The Great Experience
BY
JULIA FARR
Author of "Venna Hastings"
"I have but one lamp by which my feet are guided,
and that is the lamp of experience."
I. P. HENRY
THE DESERET NEWS
SALT LAKE CITY, UTAH
1920
LOVINGLY DEDICATED TO MY
EPHRAIM FRIENDS
MRS. CATHERINE H. THOMPSON AND FAMILY
PREFACE
Have you been a convert to the "Mormon" faith? Have you left your
home-land and started out for the valley in the mountains, leaving
friends behind, and looking forward with an awful loneliness to the
strange new land where life must begin over again with only the Lord
to know and love you? And have you found, on coming to Zion, a _real_
friend--one who opens heart and home to welcome the convert, and give
that first cheering hope to the tired one, just come from the world's
persecutions? If you have had that experience, readers, you can
understand with what tenderness I think of Ephraim, where I experienced
my first welcome, my first friends in Zion. In trying to think of a
suitable setting for my heroine's home life, Ephraim came instantly
to my mind, because it was here that I met the real "Mormon" spirit,
which strengthened me to bear the disappointments of the morrow. This
little city will always be to me one of the chosen spots in God's Zion.
I would not have it thought that any of my characters are supposed to
be those of Ephraim people. The story is one of fiction, the pioneer
stories excepting. These stories are true, and belong to two prominent
Utah families.
Julia Farr.
TABLE OF CONTENTS
CHAPTER I. "Even a child is known by his doings."--Prov. 20:11.
CHAPTER II. No great truth was ever born into the world, without the
throes of suffering of those who bore it.
CHAPTER III. A child's love is as proportionately great as a woman's.
CHAPTER IV. Society's Nothingness, and its Sacrifice.
CHAPTER V. Edith's Choice.
CHAPTER VI. The glamor gone, what is left?
CHAPTER VII. "Go, preach the Gospel to all the world."
CHAPTER VIII. The Way of a Missionary.
CHAPTER IX. Betty's new friends.
CHAPTER X. "God hath chosen the weak things of the world to confound
the wise."
CHAPTER XI. The Treachery of the World.
CHAPTER XII. Indifference begets indifference. Love begets love.
CHAPTER XIII. Friendship's Claim.
CHAPTER XIV. A contrast--The husband and the lover.
CHAPTER XV. Spirit upon Spirit.
CHAPTER XVI. Away from the world, soul meets soul.
CHAPTER XVII. Edith's Release.
CHAPTER XVIII. The dream of the past.
CHAPTER XVIX. Betty finds her opposite.
CHAPTER XX. The time we deem ourselves the strongest, we are often
reminded of our weakness.
CHAPTER XXI. The Efficacy of Faith.
CHAPTER XXII. To save a soul.
CHAPTER XXIII. "'Tis better to have loved and lost, than never to have
loved at all."
CHAPTER XIX. Unalloyed Love.
THE GREAT EXPERIENCE
CHAPTER I.
"Even a child is known by his doings."--Prov. 20:11.
Dear little Ephraim with its great heart and democratic aspirations,
its keen love for its own inhabitants and "The stranger within the
gates," its rich and poor living side by side in brotherly sympathy!
This quaint little city seems to cuddle up to the great Rocky Mountains
as if for protection from the outer and larger cities of Utah, where
the world has crept in and has somewhat changed the spirit of fifty
years ago.
"We are simple country-folks," said one of Ephraim's leading citizens,
addressing a new-comer as he took her bags, "but you're welcome to our
home as long as you care to stay and share it with us."
"O, thank you so much!" exclaimed the Eastern lady, as she patted the
light fluffy hair of the ten-year-old girl, clinging to her mother's
skirts.
"I love little girls. We'll be good friends, won't we dear?" she asked
the child.
"Yes, ma'am," answered Betty Emmit, as she furtively scanned the lady
from head to foot. Mentally she was saying, "By heck! a real New-Yorker
in Ephraim!"
"The New-Yorker," was amply supplied with bags--so many in fact, that
Mrs. Emmit had to relieve her husband of one, big and heavy.
"The New-Yorker" made an attempt to take it from her.
"Oh, no, Mrs. Catt," exclaimed the good wife; "you must be so tired. We
haven't far to go. Any trunk to see to?"
"No, I travel so much that I don't bother with trunks."
