KATHARINE'S CALL.
The next afternoon Katharine and Florence sat on the side piazza
of the Hapgood house, Florence in the hammock, Katharine curled up
among the cushions of a bamboo lounge, idly stroking the back of
Scott, Molly's plump tiger kitten.
"Well, Scotty," she was saying caressingly, as she held up the
little creature and gazed straight into its yellow eyes, "are you
feeling happy in your mind to-day? Well, so am I."
"What a queer name I" said Florence. "Where did Molly ever get
it?"
Katharine laughed.
"I should think you might know," she answered. "Alan was
responsible for it, of course. Don't you know how he is always
saying '_Great Scott'_?"
"That is it, is it?" said Florence. Then she returned to the
subject of which they had just been speaking. "When do you think
you will go, Katharine?"
"In about two weeks, I think," Katharine replied, as she rolled
the cat over on its back and tickled it under its furry chin.
"Papa wrote, some time ago, that he wanted us to be at home before
July, for then he is going to start on a trip to Alaska, and we
are both to go with. him. He hasn't mentioned it for a month, now,
but I suppose of course he means to go. I hope so, I am sure, for
I love to travel, and Jessie has never taken a real long journey,
except to come here."
"To Alaska? How I envy you!" said Florence longingly.
"I wish you could go with us," answered Katharine. "It will be a
lovely journey, I know, for it is so different from anything else
we have seen. I'll tell you, Florence, you must come out to see
us, some day, and then we'll go again. If it were not for this
Alaska plan, I should hate to go home, for I have had such a
pleasant year, here in New England. Sometimes I feel as if I had
never known what it was to really live, till I came here; and
Jessie dreads going worse than I do."
"You'll probably forget us, before you've been away a month," said
Florenge lightly.
Katharine moved among her cushions until she was facing her
friend.
"Do you think I am so fickle as that, Florence?" she asked, and
her tone was a little hurt. "If that is all my friendship amounts
to, it isn't worth the having."
"I didn't mean that," said Florence; "but it wouldn't be strange
if you did forget us, Kit, when you are back again among your
other friends."
"What an absurd idea, Florence! Do you think I shall ever forget
Bridget and Job and the cooking club, and all the rest of our good
times? I shan't be nearly as likely to, just because we don't have
anything like it in Omaha. And if I do come out next winter, I
know that, right in the middle of all the parties and things, I
shall have little homesick twinges for our frolics in the attic,
and the cosy talks around Mrs. Adams's open fire."
"It must be so exciting to come out," sighed Florence. "We can't
do it in this little place, for we're never in, very much. I
should be sorry to leave the girls, Kit, but I almost wish I lived
in a city, the way you do."
"You wouldn't, if you had tried it," said Katharine decidedly. "I
used to long for the time when I could be in society, as mamma is.
Why, only last year I felt as if I couldn't wait; but since I have
been here, I don't care half so much about it. It will probably be
fun for just a little while, and then I shall get tired of it and
wish I could stop, and be cross and pale and headache-y, the way
mamma used to be. But, at least, I've had this one year, and I can
think about it over and over again, and remember just what we have
all done and said. Perhaps sometime we can all be together at our
house."
"I do wish you didn't have to go away," said Florence a little
forlornly. "We feel as if you belonged to us, Katharine, and we
four girls don't seem half so many as we did before you and Jessie
came."
"What an idea! And, besides, you have Alan, and he is equal to all
the rest of us put together. Dear fellow, how I shall miss him! I
wish I had a brother. But, Florence, it isn't as if we weren't
likely to drop in on you again, before long. It takes such a
little while to go back and forth, now; and I mean to go to Europe
in a year or two, and then I shall stop here on the way. It isn't
as bad as it would be if papa couldn't afford to let us travel."
But Florence shook her head.
