HOSPITAL
DOWN AMONGST THE DEAD MEN--CHARLIE’S PRESERVER--A SICK MAN’S
VISIONS--MENTAL PROSTRATION--THE DYING MAN’S GUESTS--DISCHARGED
WITHOUT A PENSION--LEADEN HOURS--HOW’S THE PATIENT?--“WELCOME,
FRANK”--HOMEWARD BOUND
We left Cousin Charlie, some chapters back, in a sufficiently
unpleasant predicament. His arm broken by a bullet, a Kaffir’s assagai
through his shoulder, stunned moreover by a crushing blow from the
butt-end of a musket (Birmingham-made, and sold in the gross at
nineteen shillings apiece), not to mention a roll of some fifty feet
down an almost perpendicular ravine, the boy lay senseless, and to all
appearance dead. The tide of war rolled far away from the _kloof_ that
had been defended so fiercely, and won with such loss of life; and ere
the young lancer had recovered his senses, an outlying band of the
enemy, driven from their fastnesses far on the right, wound stealthily
through this very ravine in full retreat. Fortunately they had that
day got such a taste of English discipline as made them loth to
improve any further acquaintance with “Brown Bess”; and although they
stripped the lad from head to foot, believing him to be stone-dead,
they had no time to stay and practise those horrid mutilations with
which these demons signalise their triumph over a fallen foe. Not a
shred of clothing, however, did they leave on the body; even his
boots, the most useless articles conceivable to a Kaffir, were carried
off as the spoils of war. For aught we know, to this day Charlie’s
smart jacket forms the ceremonial dress of some burly chief. Very
tight, and worn with long, black legs, _au naturel_, it is doubtless a
most imposing costume. Be that how it may, the white man was left
naked and weltering in his wounds, whilst the routed party, who had
wasted but little time in stripping him, made the best of their way to
a more respectful distance from the British posts. Charlie never
stirred for hours. The moon rose, and bathed in her cold light the
crisp, rugged scenery and the ghastly accessories of that fatal glen.
Here, a stunted jagged bush threw its smoke-blackened twigs athwart
the clear night sky, and beneath it, bleached by the moonlight, lay
some grinning corpse that had dragged itself there to die, whilst a
clean musket-barrel shining in those pale beams showed it had been a
British soldier when morning dawned. There, hurled in a fantastic
heap, lay the swarthy bodies of some half-dozen Kaffirs, one balanced
on the verge of a blank bare cliff, his arms and head dangling, limp
and helpless, over the brink--his comrades piled above him, as they
fell in their desperate efforts to escape. Yonder, where the moonbeams
glimmered through the twinkling foliage, frosting the leaves with
silver, and shedding peace and beauty over the unholy scene, a Fingoe
auxiliary stirred and groaned in his last mortal agony, his dusky skin
welling forth its very life-drops on the trampled sward. Shout and
curse and clanging blow, all the riot and confusion of the strife, had
long since died away. The writhing Fingoe groaned out his soul with a
last gasping sigh, and save for the short yelp of a famished jackal in
the adjoining thicket, silence slept upon the glen, and Night shared
with Death her dominion over that blood-stained, devastated spot.
Charlie came to himself--not that he knew where he lay, or was
conscious of aught save a numbed sense of pain, and a confused
stupefied idea, first that he was in bed, then that he was on the deck
of a ship, heaving and plunging over the rolling waters. As sensation
gradually returned, an intolerable thirst, so fierce as to amount to
positive agony, began to rage in his dry, choking throat; then, with
that unaccountable instinct to rise which is the first impulse of a
man who is knocked down, he made a sort of abortive, staggering effort
to get to his feet, it is needless to say in vain. The blood welled
freshly from his wounds, the branches overhead spun round him, and he
was again insensible. But the effort saved his life: the slight
movement was seen, and in another instant a dark Fingoe girl was
kneeling over him, with her hand upon his heart. The poor young savage
had been stealing distractedly through the glen, looking for the body
of her lover. She had missed him from his hut at nightfall. She knew
there had been a severe engagement, and, like a very woman, faithful
even unto death, she had glided away in the darkness to seek him out,
succour him if wounded, and mourn over him if succour should come too
late. It was a woman that alone recognised the body of the last of the
Saxon kings, on the fatal field of Hastings. When earl and thane and
liegeman saw but a mangled, mutilated corpse, Edith the swan-necked
knew her lover and her lord. Keen was the eye, unerring was the
instinct of affection, and Edith’s fame lives in history and song; but
our poor Fingoe girl was but a nameless savage, a wretched, ignorant
heathen, debased almost to the level of the brute; yet she, too, had a
woman’s heart, and cherished a woman’s love--she, too, recognised her
barbarian lover, gashed and defaced by assagai and war-club, and it
was whilst she wept and moaned over his mangled remains that her eye
caught the stir of Charlie’s white body, and her heart, softened by
grief, bid her, woman-like, again come to the assistance of the
suffering and the helpless. She threw a _kaross_ over his naked body.