So, with this easy acquiescence, Mrs. Webster Catt walked beside her
heavy-laden companions.
Betty attempted to give her mother a lift, but was shaken off kindly.
"You're too young and skinny to carry loads yet," explained Mrs. Emmit,
who was herself not a great deal taller, nor stouter, than Betty.
Betty flushed furiously. She always felt it an accusation to be called
"young and skinny."
"Better to be young and skinny than to be old and fat, ain't it,
honey?" Mr. Emmit suggested.
Then he turned to his wife.
"You're tired, aren't you?" he asked, eyeing her keenly. "Bag heavy, eh?"
But his straight, slim, little wife ignored his question and began
talking to Mrs. Catt as quickly as possible.
"So you're here to preach temperance, are you?" she asked in a pleasant
tone. "I'm mighty glad someone's taking it up. But to think it should
be an outsider! Here's the Church preaching the 'Word of Wisdom' all
these years, and telling the people not to drink and smoke, and you've
come to tell them to obey the Church!"
Mr. Emmit laughed and there was a mischievous twinkle in his eye.
"You'll be disappointing yourself, if you try to deprive Ephraim of
its home brewed ale. It's the one small sin that gives us a big lot of
pleasure here."
"Do you think that any sin is small?" asked the reformer sweetly, with
her direct gaze compelling honest Ford Emmit to answer squarely.
"Well, no, if you put it that way, but--"
"There's no 'but' about it," interrupted his good wife; "sin is sin."
Betty's brown eyes gazed with open admiration at Mrs. Catt.
Mentally she said, "by heck," again. "She's some game fighter to tackle
Ephraim, but I hope she gets beaten; for Ephraim's all right," she
concluded with sudden pride.
Soon they reached the Emmit home, an old-fashioned, white framed house,
surrounded with hollyhocks and low shrubbery.
"Home at last!" exclaimed the large, gaunt master of the house.
"How perfectly lovely!" exclaimed Mrs. Catt with enthusiasm. "I've
always dreamed that it would be so romantic to live in a place like
this!"
"Some romance," returned Ford Emmit, laughing heartily, as he deposited
the bags on the porch. "We have no time for dreams here; have we, wife?
Nine children, and the farm and livestock to it, keep us pretty busy.
That's life here!"
At this the door opened and out ran four real children, two boys and
two girls, rosy and bright as the dawn.
The two boys were both bright redheads, like their mother; the girls
were fair and blue-eyed, with the exquisite coloring of the Norwegian.
"O, Betty," they all cried at once; "we found your pussy dead in the
yard. Someone has drowned her."
"Yes, I drowned her, myself," declared Mrs. Emmit. "She's been ailing
around the house too long. It ain't good for you, children, to be
mauling sick cats," and with this practical dismissal of the fact,
she lead the way into the house, her visitor, husband, and children,
following.
But Betty lingered behind, unnoticed. For a moment she stood, pale and
defiant, then, swift as a fawn, she ran around the house and started
the search for her dead kitten.
"Pussy dead! pussy dead!" she muttered to herself in anguish, and the
tears came thick and fast, as she looked for her dead pet.
At last, in some tall grass, she discovered it, lying cold and wet.
"O, my baby! My darling baby!" she moaned piteously; "to think that I
was away and couldn't save you!"
But kitty did not purr in answer, as was her custom, when her mistress
talked to her.
Piteously, Betty looked down at the dead thing. It was ugly and she
shuddered.
"My darling Tinkey! How ugly death has made you!" Then, a sudden
thought brought a quick smile to the downcast countenance. "But,
Tinkey, this isn't really you! Where are you, Tinkey, where are you?
This is only your body. Your body will be res'rected some day, won't
it, Tinkey? I'll bury it all nice for you, an' you can look on though
I can't see you any more. O, Tinkey, I'll never see you any more!" and
again the smile vanished, and the little face puckered up.
Slowly the child made her way to a large tree some distance from the
house, behind the barn.
She laid the kitten under shelter and then retraced her steps
mournfully, back to the kitchen door.
As she opened it she called, "Edna!" in a subdued, awed voice.
Edna put her fair head through the door leading to the sitting-room.
There the family and the "company" were evidently resting and talking.
"What yer want, Betty?" she asked curiously.
"Come right here, Edna Emmit," returned Betty seriously.
Edna closed the door behind her and approached cautiously.
"What's up?"
