a trial, few who can examine it can doubt.

‘The idea of this new remedy is that, now when agricultural land is to be

had for next to nothing, farms should be bought on which home colonies

may be planted, and labour provided sufficient for self-support.

‘The fact is,’ said Wentworth, ‘we have rather a grand scheme in view. A

gentleman is ready to purchase land in America or Canada or one of the

Colonies; to plant it with poor people who can find no work at home, nor

are likely to do so, if they stop here all their lives. And he wants me

to go out as manager; I am quite ready to do so. And Rose is anxious for

the experiment to be tried—indeed, far more so than myself.’

‘That is a matter of course—novelty has always charms for woman.’

‘And woman,’ said Rose, ‘is always ready to lend a helping hand to any

philanthropic scheme.’

‘Well, it requires a good deal of thinking about.’

‘And we have thought about it long,’ said Wentworth; ‘and the more we

think about it the better we like it. But we want you to accompany us.’

‘In what capacity?’

‘As medical man.’

‘And you think I would turn my back on London, and give up my easy life,

to undertake all this responsibility?’

‘Well, I don’t see why you should not,’ said Wentworth. ‘You are not

doing much good here, you know.’

‘And why should I, when everyone is fussing about doing good and in the

meantime doing a great deal of mischief, interfering with the working of

the unalterable laws of the universe, washing blackamoors white, trying

to make empty sacks stand upright?’

‘Yes, but we are going to do nothing of the kind. We are only finding

homes and work for men and women who can find in the old country neither

the one nor the other—to save them from sinking into hopeless pauperism,

to help them to live happy and healthful lives. What have you to say

against our scheme?’

‘Really, now I think about it, I can’t say anything against it, supposing

that you have a proper site for the experiment, that you take proper

people, and that you have sufficient capital to make a fair start.’

‘Oh, as to that, everything has been provided for. Each colonist will

have a bit of ground, which he will pay for in time by his labour. We

intend working on the old lines, not to be led away by communistic ideas.

Each man will do the best he can for himself, and in so doing will be

best for all. What do you think, Buxton, of the scheme?’

‘Why, like all her ladyship’s ideas, it is excellent.’

‘Pretty flatterer!’ said Rose.

‘He wants to cut me out,’ said Wentworth. ‘He was always envious of my

superior abilities.’

‘As he had every reason to be,’ said Rose.

‘Come, that’s too bad,’ said Buxton, turning to Rose, ‘after the way in

which I buttered you up just now. Two to one ain’t fair. But to return

to business.’

‘Hear, hear,’ said Wentworth.

‘If I had a family—which, thank Heaven, I have not—I would not stop in

England a day. If I had a lad to plant out in the world as you have, I’d

send him off to America or the Colonies to-morrow.’

‘Because?’

‘Because it’s all up in old England in the first place; and in the second

place, because if it were not so, the New World offers better

opportunities for a young fellow than the old. May I dwell upon these

topics?’

‘Certainly, by all means.’

‘Well, I have met a good many Americans lately, and they have put new

ideas into my head—’

‘Not before they were wanted!’ said Wentworth.

‘Speak for yourself, sir, if you please,’ said Buxton, with an assumed

offended air.

‘Oh, I beg pardon! Pray proceed.’

‘I was going to say,’ said Buxton, ‘until interrupted in this unmannerly

manner, you are enthusiasts, I am not. I doubt the dream of a new heaven

and a new earth. It has done good in its time, I admit. It was the

thought of the Messiah that was to come that nerved the heart of the Jew

as he sat by the waters of Babylon and wept as he remembered Zion. Paul

and the Apostles expected the new heaven and the new earth before they

laid down their lives as martyrs for their inspiring faith. Upheld by

the same living hope, tender and delicate maidens have gone to the grave

exulting, and have glorified God at the stake or in the dungeon or on the

scaffold. “The end of all things is at hand,” is ever the cry of the

churches. It was that of Luther in his day, and is that of the

Evangelicals in ours, who, if an earthquake destroys a town, or a deluge

sweeps over the land, or the cholera breaks out in the East, or there are

wars and rumours of wars, tell us these are the dread signs to mark the

coming of the Son of Man with His saints to judge the earth. I feel

rather inclined to believe with old Swedenborg that that day is past.

The talk of a Millennium makes me sick. It is a delusion and a sham.

Such men as Dr. Cumming, with their long array of dates and their wild

dreams of the fulfilment of prophecy, make men like myself sceptics. It

is clear to us that the odds, at any rate, are against the Christian.’

‘I don’t know,’ said Rose. ‘But this is a business scheme. We are not

in search of the Millennium.’

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