From Esmeralda's private meditations of this summer I extract:--

"_July 15, 1865._--Ask for the gift to sorrow only for our Blessed

Lord's sake, that truly we may share the divine sorrow of His

Blessed Mother, and mingle our tears with hers on Calvary at the

foot of the cross."

"_August 20, 1865._--Ask for the grace of filial love. Strive to

overcome all evil inclinations that are an impediment to filial

love, amongst which one of the chief is self-conceit. Make acts of

reparation for all the selfconceit of past life. When thoughts of

self-conceit enter, let us shut the gates of our hearts against

them, and make an act of profound humility and sorrow, seeing our

own nothingness and baseness. We must seek for filial love by

laying aside all confidence in self, and placing all our confidence

in God alone; for all that proceeds from ourselves is corrupt, and

our best actions have no merit unless performed solely for God's

greater glory, without regard to ourselves."

"_August 27, 1865._--Lay at the foot of the cross all secret doubts

of God's guidance. It is this secret instinct which is one of the

great hindrances to the reign of Jesus in our souls. Let us make an

act of the will--'Lord, I believe that Thou lovest to make the

souls of men Thy tabernacle; help Thou mine unbelief. I believe

that Thou lovest me, in spite of my unworthiness and infidelity. I

am blind and poor and naked; I have nothing of myself to offer Thee

but what is corrupt and evil, but Thou hast given me by inheritance

all the poverty and humility of Thy Blessed Mother, all her

sorrows,--and these I offer Thee--Thy gift I give back to Thee. O

my Lord, let me learn to know Thee more and more.'"

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