IX

A queer sensation overmastered Ivan Afanasiitch when, at last, he found

himself in the street.

‘Why am I walking as it were in a dream?’ he thought to himself. ‘Am I

out of my mind, or what? Why, it passes all belief, at last. Come, damn

it, she’s tired of me, come, and I’ve grown tired of her, come, and ...

What is there out of the way in that?

Pyetushkov frowned.

‘I must put an end to it, once for all,’ he said almost aloud. ‘I’ll go

and speak out decisively for the last time, so that it may never come

up again.’

Pyetushkov made his way with rapid step to the baker’s shop. The nephew

of the hired man, Luka, a little boy, friend and confidant of the goat

that lived in the yard, darted swiftly to the little gate, directly he

caught sight of Ivan Afanasiitch in the distance.

Praskovia Ivanovna came out to meet Pyetushkov.

‘Is your niece at home?’ asked Pyetushkov.

‘No, sir.’

Pyetushkov was inwardly relieved at Vassilissa’s absence.

‘I came to have a few words with you, Praskovia Ivanovna.’

‘What about, my good sir?’

‘I’ll tell you. You comprehend that after all ... that has passed ...

after such, so to say, behaviour (Pyetushkov was a little confused) ...

in a word ... But, pray, don’t be angry with me, though.’

‘Certainly not, sir.’

‘On the contrary, enter into my position, Praskovia Ivanovna.’

‘Certainly, sir.’

‘You’re a reasonable woman, you’ll understand of yourself, that ... that

I can’t go on coming to see you any more.’

‘Certainly, sir,’ Praskovia Ivanovna repeated slowly.

‘I assure you I greatly regret it; I confess it is positively painful to

me, genuinely painful ...’

‘You know best, sir,’ Praskovia Ivanovna rejoined serenely. ‘It’s for

you to decide, sir. And, oh, if you’ll allow me, I’ll give you your

little account, sir.’

Pyetushkov had not at all anticipated such a prompt acquiescence. He had

not desired acquiescence at all; he had only wanted to frighten

Praskovia Ivanovna, and above all Vassilissa. He felt wretched.

‘I know,’ he began, ‘this will not be disagreeable to Vassilissa; on the

contrary, I believe she will be glad.’

Praskovia Ivanovna got out her reckoning beads, and began rattling

the counters.

‘On the other hand,’ continued Pyetushkov, growing more and more

agitated, ‘if Vassilissa were, for instance, to give an explanation of

her behaviour ... possibly.... Though, of course ... I don’t know,

possibly, I might perceive that after all there was no great matter for

blame in it.’

‘There’s thirty-seven roubles and forty kopecks in notes to your

account, sir,’ observed Praskovia Ivanovna. ‘Here, would you be pleased

to go through it?’

Ivan Afanasiitch made no reply.

‘Eighteen dinners at seventy kopecks each; twelve roubles sixty

kopecks.’

‘And so we are to part, Praskovia Ivanovna.’

‘If so it must be, sir. Things do turn out so. Twelve samovars at ten

kopecks each ...’

‘But you might just tell me, Praskovia Ivanovna, where it was Vassilissa

went, and what it was she ...’

‘Oh, I never asked her, sir.... One rouble twenty kopecks in silver.’

Ivan Afanasiitch sank into meditation.

‘Kvas and effervescing drinks,’ pursued Praskovia Ivanovna, holding the

counters apart on the frame not with her first, but her third finger,

‘half a rouble in silver. Sugar and rolls for tea, half a rouble. Four

packets of tobacco bought by your orders, eighty kopecks in silver. To

the tailor Kuprian Apollonov ...’

Ivan Afanasiitch suddenly raised his head, put out his hand and mixed up

the counters.

‘What are you about, my good man?’ cried Praskovia Ivanovna. ‘Don’t you

trust me?’

‘Praskovia Ivanovna,’ replied Pyetushkov, with a hurried smile, ‘I’ve

thought better of it. I was only, you know ... joking. We’d better

remain friends and go on in the old way. What nonsense it is! How can we

separate--tell me that, please?’

Praskovia Ivanovna looked down and made him no reply.

‘Come, we’ve been talking nonsense, and there’s an end of it,’ pursued

Ivan Afanasiitch, walking up and down the room, rubbing his hands,

and, as it were, resuming his ancient rights. ‘Amen! and now I’d

better have a pipe.’

Praskovia Ivanovna still did not move from her place....

‘I see you are angry with me,’ said Pyetushkov.

‘I’ve offended you, perhaps. Well! well! forgive me generously.’

