XII

They moved into the new-old house, after Salvina had carefully

ascertained that the furniture had returned to the cloud under which

it had so long lived. In her resentment against its reappearance, she

spent more than she could afford on the rival furniture that succeeded

it, and which she now studied to make unlike it, so that quite without

any touch of conscious taste, it became light, elegant, and even

artistic in comparison with the old horsehair massiveness.

Then began a very bad year for Salvina, even though the Damocles sword

of Kitty's dismissal never fell, and Lily's migration to the Cape with

Moss M. Rosenstein left Kitty still in power as companion to Mabel, to

judge at least by Kitty's not seeking the parental roof, even as

visitor. Mrs. Brill's happiness did not keep pace with the restored

grandeurs and Salvina's own spurt of hope died down. She grew wanner

than ever, going listlessly to her work and returning limp and fagged

out.

"You mew me up here with not a soul to speak to from morning till

night," her mother burst forth one day.

Salvina was not sorry to have her mother's silent lachrymosity thus

interpreted. But she regretted that her helpless parent had not

expressed her satisfaction with gossip when the Ghetto provided it,

instead of yearning for higher scenes. She tried again to persuade

Mrs. Brill to learn to read by way of mental resource, and Mrs. Brill

indeed made some spasmodic efforts to master the alphabet and the

vagaries of pronunciation from an infant's primer. But her brain was

too set; and she forgot from word to word, and made bold bad guesses,

so that even when "a fat cat sat on a mat" she was capable of making a

fat cow eat in a mug. She struggled loyally though, except when

Salvina's attention relaxed for an instant, and then she would proceed

by leaps and bounds, like a cheating child with the teacher's eye off

it, getting over five lines in the time she usually took to spell out

one, and paradoxically pleased with herself at her rapid progress.

Salvina was in despair. There is no creche for mothers, or she might

have sent Mrs. Brill to one. She bethought herself of at last laying

on a servant, as providing the desired combination of grandeur and

gossip. To pay for the servant she undertook two hours of extra

night-teaching. But the maid-of all-work proved only an exhaustless

ground for grumbling. Mrs. Brill had never owned a servant, and the

girl's deviation from angelhood of character and unerring perfection

of action in every domestic department were a constant disappointment

and grief to the new mistress.

"A nice thing you have done for me," she wept to Salvina, having

carefully ascertained the servant was out of ear-shot, "to seat a

mistress on my head--and for that I must pay her into the bargain."

"Aren't you glad you haven't got three servants?" said Salvina, with a

touch of irresistible irony.

"Don't throw up to me that you're saving me from falling on your

father. I can be my own bread-winner. I don't want your doll's house

furniture that one is scared to touch--like walking among eggshells.

I'd rather live in one room and scrub floors than be beholden to

anybody. Then I should be my own mistress, and not under a daughter's

thumb. If only Kitty would marry, then I could go to _her_. Why

doesn't she marry? It isn't as if she were like you. Is there a

prettier girl in the whole congregation? It's because she's got no

money, my poor, hardworking little Kitty. Her father would give her a

dowry, if he were a man, not a pig."

"Mother!" Salvina was white and trembling. "How can you dream of

that?"

"Not for myself. I'd see him rot before I'd take a farthing of his

money. But I'm not domineering and spiteful like you. I don't stand in

the way of other people benefiting. The money will only go to some

other vermin. Kitty may as well have some."

"Lazarus has some. That's enough, and more than enough."

"Lazarus deserves it--he is a better son to me than you are a

daughter!" and the tears fell again.

Salvina cast about for what to do. Her mother's nerves were no doubt

entirely disorganized by her sufferings and by the shock of Lazarus's

trick. Some radical medicine must be applied. But every day Duty took

Salvina to school and harassed her there and drove her to private

lessons afterward, and left her neither the energy nor the brain for

further innovations. And whenever she met Lazarus by accident--for she

was too outraged to visit a house practically kept up by dishonourable

money, apart from her objection to its perpetually festive atmosphere

of solo-whist supper-parties--he would sneer at her high and mighty

airs in casting out the furniture. "Oh, we're very grand now, we keep

a servant; we have cut our father off with a shilling."

She wished her mother would not go to see Lazarus, but she felt she

had not the right to interfere with these visits, though Mrs. Brill

returned from them, fretful and restive. Evidently Lazarus must be

still insinuating reconciliation.

"Lazarus worries you, mother, I feel sure," she ventured to say once.

"Oh, no, he is a good son. He wants me to live with him."

"What! On _her_ money!"

"It isn't her money--your father made it on the Stock Exchange."

"Who told you so?"

"Didn't you hear Lazarus say so yourself?"

Then a horrible suspicion came to Salvina. "He doesn't set father at

you when you go there?" she cried.

Mrs. Brill flushed furiously. "I'd like to see him try it on," she

murmured.

Salvina stooped to kiss her. "But he tells you tales of father's

riches, I suppose."

"Who wants his riches? If he offered me my own horse and carriage, I

wouldn't be seen with him after the disgrace he's put upon me."

"I wish, mother, Lazarus had inherited your sense of honour."

Mrs. Brill was pleased. "There isn't a woman in the world with more

pride! Your father made a mistake when he began with me!"

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