TICKETS, PLEASE

There is in the Midlands a single-line tramway system which boldly

leaves the county town and plunges off into the black, industrial

countryside, up hill and down dale, through the long ugly villages of

workmen’s houses, over canals and railways, past churches perched high

and nobly over the smoke and shadows, through stark, grimy cold little

market-places, tilting away in a rush past cinemas and shops down to

the hollow where the collieries are, then up again, past a little rural

church, under the ash trees, on in a rush to the terminus, the last

little ugly place of industry, the cold little town that shivers on the

edge of the wild, gloomy country beyond. There the green and creamy

coloured tram-car seems to pause and purr with curious satisfaction.

But in a few minutes—the clock on the turret of the Co-operative

Wholesale Society’s Shops gives the time—away it starts once more on

the adventure. Again there are the reckless swoops downhill, bouncing

the loops: again the chilly wait in the hill-top market-place: again

the breathless slithering round the precipitous drop under the church:

again the patient halts at the loops, waiting for the outcoming car: so

on and on, for two long hours, till at last the city looms beyond the

fat gas-works, the narrow factories draw near, we are in the sordid

streets of the great town, once more we sidle to a standstill at our

terminus, abashed by the great crimson and cream-coloured city cars,

but still perky, jaunty, somewhat dare-devil, green as a jaunty sprig

of parsley out of a black colliery garden.

To ride on these cars is always an adventure. Since we are in war-time,

the drivers are men unfit for active service: cripples and hunchbacks.

So they have the spirit of the devil in them. The ride becomes a

steeple-chase. Hurray! we have leapt in a clear jump over the canal

bridges—now for the four-lane corner. With a shriek and a trail of

sparks we are clear again. To be sure, a tram often leaps the rails—but

what matter! It sits in a ditch till other trams come to haul it out.

It is quite common for a car, packed with one solid mass of living

people, to come to a dead halt in the midst of unbroken blackness, the

heart of nowhere on a dark night, and for the driver and the girl

conductor to call, “All get off—car’s on fire!” Instead, however, of

rushing out in a panic, the passengers stolidly reply: “Get on—get on!

We’re not coming out. We’re stopping where we are. Push on, George.” So

till flames actually appear.

The reason for this reluctance to dismount is that the nights are

howlingly cold, black, and windswept, and a car is a haven of refuge.

From village to village the miners travel, for a change of cinema, of

girl, of pub. The trams are desperately packed. Who is going to risk

himself in the black gulf outside, to wait perhaps an hour for another

tram, then to see the forlorn notice “Depot Only,” because there is

something wrong! Or to greet a unit of three bright cars all so tight

with people that they sail past with a howl of derision. Trams that

pass in the night.

This, the most dangerous tram-service in England, as the authorities

themselves declare, with pride, is entirely conducted by girls, and

driven by rash young men, a little crippled, or by delicate young men,

who creep forward in terror. The girls are fearless young hussies. In

their ugly blue uniform, skirts up to their knees, shapeless old peaked

caps on their heads, they have all the _sang-froid_ of an old

non-commissioned officer. With a tram packed with howling colliers,

roaring hymns downstairs and a sort of antiphony of obscenities

upstairs, the lasses are perfectly at their ease. They pounce on the

youths who try to evade their ticket-machine. They push off the men at

the end of their distance. They are not going to be done in the eye—not

they. They fear nobody—and everybody fears them.

“Hello, Annie!”

“Hello, Ted!”

“Oh, mind my corn, Miss Stone. It’s my belief you’ve got a heart of

stone, for you’ve trod on it again.”

“You should keep it in your pocket,” replies Miss Stone, and she goes

sturdily upstairs in her high boots.

“Tickets, please.”

She is peremptory, suspicious, and ready to hit first. She can hold her

own against ten thousand. The step of that tram-car is her Thermopylæ.