"No," said she, "I know how it will be. You think now that you'll
come, but you'll go out there and get so interested in society
that you will forget all about New England, and all about us. Or,
if you do remember us, it will be when you are dancing all night,
and you'll stop a minute to pity us because we go to bed and to
sleep like civilized beings." And Florence laughed, in spite of
herself, at the idea.
"Now, Florence, that isn't fair to me. I really don't mean to be
just a silly girl who thinks of nothing but her clothes. I shall
have to go into society, but I believe I can be good for a little
something besides that. If I find I can't do both, why, then I'll
give up the society part of it; but I won't be a do-nothing all my
days. I know there are always more chances for a woman to do good
than there are women to do it, and I mean to keep my eyes open to
look for my own especial chance. I don't believe that all the
helpful ideas auntie and Mrs. Adams have given me this year were
intended to be thrown away, and I think the time will come when I
can use them. If not, why were they given me? Wait a few years,
Florence, and see if I am just a butterfly. It is only fair to
give me the chance to win my spurs." Katharine spoke earnestly,
for her whole soul was in her words. The past year had been a
revelation to her, and her rapid development towards womanhood had
been in the line of all that was truest and noblest in her
character. She had come to New England an unformed girl whose
nature was one of endless possibilities, only waiting for the word
which should make them actual and turn her in one way or the
other. The word was spoken and, thanks to her aunt's influence and
to her association with the simple, natural girls about her, the
impulse given was in the right direction. It was as if Katharine
had suddenly been born into a new life. No drifting, idle maturity
could satisfy her now; her womanhood must be one of purpose and of
action. The time for it had come much nearer than she thought.
But now her little outburst was followed by a hearty,--
"Good for you, Kit!"
Both the girls started and looked up, to see Alan's head stretched
out from his window, with a look of perfect approval on his boyish
face.
"I didn't mean to listen," he said penitently. "I was up here
reading and, honestly, I didn't hear a thing but Kit's last
speech. That was such a good one that I did just want to pat her
on the back. I'm going to stop up my ears now."
"Come down, and stay with us, Alan," his cousin, said.
"No, thanks; not even you can bribe me to leave this book. I want
to know what they found in the bottom of the cave." And Alan
returned to his reading.
However, the unexpected interruption had put an end to all serious
talk, and the girls were chatting idly, now of this matter, now of
that, when a boy stepped up on the piazza. He had a telegram in
his hand.
"Miss Katharine W. Shepard?" he asked, referring to his address
book.
Katharine rose, dropping the kitten on the floor.
"I am Miss Shepard," she said, taking the envelope from his hand
and signing the receipt.
"I hope nothing is wrong," said Florence, eyeing the yellow paper
with a true feminine dislike of a telegram.
"Wrong? Oh, no; it is probably from papa. He often telegraphs us,"
said Katharine carelessly, as she tore open the end of the
envelope.
She glanced at the paper in her hand, then looked a little
surprised.
"It's from mamma," she said. "Papa has probably changed his plans.
Listen: 'Start for home first of next week. Have written.'"
"The first of next week! That is so soon, Katharine; we can't let
you go." And Florence sat up in the hammock and stared at her
friend in bewilderment.
"It is very sudden," said Katharine slowly. "It doesn't seem as if
I could go. But isn't it strange? Papa must have decided, all at
once, to go to Alaska sooner than he planned, for this is such a
little bit of a warning. Let me see, this is Thursday, and we
can't get a letter before Monday. We must start on Tuesday. How I
do hate to go!" And Katharine choked down a sudden lump that had
risen in her throat. "Come in," she added. "I must tell auntie."
"No, I must go home," said Florence. "Oh, dear! Only four days
more, Katharine!"
"Don't cry, dear," said Katharine protectingly. "Remember it isn't
for always, for I shall come East often."
