I
Robin bowed to her very carefully, and stood upright again.
* * * * *
She had seen in an instant how changed he was, in that swift instant in
which her eyes had singled him out from the little crowd of men that had
come into the room with Anthony at their head. It was a change which she
could scarcely have put into words, unless she had said that it was the
conception of the Levite within his soul. He was dressed soberly and
richly, with a sword at his side, in great riding-boots splashed to the
knees with mud, with his cloak thrown back; and he carried his great
brimmed hat in his hand. All this was as it might have been in Derby,
though, perhaps, his dress was a shade more dignified than that in which
she had ever seen him. But the change was in his face and bearing; he
bore himself like a man, and a restrained man; and there was besides
that subtle air which her woman's eyes could see, but which even her
woman's wit could not properly describe.
She made room for him to sit beside her; and then Father Campion's voice
spoke:
"These are the gentlemen, then," he said. "And two more are not yet
come. Gentlemen--" he bowed. "And which is Captain Fortescue?"
A big man, distinguished from the rest by a slightly military air, and
by a certain vividness of costume and a bristling feather in his hat,
bowed back to him.
"We have met once before, Mr.--Mr. Edmonds," he said. "At Valladolid."
Father Campion smiled.
"Yes, sir; for five or ten minutes; and I was in the same room with your
honour once at the Duke of Guise's.... And now, sir, who are the rest of
your company?"
The others were named one by one; and Marjorie eyed each of them
carefully. It was her business to know them again if ever they should
meet in the north; and for a few minutes the company moved here and
there, bowing and saluting, and taking their seats. There were still a
couple of men who were not yet come; but these two arrived a few minutes
later; and it was not until she had said a word or two to them all, and
Father Campion had named her and her good works, to them, that she found
herself back again with Robin in a seat a little apart.
"You look very well," she said, with an admirable composure.
His eyes twinkled.
"I am as weary as a man can be," he said. "We have ridden since before
dawn.... And you, and your good works?"
Marjorie explained, describing to him something of the system by which
priests were safeguarded now in the north--the districts into which the
county was divided, and the apportioning of the responsibilities among
the faithful houses. It was her business, she said, to receive messages
and to pass them on; she had entertained perhaps a dozen priests since
the summer; perhaps she would entertain him, too, one day, she said.
* * * * *
The ordeal was far lighter than she had feared it would be. There was a
strong undercurrent of excitement in her heart, flushing her cheeks and
sparkling in her eyes; yet never for one moment was she even tempted to
forget that he was now vowed to God. It seemed to her as if she talked
with him in the spirit of that place where there is neither marrying nor
giving in marriage. Those two years of quiet in the north, occupied,
even more than she recognised, in the rearranging of her relations with
the memory of this young man, had done their work. She still kindled at
his presence; but it was at the presence of one who had undertaken an
adventure that destroyed altogether her old relations with him.... She
was enkindled even more by the sense of her own security; and, as she
looked at him, by the sense of his security too. Robin was gone; here,
instead, was young Mr. Audrey, seminary student, who even in a court of
law could swear before God that he was not a priest, nor had been
"ordained beyond the seas."
So they sat and exchanged news. She told him of the rumours of his
father that had come to her from time to time; he would be a magistrate
yet, it was said, so hot was his loyalty. Even her Grace, it was
reported, had vowed she wished she had a thousand such country gentlemen
on whose faithfulness she could depend. And Robin gave her news of the
seminary, of the hours of rising and sleeping, of the sports there; of
the confessors for the faith who came and went; of Dr. Allen. He told
her, too, of Mr. Garlick and Mr. Ludlam; he often had talked with them
of Derbyshire, he said. It was very peaceful and very stirring, too, to
sit here in the lighted parlour, and hear and give the news; while the
company, gathered round Anthony and Father Campion, talked in low
voices, and Mistress Babington, placid, watched them and listened. He
showed her, too, Mr. Maine's beads which she had given him so long ago,
hung in a little packet round his neck.
* * * * *
More than once, as they talked, Marjorie found herself looking at Mr.
Ballard, or, as he was called here, Captain Fortescue. It was he who
seemed the leader of the troop; and, indeed, as Robin told her in a
whisper, that was what he was. He came and went frequently, he said; his
manner and his carriage were reassuring to the suspicious; he appeared,
perhaps, the last man in the world to be a priest. He was a big man, as
has been said; and he had a frank assured way with him; he was leaning
forward, even now, as she looked at him, and seemed laying down the law,
though in what was almost a whisper. Father Campion was watching him,
too, she noticed; and, what she had learned of Father Campion in the
last few hours led her to wonder whether there was not something of
doubtfulness in his opinion of him.