Light-footed as an antelope, she darted to a neighbouring spring,
shuddering the while--for that, too, was polluted with blood--and
returned with a skin of the clear, cold water. She bathed his brow and
temples--she poured the grateful drops between his blackened lips--and
as he groaned and stirred once more, she knew there was life in him
yet. The huts of her countrymen (half-armed auxiliaries to the British
force) were at no great distance, and, savage as she was, the maiden
would not leave a fellow-creature, particularly such a good-looking
one as Charlie, to die like a dog without assistance. Her shapely
limbs bore her rapidly back to her people. Alas! there was scarce a
family amongst them that had not lost a member, and she soon returned
with four stalwart Fingoes, who carried Charlie’s senseless frame to
their encampment, where they tended him with such knowledge of surgery
as they possessed, far more efficient, despite of sundry charms and
superstitions, than our College of Surgeons at home would easily
believe. There were other wounded soldiers in the encampment, and
Charlie, though not recognised, was judged to be an officer, and met
with all the attention from these poor fellows that they could spare
from their own sufferings. But it was to the Fingoe girl that, under
Providence, he owed his life. Night and day she tended him like a
child, and when at length a convoy arrived from head-quarters with a
train of waggons to carry off all the sick to Fort Beaufort, it was
with difficulty the poor savage maiden was dissuaded from accompanying
him even into the distant settlements, and long and wistfully she
gazed after the waggon that bore her white charge out of her sight.
Charlie had not yet recovered his consciousness, and had scarcely
spoken; and when he did, muttered but a few incoherent words; yet the
girl had saved his life, and nursed him in his agony, and it was hard
to give him up!
When our hapless lancer really came to himself he was lying on a
comfortable bed, with all the necessary appliances and alleviations
for sickness, nowhere so efficient as in an English military hospital.
His first sensation was one of pleasing languor, almost of luxury, in
the new feeling of complete repose; for, in the Fingoe hut, and yet
more in the jolting, slow-moving waggon, his powerless limbs had never
been able to dispose themselves in _real_ rest, and the change was
positive delight. He was too weak to take any note of time or
place--he was conscious of but one feeling, that of bodily ease; and
he could no more undergo the mental exertion of recalling past events,
or judging from present circumstances, than he could play the physical
one of getting out of bed. He knew he was bandaged--he knew he had not
strength to stir a finger were it to save his life, nor did he wish to
do so--he knew he was lying between clean sheets, in a bed, somewhere;
it seemed strange, for he had not been in a bed for so long, and he
was quite satisfied to take things as they were, and gaze drowsily
upon the wall, and hear a stealthy footfall in the room, far too
languid to turn his head, and so drop off to sleep again quite
contentedly. And when the surgeon of the Light-Bobs--a gallant fellow,
whose only fault was that he never would keep his confounded lint and
bandages and tourniquet far enough in the rear--saw his patient in
this second slumber, and listened to his soft breathing, and placed
his finger on the fluttering, scarce-perceptible pulse, he stroked his
chin with a self-satisfied air, and smiled, and muttered to himself,
“He’ll do now, _I think_--not above twenty--young constitution--never
drank, I’ll be bound. It’s been touch-and-go; but I believe now he’ll
pull through.”
So Charlie got over the crisis, and slept, and struggling hard with
the ebbing tide, little by little gained ground and footing, and inch
by inch, as it were, reached the shore.