She stood and watched her guest until she was out of sight, then
ran into the house in search of her aunt, to whom she showed the
telegram. In spite of herself, Mrs. Hapgood was very uneasy over
the sudden summons to the girls. It certainly did seem strange
that the message should come from their mother; but for
Katharine's sake, her aunt hid her fears as best she could, and
only tried to make the girls' last days as pleasant as possible,
while she waited with a burning impatience for the letter which
should explain everything. However, the girls, accustomed as they
were to their father's rapid changes in his plans, were not at all
disturbed, but quietly made their arrangements for the journey,
sure that Mr. Shepard would either come for them, or else meet
them on the way.
Friday and Saturday passed only too quickly for the young people,
who were dreading the approaching separation, and Sunday afternoon
found them all assembled at Mrs. Hapgood's for a farewell dinner
together. But it was rather a silent, subdued party that gathered
about the table; the conversation was fitful and broken by long
pauses, and the jokes were rather forced and feeble; while Molly's
red eyes and Florence's white cheeks showed that something was
wrong. If it was bad at the table, it was worse when they all sat
in the front porch after dinner, with nothing to do but watch the
darkness settle slowly down over the valley, and listen, to the
last sleepy twitterings of the birds. They talked little as they
sat there. Now and then Alan would attempt a jest, or Katharine
would try to start some fresh subject; but soon the voices would
die away, and another silence follow the momentary interruption.
So they lingered until long past the time for separation. At
length Polly started up.
"Come, girls," said she; "I can't stand this any longer. We may as
well say good night now, for it won't be any easier by and by."
"Oh, why did you girls ever come here and make us so fond of you,
and then have to go and leave us!" wailed Jean. "I wish you hadn't
come in the first place."
"I don't," said Polly steadily; "I'm glad I've had just this one
year of knowing you. It's ever so much better than nothing, and
I'm thankful even for this. Besides," she added, valiantly
brushing away the tears, "I don't mean to cry yet, for we have all
day to-morrow, and Tuesday morning; and then, you'll come back
again some day. When you are gone is time enough to do the
crying." And smiling resolutely, she bade them good night, then
went away up the street, with the tears running down her cheeks.
"Come, Alan," said Katharine, early the next morning; "come down
to the post-office with me. My letter from home must be here by
this time, and I'm in a hurry to get it, to see if papa is going
to come for us. It takes Jessie so long to get ready, that we
won't wait for her."
They walked away together, laughing and talking as they went,
determined to forget the morrow, and only enjoy the bright,
beautiful morning and their pleasure in each other's society. At
the post-office, Alan ran inside, leaving his cousin to wait for
him at the door.
"Here it is, sure enough, Kit," he said, as he joined her again.
"What a little thin one, and from mamma, too!" said Katharine, as
she deliberately tore it open. "Papa must be away on one of his
business trips, I suppose."
Alan made no reply, but left her to read her letter while he
walked along at her side, whistling softly to himself. All at once
he heard a low exclamation, like a half-smothered cry of pain.
Turning quickly, he saw his cousin's face was ashy white, and her
breath was coming in short, quick gasps.
"Katharine! What is it?" he cried, in terror at the change in her
face.
For answer, she held out the letter to him. "Oh, Alan, what does
it mean?"
He thought she was going to fall, and threw his arm around her to
support her, but she rallied quickly.
"Read it, Alan," she begged. "I can't seem to understand it."
Alan read it. But before he was half through it, his face was as
white as hers had been. "Oh, Kit!" he began; then he paused, not
daring to offer one word of pity.
The short letter was the bitter outcry of a selfish woman who
forgot her children's suffering in her own, for it bore its sad
message abruptly and with no word to soften the blow. Mr. Shepard
had proved to be a defaulter and, after he had for years been
using money from the bank of which he was president, he had saved
himself, on the eve of exposure, by hastily quitting the country,
leaving his wife and children to bear the burden of his guilt as
best they could.
"Papa has taken money that didn't belong to him; is that it,
Alan?" said Katharine slowly, as if dazed by the sudden shock. "I
can't believe it. How can mamma say such a cruel thing?" she added
indignantly.
