The school broke up next week for the summer holidays, and Catharine went
home. Her mother was delighted with her daughter. She was less awkward,
straighter, and her air and deportment showed the success of the plan.
The father acquiesced, although he did not notice the change till Mrs.
Furze had pointed it out. As to Mrs. Bellamy, she declared, when she met
Catharine in the street the first market afternoon, that "she had all at
once become a woman grown." Mrs. Furze's separation from her former
friends was now complete, but she had, unfortunately, not yet achieved
admission into the superior circle. She had done so in a measure, but
she was not satisfied. She felt that these people were not intimate with
her, and that, although she had screwed herself with infinite pains into
a bowing acquaintance, and even into a shaking of hands, they formed a
set by themselves, with their own secrets and their own mysteries, into
which she could not penetrate. Their very politeness was more annoying
than rudeness would have been. It showed they could afford to be polite.
Had she been wealthy, she could have crushed all opposition by sheer
weight of bullion; but in Eastthorpe everybody's position was known with
tolerable exactitude, and nobody was deluded into exaggerating Mr.
Furze's resources because of the removal to the Terrace. Eastthorpe, on
the contrary, affirmed that the business had not improved, and that
expenses had increased.
When Catharine came home a light suddenly flashed across Mrs. Furze's
mind. What might not be done with such a girl as that! She was good-
looking--nay, handsome; she had the manners which Mrs. Furze knew that
she herself lacked, and Charlie Colston, aged twenty-eight, was still
disengaged. It was Mrs. Furze's way when she proposed anything to
herself, to take no account of any obstacles, and she had the most
wonderful knack of belittling and even transmuting all moral objections.
Mr. Charlie Colston was a well-known figure in Eastthorpe. He was an
only son, about five feet eleven inches high, thin, unsteady on his legs,
smooth-faced, unwholesome, and silly. He had been taken into his
father's business because there was nothing else for him, and he was a
mere shadow in it, despised by every cask-washer. There was nothing
wicked recorded against him; he did not drink, he did not gamble, he
cared nothing for horses or dogs; but Eastthorpe thought none the better
of him for these negative virtues. He was not known to be immoral, but
he was for ever playing with this girl or the other, smiling, mincing,
toying, and it all came to nothing. A very unpleasant creature was Mr.
Charlie Colston, a byword with women in Eastthorpe, even amongst the
nursery-maids. Mrs. Furze knew all about his youth; but she brought out
her philosopher's stone and used it with effect. She did not intend to
mate Catharine with a fool, and make her miserable. If she could not
have persuaded herself that the young man was everything that could be
desired she would have thought no more about him. The whole alchemical
operation, however, of changing him into purest gold occupied only a few
minutes, and the one thought now was how to drop the bait. It did cross
her mind that Catharine herself might object; but she was convinced that
if her daughter could have a distinct offer made to her, all opposition
might somehow be quenched.
Fate came to her assistance, as it does always to those who watch
persistently and with patience. One Sunday evening at church it suddenly
began to rain. The Furze family had not provided themselves with
umbrellas, but Mrs. Furze knew that Mr. Charlie Colston never went out
without one. Her strategy, when the service was over, was worthy of
Napoleon, and, with all the genius of a great commander, she brought her
forces into exact position at the proper moment. She herself and Mr.
Furze detained the elder Mr. Colston and his wife, and kept them in check
a little way behind, so that Catharine and their son were side by side
when the entrance was reached. Of course he could do nothing but offer
Catharine his umbrella, and his company on the way homewards, but to his
utter amazement, and the confusion of Mrs. Furze, who watched intently
the result of her manoeuvres, Catharine somewhat curtly declined, and
turned back to wait for her parents. Mr. Charlie rejoined his father and
mother, who naturally forsook the Furzes at the earliest possible moment
in such a public place as a church porch. In a few minutes the shower
abated. Mrs. Furze could not say anything to her daughter; she could not
decently appear to force Charlie on her by rebuking her for not
responding to his generosity, but she was disappointed and embittered.
On the following morning Catharine announced her intention of going to
Chapel Farm for a few days. Her mother remonstrated, but she knew she
would have to yield, and Catharine went. Mrs. Bellamy poured forth the
pent-up tale of three months--gossip we may call it if we wish to be
contemptuous; but what is gossip? A couple of neighbours stand at the
garden gate on a summer's evening and tell the news of the parish. They
discuss the inconsistency of the parson, the stony-heartedness of the
farmer, the behaviour of this young woman and that young man; and what
better could they do? They certainly deal with what they
understand--something genuinely within their own circle and experience;
and there is nothing to them in politics, British or Babylonian, of more
importance. There is no better conversation than talk about Smith,
Brown, and Harris, male and female, about Spot the terrier or Juno the
mare. Catharine had many questions to answer about the school, but Mr.
Cardew's name was not once mentioned.