‘How could you offend me, my good sir? No offence about it.... Only,

please, sir,’ added Praskovia Ivanovna, bowing, ‘be so good as not to go

on coming to us.’

‘What?’

‘It’s not for you, sir, to be friends with us, your honour. So, please,

do us the favour ...’

Praskovia Ivanovna went on bowing.

‘What ever for?’ muttered the astounded Pyetushkov.

‘Oh, nothing, sir. For mercy’s sake ...’

‘No, Praskovia Ivanovna, you must explain this! ...’

‘Vassilissa asks you. She says, “I thank you, thank you very much, and

from my heart; only for the future, your honour, give us up.”’

Praskovia Ivanovna bowed down almost to Pyetushkov’s feet.

‘Vassilissa, you say, begs me not to come?’

‘Just so, your honour. When your honour came in to-day, and said what

you did, that you didn’t wish, you said, to visit us any more, I felt

relieved, sir, that I did; thinks I, Well, thank God, how nicely it’s

all come about! But for that, I should have had hard work to bring my

tongue to say it.... Be so good, sir.’

Pyetushkov turned red and pale almost at the same instant. Praskovia

Ivanovna still went on bowing....

‘Very good,’ Ivan Afanasiitch cried sharply. ‘Good-bye.’

He turned abruptly and put on his cap.

‘But the little bill, sir....’

‘Send it ... my orderly shall pay you.’

Pyetushkov went with resolute steps out of the baker’s shop, and did not

even look round.

X

A fortnight passed. At first Pyetushkov bore up in an extraordinary way.

He went out, and visited his comrades, with the exception, of course, of

Bublitsyn; but in spite of the exaggerated approbation of Onisim, he

almost went out of his mind at last from wretchedness, jealousy, and

ennui. Conversations with Onisim about Vassilissa were the only thing

that afforded him some consolation. The conversation was always begun,

‘scratched up,’ by Pyetushkov; Onisim responded unwillingly.

‘It’s a strange thing, you know,’ Ivan Afanasiitch would say, for

instance, as he lay on the sofa, while Onisim stood in his usual

attitude, leaning against the door, with his hands folded behind his

back, ‘when you come to think of it, what it was I saw in that girl. One

would say that there was nothing unusual in her. It’s true she has a

good heart. That one can’t deny her.’

‘Good heart, indeed!’ Onisim would answer with displeasure.

‘Come, now, Onisim,’ Pyetushkov went on, ‘one must tell the truth. It’s

a thing of the past now; it’s no matter to me now, but justice is

justice. You don’t know her. She’s very good-hearted. Not a single

beggar does she let pass by; she’ll always give, if it’s only a crust of

bread. Oh! And she’s of a cheerful temper, that one must allow, too.’

‘What a notion! I don’t know where you see the cheerful temper!’

‘I tell you ... you don’t know her. And she’s not mercenary either ...

that’s another thing. She’s not grasping, there’s no doubt of it. Why I

never gave her anything, as you know.’

‘That’s why she’s flung you over.’

‘No, that’s not why!’ responded Pyetushkov with a sigh.

‘Why, you’re in love with her to this day,’ Onisim retorted malignantly.

‘You’d be glad to go back there as before.’

‘That’s nonsense you’re talking. No, my lad, you don’t know me either, I

can see. Be sent away, and then go dancing attendance--no, thank you,

I’d rather be excused. No, I tell you. You may believe me, it’s all a

thing of the past now.’

‘Pray God it be so!’

‘But why ever shouldn’t I be fair to her, now after all? If now I say

she’s not good-looking--why, who’d believe me?’

‘A queer sort of good looks!’

‘Well, find me,--well, mention anybody better-looking ...’

‘Oh, you’d better go back to her, then! ...’

‘Stupid! Do you suppose that’s why I say so? Understand me ...’

‘Oh! I understand you,’ Onisim answered with a heavy sigh.

Another week passed by. Pyetushkov had positively given up talking with

his Onisim, and had given up going out. From morning till night he lay

on the sofa, his hands behind his head. He began to get thin and pale,

eat unwillingly and hurriedly, and did not smoke at all. Onisim could

only shake his head, as he looked at him.

‘You’re not well, Ivan Afanasiitch,’ he said to him more than once.

‘No, I’m all right,’ replied Pyetushkov.

At last, one fine day (Onisim was not at home) Pyetushkov got up,

rummaged in his chest of drawers, put on his cloak, though the sun was

rather hot, went stealthily out into the street, and came back a quarter

of an hour later.... He carried something under his cloak....

