CHAPTER XIV

There are those who maintain that a man can do everything better than

a woman can do it. This is certainly true of nagging. When a man nags,

he shows his thoroughness, his continuity, and that love of sport

which is the special pride and attribute of his sex. When a man nags,

he puts his whole heart into the effort; a woman only nags, as a rule,

because the heart has been taken out of her. The nagging woman is an

over-tasked creature with jarred nerves, whose plaint is an expression

of pain, a cry for help; in any interval of ease which lasts long

enough to relax the tension, she feels remorse, and becomes amiably

anxious to atone. With the male nag it is different. He is usually

sleek and smiling, a joyous creature, fond of good living, whose

self-satisfaction bubbles over in artistic attempts to make everybody

else uncomfortable. This was the kind of creature Uncle James Patten

was. He loved to shock and jar and startle people, especially if they

were powerless to retaliate. Of two ways of saying a thing he

invariably chose the more disagreeable; and when he had bad news to

break, it added to his interest in it if the victim felt it deeply and

showed signs of suffering.

One morning at breakfast it might have been suspected that there was

something unpleasant toward. Uncle James had read prayers with such

happy unction, and showed such pleased importance as he took his seat.

"Aunt Victoria," he lisped, "I have just observed in yesterday's paper

that money matters are in a bad way. There has been a crisis in the

city, and your investments have sunk so low that your income will be

practically nil."

"What!" said Aunt Victoria incredulously, "the shares you advised me

to buy?"

"Those are the ones, yes," he answered.

"But, then--I fear you have lost money too," she exclaimed.

"Oh no, thank you," he assured her, in a tone which implied reproach,

"_I_ never speculate."

"James Patten," said Aunt Victoria quietly, "am I to understand that

you advised me to buy stock in which you yourself did not venture to

speculate?"

"Well--er--you see," he answered with composure, "as speculation was

against my principles, I could not take advantage of the opportunity

myself, but that seemed to me no reason why you should not try to

double your income. It may have been an error of judgment on my part;

I am far from infallible--far from infallible. But I think I may claim

to be disinterested. I did not hope to benefit myself----"

"During my lifetime," Aunt Victoria suggested, in the same tone of

quiet self-restraint. "I see. My modest fortune would not have been

much in itself to a man of your means; but it would have been a

considerable sum if doubled."

"Yes, doubles or quits, doubles or quits," said Uncle James, beaming

on Aunt Victoria as if he were saying something reassuring. "Alas! the

family failing!"

"It is a new departure, however, for the family--to gamble at other

people's expense," said Aunt Victoria.

"Alas! poor human nature," Uncle James philosophised, shaking his

head. "You never know--you never know."

Aunt Victoria looked him straight in the eyes, but made no further

show of emotion, except that she sat more rigidly upright than usual

perhaps, and the rose-tint faded from her delicate face, leaving it

waxen-white beneath her auburn front.

Uncle James ate an egg, with a pious air of thankfulness for the

mercies vouchsafed him.

"And where will you live now, Aunt Victoria?" he asked at last, with

an affectation of as much concern as he could get into his fat voice.

For many years he had insisted that Fairholm was the proper place for

his mother's sister, but then she had had money to leave. "Do not

desert us altogether," he pursued. "You must come and see us as often

as your altered circumstances will admit."

Great-Aunt Victoria Bench bowed expressively. Aunt Grace Mary grew

very red in the face. Mrs. Caldwell seemed to be controlling herself

with difficulty.

"There will be a spare room in my cottage, Aunt Victoria," she said.

"I hope you will consider it your own, and make your home with me."

"Thank you kindly, Caroline," the old lady answered; "but I must

consider."

"It would be a most proper arrangement," Uncle James genially decided;

"and you would have our dear little Beth, of whom you approve, you

know, for an interest in life."

Beth left her seat impulsively, and, going round to the old lady,

nestled up to her, slipped her little hand through her arm, and glared

at Uncle James defiantly.

The old lady's face quivered for a moment, and she patted the child's

hand.

But no more was said on the subject in Beth's hearing; only, later,

she found that Aunt Victoria was going to live with them.