Father Campion suddenly shook his head sharply.
"I am not of that view at all," he said. "I--"
And once more his voice sank so low as to be inaudible; as the rest
leaned closer about him.
II
Mr. Anthony Babington seemed silent and even a little displeased when,
half an hour later, the visitors were all gone downstairs to supper.
Three or four of them were to sleep in the house; the rest, of whom
Robin was one, had Captain Fortescue's instructions as to where lodgings
were prepared. But the whole company was tired out with the long ride
from the coast, and would be seen no more that night.
* * * * *
Marjorie knew enough of the divisions of opinion among Catholics, and of
Mr. Babington in particular, to have a general view as to why her
companion was displeased; but more than that she did not know, nor what
point in particular it was on which the argument had run. The one
party--of Mr. Babington's kind--held that Catholics were, morally, in a
state of war. War had been declared upon them, without justification,
by the secular authorities, and physical instruments, including
pursuivants and the rack, were employed against them. Then why should
not they, too, employ the same kind of instruments, if they could, in
return? The second party held that a religious persecution could not be
held to constitute a state of war; the Apostles Peter and Paul, for
example, not only did not employ the arm of flesh against the Roman
Empire, but actually repudiated it. And this party further held that
even the Pope's bull, relieving Elizabeth's subjects from their
allegiance, did so only in an interior sense--in such a manner that
while they must still regard her personal and individual rights--such
rights as any human being possessed--they were not bound to render
interior loyalty to her as their Queen, and need not, for example
(though they were not forbidden to do so), regard it as a duty to fight
for her, in the event, let us say, of an armed invasion from Spain.
There, then, was the situation; and Mr. Anthony had, plainly, crossed
swords this evening on the point.
"The Jesuit is too simple," he said suddenly, as he strode about. "I
think--" He broke off.
His sister smiled upon him placidly.
"You are too hot, Anthony," she said.
The man turned sharply towards her.
"All the praying in the world," he said, "has not saved us so far. It
seems to me time--"
"Perhaps our Lord would not have us saved," she said; "as you mean it."
III
It was not until Christmas Eve that Marjorie went to St. Paul's, for all
that it was so close. But the days were taken up with the visitors; a
hundred matters had to be arranged; for it was decided that before the
New Year all were to be dispersed. Captain Fortescue and Robin were to
leave again for the Continent on the day following Christmas Day itself.
Marjorie made acquaintance during these days with more than one
meeting-place of the Catholics in London. One was a quiet little house
near St. Bartholomew's-the-Great, where a widow had three or four sets
of lodgings, occupied frequently by priests and by other Catholics, who
were best out of sight; and it was here that mass was to be said on
Christmas Day. Another was in the Spanish Embassy; and here, to her joy,
she looked openly upon a chapel of her faith, and from the gallery
adored her Lord in the tabernacle. But even this was accomplished with
an air of uneasiness in those round her; the Spanish priest who took
them in walked quickly and interrupted them before they were done, and
seemed glad to see the last of them. It was explained to Marjorie that
the ambassador did not wish to give causeless offence to the Protestant
court.
And now, on Christmas Eve, Robin, Anthony and the two ladies entered the
Cathedral as dusk was falling--first passing through the burial-ground,
over the wall of which leaned the rows of houses in whose windows lights
were beginning to burn.
The very dimness of the air made the enormous heights of the great
church more impressive. Before them stretched the long nave, over seven
hundred feet from end to end; from floor to roof the eye travelled up
the bunches of slender pillars to the dark ceiling, newly restored after
the fire, a hundred and fifty feet. The tall windows on either side, and
the clerestory lights above, glimmered faintly in the darkening light.
But to the Catholic eyes that looked on it the desolation was more
apparent than the splendour. There were plenty of people here, indeed:
groups moved up and down, talking, directing themselves more and more
towards the exits, as the night was coming on and the church would be
closed presently; in one aisle a man was talking aloud, as if lecturing,
with a crowd of heads about him. In another a number of soberly dressed
men were putting up their papers and ink on the little tables that stood
in a row--this was Scriveners' Corner, she was told; from a third half a
dozen persons were dejectedly moving away--these were servants that had
waited to be hired. But the soul of the place was gone. When they came
out into the transepts, Anthony stopped them with a gesture, while a
couple of porters, carrying boxes on their heads, pushed by, on their
short cut through the cathedral.