Therefore, there is a certain wild romance aboard these cars—and in the

sturdy bosom of Annie herself. The time for soft romance is in the

morning, between ten o’clock and one, when things are rather slack:

that is, except market-day and Saturday. Thus Annie has time to look

about her. Then she often hops off her car and into a shop where she

has spied something, while the driver chats in the main road. There is

very good feeling between the girls and the drivers. Are they not

companions in peril, shipments aboard this careering vessel of a

tram-car, for ever rocking on the waves of a stormy land?

Then, also, during the easy hours, the inspectors are most in evidence.

For some reason, everybody employed in this tram-service is young:

there are no grey heads. It would not do. Therefore the inspectors are

of the right age, and one, the chief, is also good-looking. See him

stand on a wet, gloomy morning, in his long oil-skin, his peaked cap

well down over his eyes, waiting to board a car. His face is ruddy, his

small brown moustache is weathered, he has a faint impudent smile.

Fairly tall and agile, even in his waterproof, he springs aboard a car

and greets Annie.

“Hello, Annie! Keeping the wet out?”

“Trying to.”

There are only two people in the car. Inspecting is soon over. Then for

a long and impudent chat on the foot-board, a good, easy, twelve-mile

chat.

The inspector’s name is John Thomas Raynor—always called John Thomas,

except sometimes, in malice, Coddy. His face sets in fury when he is

addressed, from a distance, with this abbreviation. There is

considerable scandal about John Thomas in half a dozen villages. He

flirts with the girl conductors in the morning, and walks out with them

in the dark night, when they leave their tram-car at the depôt. Of

course, the girls quit the service frequently. Then he flirts and walks

out with the newcomer: always providing she is sufficiently attractive,

and that she will consent to walk. It is remarkable, however, that most

of the girls are quite comely, they are all young, and this roving life

aboard the car gives them a sailor’s dash and recklessness. What matter

how they behave when the ship is in port. Tomorrow they will be aboard

again.

Annie, however, was something of a Tartar, and her sharp tongue had

kept John Thomas at arm’s length for many months. Perhaps, therefore,

she liked him all the more: for he always came up smiling, with

impudence. She watched him vanquish one girl, then another. She could

tell by the movement of his mouth and eyes, when he flirted with her in

the morning, that he had been walking out with this lass, or the other,

the night before. A fine cock-of-the-walk he was. She could sum him up

pretty well.

In this subtle antagonism they knew each other like old friends, they

were as shrewd with one another almost as man and wife. But Annie had

always kept him sufficiently at arm’s length. Besides, she had a boy of

her own.

The Statutes fair, however, came in November, at Bestwood. It happened

that Annie had the Monday night off. It was a drizzling ugly night, yet

she dressed herself up and went to the fair ground. She was alone, but

she expected soon to find a pal of some sort.

The roundabouts were veering round and grinding out their music, the

side shows were making as much commotion as possible. In the cocoanut

shies there were no cocoanuts, but artificial war-time substitutes,

which the lads declared were fastened into the irons. There was a sad

decline in brilliance and luxury. None the less, the ground was muddy

as ever, there was the same crush, the press of faces lighted up by the

flares and the electric lights, the same smell of naphtha and a few

fried potatoes, and of electricity.

Who should be the first to greet Miss Annie on the showground but John

Thomas? He had a black overcoat buttoned up to his chin, and a tweed

cap pulled down over his brows, his face between was ruddy and smiling

and handy as ever. She knew so well the way his mouth moved.

She was very glad to have a “boy”. To be at the Statutes without a

fellow was no fun. Instantly, like the gallant he was, he took her on

the dragons, grim-toothed, round-about switchbacks. It was not nearly

so exciting as a tram-car actually. But, then, to be seated in a

shaking, green dragon, uplifted above the sea of bubble faces,

careering in a rickety fashion in the lower heavens, whilst John Thomas

leaned over her, his cigarette in his mouth, was after all the right

style. She was a plump, quick, alive little creature. So she was quite

excited and happy.

John Thomas made her stay on for the next round. And therefore she

could hardly for shame repulse him when he put his arm round her and

drew her a little nearer to him, in a very warm and cuddly manner.