"Nothin's up, Edna Emmit, but you're the most religious, and I've chose
you for the funeral of Tinkey Emmit. Come right along with a towel and
our big candy box and meet me under the big tree behind the barn. Mum's
the word, Edna. This is a sad time, an' I don't want the whole family
lookin' on. You understand?"
Edna was only two years younger than Betty, but she was born with a
bump of reverence for her "next sister" and all her doings.
"All right, Betty, I'll be there," she answered respectfully, at once
climbing on a kitchen chair, to get the much prized candy box, that had
been treasured since it was emptied of its goodies last Christmas.
Betty retrod her way to the big tree quickly, fearing that she might be
called before her duty was done.
She knelt down before the dead form and clasped her little hands in
prayer.
"Dear God," she said tearfully, "None but you knows jes' how I feel.
Take care of Tinkey, an' make me feel better. Amen."
Edna's soft tread behind her made her turn.
"Give me the towel, Edna, and take the box an' fill it with flowers.
Tinkey did so love flowers. When you come back, I'll have her all dried
for the funeral."
Edna's sympathy brought tears, too. "All right," she said simply, and
wandered across the field for the funeral flowers.
When she returned, Betty had Tinkey dried and combed and looking fairly
natural.
Gently they placed the kitten in the box and tastefully arranged the
flowers about it.
"Now to dig the grave," said Betty. "It's the hardest part to bury her,
ain't it?"
"Do you think that Tinkey knows we're givin' her a funeral?" asked
Edna, awed.
"'Course she does!" answered Betty emphatically, "An' she'll feel
mighty bad, if we don't do it nice!"
Betty dug the grave and Edna placed the coffin inside of it. They drew
lots as to who should cover the coffin with dirt--this being the most
heart-breaking,--and the lot fell to Betty.
With the tears streaming down her face, she piled the damp earth
in, Edna crying more in sympathy for her sister, than in sorrow for
Tinkey's death.
The grave filled and covered with flowers, Betty looked around until
she found a flat piece of wood. Taking her pencil, she wrote:
"Here lies Tinkey Emmit, too young to die, too sick to live. Mourned
for by Edna and Betty Emmit."
She handed this to Edna with a smile of pride between her tears.
"Guess Tinkey'll like that for a gravestone. She'll know jes' why she
had to die, an' won't have any bad feelin's."
"You're awfully smart, Betty," declared Edna soberly, as Betty drove
the gravestone into the ground.
"Sometimes, Edna, only sometimes," returned Betty humbly. "Now, Edna,
kneel th'other side of the grave and we'll have prayer, next."
"Dear God," began Betty, then there was a prolonged silence.
Edna at last opened her eyes.
"Why don't yer pray, Betty?"
Betty answered tremulously, "My heart's so full I can't. You try, Edna."
"I don't know what ter say," returned Edna, frightened, and her two
little arms stretched across the grave and wound themselves about her
sister's neck, as she burst into sobs.
Betty now entirely unnerved, hugged her sister close.
"Well of all things!" exclaimed Mrs. Emmit, approaching the grave and
its mourners unnoticed. "What are you two crying for now?"
The children started and drew apart.
"It's Tinkey's funeral, mamma, that's wot it is!" exclaimed Betty,
choking back the sobs.
"Tinkey's funeral!" exclaimed the mother aghast. "You don't mean that
you took the cat's death so to heart? You poor, little lambies, come
right here to mamma!"
And into mother's arms they flew to be cuddled back to smiles and
sunshine.
Mrs. Emmit was not one of the cuddling kind, so this rare treat had its
desired effect!
"There now, girlies, run and wash those tears away, and look clean for
the company. We'll have supper right soon now."
As the children ran ahead of her to the house, she shook her head
doubtfully.
"Who'd a' thought it? Betty is made of too tender stuff for this world.
She'll have a hard time of it, poor kiddie!"
Supper was a bountiful repast, served on the "Emmit best china," which
as Mrs. Emmit explained to Mrs. Catt, had been handed down from her
grandmother, who had been the first woman in Ephraim to own such ware.
Mrs. Catt examined the substantial china with care and admiration.
"It looks just like the good substantial stock, that you descended
from," remarked Mrs. Catt, smiling on her pleased hostess. "How anxious
I am to meet some of those old pioneers! Are there any that are still
living?"