One afternoon, late in August, Catharine had gone with the dog down to
the riverside, her favourite haunt. Clouds, massive, white, sharply
outlined, betokening thunder, lay on the horizon in a long line; the fish
were active; great chub rose, and every now and then a scurrying dimple
on the pool showed that the jack and the perch were busy. It was a day
full of heat, a day of exultation, for it proclaimed that the sun was
alive; it was a day on which to forget winter with its doubts, its
despairs, and its indistinguishable grey; it was a day on which to
believe in immortality. Catharine was at that happy age when summer has
power to warm the brain; it passed into her blood and created in her
simple, uncontaminated bliss. She sat down close to an alder which
overhung the bank. It was curious, but so it was, that her thoughts
suddenly turned from the water and the thunderclouds and the blazing heat
to Mr. Cardew, and it is still more strange that at that moment she saw
him coming along the towing-path. In a minute he was at her side, but
before he reached her she had risen.
"Good morning, Miss Furze."
"Mr. Cardew! What brings you here?"
"I have been here several times; I often go out for the day; it is a
favourite walk."
He was silent, and did not move. He seemed prepossessed and anxious,
taking no note of the beauty of the scene around him.
"How is Mrs. Cardew?"
"She is well, I believe."
"You have not left home this morning, then?"
"No; I was not at home last night."
"I think I must be going."
"I will walk a little way with you."
"My way is over the bridge to the farmhouse, where I am staying."
"I will go as far as you go."
Catharine turned towards the bridge.
"Is it the house beyond the meadows?"
"Yes."
It is curious how indifferent conversation often is just at the moment
when the two who are talking may be trembling with passion.
"You should have brought Mrs. Cardew with you," said Catharine, tearing
to pieces a water lily, and letting the beautiful white petals fall bit
by bit into the river.
Mr. Cardew looked at her steadfastly, scrutinisingly, but her eyes were
on the thunderclouds, and the lily fell faster and faster. The face of
this girl had hovered before him for weeks, day and night. He never for
a moment proposed to himself deliberate love for her--he could not do it,
and yet he had come there, not, perhaps, consciously in order to find
her, but dreaming of her all the time. He was literally possessed. The
more he thought about her, the less did he see and hear of the world
outside him, and no motive for action found access to him which was not
derived from her. Of course it was all utterly mad and unreasonable,
for, after all, what did he really know about her, and what was there in
her to lay hold of him with such strength? But, alas! thus it was, thus
he was made; so much the worse for him. Was this a Christian believer?
was he really sincere in his belief? He was sincere with a sincerity, to
speak arithmetically, of the tenth power beyond that of his exemplary
churchwarden Johnson, whose religion would have restrained him from
anything warmer than the extension of a Sunday black-gloved finger-tip to
any woman save "Mrs. J." Here he was by the riverside with her; he was
close to her; nobody was present, but he could not stir nor speak!
Catharine felt his gaze, although her eyes were not towards him. At last
the lily came to an end and she tossed the naked stalk after the flower.
She loved this man; it was a perilous moment: one touch, a hair's breadth
of oscillation, and the two would have been one. At such a crisis the
least external disturbance is often decisive. The first note of the
thunder was heard, and suddenly the image of Mrs. Cardew presented itself
before Catharine's eyes, appealing to her piteously, tragically. She
faced Mr. Cardew.
"I am sorry Mrs. Cardew is not here. I wish I had seen more of her. Oh,
Mr. Cardew! how I envy her! how I wish I had her brains for scientific
subjects! She is wonderful. But I _must_ be going; the thunder is
distant; you will be in Eastthorpe, I hope, before the storm comes. Good-
bye," and she had gone.
She did not go straight to the house, however, but went into the garden
and again cursed herself that she had dismissed him. Who had dismissed
him? Not she. How had it been done? She could not tell. She crept out
of the garden and went to the corner of the meadow where she could see
the bridge. He was still there. She tried to make up an excuse for
returning; she tried to go back without one, but it was impossible.
Something, whatever it was, stopped her; she struggled and wrestled, but
it was of no avail, and she saw Mr. Cardew slowly retrace his steps to
the town. Then she leaned upon the wall and found some relief in a great
fit of sobbing. Consolation she had none; not even the poor reward of
conscience and duty. She had lost him, and she felt that, if she had
been left to herself, she would have kept him. She went out again late
in the evening. The clouds had passed away to the south and east, but
the lightning still fired the distant horizon far beyond Eastthorpe and
towards Abchurch. The sky was clearing in the west, and suddenly in a
rift Arcturus, about to set, broke through and looked at her, and in a
moment was again eclipsed. What strange confusion! What inexplicable
contrasts! Terror and divinest beauty; the calm of the infinite
interstellar space and her own anguish; each an undoubted fact, but each
to be taken by itself as it stood: the star was there, the dark blue
depth was there, but they were no answer to the storm or her sorrow.
She returned to Eastthorpe on the following day and immediately told her
mother she should not go back to the Misses Ponsonby.