"It was there," he said, "that the altars stood."
He pointed between the pillars on either side, and there, up little
raised steps, lay the floors of the chapels. But within all was empty,
except for a tomb or two, some tattered colours and the _piscinæ_ still
in place. Where the altars had stood there were blank spaces of wall;
piled up in one such place were rows of wooden seats set there for want
of room.
Opposite the entrance to the choir, where once overhead had hung the
great Rood, the four stood and looked in, through a gap which the masons
were mending in the high wall that had bricked off the chancel from the
nave. On either side, as of old, still rose up the towering carven
stalls; the splendid pavement still shone beneath, refracting back from
its surface the glimmer of light from the stained windows above; but the
head of the body was gone. Somewhere, beneath the deep shadowed altar
screen, they could make out an erection that might have been an altar,
only they knew that it was not. It was no longer the Stone of
Sacrifice, whence the smoke of the mystical Calvary ascended day by
day: it was the table, and no more, where bread and wine were eaten and
drunk in memory of an event whose deathless energy had ceased, in this
place, at least, to operate. Yet it was here, thought Marjorie, that
only forty years ago, scarcely more than twenty years before she was
born, on this very Night, the great church had hummed and vibrated with
life. Round all the walls had sat priests, each in his place; and beside
each kneeled a penitent, making ready for the joy of Bethlehem once
again--wise and simple--Shepherds and Magi--yet all simple before the
baffling and entrancing Mystery. There had been footsteps and voices
there too--yet of men who were busy upon their Father's affairs in their
Father's house, and not upon their own. They were going from altar to
altar, speaking with their Friends at Court; and here, opposite where
she stood and peeped in the empty cold darkness, there had burned lights
before the Throne of Him Who had made Heaven and earth, and did His
Father's Will on earth as it was done in Heaven.... Forty years ago the
life of this church was rising on this very night, with a hum as of an
approaching multitude, from hour to hour, brightening and quickening as
it came, up to the glory of the Midnight Mass, the crowded church,
alight from end to end, the smell of bog and bay in the air, soon to be
met and crowned by the savour of incense-smoke; and the world of spirit,
too, quickened about them; and the angels (she thought) came down from
Heaven, as men up from the City round about, to greet Him who is King of
both angels and men.
And now, in this new England, the church, empty of the Divine Presence,
was emptying, too, of its human visitors. She could hear great doors
somewhere crash together, and the reverberation roll beneath the stone
vaulting. It would empty soon, desolate and dark; and so it would be
all night.... Why did not the very stones cry out?
Mistress Alice touched her on the arm.
"We must be going," she said. "They are closing the church."
IV
She had a long talk with Robin on Christmas night.
The day had passed, making strange impressions on her, which she could
not understand. Partly it was the contrast between the homely
associations of the Feast, begun, as it was for her, with the mass
before dawn--the room at the top of the widow's house was crowded all
the while she was there--between these associations and the
unfamiliarity of the place. She had felt curiously apart from all that
she saw that day in the streets--the patrolling groups, the singers, the
monstrous-headed mummers (of whom companies went about all day), two or
three glimpses of important City festivities, the garlands that
decorated many of the houses. It seemed to her as a shadow-show without
sense or meaning, since the heart of Christmas was gone. Partly, too, no
doubt, it was the memory of a former Christmas, three years ago, when
she had begun to understand that Robin loved her. And he was with her
again; yet all that he had stood for, to her, was gone, and another
significance had taken its place. He was nearer to her heart, in one
manner, though utterly removed, in another. It was as when a friend was
dead: his familiar presence is gone; but now that one physical barrier
is vanished, his presence is there, closer than ever, though in another
fashion....
* * * * *
Robin had come in to sup. Captain Fortescue would fetch him about nine
o'clock, and the two were to ride for the coast before dawn.
The four sat quiet after supper, speaking in subdued voices, of hopes
for the future, when England should be besieged, indeed, by the
spiritual forces that were gathering overseas; but they slipped
gradually into talk of the past and of Derbyshire, and of rides they
remembered. Then, after a while, Anthony was called away; Mistress Alice
moved back to the table to see her needlework the better, and Robin and
Marjorie sat together by the fire.