Uncle James had suddenly become quite anxious that Mrs. Caldwell

should be settled in her own little house; he said it would be so much

more comfortable for her. The little house was Aunt Grace Mary's

property, by the way--rent, ten pounds a year; but as it had not been

let for a long time, and it did houses no good to stand empty, Uncle

James had graciously lent it to his sister. When she was so settled in

it that it would be a great inconvenience to move, he asked for the

rent.

During the next week he drove every day to the station in Aunt Grace

Mary's pony-carriage, to see if Mrs. Caldwell's furniture had arrived

from Ireland; and when at last it came, he sent every available

servant he had to set the house in order, so that it might be ready

for immediate occupation. He also persuaded Harriet Elvidge, his

invaluable kitchen-maid, to enter Mrs. Caldwell's service as

maid-of-all-work. There is reason to believe that this arrangement was

the outcome of Uncle James's peculiar sense of humour; but Mrs.

Caldwell never suspected it.

"It will be nice for you to have some one I know all about," Uncle

James insisted, "and with a knowledge of cooking besides. And how glad

you will be to sleep under your own roof to-night!" he added in a tone

of kindly congratulation.

"And how glad you will be to get rid of us," said Beth, thus early

giving voice to what other people were only daring to think.

As soon as they were settled in the little bow-windowed house, it

became obvious that there would be differences of opinion between

mamma and Great-Aunt Victoria Bench. They differed about the cooking,

about religion, and about the education of children. Aunt Victoria

thought that if you cooked meat a second time it took all the goodness

out of it. Mrs. Caldwell liked stews, and she said if the joints were

under-done at first, as they should be, re-cooking did _not_ take the

goodness out of the meat; but Aunt Victoria abominated under-done

joints more than anything.

The education of the children was a more serious matter, however--a

matter of principle, in fact, as opposed to a matter of taste. Mrs.

Caldwell had determined to give her boys a good start in life. In

order to do this on her very limited income, she was obliged to

exercise the utmost self-denial, and even with that, there would be

little or nothing left to spend on the girls. This, however, did not

seem to Mrs. Caldwell to be a matter of much importance. It is

customary to sacrifice the girls of a family to the boys; to give them

no educational advantages, and then to jeer at them for their

ignorance and silliness. Mrs. Caldwell's own education had been of

the most desultory character, but such as it was, she was content with

it. "The method has answered in my case," she complacently maintained,

without the slightest suspicion that the assertion proved nothing but

extreme self-satisfaction. Accordingly, as she could not afford to

send her daughters to school as well as the boys, she decided to

educate them herself. Everybody who could read, write, and cipher was

supposed to be able to teach in those days, and Mrs. Caldwell

undertook the task without a doubt of her own capacity. But Aunt

Victoria was not so sanguine.

"I hope religious instruction will be a part of their education," she

said, when the subject was first discussed.

"They shall read the Bible from beginning to end," Mrs. Caldwell

answered shortly.

"That, I should think, would be hardly desirable," Aunt Victoria

deprecated gently.

"And I shall teach them their Catechism, and take them to church,"

Mrs. Caldwell proceeded. "That is the way in which _I_ was taught."

"_We_ were instructed in doctrine, and taught to order our conduct on

certain fixed principles, which were explained to us," Aunt Victoria

ventured.

"Indeed, yes, I dare say," Mrs. Caldwell observed politely; so there

the subject had to drop.

But Aunt Victoria was far from satisfied. She shook her head sadly

over her niece's spiritual state, and determined to save the souls of

her great-nieces by instructing them herself as occasion should offer.

"What is education, mamma?" Beth asked.

"Why, learning things, of course," Mrs. Caldwell replied, with a smile

at the child's simplicity.

"I know that," Beth snapped, irritated by her mother's manner.

"Then why did you ask?" Mrs. Caldwell wished to know.

"The child has probably heard that that is not all," said Aunt

Victoria. "'Learning things' is but one item of education--if you mean

by that the mere acquisition of knowledge. A well-ordered day, for

instance, is an essential part of education. Education is a question

of discipline, of regular hours for everything, from the getting up in

the morning to the going to bed at night. No mind can be properly

developed without routine. Teach a child how to order its time, and

its talents will do the rest."