Besides, he was fairly discreet, he kept his movement as hidden as

possible. She looked down, and saw that his red, clean hand was out of

sight of the crowd. And they knew each other so well. So they warmed up

to the fair.

After the dragons they went on the horses. John Thomas paid each time,

so she could but be complaisant. He, of course, sat astride on the

outer horse—named “Black Bess”—and she sat sideways, towards him, on

the inner horse—named “Wildfire”. But of course John Thomas was not

going to sit discreetly on “Black Bess”, holding the brass bar. Round

they spun and heaved, in the light. And round he swung on his wooden

steed, flinging one leg across her mount, and perilously tipping up and

down, across the space, half lying back, laughing at her. He was

perfectly happy; she was afraid her hat was on one side, but she was

excited.

He threw quoits on a table, and won for her two large, pale-blue

hat-pins. And then, hearing the noise of the cinemas, announcing

another performance, they climbed the boards and went in.

Of course, during these performances pitch darkness falls from time to

time, when the machine goes wrong. Then there is a wild whooping, and a

loud smacking of simulated kisses. In these moments John Thomas drew

Annie towards him. After all, he had a wonderfully warm, cosy way of

holding a girl with his arm, he seemed to make such a nice fit. And,

after all, it was pleasant to be so held: so very comforting and cosy

and nice. He leaned over her and she felt his breath on her hair; she

knew he wanted to kiss her on the lips. And, after all, he was so warm

and she fitted in to him so softly. After all, she wanted him to touch

her lips.

But the light sprang up; she also started electrically, and put her hat

straight. He left his arm lying nonchalantly behind her. Well, it was

fun, it was exciting to be at the Statutes with John Thomas.

When the cinema was over they went for a walk across the dark, damp

fields. He had all the arts of love-making. He was especially good at

holding a girl, when he sat with her on a stile in the black, drizzling

darkness. He seemed to be holding her in space, against his own warmth

and gratification. And his kisses were soft and slow and searching.

So Annie walked out with John Thomas, though she kept her own boy

dangling in the distance. Some of the tram-girls chose to be huffy. But

there, you must take things as you find them, in this life.

There was no mistake about it, Annie liked John Thomas a good deal. She

felt so rich and warm in herself whenever he was near. And John Thomas

really liked Annie, more than usual. The soft, melting way in which she

could flow into a fellow, as if she melted into his very bones, was

something rare and good. He fully appreciated this.

But with a developing acquaintance there began a developing intimacy.

Annie wanted to consider him a person, a man; she wanted to take an

intelligent interest in him, and to have an intelligent response. She

did not want a mere nocturnal presence, which was what he was so far.

And she prided herself that he could not leave her.

Here she made a mistake. John Thomas intended to remain a nocturnal

presence; he had no idea of becoming an all-round individual to her.

When she started to take an intelligent interest in him and his life

and his character, he sheered off. He hated intelligent interest. And

he knew that the only way to stop it was to avoid it. The possessive

female was aroused in Annie. So he left her.

It is no use saying she was not surprised. She was at first startled,

thrown out of her count. For she had been so _very_ sure of holding

him. For a while she was staggered, and everything became uncertain to

her. Then she wept with fury, indignation, desolation, and misery. Then

she had a spasm of despair. And then, when he came, still impudently,

on to her car, still familiar, but letting her see by the movement of

his head that he had gone away to somebody else for the time being, and

was enjoying pastures new, then she determined to have her own back.

She had a very shrewd idea what girls John Thomas had taken out. She

went to Nora Purdy. Nora was a tall, rather pale, but well-built girl,

with beautiful yellow hair. She was rather secretive.

“Hey!” said Annie, accosting her; then softly, “Who’s John Thomas on

with now?”

“I don’t know,” said Nora.

“Why tha does,” said Annie, ironically lapsing into dialect. “Tha knows

as well as I do.”

“Well, I do, then,” said Nora. “It isn’t me, so don’t bother.”

“It’s Cissy Meakin, isn’t it?”

“It is, for all I know.”