As consciousness returned with returning strength, memory began to
unravel its tangled skein of dim fantastic recollections, and by
degrees the march, the engagement, the last brilliant charge,
separated themselves from the ghastly moonlight glen, the dark
phantom-shape that had saved him, the strange huts of the savages, and
above all those excruciating sufferings in that jolting waggon. But
with convalescence came the weary longing to be well, the restlessness
of protracted confinement, the loathing of those tedious, monotonous
days--their only event that unvarying meal--their only amusement to
gaze upon the sunlight brightening that white-washed wall. How Charlie
pined to feel the free, fresh breeze of out-of-doors; how horse and
hound and field-day, the bounding charger, the jovial march, the
cheerful mess, seemed to mock him with their phantom-like delights, as
his body lay pinioned and helpless on that loathed couch, and his mind
went soaring away in vision after vision of waving woods and rugged
hills, and, above all, the glorious summer air, that he would fain
have bathed in like a lark--have drunk into his very being as the true
_elixir vitæ_!
Of serious thoughts as to his late proximity to another world, of
gratitude for his narrow escape from death, we fear we must confess
our patient was altogether innocent. The sick-bed is the last place
in the world to promote such grave reflections: and those who trust to
an illness as a means of making them better and wiser men, will
generally find that they have leant upon a broken reed. The exhaustion
of physical pain acts little more upon the body than the mind. The
latter partakes of the languor which pervades its tenement, and has
generally but strength to pine in helpless inactivity, and gaze idly
on the balance of life and death, with scarce a wish even to turn the
scale. If a man never reflects when well, still less can he expect to
have power to do so when sick; and many a death-bed, we fear, has
owned its tranquillity to the mere prostration, intellectual as well
as physical, which quiets the departing sufferer. ’Tis an
uncomfortable notion; but we hold it too true, nevertheless. Charlie
had an instance in his very next neighbour, a gallant private of the
Light-Bobs, who occupied the adjoining bed to our young lancer. He,
too, had been shot down in the fatal ravine, had been nursed in the
Fingoe huts, and forwarded to Fort Beaufort in the waggon-train. For a
time his wounds went on favourably enough, and he seemed to have a far
better chance of recovery than poor Charlie. But he had been a
drunkard in early life; his constitution was sapped with strong
liquor; something unintelligible “supervened,” as the medical officer
said; and the man was doomed--doomed, as surely as if he had been
sentenced to death by court-martial.
In the earliest stages of his own recovery, Charlie would lie and
listen to the poor fellow’s ravings, till he shuddered at the wild
imaginings of that delirious brain. Now the man would fancy himself
back in England, amongst the low haunts of vice and debauchery which
seemed most familiar to his mind. He would shout out ribald toasts and
drinking-songs, and roar fierce oaths of mingled pain and exultation,
till he roused every pale inmate of the ward. Then would a frightful
reaction take place, and he would lie still as a corpse, hand and
foot, but mutter and roll his eyes and gnash his teeth, like one
possessed. He peopled the place, too, with frightful apparitions;
amongst which a pale girl, with her throat cut from ear to ear, and
the enemy of mankind, seemed, by his expressions, to be the most
frequent visitors. With these he would hold long conversations,
ludicrous even through their horrors, and would display much ingenuity
in their imaginary questions, to which he poured forth voluble answers
of abuse and blasphemy. Of his satanic disputant he generally seemed
to get the better, by his own account; but the mutilated girl always
brought on a fit of trembling that was frightful to behold. Once,
after a visit from this spectre, which he detailed at considerable
length, he tore all the bandages from his wounds, and was obliged to
be pinioned in a strait-waistcoat. After this he got quieter, not so
much from the restraint as the weakness and loss of blood consequent
on his paroxysm. He would listen with marked attention to the
chaplain, who visited him daily; and when the good man was gone, would
mumble out incoherent words of repentance and amendment; but could
never fix his mind upon their meaning for two seconds at a time. Then
he would give it up in despair, and would shout and sing again more
boisterously than ever. At length it became evident, even to Charlie’s
enfeebled perceptions, that he was sinking fast; and as the sand of
life ebbed more and more rapidly, the dying man became more and more
composed and tranquil, till he promised to make as peaceful an ending
as ever did glorified saint in Popish calendar. The eye lost its
unnatural glitter, the pain ceased entirely, and the pulse became
quiet and regular--but oh, so weak for that active, muscular frame!
