"The race is like a child, as yet

Too young for all things to be set

Plainly before him with no let

Or hindrance meet for his degree;

But nevertheless by much too old

Not to perceive that men withhold

More of the story than is told,

And so infer a mystery.

"If the Celestials daily fly

With messages on missions high,

And float, our masts and turrets nigh,

Conversing on Heaven's great intents;

What wonder hints of coming things,

Whereto man's hope and yearning clings,

Should drop like feathers from their wings

And give us vague presentiments?

"And as the waxing moon can take

The tidal waters in her wake,

And lead them round and round to break

Obedient to her drawings dim;

So may the movements of His mind,

The first Great Father of mankind,

Affect with answering movements blind,

And draw the souls that breathe by Him.

"We had a message long ago

That like a river peace should flow,

And Eden bloom again below.

We heard, and we began to wait:

Full soon that message men forgot;

Yet waiting is their destined lot,

And waiting for they know not what

They strive with yearnings passionate.

"Regret and faith alike enchain;

There was a loss, there comes a gain;

We stand at fault betwixt the twain,

And that is veiled for which we pant.

Our lives are short, our ten times seven;

We think the councils held in heaven

Sit long, ere yet that blissful leaven

Work peace amongst the militant.

"Then we blame God that sin should be;

Adam began it at the tree,

'The woman whom THOU gavest me;

And we adopt his dark device.

O long Thou tarriest! come and reign,

And bring forgiveness in Thy train,

And give us in our hands again

The apples of Thy Paradise."

"Far-seeing heart! if that be all

The happy things that did not fall,"

I sighed, "from every coppice call

They never from that garden went.

Behold their joy, so comfort thee,

Behold the blossom and the bee,

For they are yet as good and free

As when poor Eve was innocent

"But reason thus: 'If we sank low,

If the lost garden we forego,

Each in his day, nor ever know

But in our poet souls its face;

Yet we may rise until we reach

A height untold of in its speech--

A lesson that it could not teach

Learn in this darker dwelling-place.

"And reason on: 'We take the spoil;

Loss made us poets, and the soil

Taught us great patience in our toil,

And life is kin to God through death.

Christ were not One with us but so,

And if bereft of Him we go;

Dearer the heavenly mansions grow,

HIS home, to man that wandereth.'

"Content thee so, and ease thy smart."

With that she slept again, my heart,

And I admired and took my part

With crowds of happy things the while:

With open velvet butterflies

That swung and spread their peacock eyes,

As if they cared no more to rise

From off their beds of camomile.

The blackcaps in an orchard met,

Praising the berries while they ate:

The finch that flew her beak to whet

Before she joined them on the tree;

The water mouse among the reeds--

His bright eyes glancing black as beads,

So happy with a bunch of seeds--

I felt their gladness heartily.

But I came on, I smelt the hay,

And up the hills I took my way,

And down them still made holiday,

And walked, and wearied not a whit;

But ever with the lane I went

Until it dropped with steep descent,

Cut deep into the rock, a tent

Of maple branches roofing it.

Adown the rock small runlets wept,

And reckless ivies leaned and crept,

And little spots of sunshine slept

On its brown steeps and made them fair;

And broader beams athwart it shot,

Where martins cheeped in many a knot,

For they had ta'en a sandy plot

And scooped another Petra there.

And deeper down, hemmed in and hid

From upper light and life amid

The swallows gossiping, I thrid

Its mazes, till the dipping land

Sank to the level of my lane.

That was the last hill of the chain,

And fair below I saw the plain

That seemed cold cheer to reprimand.

Half-drowned in sleepy peace it lay,

As satiate with the boundless play

Of sunshine in its green array.

And clear-cut hills of gloomy blue,

To keep it safe rose up behind,

As with a charmèd ring to bind

The grassy sea, where clouds might find

A place to bring their shadows to.

I said, and blest that pastoral grace,

"How sweet thou art, thou sunny place!

Thy God approves thy smiling face:"

But straight my heart put in her word;

She said, "Albeit thy face I bless,

There have been times, sweet wilderness,

When I have wished to love thee less,

Such pangs thy smile administered."

But, lo! I reached a field of wheat,

And by its gate full clear and sweet

A workman sang, while at his feet

Played a young child, all life and stir--

A three years' child, with rosy lip,

Who in the song had partnership,

Made happy with each falling chip

Dropped by the busy carpenter.

This, reared a new gate for the old,

And loud the tuneful measure rolled,

But stopped as I came up to hold

Some kindly talk of passing things.

Brave were his eyes, and frank his mien;

Of all men's faces, calm or keen,

A better I have never seen

In all my lonely wanderings.