"Get out your books, children," said Mrs. Caldwell, and Aunt Victoria

hurriedly withdrew.

Beth put a large Bible, Colenso's arithmetic, a French grammar, and

Pinnock (an old-fashioned compilation of questions and answers), on

the table, and looked at them despondently. Then she took a slate, set

herself the easiest addition sum she could find in Colenso, and did it

wrong. Her mother told her to correct it.

"I wish you would show me how, mamma," Beth pleaded.

"You must find out for yourself," her mother answered.

This was her favourite formula. She had no idea of making the lessons

either easy or interesting to the children. Teaching was a duty she

detested, a time of trial both to herself and to her pupils, to be got

over as soon as possible. The whole proceeding only occupied two or

three dreadful hours of the morning, and then the children were free

for the rest of the day, and so was she.

After lessons they all went out together to the north cliffs, where

Aunt Victoria and Mrs. Caldwell walked to and fro on a sheltered

terrace, while the children played on the sands below. It was a still

day when Beth first saw the sands, and the lonely level and the

tranquil sea delighted her. On her left, white cliffs curved round the

bay like an arm; on her right was the grey and solid old stone pile,

and behind her the mellow red brick houses of the little town

scrambled up an incline from the shore irregularly. Silver sparkles

brightened the hard smooth surface of the sand in the sunshine. The

tide was coming in, and tiny waves advanced in irregular curves, and

broke with a merry murmur. Joy got hold of Beth as she gazed about

her, feeling the beauty of the scene. With the infinite charity of

childhood, she forgave her mother her trespasses against her for that

day, and her little soul was filled with the peace of the newly

shriven. She flourished a little wooden spade that Aunt Victoria had

given her, but did not dig. The surface of the sand was all unbroken;

no disfiguring foot of man had trodden the long expanse, and Beth

hesitated to be the first to spoil its exquisite serenity. Her heart

expanded, however, and she shouted aloud in a great, uncontrollable

burst of exultation.

A man with a brown beard and moustache, short, crisp, curly hair, and

deep-set, glittering dark grey eyes, came up to her from behind. He

wore a blue pilot-coat, blue trousers, and a peaked cap, the dress of

a merchant-skipper.

"Don't desecrate this heavenly solitude with discordant cries," he

exclaimed.

Beth had not heard him approach, and she turned round, startled, when

he spoke.

"I thought I was singing!" she rejoined.

"Don't dig and disfigure the beautiful bare brown bosom of the shore,"

he pursued.

"I did not mean to dig," Beth said, looking up in his face; and then

looking round about her in perfect comprehension of his mood--"The

beautiful bare brown bosom of the shore," she slowly repeated,

delighting in the phrase. "It's the kind of thing you can sing, you

know."

"Yes," said the man, suddenly smiling; "it is pure poetry, and I make

you a present of the copyright."

"But," Beth objected, "the shore is _not_ brown. I've been thinking

and thinking what to call it. It's the colour--the colour of--the

colour of tarnished silver," she burst out at last triumphantly.

"Well observed," he said.

"Then I make you a present of the copyright," Beth answered readily.

"Thank you," he said; "but it will not scan."

"What is scan?"

"It won't fit into the verse, you know."

"The beautiful bare colour-of-tarnished-silver bosom of the shore,"

she sang out glibly; then agreed, with a wise shake of her head, that

the phrase was impossible; and recurred to another point of interest,

as was her wont--"What is copyright?"

Before he could answer, however, Mrs. Caldwell had swooped down upon

them. She had seen him from the cliff talking to Beth, and hastened

down the steps in her hot-tempered way, determined to rebuke the man

for his familiarity, and heedless of Aunt Victoria, who had made an

effort to stop her.

"May I ask why you are interfering with my child, sir?" she demanded.

The man in the sailor-suit raised his hat and bowed low.

"Excuse me, madam," he said. "I could not possibly have supposed that

she was your child."

Mrs. Caldwell coloured angrily as at an insult, although the words

seemed innocent enough. When he had spoken, he turned to Beth, with

his hat still in his hand, and added--"Good-bye, little lady. We must

meet again, you and I--on the beautiful bare brown bosom of the

shore."