Alan made no reply, beyond drawing the girl's limp hand through
his arm. Katharine felt the unspoken sympathy of his gesture and
pressed closer to him.
"Do say you don't believe it, Alan," she urged. "You must know
that papa couldn't do such a thing."
"Oh, Kit, I wish I knew what to say!" the boy burst out. "I am so
awfully sorry for you, dear." But Katharine stopped him with a
motion of her hand.
"Don't pity me, Alan, or I shall begin to cry; and I mustn't do
that here. We must hurry home to tell auntie." And she quickened
her pace, almost to a run.
Alan kept by her side, watching the white, set face, and
marvelling that she did not give way to her sorrow. His own eyes
were full of tears, and his throat was aching with a dull, dry
pain; but his cousin, after her first exclamations, was perfectly
quiet. So they went up the long, sunny street, deaf to the gay
bird-songs, blind to the sunlight that slanted down through the
arching elms and set the dewdrops to twinkling, only anxious to
reach the safe refuge of the old house, and the motherly woman
within it.
They found her on the piazza watching for them, eager for the news
the letter must bring.
Even then, Katharine's self-control did not leave her. Pausing
before her aunt, she said quietly, as she held out the letter,--
"Do you remember our talk last fall, auntie? My call has come, and
I must answer: 'ready.'"
"Katharine!"
Mrs. Hapgood snatched the note, read it, and turned impulsively to
the young girl before her.
"You poor child!" she began; but Katharine interrupted her, as she
had done Alan.
"Don't worry about me, auntie. But can you tell Jessie now,
please? I am afraid I can't." And she turned away and went into
the house.
When Mrs. Hapgood came down-stairs, an hour later, it seemed as if
a shadow had always rested on the house, the sorrow it contained
had so soon become a part of their lives. Up-stairs, Jessie had
cried until she was tired, stopped to listen vaguely to her aunt's
comforting words, then cried again, but all without any real
understanding of the trouble which had come upon her. Down-stairs,
Alan and Molly were walking the room, arm in arm, with a settled
look of sadness which was strangely out of place on their young
faces. Alan had told his sister the news as gently as he could,
and she could only cling to him and cry, as she took in all the
meaning of the shame and disgrace, all the consequences of the
father's sin upon the coming life of his children.
"But where is Katharine?" asked Mrs. Hapgood anxiously.
"Isn't she up-stairs?" said Molly.
"I haven't seen her," answered her mother.
"Why, we supposed she was with you!" And Alan hurried away to look
for his cousin.
At last he found her. Up in the familiar old garret that she had
loved so well, close by the great gray chimney which seemed to be
shielding her with its giant strength, there lay Katharine on the
shabby old sofa, sobbing as if her heart must break. To the young
lad, these unrestrained tears were much more alarming than her
former quiet, and he dared not speak, as he sat down on the floor
by her side, and put his brown hand against her cheek.
"Oh, Alan!"
"Yes, Kit; I know."
"Let me have my cry out now," she said brokenly. "It must come
sometime; then I can be brave for mamma and Jessie."
Alan stole away to tell his mother where Katharine was, and then
went back to her side. All the morning he remained there,
saying little, but keeping near her with a simple, boyish
devotion of which, in after years, she never lost the memory.
[Illustration: "THERE LAY KATHARINE ON THE SHABBY OLD SOFA,
SOBBING AS IF HER HEART MUST BREAK."--Page 350.]
When Katharine went down-stairs again, she appeared to have grown
years older during that one morning. It was not that she was less
beautiful than she had been; but she seemed to have gained a new,
gentle dignity which suddenly changed her from a child into a
woman. As she entered the room, with her hand on Alan's shoulder,
she met them with a perfect composure which gave no hint of her
trouble; but they all felt instinctively that it was as she had
said to her aunt, her call had come, and she had answered "ready."
