‘He says forty-three. But that makes no difference. If he were
five--and--twenty I wouldn’t marry him. Much happiness I should find in
it! A whole week will go by without his smiling once! Paramon Semyonitch
is my benefactor, I am deeply indebted to him; he took care of me,
educated me; I should have been utterly lost but for him; I’m bound to
look on him as a father.... But be his wife! I’d rather die! I’d rather
be in my coffin!’
‘Why do you keep talking about death, Musa Pavlovna?’
Musa stopped again.
‘Why, is life so sweet, then? Even your friend Vladimir Nikolaitch, I
may say, I’ve come to love from being wretched and dull: and then
Paramon Semyonitch with his offers of marriage.... Punin, though he
bores me with his verses, he doesn’t scare me, anyway; he doesn’t make
me read Karamzin in the evenings, when my head’s ready to drop off my
shoulders for weariness! And what are these old men to me? They call me
cold, too. With them, is it likely I should be warm? If they try to make
me--I shall go. Paramon Semyonitch himself’s always saying: Freedom!
freedom! All right, I want freedom too. Or else it comes to this!
Freedom for every one else, and keeping me in a cage! I’ll tell him so
myself. But if you betray me, or drop a hint--remember; they’ll never
set eyes on me again!’
Musa stood in the middle of the path.
‘They’ll never set eyes on me again!’ she repeated sharply. This time,
too, she did not raise her eyes to me; she seemed to be aware that she
would infallibly betray herself, would show what was in her heart, if
any one looked her straight in the face.... And that was just why she
did not lift her eyes, except when she was angry or annoyed, and then
she stared straight at the person she was speaking to.... But her small
pretty face was aglow with indomitable resolution.
‘Why, Tarhov was right,’ flashed through my head; ‘this girl is a
new type.’
‘You’ve no need to be afraid of me,’ I declared, at last.
‘Truly? Even, if ... You said something about our relations.... But even
if there were ...’ she broke off.
‘Even in that case, you would have no need to be afraid, Musa Pavlovna.
I am not your judge. Your secret is buried here.’ I pointed to my bosom.
‘Believe me, I know how to appreciate ...’
‘Have you got my letter?’ Musa asked suddenly.
‘Yes.’
‘Where?’
‘In my pocket.’
‘Give it here ... quick, quick!’
I got out the scrap of paper. Musa snatched it in her rough little hand,
stood still a moment facing me, as though she were going to thank me;
but suddenly started, looked round, and without even a word at parting,
ran quickly down the hill.
I looked in the direction she had taken. At no great distance from the
tower I discerned, wrapped in an ‘Almaviva’ [‘Almavivas’ were then in
the height of fashion), a figure which I recognised at once as Tarhov.
‘Aha, my boy,’ thought I, ‘you must have had notice, then, since you’re
on the look-out.’
And whistling to myself, I started homewards.
* * * * *
Next morning I had only just drunk my morning tea, when Punin made his
appearance. He came into my room with rather an embarrassed face, and
began making bows, looking about him, and apologising for his intrusion,
as he called it. I made haste to reassure him. I, sinful man, imagined
that Punin had come with the intention of borrowing money. But he
confined himself to asking for a glass of tea with rum in it, as,
luckily, the samovar had not been cleared away. ‘It’s with some
trepidation and sinking of heart that I have come to see you,’ he said,
as he nibbled a lump of sugar. ‘You I do not fear; but I stand in awe of
your honoured grandmother! I am abashed too by my attire, as I have
already communicated to you.’ Punin passed his finger along the frayed
edge of his ancient coat. ‘At home it’s no matter, and in the street,
too, it’s no harm; but when one finds one’s self in gilded palaces,
one’s poverty stares one in the face, and one feels confused!’ I
occupied two small rooms on the ground floor, and certainly it would
never have entered any one’s head to call them palaces, still less
gilded; but Punin apparently was referring to the whole of my
grandmother’s house, though that too was by no means conspicuously
sumptuous. He reproached me for not having been to see them the previous
day; ‘Paramon Semyonitch,’ said he, ‘expected you, though he did declare
that you would be sure not to come. And Musotchka, too, expected you.’
‘What? Musa Pavlovna too?’ I queried.
‘She too. She’s a charming girl we have got with us, isn’t she? What
do you say?’
‘Very charming,’ I assented. Punin rubbed his bare head with
extraordinary rapidity.
‘She’s a beauty, sir, a pearl or even a diamond--it’s the truth I am
telling you.’ He bent down quite to my ear. ‘Noble blood, too,’ he
whispered to me, ‘only--you understand--left-handed; the forbidden fruit
was eaten. Well, the parents died, the relations would do nothing for
her, and flung her to the hazards of destiny, that’s to say, despair,
dying of hunger! But at that point Paramon Semyonitch steps forward,
known as a deliverer from of old! He took her, clothed her and cared for
her, brought up the poor nestling; and she has blossomed into our
darling! I tell you, a man of the rarest qualities!’
