CHAPTER XIII.

Friendship's Claim.

"Harold, you are getting to be quite a little man. I'm afraid you'll be

one before I get my plans made for you. How would you like to go away

to that military academy that I spoke of?"

The boy's eyes flashed and he looked up at George Cadman with keenest

delight.

With the exception of deep-set eyes like Will's, he was the exact

miniature of Alma.

The three: George, Alma and Harold--were sitting at the supper table in

Alma's cozy dining-room.

Everything looked the same as when Will had left the home. It was true

that Alma was left penniless, but it was comparatively easy for George

to disguise the fact, and not until very lately did Alma learn that he

was supporting the home with its accustomed luxury.

With the knowledge came a feeling of intense shame. She had been so

thoughtless, leaving every business detail to George, and shutting

herself up to her own grief.

The last few days had been full of troubled thought. How could she do

anything at all to become independent, and yet bring Harold up in the

right atmosphere? There seemed no answer to this at all. She never

realized how perfectly helpless she was until now. Brought suddenly

face to face with real living, she found herself without a resource.

She wept tears over it, but that did not solve the problem.

She had determined tonight to talk to him about it, and beg him to show

her some way to help herself.

When George addressed Harold, she looked up in silent surprise. Just

when she was about to carry out her resolves, he was proposing new

obligations, which her boy was only too eager to accept.

"Dandy!" exclaimed Harold, with boyish enthusiasm. "You're a brick,

cousin George. Ain't he Mus?"

Alma laughed confusedly. "If a brick means someone wonderfully good and

kind, then he certainly is," she replied, looking smilingly from one to

the other. "But what would poor Mus do with her dear boy away?"

"I'll write heaps of letters, and then you have Cousin George, you

know," he returned confidently, "I'll never be a man, Mus, if I don't

go into the world a bit," he added with the gravity of ten years.

George and Alma laughed.

"Well, my boy, a man we must make of you, so I guess we'll have to win

Mus's consent, and persuade her to let me take good care of you."

Alma's blush made her look like her old self. Her pretty natural pink

and white attractiveness had never returned since Will's death. More

and more she dwelt upon his memory, and only her devotion to Harold

kept her from absolute retreat.

Edith Esterbrook brought her great comfort, and the girl's choicest

thoughts found fruitage in Alma's receptive nature. But nothing had

stifled Alma' remorse and useless longing to live again her life with

Will.

Supper over, Harold went to George and climbed up on his knee.

"Tell me all about the soldier place," he said coaxingly with wide

expectant eyes.

George stroked the dark curly head, and for half an hour explained the

life and doings of the academy.

Not once did he look toward Alma, who was regarding them intently.

Restlessly she was thinking of similar evenings when Will had held

their darling boy, and built all kinds of aircastles for his future

career.

George grew animated, as he gazed into the boy's excited face. His

strong affection for the child was reciprocated. Harold knew no time in

his short life, when Cousin Walter was not a shining light to guide his

boyish ambitions.

Finally the recital was over.

"Now boy, to bed; you have to sleep and grow, if you are going to be a

soldier!"

Harold threw two little arms around George's neck.

"Yep!! I've got to sleep a whole lot to grow to be a big man. I want to

be just like you."

George laughed.

"You must be an improvement on me, Harold. Every generation must strive

to be a little better than the last."

Harold looked puzzled. He dropped his hands before him, and twisted his

little fingers together in thought.

"What does generation mean?" he asked wonderingly.

"Generation? Well, let me see," replied George smiling down at him. "We

all come into the world at a different time, you know. If two men are

born at the same time, we say they belong to the same generation."

Harold sat earnestly thinking. Then he asked hesitatingly.

"Then do you and Mus belong to the same generation?"

He thought a moment again, then said vaguely, "But if you and Mus

belong to just the same generation, you must belong to one another."

"Wonderful child logic!" exclaimed George laughing.

"He tries so hard to reason, but his conclusions are usually

deplorable," remarked Alma, stretching out her hand to Harold with a

smile of indulgence.

Harold jumped down from George's lap, and ran to his mother's arms,

to receive the petting that he had not yet outgrown. So fond of his

mother, he was almost effeminate in his caresses of her.

George smiled gently as he watched them.

When Alma and he were alone in the library, he asked earnestly, "Alma,

can you think of anything that you would not do for Harold?"

"What a foolish question! Of course not," she replied, looking her

surprise.

"I am doubtful of your willingness to do one thing," he said gravely.

"I tell you there is nothing," she said fervently. "He is all that I

have now."

"Nothing? Absolutely nothing, Alma? Would you marry again,--someone who

would gladly lay his fortune at your feet, and care for you and the

child of his departed friend?"

Alma looked at him intently, and his meaning suddenly dawned upon her.

"Dear George," she said, and her voice trembled: "I believe that you

would sacrifice anything for Will's sake. What a friend you have been!"

she exclaimed gratefully.

"But you do not answer my question. Would you allow such a friend to

have the only satisfaction in his life?"

She looked at him frankly, unabashed.

"No, George, I would not allow such a man as you to give his life for

poor, broken-hearted me. Some other woman will surely give heart for

heart, and awaken all the glorious love of your perfect manhood," she

replied earnestly.

"Alma, it may surprise you to know that my heart is as broken a reed

as yours. I have nothing to offer you, except what you can give in

return--a lasting friendship. You have loved and lost, so have I. In

the losing, you have learned to love the lost one more deeply than

before. So have I. It is friendship for friendship, dear girl, and

marriage vows for the world's good opinion and our dear Harold's

future."

"You have loved and lost, George? You? Irrevocably lost,--are you sure?"

"Most irrevocably," he returned grimly. "Her marriage to another makes

it even a forbidden hope."

"O, George, how strangely the world adjusts things! I have always

dreamed of you being possessed with every earthly joy. You of all men

deserve it!" she exclaimed.

"Then give me what is possible, Alma. To do for you and Harold would

give me much joy in life, and help me to overcome a living death!" he

said earnestly.

"You have suffered so, then?" she asked tenderly, placing her hand on

his, affectionately.

"More than seems bearable at times. Will we help one another, Alma? For

Harold's sake--will you?"

His fine eyes were eloquently persuasive. She met and seemed to lose

what little resisting power she possessed.

"I will, George," she replied simply.

George leaned forward and reverently kissed her brow. Then he held her

in his arms protectingly.

"What will Harold say?" said Alma, with a happy thought at the boy's

delight.

"He will be satisfied that we belong to the same generation," replied

George.

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