And how it was I scarce can tell,

We seemed to please each other well;

I lingered till a noonday bell

Had sounded, and his task was done.

An oak had screened us from the heat;

And 'neath it in the standing wheat,

A cradle and a fair retreat,

Full sweetly slept the little one.

The workman rested from his stroke,

And manly were the words he spoke,

Until the smiling babe awoke

And prayed to him for milk and food.

Then to a runlet forth he went,

And brought a wallet from the bent,

And bade me to the meal, intent

I should not quit his neighborhood.

"For here," said he, "are bread and beer,

And meat enough to make good cheer;

Sir, eat with me, and have no fear,

For none upon my work depend,

Saving this child; and I may say

That I am rich, for every day

I put by somewhat; therefore stay,

And to such eating condescend."

We ate. The child--child fair to see--

Began to cling about his knee,

And he down leaning fatherly

Received some softly-prattled prayer;

He smiled as if to list were balm,

And with his labor-hardened palm

Pushed from the baby-forehead calm

Those shining locks that clustered there.

The rosy mouth made fresh essay--

"O would he sing, or would he play?"

I looked, my thought would make its way--

"Fair is your child of face and limb,

The round blue eyes full sweetly shine."

He answered me with glance benign--

"Ay, Sir; but he is none of mine.

Although I set great store by him."

With that, as if his heart was fain

To open--nathless not complain--

He let my quiet questions gain

His story: "Not of kin to me,"

Repeating; "but asleep, awake,

For worse, for better, him I take,

To cherish for my dead wife's sake,

And count him as her legacy.

"I married with the sweetest lass

That ever stepped on meadow grass;

That ever at her looking-glass

Some pleasure took, some natural care;

That ever swept a cottage floor

And worked all day, nor e'er gave o'er

Till eve, then watched beside the door

Till her good man should meet her there.

"But I lost all in its fresh prime;

My wife fell ill before her time--

Just as the bells began to chime

One Sunday morn. By next day's light

Her little babe was born and dead,

And she, unconscious what she said,

With feeble hands about her spread,

Sought it with yearnings infinite.

"With mother-longing still beguiled,

And lost in fever-fancies wild,

She piteously bemoaned her child

That we had stolen, she said, away.

And ten sad days she sighed to me,

'I cannot rest until I see

My pretty one! I think that he

Smiled in my face but yesterday.'

"Then she would change, and faintly try

To sing some tender lullaby;

And 'Ah!' would moan, 'if I should die,

Who, sweetest babe, would cherish thee?'

Then weep, 'My pretty boy is grown;

With tender feet on the cold stone

He stands, for he can stand alone,

And no one leads him motherly.'

"Then she with dying movements slow

Would seem to knit, or seem to sew:

'His feet are bare, he must not go

Unshod:' and as her death drew on,

'O little baby,' she would sigh;

'My little child, I cannot die

Till I have you to slumber nigh--

You, you to set mine eyes upon.'

"When she spake thus, and moaning lay,

They said, 'She cannot pass away,

So sore she longs:' and as the day

Broke on the hills, I left her side.

Mourning along this lane I went;

Some travelling folk had pitched their tent

Up yonder: there a woman, bent

With age, sat meanly canopied.

"A twelvemonths' child was at her side:

'Whose infant may that be?' I cried.

'His that will own him,' she replied;

'His mother's dead, no worse could be.'

'Since you can give--or else I erred--

See, you are taken at your word,'

Quoth I; 'That child is mine; I heard,

And own him! Rise, and give him me.'

"She rose amazed, but cursed me too;

She could not hold such luck for true,

But gave him soon, with small ado.

I laid him by my Lucy's side:

Close to her face that baby crept,

And stroked it, and the sweet soul wept;

Then, while upon her arm he slept,

She passed, for she was satisfied.

"I loved her well, I wept her sore,

And when her funeral left my door

I thought that I should never more

Feel any pleasure near me glow;

But I have learned, though this I had,

'Tis sometimes natural to be glad,

And no man can be always sad

Unless he wills to have it so.

"Oh, I had heavy nights at first,

And daily wakening was the worst:

For then my grief arose, and burst

Like something fresh upon my head;

Yet when less keen it seemed to grow,

I was not pleased--I wished to go

Mourning adown this vale of woe,

For all my life uncomforted.

"I grudged myself the lightsome air,

That makes man cheerful unaware;

When comfort came, I did not care

To take it in, to feel it stir:

And yet God took with me his plan,

And now for my appointed span

I think I am a happier man

For having wed and wept for her.