Onisim was not at home. The whole morning he had been sitting in his

little room, deliberating with himself, grumbling and swearing between

his teeth, and, at last, he sallied off to Vassilissa. He found her in

the shop. Praskovia Ivanovna was asleep on the stove, rhythmically and

soothingly snoring.

‘Ah, how d’ye do, Onisim Sergeitch,’ began Vassilissa, with a smile;

‘why haven’t we seen anything of you for so long?’

‘Good day.’

‘Why are you so depressed? Would you like a cup of tea?’

‘It’s not me we’re talking about now,’ rejoined Onisim, in a tone

of vexation.

‘Why, what then?’

‘What! Don’t you understand me? What! What have you done to my master,

come, you tell me that.’

‘What I’ve done to him?’

‘What have you done to him? ... You go and look at him. Why, before we

can look round, he’ll be in a decline, or dying outright, maybe.’

‘It’s not my fault, Onisim Sergeitch.’

‘Not your fault! God knows. Why, he’s lost his heart to you. And you,

God forgive you, treated him as if he were one of yourselves. Don’t

come, says you, I’m sick of you. Why, though he’s not much to boast of,

he’s a gentleman anyway. He’s a gentleman born, you know.... Do you

realise that?’

‘But he’s such a dull person, Onisim Sergeitch....’

‘Dull! So you must have merry fellows about you!’

‘And it’s not so much that he’s dull: he’s so cross, so jealous.’

‘Ah, you, you’re as haughty as a princess! He was in your way, I

dare say!’

‘But you yourself, Onisim Sergeitch, if you remember, were put out with

him about it; “Why is he such friends?” you said; “what’s he always

coming for?”’

‘Well, was I to be pleased with him for it, do you suppose?’

‘Well, then, why are you angry with me now? Here, he’s given up coming.’

Onisim positively stamped.

‘But what am I to do with him, if he’s such a madman?’ he added,

dropping his voice.

‘But how am I in fault? What can I do?’

‘I’ll tell you what: come with me to him.’

‘God forbid!’

‘Why won’t you come?’

‘But why should I go to see him? Upon my word!’

‘Why? Why, because he says you’ve a good heart; let me see if you’ve a

good heart.’

‘But what good can I do him?’

‘Oh, that’s my business. You may be sure things are in a bad way, since

I’ve come to you. It’s certain I could think of nothing else to do.’

Onisim paused for a while.

‘Well, come along, Vassilissa, please, come along.’

‘Oh, Onisim Sergeitch, I don’t want to be friendly with him again ...’

‘Well, and you needn’t--who’s talking of it? You’ve only to say a

couple of words; to say, Why does your honour grieve? ... give over....

That’s all.’

‘Really, Onisim Sergeitch ...’

‘Why, am I to go down on my knees to you, eh? All right--there, I’m on

my knees ...’

‘But really ...’

‘Why, what a girl it is! Even that doesn’t touch her! ...’

Vassilissa at last consented, put a kerchief on her head, and went out

with Onisim.

‘You wait here a little, in the passage,’ he said to her, when they

reached Pyetushkov’s abode, ‘and I’ll go and let the master know ...’

He went in to Ivan Afanasiitch. Pyetushkov was standing in the middle of

the room, both hands in his pockets, his legs excessively wide apart; he

was slightly swaying backwards and forwards. His face was hot, and his

eyes were sparkling.

‘Hullo, Onisim,’ he faltered amiably, articulating the consonants very

indistinctly and thickly: ‘hullo, my lad. Ah, my lad, when you weren’t

here ... he, he, he ...’ Pyetushkov laughed and made a sudden duck

forward with his nose. ‘Yes, it’s an accomplished fact, he, he, he....

However,’ he added, trying to assume a dignified air, ‘I’m all right.’

He tried to lift his foot, but almost fell over, and to preserve his

dignity pronounced in a deep bass, ‘Boy, bring my pipe!’

Onisim gazed in astonishment at his master, glanced round.... In the

window stood an empty dark-green bottle, with the inscription: ‘Best

Jamaica rum.’

‘I’ve been drinking, my lad, that’s all,’ Pyetushkov went on. ‘I’ve

been and taken it. I’ve been drinking, and that’s all about it. And

where’ve you been? Tell us ... don’t be shy ... tell us. You’re a good

hand at a tale.’

‘Ivan Afanasiitch, mercy on us!’ wailed Onisim.

‘To be sure. To be sure I will,’ replied Pyetushkov with a vague wave of

his hand. ‘I’ll have mercy on you, and forgive you. I forgive every one,

I forgive you, and Vassilissa I forgive, and every one, every one. Yes,

my lad, I’ve been drinking.... Dri-ink-ing, lad.... Who’s that?’ he

cried suddenly, pointing to the door into the passage; ‘who’s there?’