* * * * *
He told her again of the journey from Rheims, of the inns where they
lodged, of the extraordinary care that was taken, even in that Catholic
land, that no rumour of the nature of the party should slip out, lest
some gossip precede them or even follow them to the coast of England.
They carried themselves even there, he said, as ordinary gentlemen
travelling together; two of them were supposed to be lawyers; he himself
passed as Mr. Ballard's servant. They heard mass when they could in the
larger towns, but even then not all together.
The landing in England had been easier, he said, than he had thought,
though he had learned afterwards that a helpful young man, who had
offered to show him to an inn in Folkestone, and in whose presence Mr.
Ballard had taken care to give him a good rating for dropping a
bag--with loud oaths--was a well-known informer. However, no harm was
done: Mr. Ballard's admirable bearing, and his oaths in particular, had
seemed to satisfy the young man, and he had troubled them no more.
Marjorie did not say much. She listened with a fierce attention, so much
interested that she was scarcely aware of her own interest; she looked
up, half betrayed into annoyance, when a placid laugh from Mistress
Alice at the table showed that another was listening too.
She too, then, had to give her news, and to receive messages for the
Derbyshire folk whom Robin wished to greet; and it was not until
Mistress Alice slipped out of the room that she uttered a word of what
she had been hoping all day she might have an opportunity to say.
"Mr. Audrey," she said (for she was careful to use this form of
address), "I wish you to pray for me. I do not know what to do."
He was silent.
"At present," she said, gathering courage, "my duty is clear. I must be
at home, for my mother's sake, if for nothing else. And, as I told you,
I think I shall be able to do something for priests. But if my mother
died--"
"Yes?" he said, as she stopped again.
She glanced up at his serious, deep-eyed face, half in shadow and half
in light, so familiar, and yet so utterly apart from the boy she had
known.
"Well," she said, "I think of you as a priest already, and I can speak
to you freely.... Well, I am not sure whether I, too, shall not go
overseas, to serve God better."
"You mean--"
"Yes. A dozen or more are gone from Derbyshire, whose names I know. Some
are gone to Bruges; two or three to Rome; two or three more to Spain. We
women cannot do what priests can, but, at least, we can serve God in
Religion."
She looked at him again, expecting an answer. She saw him move his head,
as if to answer. Then he smiled suddenly.
"Well, however you look at me, I am not a priest.... You had best speak
to one--Father Campion or another."
"But--"
"And I will pray for you," he said with an air of finality.
Then Mistress Alice came back.
* * * * *
She never forgot, all her life long, the little scene that took place
when Captain Fortescue came in with Mr. Babington, to fetch Robin away.
Yet the whole of its vividness rose from its interior significance.
Externally here was a quiet parlour; two ladies--for the girl afterwards
seemed to see herself in the picture--stood by the fireplace; Mistress
Alice still held her needlework gathered up in one hand, and her spools
of thread and a pin-cushion lay on the polished table. And the two
gentlemen--for Captain Fortescue would not sit down, and Robin had risen
at his entrance--the two gentlemen stood by it. They were not in their
boots, for they were not to ride till morning; they appeared two
ordinary gentlemen, each hat-in-hand, and Robin had his cloak across his
arm. Anthony Babington stood in the shadow by the door, and, beyond him,
the girl could see the face of Dick, who had come up to say good-bye
again to his old master.
That was all--four men and two ladies. None raised his voice, none made
a gesture. The home party spoke of the journey, and of their hopes that
all would go well; the travellers, or rather the leader (for Robin spoke
not one word, good or bad), said that he was sure it would be so; there
was not one-tenth of the difficulty in getting out of England as of
getting into it. Then, again, he said that it was late; that he had
still one or two matters to arrange; that they must be out of London as
soon as the gates opened. And the scene ended.
Robin bowed to the two ladies, precisely and courteously; making no
difference between them, and wheeled and went out, and she saw Dick's
face, too, vanish from the door, and heard the voices of the two on the
stairs. Marjorie returned the salute of Mr. Ballard, longing to entreat
him to take good care of the boy, yet knowing that she must not and
could not.
Then he, too, was gone, with Anthony to see him downstairs; and
Marjorie, without a word, went straight through to her room, fearing to
trust her own voice, for she felt that her heart was gone with them.
Yet, not for one moment did even her sensitive soul distrust any more
the nature of the love that she bore to the lad.
But Mistress Alice sat down again to her sewing.