The day wore slowly away. They were to start on their journey,
late the next afternoon, accompanied by Mrs. Hapgood, who had made
up her mind to go to her sister for a few weeks, to help her
through the sad changes which must inevitably follow. Late in the
day, Mrs. Adams and Polly came in, for Molly had told them of the
letter. Mrs. Adams took both the girls into her motherly arms, and
her few whispered words were very tender, while Polly threw her
arms around Katharine, as she said,--
"Alan has told me what you said, Kit, about your call's coming,
and I think it was grand; but it isn't one bit more so than we
expected, only it makes us proud to be your friends."
At length it was bedtime, and for the last time the girls went up
to their pleasant room in the old Hapgood house. The whole place
was in confusion, and trunks stood in the middle of the floor,
with piles of clothing, books, and pictures heaped about them,
just as they had been left in the morning. At sight of them,
Jessie threw herself down on the bed.
"Oh, Kit!" she cried; "what are we going to do?" "Please don't cry
so, Jessie," said Katharine wearily. "We must try not to be
babyish about it."
"Babyish!" And Jessie turned on her petulantly. "I do believe you
don't care, Katharine. Oh, poor papa!" Then, as she saw the pain
in her sister's face, she added, "Forgive me, Kit! I know you do
care; but how can you keep so quiet? It's all so dreadful, and we
shall be poor and alone, and nobody will care for us."
"Hush, Jessie!"
Her sister spoke almost sharply, for she felt her own courage fast
giving way. Then, sitting down on the side of the bed, with her
beautiful brown hair waving loose about her shoulders, she took
her sister's hand in hers.
"Jessie dear," she said gently; "listen to me, please. You and I
mustn't give up so and cry about this; we must be brave and
cheerful for mamma's sake. Poor mamma is out there all alone, and
we must go to her and help her to bear it all. We are stronger
than she is, and we have each other, so we must help each other
and help her. We've had a great many good times already, and
nothing can take those away; but now comes the chance to show what
we are, and whether we have any courage. There will be a great
deal to do when we get home, so we have no right to give up and
make ourselves ill with crying. Now we must go to bed and try to
sleep, so we can be ready for to-morrow; and--Oh, Jessie, if we
only knew where papa was to-night! He was always so good and kind
that I know he has never done anything wicked."
Katharine's head went down on the pillow beside Jessie's, and the
two daughters sobbed together over their father's guilt.
They were all at the station to see them off the next night. The
sun was just setting as the train moved away, and the little group
of three on the rear platform looked back to see its golden light
fall upon the friends they were leaving: the girls, Alan, Dr. and
Mrs. Adams, and even patient old Job, who stood quietly in the
background, watching the scene about him with a half wondering air
of sympathy.
Jessie turned to enter the car.
"Wait just a minute more," said Katharine wistfully.
A sudden opening between the buildings gave her one more glimpse
of the figures still standing there as they had left them, and
Katharine strained her eyes to catch the parting wave of Alan's
cap, while her lips quivered. Then she exclaimed excitedly,--
"See, Jessie! See!"
They were just passing within sight of the hospital and, from a
well-known window, a hand was waving a farewell to them. It was
Bridget, who had begged to be moved to the window, that she might
be the one to say the final good by, before the train went rushing
away into the gathering twilight.
"I feel as if I had just been to a funeral," sighed Molly, as she
walked home with Polly; for she and Alan were to stay with Mrs.
Adams during their mother's absence.
"It was just like one," said Jean sorrowfully. But Polly objected.
"No, girls," she said; "no funeral was ever like this, for a
funeral is all sad, and this isn't. I'm sorry for them, more so
than I can tell; but, after all, it has given Katharine a chance
to show how glorious she is. It just makes me glad to know such a
magnificent girl."
And Alan added,--
"Yes, you may talk all day about your heroines; but I've just seen
one of them, and it's a sight I shan't forget soon, either."