At last I was no longer a dependent! From this time on I would not
only earn my own living, but I would do for others. I was no longer a
pensioner.
“He who receives a pension gives for it his manhood,” said Plato. A
pension makes a man a mendicant. When the world is peopled by God’s
people, every man will work according to his ability, and will be paid
for his services, so there will neither be pensioners nor bumptious
bestowers.
My work at Hustler & Co.’s was not difficult, when I got over the scare
and the belief that it was awfully complex. In short, the lion was
chained, as it always is when we get up close and inspect the animal;
or perhaps, it is only a stuffed lion that has been terrifying us.
Possibly some evilly disposed person, seeing our fear, has taken pains
to wipe the dust off the fiery glass eyes, to rough up the tawny mane,
and set the tail at that terrific angle--but who is afraid of a lion
on wheels? When I became composed and took a common sense view of the
work, the difficulties took wing, and at the end of the first week, Mr.
Hustler gave me the assurance “that I was no slouch,” which is the
highest compliment that Rustler Hustler, of the firm of Hustler & Co.,
glue makers, was ever known to pay to any living soul.
One of the girls in the office told me that the former stenographer
lost her place by taking dictation for Mr. Bilkson, the junior partner,
at close range; which being interpreted, meant that when Mr. Bilkson
dictated his letters to the young lady, he had her sit on his knee.
Mrs. Bilkson is a large, determined woman with a jealous nature and red
parasol. As she appeared in the private office one day without first
sending in her card, the close range plan was discovered. Soon after
that little Miss Bustle was found to be incompetent, and the cashier
gave her her time. Bilkson still remains.
When the junior dictates letters to me, it is through the little
sliding window that connects my room with the general office. This was
at my suggestion after a few days’ acquaintanceship with the gentleman.
I fear I also incurred his enmity when I told him I was hired to do the
work, not to entertain the firm.
Saturdays we have half a day off--that is, we work until 1:30 and are
docked half a day.
Every one who knows me, knows I am a great bicycler--in fact, working
closely, if it were not for the outdoor exercise I get, I could never
stand the strain, but would be a candidate for nervous prostration
(technical name Americanitis). Some years ago I had an awful bad
spell. Dr. Bolus was sent for and prescribed quinine and iron with a
trip to Bermuda and rest for a year. My old friend, Martha Heath, came
in soon after, and I asked her to go to Stoddard’s drugstore for the
quinine.
“I won’t,” said Martha Heath. “Bounce Bolus and buy a bicycle!”
I followed her advice, and have blessed Martha Heath ever since.
It was my custom on Saturdays after I had eaten my lunch at the
factory, to take my wheel and go on a long ride, sometimes in the
summer as far as Niagara Falls, getting back late in the evening. These
long quiet rides I anticipated with much pleasure, for to get away
from the strife of men out into the quiet country, seemed to give me
new life. The winter gave me little opportunity for these trips, so I
looked forward longingly to the coming of spring.
The month of April, 1891, it will be remembered was remarkable, in
that there was not a single fall of rain from the 10th to the 30th.
The roads were dry and dusty as in summer. Saturday afternoon, April
30th, when I rode out Clinton street in the delightful sunshine which
seemed to bear healing on its wings, women were working in the gardens,
cleaning up the rubbish; children playing on the road; a faint smell
of bonfire from burning rubbish, people starting in in the spring to
keep the yards clean; men plowing in the fields; and how the frogs
did croak! Joy and gladness on every hand. Out through Gardenville,
past Ebenezer, five o’clock found me at Hurdville. I was so very
busy drinking in the glorious scene that I had ridden slower than I
intended, for I had made calculations to be at Aurora before this time,
and well on the way homeward.
“Well,” said I, “Aspasia Hobbs, you had better hurry up or night will
catch you. Besides, the wind has come up strong from the southwest, and
away off over the Colden hills is a little black cloud--what a joke if
you should get wet?”
There is a lane running across from Hurdville to the Buffalo plank
road, so I decided to cut my trip short and strike across at once. I
looked at my watch and it was just 5:15 when I entered the lane, which
was grass-grown and not at all adapted for bicycling. As I pushed on,
the road grew worse, so I got off and pushed the wheel ahead of me.
Rather hard work it proved, as I wore a long woolen dress, which I had
to hold up in walking.
Then I tried riding again. A great yellow ominous brightness was in
the west, and soon I noticed it was growing dark, and that the little
cloud had grown until it seemed to cover the whole western sky. A few
big rain drops fell as I looked again at my watch, which said six
o’clock. I kept thinking I must come to the plank road every minute,
and strained my eyes for the telegraph poles which I knew marked the
highway. But no, I could not see them. “Surely this lane must cross
the main road or I am turned around and am following a road running
parallel with the other,” I concluded.
Still I trudged on, now riding, then walking. It began to rain now in
right good earnest. I felt the mud sticking to my shoes and my clothes
growing heavy. My arms grew tired pushing the wheel before me as I
walked. The spokes had become a solid mass of mud. I tried to mount the
wheel. It swerved and I lay in the ditch. I then realized that to try
to push the bicycle further or to ride would be folly; so I pulled the
machine into the bushes, and looked around me on every side. Not even
a lightning glare to relieve the gloom and brighten the landscape. The
rain still fell in torrents. I covered my face with my hands. I thought
of my mother waiting in the bright light of our little dining-room, the
supper on the table. I tried to imagine this howling wind and blackness
of the night was a dream; but no, I was alone--_alone_, _lost_.