“Hasn’t he got a face on him!” said Annie. “I don’t half like his

cheek. I could knock him off the foot-board when he comes round at me.”

“He’ll get dropped-on one of these days,” said Nora.

“Ay, he will, when somebody makes up their mind to drop it on him. I

should like to see him taken down a peg or two, shouldn’t you?”

“I shouldn’t mind,” said Nora.

“You’ve got quite as much cause to as I have,” said Annie. “But we’ll

drop on him one of these days, my girl. What? Don’t you want to?”

“I don’t mind,” said Nora.

But as a matter of fact, Nora was much more vindictive than Annie.

One by one Annie went the round of the old flames. It so happened that

Cissy Meakin left the tramway service in quite a short time. Her mother

made her leave. Then John Thomas was on the _qui-vive_. He cast his

eyes over his old flock. And his eyes lighted on Annie. He thought she

would be safe now. Besides, he liked her.

She arranged to walk home with him on Sunday night. It so happened that

her car would be in the depôt at half past nine: the last car would

come in at 10.15. So John Thomas was to wait for her there.

At the depôt the girls had a little waiting-room of their own. It was

quite rough, but cosy, with a fire and an oven and a mirror, and table

and wooden chairs. The half dozen girls who knew John Thomas only too

well had arranged to take service this Sunday afternoon. So, as the

cars began to come in, early, the girls dropped into the waiting-room.

And instead of hurrying off home, they sat around the fire and had a

cup of tea. Outside was the darkness and lawlessness of war-time.

John Thomas came on the car after Annie, at about a quarter to ten. He

poked his head easily into the girls’ waiting-room.

“Prayer-meeting?” he asked.

“Ay,” said Laura Sharp. “Ladies only.”

“That’s me!” said John Thomas. It was one of his favourite

exclamations.

“Shut the door, boy,” said Muriel Baggaley.

“On which side of me?” said John Thomas.

“Which tha likes,” said Polly Birkin.

He had come in and closed the door behind him. The girls moved in their

circle, to make a place for him near the fire. He took off his

great-coat and pushed back his hat.

“Who handles the teapot?” he said.

Nora Purdy silently poured him out a cup of tea.

“Want a bit o’ my bread and drippin’?” said Muriel Baggaley to him.

“Ay, give us a bit.”

And he began to eat his piece of bread.

“There’s no place like home, girls,” he said.

They all looked at him as he uttered this piece of impudence. He seemed

to be sunning himself in the presence of so many damsels.

“Especially if you’re not afraid to go home in the dark,” said Laura

Sharp.

“Me! By myself I am.”

They sat till they heard the last tram come in. In a few minutes Emma

Houselay entered.

“Come on, my old duck!” cried Polly Birkin.

“It _is_ perishing,” said Emma, holding her fingers to the fire.

“But—I’m afraid to, go home in, the dark,” sang Laura Sharp, the tune

having got into her mind.

“Who’re you going with tonight, John Thomas?” asked Muriel Baggaley,

coolly.

“Tonight?” said John Thomas. “Oh, I’m going home by myself tonight—all

on my lonely-O.”

“That’s me!” said Nora Purdy, using his own ejaculation.

The girls laughed shrilly.

“Me as well, Nora,” said John Thomas.

“Don’t know what you mean,” said Laura.

“Yes, I’m toddling,” said he, rising and reaching for his overcoat.

“Nay,” said Polly. “We’re all here waiting for you.”

“We’ve got to be up in good time in the morning,” he said, in the

benevolent official manner.

They all laughed.

“Nay,” said Muriel. “Don’t leave us all lonely, John Thomas. Take one!”

“I’ll take the lot, if you like,” he responded gallantly.

“That you won’t either,” said Muriel, “Two’s company; seven’s too much

of a good thing.”

“Nay—take one,” said Laura. “Fair and square, all above board, and say

which.”

“Ay,” cried Annie, speaking for the first time. “Pick, John Thomas;

let’s hear thee.”

“Nay,” he said. “I’m going home quiet tonight. Feeling good, for once.”

“Whereabouts?” said Annie. “Take a good un, then. But tha’s got to take

one of us!”