"Because no natural tie remains,

On this small thing I spend my gains;

God makes me love him for my pains,

And binds me so to wholesome care

I would not lose from my past life

That happy year, that happy wife!

Yet now I wage no useless strife

With feelings blithe and debonair.

"I have the courage to be gay,

Although she lieth lapped away

Under the daisies, for I say,

'Thou wouldst be glad if thou couldst see':

My constant thought makes manifest

I have not what I love the best,

But I must thank God for the rest

While I hold heaven a verity."

He rose, upon his shoulder set

The child, and while with vague regret

We parted, pleased that we had met,

My heart did with herself confer;

With wholesome shame she did repent

Her reasonings idly eloquent,

And said, "I might be more content:

But God go with the carpenter."

THE STAR'S MONUMENT.

IN THE CONCLUDING PART OF A DISCOURSE ON FAME.

(_He thinks._)

If there be memory in the world to come,

If thought recur to SOME THINGS silenced here,

Then shall the deep heart be no longer dumb,

But find expression in that happier sphere;

It shall not be denied their utmost sum

Of love, to speak without or fault or fear,

But utter to the harp with changes sweet

Words that, forbidden still, then heaven were incomplete.

(_He speaks._)

Now let us talk about the ancient days,

And things which happened long before our birth:

It is a pity to lament that praise

Should be no shadow in the train of worth.

What is it, Madam, that your heart dismays?

Why murmur at the course of this vast earth?

Think rather of the work than of the praise;

Come, we will talk about the ancient days.

There was a Poet, Madam, once (said he);

I will relate his story to you now.

While through the branches of this apple-tree

Some spots of sunshine flicker on your brow;

While every flower hath on its breast a bee,

And every bird in stirring doth endow

The grass with falling blooms that smoothly glide,

As ships drop down a river with the tide.

For telling of his tale no fitter place

Then this old orchard, sloping to the west;

Through its pink dome of blossom I can trace

Some overlying azure; for the rest,

These flowery branches round us interlace;

The ground is hollowed like a mossy nest:

Who talks of fame while the religious Spring

Offers the incense of her blossoming?

There was a Poet, Madam, once (said he),

Who, while he walked at sundown in a lane,

Took to his heart the hope that destiny

Had singled him this guerdon to obtain,

That by the power of his sweet minstrelsy

Some hearts for truth and goodness he should gain.

And charm some grovellers to uplift their eyes

And suddenly wax conscious of the skies.

"Master, good e'en to ye!" a woodman said,

Who the low hedge was trimming with his shears.

"This hour is fine"--the Poet bowed his head.

"More fine," he thought, "O friend! to me appears

The sunset than to you; finer the spread

Of orange lustre through these azure spheres,

Where little clouds lie still, like flocks of sheep,

Or vessels sailing in God's other deep.

"O finer far! What work so high as mine,

Interpreter betwixt the world and man,

Nature's ungathered pearls to set and shrine,

The mystery she wraps her in to scan;

Her unsyllabic voices to combine,

And serve her with such love as poets can;

With mortal words, her chant of praise to bind,

Then die, and leave the poem to mankind?

"O fair, O fine, O lot to be desired!

Early and late my heart appeals to me,

And says, 'O work, O will--Thou man, be fired

To earn this lot,'--she says, 'I would not be

A worker for mine OWN bread, or one hired

For mine OWN profit. O, I would be free

To work for others; love so earned of them

Should be my wages and my diadem.

"'Then when I died I should not fall,' says she,

'Like dropping flowers that no man noticeth,

But like a great branch of some stately tree

Rent in a tempest, and flung down to death,

Thick with green leafage--so that piteously

Each passer by that ruin shuddereth,

And saith, The gap this branch hath left is wide;

The loss thereof can never be supplied.'"

But, Madam, while the Poet pondered so,

Toward the leafy hedge he turned his eye,

And saw two slender branches that did grow,

And from it rising spring and flourish high:

Their tops were twined together fast, and, lo,

Their shadow crossed the path as he went by--

The shadow of a wild rose and a brier,

And it was shaped in semblance like a lyre.

In sooth, a lyre! and as the soft air played,

Those branches stirred, but did not disunite.

"O emblem meet for me!" the Poet said;

"Ay, I accept and own thee for my right;

The shadowy lyre across my feet is laid,

Distinct though frail, and clear with crimson light,

Fast is it twined to bear the windy strain,

And, supple, it will bend and rise again.

"This lyre is cast across the dusty way,

The common path that common men pursue,

I crave like blessing for my shadowy lay,

Life's trodden paths with beauty to renew,

And cheer the eve of many a toil-stained day.

