When I think of the great mercy and love of God that follows after a
soul and remember that he knows all about the thoughts and intents of
the heart, truly I stand in awe before him. Since he knows all and has
all power, can we not trust him when we give ourselves into his hands
to be molded into his image to shine for him?
"Not every one that saith unto me, Lord, Lord, shall enter into the
kingdom of heaven, but he that doeth the will of my Father." Every
one who will give all into his hands will be brought through the fire,
according to Zech. 13:9--"And I will bring a third part through the
fire, and will refine them as silver is refined, and will try them
as gold is tried: they shall call on my name, and I will hear them:
I will say, It is my people: and they shall say, The Lord is my God."
In telling some experiences in the furnace-flames, I wish to lose sight
of everything except to be a help and encouragement to those who are
in trial.
In writing my experience, I shall find it necessary to make mention
of some of the sad things concerning my husband, a fact which I very
much regret. But I trust that dear souls will take warning and realize
that there is no limit to the work of the enemy when once he gains
possession. I shall never cease to be thankful for the first copies of
a paper called the Gospel Trumpet I ever saw. Through my reading them,
conviction was sent to my soul by the Spirit of God; but being unwilling
to meet the necessary conditions, I resisted the convictions and put the
papers aside.
Some months afterwards while searching for something, I came across
those papers, and immediately that same conviction returned, but again
I resisted it. My health failed, and I continued to decline until I was
almost in the jaws of death. Physicians could do nothing for me. During
this time God was doing his best to get me to understand that if I would
give up he would save and heal me. At last I yielded, and he saved my
soul and healed me, and from that day until this, which has been more
than eighteen years, I have been fascinated by the charms of a Christian
life.