“Nay, how can I take one,” he said, laughing uneasily. “I don’t want to

make enemies.”

“You’d only make _one_,” said Annie.

“The chosen _one_,” added Laura.

“Oh, my! Who said girls!” exclaimed John Thomas, again turning, as if

to escape. “Well—good-night.”

“Nay, you’ve got to make your pick,” said Muriel. “Turn your face to

the wall, and say which one touches you. Go on—we shall only just touch

your back—one of us. Go on—turn your face to the wall, and don’t look,

and say which one touches you.”

He was uneasy, mistrusting them. Yet he had not the courage to break

away. They pushed him to a wall and stood him there with his face to

it. Behind his back they all grimaced, tittering. He looked so comical.

He looked around uneasily.

“Go on!” he cried.

“You’re looking—you’re looking!” they shouted.

He turned his head away. And suddenly, with a movement like a swift

cat, Annie went forward and fetched him a box on the side of the head

that sent his cap flying and himself staggering. He started round.

But at Annie’s signal they all flew at him, slapping him, pinching him,

pulling his hair, though more in fun than in spite or anger. He,

however, saw red. His blue eyes flamed with strange fear as well as

fury, and he butted through the girls to the door. It was locked. He

wrenched at it. Roused, alert, the girls stood round and looked at him.

He faced them, at bay. At that moment they were rather horrifying to

him, as they stood in their short uniforms. He was distinctly afraid.

“Come on, John Thomas! Come on! Choose!” said Annie.

“What are you after? Open the door,” he said.

“We shan’t—not till you’ve chosen!” said Muriel.

“Chosen what?” he said.

“Chosen the one you’re going to marry,” she replied.

He hesitated a moment.

“Open the blasted door,” he said, “and get back to your senses.” He

spoke with official authority.

“You’ve got to choose!” cried the girls.

“Come on!” cried Annie, looking him in the eye.” Come on! Come on!”

He went forward, rather vaguely. She had taken off her belt, and

swinging it, she fetched him a sharp blow over the head with the buckle

end. He sprang and seized her. But immediately the other girls rushed

upon him, pulling and tearing and beating him. Their blood was now

thoroughly up. He was their sport now. They were going to have their

own back, out of him. Strange, wild creatures, they hung on him and

rushed at him to bear him down. His tunic was torn right up the back,

Nora had hold at the back of his collar, and was actually strangling

him. Luckily the button burst. He struggled in a wild frenzy of fury

and terror, almost mad terror. His tunic was simply torn off his back,

his shirt-sleeves were torn away, his arms were naked. The girls rushed

at him, clenched their hands on him and pulled at him: or they rushed

at him and pushed him, butted him with all their might: or they struck

him wild blows. He ducked and cringed and struck sideways. They became

more intense.

At last he was down. They rushed on him, kneeling on him. He had

neither breath nor strength to move. His face was bleeding with a long

scratch, his brow was bruised.

Annie knelt on him, the other girls knelt and hung on to him. Their

faces were flushed, their hair wild, their eyes were all glittering

strangely. He lay at last quite still, with face averted, as an animal

lies when it is defeated and at the mercy of the captor. Sometimes his

eye glanced back at the wild faces of the girls. His breast rose

heavily, his wrists were torn.

“Now, then, my fellow!” gasped Annie at length. “Now then—now—”

At the sound of her terrifying, cold triumph, he suddenly started to

struggle as an animal might, but the girls threw themselves upon him

with unnatural strength and power, forcing him down.

“Yes—now, then!” gasped Annie at length.

And there was a dead silence, in which the thud of heart-beating was to

be heard. It was a suspense of pure silence in every soul.

“Now you know where you are,” said Annie.

The sight of his white, bare arm maddened the girls. He lay in a kind

of trance of fear and antagonism. They felt themselves filled with

supernatural strength.

Suddenly Polly started to laugh—to giggle wildly—helplessly—and Emma

and Muriel joined in. But Annie and Nora and Laura remained the same,

tense, watchful, with gleaming eyes. He winced away from these eyes.