Punin subsided against the back of the armchair, lifted his hands, and
again bending forward, began whispering again, but still more
mysteriously: ‘You see Paramon Semyonitch himself too.... Didn’t you
know? he too is of exalted extraction--and on the left side, too. They
do say--his father was a powerful Georgian prince, of the line of King
David.... What do you make of that? A few words--but how much is said?
The blood of King David! What do you think of that? And according to
other accounts, the founder of the family of Paramon Semyonitch was an
Indian Shah, Babur. Blue blood! That’s fine too, isn’t it? Eh?’
‘Well?’ I queried, ‘and was he too, Baburin, flung to the hazards
of destiny?’
Punin rubbed his pate again. ‘To be sure he was! And with even greater
cruelty than our little lady! From his earliest childhood nothing but
struggling! And, in fact, I will confess that, inspired by Ruban, I
composed in allusion to this fact a stanza for the portrait of Paramon
Semyonitch. Wait a bit ... how was it? Yes!
‘E’en from the cradle fate’s remorseless blows
Baburin drove towards the abyss of woes!
But as in darkness gleams the light, so now
The conqueror’s laurel wreathes his noble brow!’
Punin delivered these lines in a rhythmic, sing-song voice, with full
rounded vowels, as verses should be read.
‘So that’s how it is he’s a republican!’ I exclaimed.
‘No, that’s not why,’ Punin answered simply. ‘He forgave his father long
ago; but he cannot endure injustice of any sort; it’s the sorrows of
others that trouble him!’
I wanted to turn the conversation on what I had learned from Musa the
day before, that is to say, on Baburin’s matrimonial project,--but I did
not know how to proceed. Punin himself got me out of the difficulty.
‘Did you notice nothing?’ he asked me suddenly, slily screwing up his
eyes, ‘while you were with us? nothing special?’
‘Why, was there anything to notice?’ I asked in my turn.
Punin looked over his shoulder, as though anxious to satisfy himself
that no one was listening. ‘Our little beauty, Musotchka, is shortly to
be a married lady!’
‘How so?’
‘Madame Baburin,’ Punin announced with an effort, and slapping his
knees several times with his open hands, he nodded his head, like a
china mandarin.
‘Impossible!’ I cried, with assumed astonishment. Punin’s head
slowly came to rest, and his hands dropped down. ‘Why impossible,
allow me to ask?’
‘Because Paramon Semyonitch is more fit to be your young lady’s father;
because such a difference in age excludes all likelihood of love--on the
girl’s side.’
‘Excludes?’ Punin repeated excitedly. ‘But what about gratitude? and
pure affection? and tenderness of feeling? Excludes! You must consider
this: admitting that Musa’s a splendid girl; but then to gain Paramon
Semyonitch’s affection, to be his comfort, his prop--his spouse, in
short! is that not the loftiest possible happiness even for such a girl?
And she realises it! You should look, turn an attentive eye! In Paramon
Semyonitch’s presence Musotchka is all veneration, all tremor and
enthusiasm!’
‘That’s just what’s wrong, Nikander Vavilitch, that she is, as you say,
all tremor. If you love any one you don’t feel tremors in their
presence.’
‘But with that I can’t agree! Here am I, for instance; no one, I
suppose, could love Paramon Semyonitch more than I, but I ... tremble
before him.’
‘Oh, you--that’s a different matter.’
‘How is it a different matter? how? how?’ interrupted Punin. I simply
did not know him; he got hot, and serious, almost angry, and quite
dropped his rhythmic sing-song in speaking. ‘No,’ he declared; ‘I notice
that you have not a good eye for character! No; you can’t read people’s
hearts!’ I gave up contradicting him ... and to give another turn to the
conversation, proposed, for the sake of old times, that we should read
something together.
Punin was silent for a while.
‘One of the old poets? The real ones?’ he asked at last.
‘No; a new one.’
‘A new one?’ Punin repeated mistrustfully.
‘Pushkin,’ I answered. I suddenly thought of the _Gypsies_ which Tarhov
had mentioned not long before. There, by the way, is the ballad about
the old husband. Punin grumbled a little, but I sat him down on the
sofa, so that he could listen more comfortably, and began to read
Pushkin’s poem. The passage came at last, ‘old husband, cruel husband’;
Punin heard the ballad through to the end, and all at once he got up
impulsively.
‘I can’t,’ he pronounced, with an intense emotion, which impressed even
me;--‘excuse me; I cannot hear more of that author. He is an immoral
slanderer; he is a liar ... he upsets me. I cannot! Permit me to cut
short my visit to-day.’
I began trying to persuade Punin to remain; but he insisted on having
his own way with a sort of stupid, scared obstinacy: he repeated several
times that he felt upset, and wished to get a breath of fresh air--and
all the while his lips were faintly quivering and his eyes avoided mine,
as though I had wounded him. So he went away. A little while after, I
too went out of the house and set off to see Tarhov.