‘Nobody’s there,’ Onisim answered hastily: ‘who should be there? ...

where are you going?’

‘No, no,’ repeated Pyetushkov, breaking away from Onisim, ‘let me go, I

saw--don’t you talk to me,--I saw there, let me go.... Vassilissa!’ he

shrieked all at once.

Pyetushkov turned pale.

‘Well ... well, why don’t you come in?’ he said at last. ‘Come in,

Vassilissa, come in. I’m very glad to see you, Vassilissa.’

Vassilissa glanced at Onisim and came into the room. Pyetushkov went

nearer to her.... He heaved deep, irregular breaths. Onisim watched him.

Vassilissa stole timid glances at both of them.

‘Sit down, Vassilissa,’ Ivan Afanasiitch began again: ‘thanks for

coming. Excuse my being ... what shall I say? ... not quite fit to be

seen. I couldn’t foresee, couldn’t really, you’ll own that yourself.

Come, sit down, see here, on the sofa ... So ... I’m expressing myself

all right, I think.’

Vassilissa sat down.

‘Well, good day to you,’ Ivan Afanasiitch pursued. ‘Come, how are you?

what have you been doing?’

‘I’m well, thank God, Ivan Afanasiitch. And you?’

‘I? as you see! A ruined man. And ruined by whom? By you, Vassilissa.

But I’m not angry with you. Only I’m a ruined man. You ask him. (He

pointed to Onisim.) Don’t you mind my being drunk. I’m drunk, certainly;

only I’m a ruined man. That’s why I’m drunk, because I’m a ruined man.’

‘Lord have mercy on us, Ivan Afanasiitch!’

‘A ruined man, Vassilissa, I tell you. You may believe me. I’ve never

deceived you. Oh, and how’s your aunt?’

‘Very well, Ivan Afanasiitch. Thank you.’

Pyetushkov began swaying violently.

‘But you’re not quite well to-day, Ivan Afanasiitch. You ought to

lie down.’

‘No, I’m quite well, Vassilissa. No, don’t say I’m not well; you’d

better say I’ve fallen into evil ways, lost my morals. That’s what would

be just. I won’t dispute that.’

Ivan Afanasiitch gave a lurch backwards. Onisim ran forward and held his

master up.

‘And who’s to blame for it? I’ll tell you, if you like, who’s to blame.

I’m to blame, in the first place. What ought I to have said? I ought to

have said to you: Vassilissa, I love you. Good--well, will you marry me?

Will you? It’s true you’re a working girl, granted; but that’s all

right. It’s done sometimes. Why, there, I knew a fellow, he got married

like that. Married a Finnish servant-girl. Took and married her. And

you’d have been happy with me. I’m a good-natured chap, I am! Never you

mind my being drunk, you look at my heart. There, you ask this ...

fellow. So, you see, I turn out to be in fault. And now, of course, I’m

a ruined man.’

Ivan Afanasiitch was more and more in need of Onisim’s support.

‘All the same, you did wrong, very wrong. I loved you, I respected

you ... what’s more, I’m ready to go to church with you this minute. Will

you? You’ve only to say the word, and we’ll start at once. Only you

wounded me cruelly ... cruelly. You might at least have turned me away

yourself--but through your aunt, through that fat female! Why, the only

joy I had in life was you. I’m a homeless man, you know, a poor lonely

creature! Who is there now to be kind to me? who says a kind word to me?

I’m utterly alone. Stript bare as a crow. You ask this ...’ Ivan

Afanasiitch began to cry. ‘Vassilissa, listen what I say to you,’ he

went on: ‘let me come and see you as before. Don’t be afraid.... I’ll

be ... quiet as a mouse. You can go and see whom you like, I’ll--be all

right: not a word, no protests, you know. Eh? do you agree? If you like,

I’ll go down on my knees.’ (And Ivan Afanasiitch bent his knees, but

Onisim held him up under the arms.) ‘Let me go! It’s not your business!

It’s a matter of the happiness of a whole life, don’t you understand,

and you hinder....’

Vassilissa did not know what to say.

‘You won’t ... Well, as you will! God be with you. In that case, good-bye!

Good-bye, Vassilissa. I wish you all happiness and prosperity ... but

I ... but I ...’

And Pyetushkov sobbed violently. Onisim with all his might held him up

from behind ... first his face worked, then he burst out crying. And

Vassilissa cried too.

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