“Yes,” said Annie, in a curious low tone, secret and deadly. “Yes!

You’ve got it now! You know what you’ve done, don’t you? You know what

you’ve done.”

He made no sound nor sign, but lay with bright, averted eyes, and

averted, bleeding face.

“You ought to be _killed_, that’s what you ought,” said Annie, tensely.

“You ought to be _killed_.” And there was a terrifying lust in her

voice.

Polly was ceasing to laugh, and giving long-drawn Oh-h-hs and sighs as

she came to herself.

“He’s got to choose,” she said vaguely.

“Oh, yes, he has,” said Laura, with vindictive decision.

“Do you hear—do you hear?” said Annie. And with a sharp movement, that

made him wince, she turned his face to her.

“Do you hear?” she repeated, shaking him.

But he was quite dumb. She fetched him a sharp slap on the face. He

started, and his eyes widened. Then his face darkened with defiance,

after all.

“Do you hear?” she repeated.

He only looked at her with hostile eyes.

“Speak!” she said, putting her face devilishly near his.

“What?” he said, almost overcome.

“You’ve got to _choose!_” she cried, as if it were some terrible

menace, and as if it hurt her that she could not exact more.

“What?” he said, in fear.

“Choose your girl, Coddy. You’ve got to choose her now. And you’ll get

your neck broken if you play any more of your tricks, my boy. You’re

settled now.”

There was a pause. Again he averted his face. He was cunning in his

overthrow. He did not give in to them really—no, not if they tore him

to bits.

“All right, then,” he said, “I choose Annie.” His voice was strange and

full of malice. Annie let go of him as if he had been a hot coal.

“He’s chosen Annie!” said the girls in chorus.

“Me!” cried Annie. She was still kneeling, but away from him. He was

still lying prostrate, with averted face. The girls grouped uneasily

around.

“Me!” repeated Annie, with a terrible bitter accent.

Then she got up, drawing away from him with strange disgust and

bitterness.

“I wouldn’t touch him,” she said.

But her face quivered with a kind of agony, she seemed as if she would

fall. The other girls turned aside. He remained lying on the floor,

with his torn clothes and bleeding, averted face.

“Oh, if he’s chosen—” said Polly.

“I don’t want him—he can choose again,” said Annie, with the same

rather bitter hopelessness.

“Get up,” said Polly, lifting his shoulder. “Get up.”

He rose slowly, a strange, ragged, dazed creature. The girls eyed him

from a distance, curiously, furtively, dangerously.

“Who wants him?” cried Laura, roughly.

“Nobody,” they answered, with contempt. Yet each one of them waited for

him to look at her, hoped he would look at her. All except Annie, and

something was broken in her.

He, however, kept his face closed and averted from them all. There was

a silence of the end. He picked up the torn pieces of his tunic,

without knowing what to do with them. The girls stood about uneasily,

flushed, panting, tidying their hair and their dress unconsciously, and

watching him. He looked at none of them. He espied his cap in a corner,

and went and picked it up. He put it on his head, and one of the girls

burst into a shrill, hysteric laugh at the sight he presented. He,

however, took no heed, but went straight to where his overcoat hung on

a peg. The girls moved away from contact with him as if he had been an

electric wire. He put on his coat and buttoned it down. Then he rolled

his tunic-rags into a bundle, and stood before the locked door, dumbly.

“Open the door, somebody,” said Laura.

“Annie’s got the key,” said one.

Annie silently offered the key to the girls. Nora unlocked the door.

“Tit for tat, old man,” she said. “Show yourself a man, and don’t bear

a grudge.”

But without a word or sign he had opened the door and gone, his face

closed, his head dropped.

“That’ll learn him,” said Laura.

“Coddy!” said Nora.

“Shut up, for God’s sake!” cried Annie fiercely, as if in torture.

“Well, I’m about ready to go, Polly. Look sharp!” said Muriel.

The girls were all anxious to be off. They were tidying themselves

hurriedly, with mute, stupefied faces.

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