Light it, old sun, wet it, thou common dew,

That 'neath men's feet its image still may be

While yet it waves above them, living lyre, like thee!"

But even as the Poet spoke, behold

He lifted up his face toward the sky;

The ruddy sun dipt under the gray wold,

His shadowy lyre was gone; and, passing by,

The woodman lifting up his shears, was bold

Their temper on those branches twain to try,

And all their loveliness and leafage sweet

Fell in the pathway, at the Poet's feet.

"Ah! my fair emblem that I chose," quoth he,

"That for myself I coveted but now,

Too soon, methinks, them hast been false to me;

The lyre from pathway fades, the light from brow."

Then straightway turned he from it hastily,

As dream that waking sense will disallow;

And while the highway heavenward paled apace,

He went on westward to his dwelling-place.

He went on steadily, while far and fast

The summer darkness dropped upon the world,

A gentle air among the cloudlets passed

And fanned away their crimson; then it curled

The yellow poppies in the field, and cast

A dimness on the grasses, for it furled

Their daisies, and swept out the purple stain

That eve had left upon the pastoral plain.

He reached his city. Lo! the darkened street

Where he abode was full of gazing crowds;

He heard the muffled tread of many feet;

A multitude stood gazing at the clouds.

"What mark ye there," said he, "and wherefore meet?

Only a passing mist the heaven o'ershrouds;

It breaks, it parts, it drifts like scattered spars--

What lies behind it but the nightly stars?"

Then did the gazing crowd to him aver

They sought a lamp in heaven whose light was hid:

For that in sooth an old Astronomer

Down from his roof had rushed into their mid,

Frighted, and fain with others to confer,

That he had cried, "O sirs!"--and upward bid

Them gaze--"O sirs, a light is quenched afar;

Look up, my masters, we have lost a star!"

The people pointed, and the Poet's eyes

Flew upward, where a gleaming sisterhood

Swam in the dewy heaven. The very skies

Were mutable; for all-amazed he stood

To see that truly not in any wise

He could behold them as of old, nor could

His eyes receive the whole whereof he wot,

But when he told them over, one WAS NOT.

While yet he gazed and pondered reverently,

The fickle folk began to move away.

"It is but one star less for us to see;

And what does one star signify?" quoth they:

"The heavens are full of them." "But, ah!" said he,

"That star was bright while yet she lasted." "Ay!"

They answered: "Praise her, Poet, an' ye will:

Some are now shining that are brighter still."

"Poor star! to be disparagèd so soon

On her withdrawal," thus the Poet sighed;

"That men should miss, and straight deny her noon

Its brightness!" But the people in their pride

Said, "How are we beholden? 'twas no boon

She gave. Her nature 'twas to shine so wide:

She could not choose but shine, nor could we know

Such star had ever dwelt in heaven but so."

The Poet answered sadly, "That is true!"

And then he thought upon unthankfulness;

While some went homeward; and the residue,

Reflecting that the stars are numberless,

Mourned that man's daylight hours should be so few,

So short the shining that his path may bless:

To nearer themes then tuned their willing lips,

And thought no more upon the star's eclipse.

But he, the Poet, could not rest content

Till he had found that old Astronomer;

Therefore at midnight to his house he went

And prayed him be his tale's interpreter.

And yet upon the heaven his eyes he bent,

Hearing the marvel; yet he sought for her

That was a wanting, in the hope her face

Once more might fill its reft abiding-place.

Then said the old Astronomer: "My son.

I sat alone upon my roof to-night;

I saw the stars come forth, and scarcely shun

To fringe the edges of the western light;

I marked those ancient clusters one by one,

The same that blessed our old forefather's sight

For God alone is older--none but He

Can charge the stars with mutability:

"The elders of the night, the steadfast stars,

The old, old stars which God has let us see,

That they might be our soul's auxiliars,

And help us to the truth how young we be--

God's youngest, latest born, as if, some spars

And a little clay being over of them--He

Had made our world and us thereof, yet given,

To humble us, the sight of His great heaven.

"But ah! my son, to-night mine eyes have seen

The death of light, the end of old renown;

A shrinking back of glory that had been,

A dread eclipse before the Eternal's frown.

How soon a little grass will grow between

These eyes and those appointed to look down

Upon a world that was not made on high

Till the last scenes of their long empiry!

"To-night that shining cluster now despoiled

Lay in day's wake a perfect sisterhood;

Sweet was its light to me that long had toiled,

It gleamed and trembled o'er the distant wood,

Blown in a pile the clouds from it recoiled,

Cool twilight up the sky her way made good;

I saw, but not believed--it was so strange--

That one of those same stars had suffered change.

