CHAPTER XXXIV

THEY RETURN TO CAIRO WITHOUT PEKUAH.

THERE was nothing to be hoped from longer stay. They returned to Cairo,

repenting of their curiosity, censuring the negligence of the government,

lamenting their own rashness, which had neglected to procure a guard,

imagining many expedients by which the loss of Pekuah might have been

prevented, and resolving to do something for her recovery, though none

could find anything proper to be done.

Nekayah retired to her chamber, where her women attempted to comfort her

by telling her that all had their troubles, and that Lady Pekuah had

enjoyed much happiness in the world for a long time, and might reasonably

expect a change of fortune. They hoped that some good would befall her

wheresoever she was, and that their mistress would find another friend

who might supply her place.

The Princess made them no answer; and they continued the form of

condolence, not much grieved in their hearts that the favourite was lost.

Next day the Prince presented to the Bassa a memorial of the wrong which

he had suffered, and a petition for redress. The Bassa threatened to

punish the robbers, but did not attempt to catch them; nor indeed could

any account or description be given by which he might direct the pursuit.

It soon appeared that nothing would be done by authority. Governors

being accustomed to hear of more crimes than they can punish, and more

wrongs than they can redress, set themselves at ease by indiscriminate

negligence, and presently forget the request when they lose sight of the

petitioner.

Imlac then endeavoured to gain some intelligence by private agents. He

found many who pretended to an exact knowledge of all the haunts of the

Arabs, and to regular correspondence with their chiefs, and who readily

undertook the recovery of Pekuah. Of these, some were furnished with

money for their journey, and came back no more; some were liberally paid

for accounts which a few days discovered to be false. But the Princess

would not suffer any means, however improbable, to be left untried.

While she was doing something, she kept her hope alive. As one expedient

failed, another was suggested; when one messenger returned unsuccessful,

another was despatched to a different quarter.

Two months had now passed, and of Pekuah nothing had been heard; the

hopes which they had endeavoured to raise in each other grew more

languid; and the Princess, when she saw nothing more to be tried, sunk

down inconsolable in hopeless dejection. A thousand times she reproached

herself with the easy compliance by which she permitted her favourite to

stay behind her. “Had not my fondness,” said she, “lessened my

authority, Pekuah had not dared to talk of her terrors. She ought to

have feared me more than spectres. A severe look would have overpowered

her; a peremptory command would have compelled obedience. Why did

foolish indulgence prevail upon me? Why did I not speak, and refuse to

hear?”

“Great Princess,” said Imlac, “do not reproach yourself for your virtue,

or consider that as blameable by which evil has accidentally been caused.

Your tenderness for the timidity of Pekuah was generous and kind. When

we act according to our duty, we commit the events to Him by whose laws

our actions are governed, and who will suffer none to be finally punished

for obedience. When, in prospect of some good, whether natural or moral,

we break the rules prescribed us, we withdraw from the direction of

superior wisdom, and take all consequences upon ourselves. Man cannot so

far know the connection of causes and events as that he may venture to do

wrong in order to do right. When we pursue our end by lawful means, we

may always console our miscarriage by the hope of future recompense.

When we consult only our own policy, and attempt to find a nearer way to

good by over-leaping the settled boundaries of right and wrong, we cannot

be happy even by success, because we cannot escape the consciousness of

our fault; but if we miscarry, the disappointment is irremediably

embittered. How comfortless is the sorrow of him who feels at once the

pangs of guilt and the vexation of calamity which guilt has brought upon

him!

“Consider, Princess, what would have been your condition if the Lady

Pekuah had entreated to accompany you, and, being compelled to stay in

the tents, had been carried away; or how would you have borne the thought

if you had forced her into the Pyramid, and she had died before you in

agonies of terror?”

“Had either happened,” said Nekayah, “I could not have endured life till

now; I should have been tortured to madness by the remembrance of such

cruelty, or must have pined away in abhorrence of myself.”

“This, at least,” said Imlac, “is the present reward of virtuous conduct,

that no unlucky consequence can oblige us to repent it.”

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