* * * * *
Without inquiring of any one, with a student’s usual lack of ceremony,
I walked straight into his lodgings. In the first room there was no
one. I called Tarhov by name, and receiving no answer, was just going
to retreat; but the door of the adjoining room opened, and my friend
appeared. He looked at me rather queerly, and shook hands without
speaking. I had come to him to repeat all I had heard from Punin; and
though I felt at once that I had called on Tarhov at the wrong moment,
still, after talking a little about extraneous matters, I ended by
informing him of Baburin’s intentions in regard to Musa. This piece of
news did not, apparently, surprise him much; he quietly sat down at the
table, and fixing his eyes intently upon me, and keeping silent as
before, gave to his features an expression ... an expression, as though
he would say: ‘Well, what more have you to tell? Come, out with your
ideas!’ I looked more attentively into his face.... It struck me as
eager, a little ironical, a little arrogant even. But that did not
hinder me from bringing out my ideas. On the contrary. ‘You’re showing
off,’ was my thought; ‘so I am not going to spare you!’ And there and
then I proceeded straightway to enlarge upon the mischief of yielding
to impulsive feelings, upon the duty of every man to respect the
freedom and personal life of another man--in short, I proceeded to
enunciate useful and appropriate counsel. Holding forth in this manner,
I walked up and down the room, to be more at ease. Tarhov did not
interrupt me, and did not stir from his seat; he only played with his
fingers on his chin.
‘I know,’ said I ... (Exactly what was my motive in speaking so, I have
no clear idea myself--envy, most likely; it was not devotion to
morality, anyway!) ‘I know,’ said I, ‘that it’s no easy matter, no
joking matter; I am sure you love Musa, and that Musa loves you--that it
is not a passing fancy on your part.... But, see, let us suppose! (Here
I folded my arms on my breast.) ... Let us suppose you gratify your
passion--what is to follow? You won’t marry her, you know. And at the
same time you are wrecking the happiness of an excellent, honest man,
her benefactor--and--who knows? (here my face expressed at the same time
penetration and sorrow)--possibly her own happiness too....’
And so on, and so on!
For about a quarter of an hour my discourse flowed on. Tarhov was still
silent. I began to be disconcerted by this silence. I glanced at him
from time to time, not so much to satisfy myself as to the impression my
words were making on him, as to find out why he neither objected nor
agreed, but sat like a deaf mute. At last I fancied that there was ...
yes, there certainly was a change in his face. It began to show signs of
uneasiness, agitation, painful agitation.... Yet, strange to say, the
eager, bright, laughing something, which had struck me at my first
glance at Tarhov, still did not leave that agitated, that troubled face!
I could not make up my mind whether or no to congratulate myself on the
success of my sermon, when Tarhov suddenly got up, and pressing both my
hands, said, speaking very quickly, ‘Thank you, thank you. You’re right,
of course, ... though, on the other side, one might observe ... What is
your Baburin you make so much of, after all? An honest fool--and nothing
more! You call him a republican--and he’s simply a fool! Oo! That’s what
he is! All his republicanism simply means that he can never get on
anywhere!’
‘Ah! so that’s your idea! A fool! can never get on!--but let me tell
you,’ I pursued, with sudden heat, ‘let me tell you, my dear Vladimir
Nikolaitch, that in these days to get on nowhere is a sign of a fine, a
noble nature! None but worthless people--bad people--get on anywhere and
accommodate themselves to everything. You say Baburin is an honest fool!
Why, is it better, then, to your mind, to be dishonest and clever?’
‘You distort my words!’ cried Tarhov. ‘I only wanted to explain how I
understand that person. Do you think he’s such a rare specimen? Not a
bit of it! I’ve met other people like him in my time. A man sits with an
air of importance, silent, obstinate, angular.... O-ho-ho! say you. It
shows that there’s a great deal in him! But there’s nothing in him, not
one idea in his head--nothing but a sense of his own dignity.’
‘Even if there is nothing else, that’s an honourable thing,’ I broke
in. ‘But let me ask where you have managed to study him like this? You
don’t know him, do you? Or are you describing him ... from what Musa
tells you?’
Tarhov shrugged his shoulders. ‘Musa and I ... have other things to talk
of. I tell you what,’ he added, his whole body quivering with
impatience,--‘I tell you what: if Baburin has such a noble and honest
nature, how is it he doesn’t see that Musa is not a fit match for him?
It’s one of two things: either he knows that what he’s doing to her is
something of the nature of an outrage, all in the name of gratitude ...
and if so, what about his honesty?--or he doesn’t realise it ... and in
that case, what can one call him but a fool?’
I was about to reply, but Tarhov again clutched my hands, and again
began talking in a hurried voice. ‘Though ... of course ... I confess
you are right, a thousand times right.... You are a true friend ... but
now leave me alone, please.’