"The darkness gathered, and methought she spread,

Wrapped in a reddish haze that waxed and waned;

But notwithstanding to myself I said--

'The stars are changeless; sure some mote hath stained

Mine eyes, and her fair glory minishèd.'

Of age and failing vision I complained,

And I bought 'some vapor in the heavens doth swim,

That makes her look so large and yet so dim.'

"But I gazed round, and all her lustrous peers

In her red presence showed but wan and white

For like a living coal beheld through tears

She glowed and quivered with a gloomy light:

Methought she trembled, as all sick through fears,

Helpless, appalled, appealing to the night;

Like one who throws his arms up to the sky

And bows down suffering, hopeless of reply.

"At length, as if an everlasting Hand

Had taken hold upon her in her place,

And swiftly, like a golden grain of sand,

Through all the deep infinitudes of space

Was drawing her--God's truth as here I stand--

Backward and inward to itself; her face

Fast lessened, lessened, till it looked no more

Than smallest atom on a boundless shore.

"And she that was so fair, I saw her lie,

The smallest thing in God's great firmament,

Till night was lit the darkest, and on high

Her sisters glittered, though her light was spent;

I strained, to follow her, each aching eye,

So swiftly at her Maker's will she went;

I looked again--I looked--the star was gone,

And nothing marked in heaven where she had shone."

"Gone!" said the Poet, "and about to be

Forgotten: O, how sad a fate is hers!"

"How is it sad, my son?" all reverently

The old man answered; "though she ministers

No longer with her lamp to me and thee,

She has fulfilled her mission. God transfers

Or dims her ray; yet was she blest as bright,

For all her life was spent in giving light."

"Her mission she fulfilled assuredly,"

The Poet cried; "but, O unhappy star!

None praise and few will bear in memory

The name she went by. O, from far, from far

Comes down, methinks, her mournful voice to me,

Full of regrets that men so thankless are."

So said, he told that old Astronomer

All that the gazing crowd had said of her.

And he went on to speak in bitter wise,

As one who seems to tell another's fate,

But feels that nearer meaning underlies,

And points its sadness to his own estate:

"If such be the reward," he said with sighs,

"Envy to earn for love, for goodness hate--

If such be thy reward, hard case is thine!

It had been better for thee not to shine.

"If to reflect a light that is divine

Makes that which doth reflect it better seen,

And if to see is to contemn the shrine,

'Twere surely better it had never been:

It had been better for her NOT TO SHINE,

And for me NOT TO SING. Better, I ween,

For us to yield no more that radiance bright,

For them, to lack the light than scorn the light."

Strange words were those from Poet lips (said he);

And then he paused and sighed, and turned to look

Upon the lady's downcast eyes, and see

How fast the honey-bees in settling shook

Those apple blossoms on her from the tree:

He watched her busy lingers as they took

And slipped the knotted thread, and thought how much

He would have given that hand to hold--to touch.

At length, as suddenly become aware

Of this long pause, she lifted up her face,

And he withdrew his eyes--she looked so fair

And cold, he thought, in her unconscious grace.

"Ah! little dreams she of the restless care,"

He thought, "that makes my heart to throb apace:

Though we this morning part, the knowledge sends

No thrill to her calm pulse--we are but FRIENDS."

Ah! turret clock (he thought), I would thy hand

Were hid behind yon towering maple-trees!

Ah! tell-tale shadow, but one moment stand--

Dark shadow--fast advancing to my knees;

Ah! foolish heart (he thought), that vainly planned

By feigning gladness to arrive at ease;

Ah! painful hour, yet pain to think it ends;

I must remember that we are but friends.

And while the knotted thread moved to and fro,

In sweet regretful tones that lady said:

"It seemeth that the fame you would forego

The Poet whom you tell of coveted;

But I would fain, methinks, his story know.

And was he loved?" said she, "or was he wed?

And had he friends?" "One friend, perhaps," said he,

"But for the rest, I pray you let it be."

Ah! little bird (he thought), most patient bird,

Breasting thy speckled eggs the long day through,

By so much as my reason is preferred

Above thine instinct, I my work would do

Better than thou dost thine. Thou hast not stirred

This hour thy wing. Ah! russet bird, I sue

For a like patience to wear through these hours--

Bird on thy nest among the apple-flowers.

I will not speak--I will not speak to thee,

My star! and soon to be my lost, lost star.

The sweetest, first, that ever shone on me,

So high above me and beyond so far;

I can forego thee, but not bear to see

My love, like rising mist, thy lustre mar:

That were a base return for thy sweet light.

Shine, though I never more-shall see that thou art bright.

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