"Oh yes, indeed. I'll have some of them around one evening, and they
will be glad to tell you of their early experiences."
"Nothing that I would like better--how sweet of you to plan such an
entertainment for me! What a beautiful home picture!" she added, as she
looked at the many happy faces gathered around the big table. "We never
see such families in the East. How do you ever manage to get through
the work, my dear Mrs. Emmit?"
"It isn't as hard as it looks," returned the good house-wife, beaming
with pride on her flock. "You see, one just helps the other, and things
just run like clock-work, unless there's a hitch somewhere, but that
doesn't happen very often."
"We bring our children up to work from the start," added Mr. Emmit,
"Then, when they're big, they're not lazy; they keep a-moving like the
rest of us."
"Wonderful! truly wonderful!" exclaimed Mrs. Catt, as she beamed on
them all.
Betty ate little, so fascinated was she by the new-comer.
"She knows how to 'preciate!" she thought.
Supper over, Betty sidled up to Mrs. Catt and began to ask questions
about the East, all of which were answered kindly by the visitor, while
she fondled the child's fluffy hair.
"What an intelligent child Betty is!" she said, turning to Mr. Emmit,
still holding the child's hand in hers.
Betty flushed with pleasure.
"It ain't good to flatter them," returned Mr. Emmit, rather shortly.
"The child's about the same as the average young 'un. A lot too touchy
at times, and cries too easy."
"That shows a sweet disposition," returned Mrs. Catt, completely
winning Betty's heart, as she drank in the soft phrases with thirsty
delight.
After the guest had pleaded fatigue and been shown to the "spare-room,"
and the children were all snug in their several beds, Mr. and Mrs.
Emmit sat talking over the plans and the prospects of Mrs. Catt's
campaign in Ephraim.
"Now, of course, wife, I'll get the town-hall for her to lecture in,
and 'cause you're so daffy over the woman, I'll do my best to help her
to get through with her temperance talks, but--" here he stopped and
puffed his pipe, with an intense scowl on his honest, rough countenance.
"But what?" asked his wife, quickly.
"Well, Eliza, if I must out with it, I don't like the woman!"
"Ford Emmit, if that isn't the limit!" exclaimed his wife. "You do take
the most unreasonable likes and dislikes. I think that she is the most
wonderful, fascinating character."
"There you have it, Eliza! fascinating--that's the word,--fascinating,
but it ain't all gold that glitters. She's slick."
"It isn't real Christian of you, Ford, to talk that way when you know
she's come here to help in the Lord's work."
"Mebbe,--we'll see," he answered, quietly.
"Have you anything against her?" asked his wife a trifle anxiously.
"Only feelin's, wife."
"Then remember our good song, Ford,--'School thy feelings.'"
Ford Emmit laughed good-naturedly.
"All right, wife, so long as you don't ask me to give up my pipe, I'll
help her through. You don't know the world much. There's not many women
like you that come from the East. They're well trained--you never can
tell what they're thinking on."
"You mean that there are no good women in the East?"
"Heck, no! But there's no way of sifting them and knowing them. The
tares grow with the wheat, and get tangled mightily sometimes. Here,
you wives, are mostly same grain, and fairly good at that," he said,
taking his wife's hand in his big, brawny one, for an affectionate
squeeze.
"We all think that our own is the best, Ford!" his wife answered, with
a pleased smile. "But it is not for us to set judgment on the next one."
*****
That night, when all had retired, Betty made her way to her mother's
bed-room.
Mrs. Emmit was almost asleep, when she saw the little night-gowned
figure with its loose hair and bare little feet, approach.
"Why Betty, what brought you here? You should be asleep in bed."
"But mamma, dear, I can't sleep, until you promise me one thing!"
"And what's your brain taking on now, child?"
She sat on the edge of the bed, and looked at her mother with wide,
serious eyes.
"When I get old enough, will you let me go on a mission, mamma?"
"Well, of all things to keep you awake! If the Church calls you, of
course you'll go, provided we don't go bankrupt before then."
"You really mean it, mamma?" cried Betty delightedly.
"Yes. Run away now and get to sleep as soon as you can."
Betty stooped, kissed her mother impulsively, and was gone.
When she reached her own bed-room, she knelt down and folded her hands
in prayer.
"Dear Lord," she said, "please tell the Church to call me on a mission,
and keep mamma's money safe. Amen."
Then she jumped into bed, and was soon asleep.