The youngest tyro would not have been deceived by the change; it was
obvious that his very hours were numbered; yet now, for the first
time, he seemed to recognise place and people--called Charlie by his
name, and asked Mr. Kettering after “the reg’ment,” and whether the
old major was shot dead when he forced the river so smartly, and the
colour-sergeant (he never could abide that colour-sergeant) lost his
life in the very middle of the stream; then he remembered how Charlie
had led the assault, and from that time he seemed to confide in him,
and whispered to him his plans, and his little spites against his
comrades, and his longing for his old life; for he made no doubt of
getting well. And so he slept for a few hours (the doctor came in and
looked at him asleep, and shook his head), and woke about noon, and
asked for something to drink; but his lips were quite black, and
Charlie saw that he was somehow changed even before the man told him
he was conscious of it himself.
“It’s all up, Mr. Kettering,” said he, in a husky whisper, “it’s all
up with me this turn. What’s the time o’ day now? Twelve o’clock? I
shall be a dead man at sundown;” and then he told Charlie how he had
received a warning, and he knew there was no hope “_here_ nor yet
_yonder_,” he said, with a ghastly smile; for he had dreamt that he
was standing sentry on a rampart over against the ocean, and the sun
was setting in a golden haze, and the waters gleamed like molten gold;
and he laid his firelock down, and rested and gazed with delight upon
the scene; but a girl rose from the waves, far off between him and the
sunset, and wrung the water from her long black hair, and pressed it
with both hands to her throat, and seemed to staunch a ghastly wound
that gaped at him even at that distance, and ever the blood flowed and
flowed, and the sea became crimson, and the sun went down in blood-red
streaks, and the sky darkened to the colour of blood, and everywhere
there was blood, blood, nothing but blood; and the girl screamed to
him in agony, saying, “Pray! pray!” and he knew that if he could speak
a prayer before the sun went down he might be saved; and he strove and
gasped, but he was choked; and still the sun dipped and dipped, and a
fiery rim only was left above the sea, and still he could not speak;
and it went down too; and the girl tossed up her arms with a shriek,
and all was dark; and then with a convulsive effort he cried aloud,
and his mouth was full of blood--and so he awoke. “And I shall never
stand sentry nor carry a firelock again,” he said; and from that time
he spoke no more, but folded his hands and lay quiet, as if asleep.
The afternoon shadows lengthened on the hospital-wall--the evening
drew near--at half-past six the dying man muttered a request for
drink--at seven the sun went down, and he was dead!--peacefully,
quietly he parted, like a child going to its rest. Charlie never knew
it was all over till the doctor came; and they took him away and
buried him, and there was a vacant place by Charlie’s bedside; and so
Her Majesty lost a soldier, and a recruit was enlisted and sent to the
_dépôt_ at home, and his place in the ranks was filled, and he was
forgotten, just as peers, poets, conquerors, sovereigns, and sages are
forgotten, only a little sooner--for the grim Reaper makes no
distinction, and the monarch oak of the forest perishes as surely as
the weed by the wayside.