Beth's sympathy shone out in a smile, and she waved her hand

confidingly to him as he turned away. Mrs. Caldwell seized her arm and

hurried her up the steps to Aunt Victoria, who stood on the edge of

the cliff blinking calmly.

"Imagine Beth scraping acquaintance with such a common-looking

person!" Mrs. Caldwell cried. "You must never speak to him or look at

him again--do you hear? I wonder what taste you will develop next!"

"It is a pity that you are so impetuous, Caroline," Aunt Victoria

observed quietly. "That gentleman is the Count Gustav Bartahlinsky,

who may perhaps be considered eccentric here, where noblemen of great

attainments and wealth are certainly not numerous; but is hardly to be

called common-looking."

Beth saw her mother's countenance drop.

"Then I _may_ speak to him," she decided for herself. "What's a

copyright, mamma?"

"Oh, don't bother, Beth!" Mrs. Caldwell exclaimed irritably.

When they went home, Bernadine clamoured for food, and her mother gave

her a piece of bread. They were to have dinner at four o'clock, but no

luncheon, for economy's sake. Beth was hungry too, but she would not

confess it. What she had heard of their poverty had made a deep

impression on her, and she was determined to eat as little as

possible. Aunt Victoria glanced at Bernadine and the bread as she went

up to her room, and Beth fancied she heard her sigh. Was the old lady

hungry too, she wondered, and her little heart sank.

This was Beth's first exercise in self-denial, but she had plenty of

practice, for the scene was repeated day after day.

The children being free, had to amuse themselves as best they could,

and went out to play in the little garden at the back of the house.

Mrs. Caldwell's own freedom was merely freedom for thought. Most of

the day she spent beside the dining-room table, making and mending,

her only distraction being an occasional glance through the window at

the boughs of the apple-trees which showed above the wall opposite, or

at the people passing. Even when teaching the children she made,

mended, and pursued her own thoughts, mapping out careers for her

boys, making brilliant matches for Mildred and Bernadine, and even

building a castle for Beth now and then. She made and mended as badly

as might be expected of a woman whose proud boast it was that when she

was married she could not hem a pocket-handkerchief; and she did it

all herself. She had no notion of utilising the motive-power at hand

in the children. As her own energy had been wasted in her childhood,

so she wasted theirs, letting it expend itself to no purpose instead

of teaching them to apply it. She was essentially a creature of habit.

All that she had been taught in her youth, she taught them; but any

accomplishment she had acquired in later life, she seemed to think

that they also should wait to acquire. She had always dressed for

dinner; so now, at half-past three every day, she put away her work,

went into the kitchen for some hot water, which she carried upstairs

herself, called the children, and proceeded to brush her own hair

carefully, and change her dress. She expected the children to follow

her example, but did not pay much attention to their proceedings, and

they, childlike, constantly and consistently shirked as much of the

ceremony as possible. If their mother caught them with unwashed hands

and half-brushed hair, she thumped them on the back, and made them

wash and brush; but she was generally thinking about something else,

and did not catch them. The rite, however, being regularly although

imperfectly performed, resulted in a good habit.

There was another thing too for which Beth had good reason to be

grateful to her mother. During winter, when the days were short, or

when bad weather made it impossible to go out on summer evenings, Mrs.

Caldwell always read aloud to the children after tea till bed-time.

Most mothers would have made the children read; but there was a great

deal of laxity mixed with Mrs. Caldwell's harshness. She found it

easier to do things herself than to make the children do them for her.

They objected to read, and liked to be read to, so she read to them;

and as, fortunately, she had no money to buy children's books, she

read what there were in the house. Beth's ear was still quicker than

her eye, and she would not read to herself if she could help it; but

before she was fourteen, thanks to her mother, she knew much of Scott,

Jane Austen, Dickens, Thackeray, Bulwer Lytton, and even some of

Shakespeare, well; besides such books as "The Woman in White," "The

Dead Secret," "Loyal Heart; or, The Trappers," "The Scalp Hunters,"

and many more, all of which helped greatly to develop her

intelligence.

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