* * * * *
Week after week Charlie lay in that weary bed. One by one patients
became convalescents, and convalescents went back to their duty, and
still he was not allowed to move. A fresh action was fought, and more
wounded were brought in, and yet Charlie was unfit for duty--in fact,
was unable to rise. The doctor was hopeful and good-humoured, as
doctors generally are, not being invalids themselves, and told him “he
was going on most satisfactorily, and all that was wanted was a little
time, and patience and quiet;” but at length even he hinted at
sick-leave, and talked of a return to England, and the necessity of
care and avoidance of exposure to weather, even after the wounds were
healed; and Charlie’s dearest hopes of rejoining his regiment, and
tasting once more the excitement of warfare, were dashed to the
ground. The kind doctor had written to his patient’s friends in
England, and assured them of his safety--on the rejoicings thereby
created at Newton-Hollows we need not now enlarge--so that all anxiety
on that score had passed away, and there was nothing to do now but to
get well and embark for home. What a tedious process that same getting
well was! Charlie began to pine, and grow dispirited and nervous. He
had no friends, no one to speak to but the doctor; and the gallant
boy, who would have faced a whole tribe of Kaffirs single-handed and
never moved an eyelash, was now so completely weakened and broken down
that he would lie and weep for hours, like a girl, he knew not why. At
last he began to give way to despondency altogether. One day in
particular, when the ward was again emptied of its recovered inmates,
and the boy was left quite alone in that long, dull room, he lost
heart entirely. “I shall never get well now,” he said aloud in his
despair; “I shall never see the bright blue sky again, nor the
regiment, nor Blanche, nor Mrs. Delaval, nor any of them--sinking,
sinking, day by day, and scarcely twenty! ’Tis a hard lot to die like
a dog, in such a hole as this. Ah! Frank always talked of death as the
ever-present certainty, and the next world will be a happier one than
this, I do believe, though this has been a happy one to me. I used to
think I shouldn’t mind dying the least--no more I should, in the free,
open air, leading a squadron, with the men hurraing behind me; or
falling neck and crop into a grass-field with ‘Haphazard,’ alongside
the leading hounds.” (Charlie was barely twenty, and to him the
hunting-field was just such an arena of glory as was the tilt-yard to
a knight of the olden time.) “No, I could die like a man at home, but
to rot away here in a hospital, thousands of miles from merry England,
without a friend near me, it’s hard to bear it pluckily, as it ought
to be borne. Frank! Frank! I want some of your dogged resolution now.
If I could see your dear old face once more, and shake you by the
hand, I should be a different fellow. Ah! it’s too late now; I shall
never see you again, and you will hardly know what became of me. But
you won’t forget me, old boy, will you?” and poor Charlie gave way
once more, and turned his wet cheek down upon his pillow, as he heard
the doctor’s step along the passage; for he was ashamed of his
weakness, though he knew it was but the effect of his wounds. Hark!
there is some one with him; the doctor is bringing a visitor to
see him. He knows that firm, heavy tread. Is it one of his
brother-officers?--how kind of them! No, that is no dragoon’s step: it
is familiar, too, and yet he cannot remember where he has heard it. Is
he dreaming? Over the doctor’s shoulder peers a well-known face,
embrowned with travel, but with the old kind, frank expression beaming
through those manly features. In another instant Charlie is clasping
Frank Hardingstone’s strong hand in his own two emaciated ones, and
after an abortive “How are ye, old fellow?” and a vain effort to laugh
off his emotion, is sobbing once more like a woman or a child.
“So you came out all the way from England on purpose to look after
me,” said he, when the first burst of feeling had subsided; “how like
you, old Frank--how kind of you!--and what did they say about me at
home? and wasn’t Blanche sorry for me when she thought I was killed?
and did Uncle Baldwin and--and Mrs. Delaval read the dispatch? and
where are they all now? You know I’m to have sick-leave, and we’ll go
back together. When does the doctor think I shall be able to sail?
Frank, he’s a shocking muff; I’ve been in this bed for thirteen weeks,
but I shall get up to-day--of course he’ll let me get up to-day;” and
so Charlie ran on, and Frank was soon forcibly withdrawn from the
patient, whose over-excitement was likely to be as prejudicial as his
late despondency; but the maligned doctor whispered to him as he went
out, “Your arrival, sir, has done more for my patient than the whole
pharmacopoeia: he’ll be well now in a fortnight.”
The doctor was right. From that day Charlie began to mend. Many a long
hour Frank sat by his bedside, and talked to him of home, and of his
prospects, and of his cousin (honest Frank), and settled over and over
again their plans of departure, to which Charlie was never tired of
listening; and after every one of these visits the boy’s appetite was
better and his sleep sounder, and in a few days he got out of bed, and
then he was moved into the hospital-sergeant’s room, who readily
vacated his apartment for the young officer; and then he got out on
Frank’s arm into the summer air, for which he had so pined--pleasant
it was, but yet not _so_ pleasant as he thought it would be, when he
lay in that dull ward; and then his voracity became something
ridiculous, and at the end of about three weeks Frank helped him up
the companion-way of the _Phlegethon_, 200 horse-power,
homeward-bound; and although wasted to a skeleton, his large eyes
looked bright and clear, and now that he was really on his way to
England he was well.