There is a distinct tendency, if we may trust books on travels and early
stages of religious belief among the uncivilised, dusky masses of the
world to assign every event to a direct supernatural influence. Certain
savages, if they hit their foot against a stone, will say that there is
a demon in that stone, and they hasten to appease him by sacrificial
sops. We see the exact opposite of this among those nations, which, like
those in our own favoured isle, assign every event to pure chance. There
is no harm in calling it chance, and there is no harm in assigning the
most insignificant event to a local god, and the lesson we may learn
from these elementary reflections is, that there are, at least, two
points of view from which we may regard anything.
To adopt, however, the nomenclature of the day, this chance that led
Lady Hayes to walk down that room at the French Embassy, when Reggie was
standing at the door, was a very big chance. One of the least important
results of it was that it occasioned this book to be written.
Reggie was, as I have mentioned before, a very susceptible young man. He
fully realised, _in propriâ personâ_, Mrs. Davenport's "healthy
condition" of being in a chronic state of devotion, and this, coupled to
his extreme susceptibility, will fully account for the fact that he
moved slowly after Lady Hayes, till, by another chance meeting, she fell
in with his mother, who had followed him from the top of the stairs, and
got introduced. Mrs. Davenport pronounced the mystic words, "Lady Hayes,
may I introduce my son Reggie," and the thing was done.
Lady Hayes was amused to find herself so quickly introduced to the
"pretty boy" who had stared at her, and as her prince had gone away, she
was ready to talk to him, and it appeared that he was ready to talk to
her.
"I was so sorry I couldn't come to lunch yesterday," he began, "and I
forgot to send a note to say I couldn't."
"We have lunch every day," remarked Lady Hayes, gravely. "Come
to-morrow. I shall think it very rude if you cut me again. So will
Percy. I shall send him to call you out."
"I know Percy very well," said Reggie. "I'm awfully fond of him. I don't
believe he'd call me out."
Eva looked at him again with some amusement. This particular type was
somewhat new to her. He was so extraordinarily young.
"I'm very fond of Percy too," she said.
"Oh, but he's your brother," said Reggie.
"So he is."
She laughed again.
"How extremely handsome he is," she thought to herself, in a
parenthesis. "Why was I never so young as that."
Then aloud,--
"I'm going to ask you to give me your arm, and take me to get something
cold to drink. Do you like ices?" she asked with some experimental
malice.
"Lemon water," said Reggie after consideration, "but not cream ices,
they're stuffy, somehow. I'd better tell my mother where we're going,
and then I can meet her again afterwards."
"Ah! Lady Hayes," exclaimed the voice of their host's brother, "I've
been looking for you. Prince Waldenech wishes to be introduced to you.
Adeline sent me to find you."
Lady Hayes raised her eyebrows.
"I'll come by and by," she said. "I can't now. I'm going to eat an
ice--lemon water. Tell her I will be back soon--ten minutes."
"Prince Waldenech's just going."
"Then I am afraid it will be a pleasure deferred for me. Come, Mr.
Davenport. You shall have a lemon water ice, and so will I."
"That was very kind of you to keep your engagement to me," said Reggie.
"You deserved I should cut you, as you cut me yesterday. But I felt
inclined to keep this engagement, which makes all the difference. Of
course, if you'd felt inclined to come yesterday you wouldn't have
forgotten. One never forgets things one likes."
"Oh, but I did feel inclined to come," said Reggie, and stopped short.
"It was self denial, was it?"
"No, I was wanted to do something else."
"What did you do else, if it isn't rude to ask?"
"Oh! I went to the concert at St. James'. They did the Tannhäuser
overture."
"Did you like it?"
"Oh yes, it was awfully pretty."
Eva laughed again.
"I expected you would think it stupid or ugly."
"How did you know?" asked he.
"You told me yourself. I knew almost as soon as you began to speak.
Never mind. Don't look so puzzled. You shall come to the opera some
night with me, and hear it again. I'm dreadfully rude, am I not?"
"You rude! No!" said Reggie, stoutly. "But you mustn't mind my being
stupid."
"I like stupid people."
"I should have thought you would have hated them. But I'm glad you like
them," said he, blushing furiously.
"What pretty speeches! But you are quite wrong about my hating stupid
people--I don't say you're stupid, you know--but in the abstract. You
see I know much more about you already than you know about me. I was
right about your thinking Wagner ugly, and you were wrong about my
disliking stupid people. There's the buffet. I shall sit down here, and
you shall bring two ices--one for yourself and one for me."
It was characteristic of Reggie that he wrote an effusive though short
note to Gertrude next day, saying that he had met Lady Hayes at the
French Embassy, that she was perfectly beautiful and awfully nice, and
that he couldn't write any more because he was just going out to lunch
with her, and that three days after this another short note followed
this one, saying that Lady Hayes was awfully anxious to meet
her--Gertrude--that Gertrude must come home as quick as ever she could,
and that Mrs. Arbuthnot was going to Lucerne in July, so that, if Mrs.
Carston could join her there, Gertrude could come straight home. He had
heard that Lucerne was very slow.
Lady Hayes had been "awfully nice" to Reggie. She had hardly ever seen
anything so fresh as he was. About two days after their first meeting,
Reggie had told her, with unblushing candour, all about Gertrude, and
Lady Hayes was charmed to hear it. Reggie's confession of his young love
seemed simply delightful. He was so refreshingly unversed in the ways of
the world. He had spoken of Gertrude with immense ardour, and had shown
Lady Hayes her photograph. He had been there to call one afternoon, and
had found her alone. They had tea in the little tent over the porch,
which Eva kept there "_en permanence_," and in which she had routed her
mother-in-law a year ago.
She was sitting in a low, basket chair, looking at the photograph, which
Reggie had just put into her hand, and had turned from it to his eager,
down-looking face, which appeared very attractive.
"Charming," she said, "simply charming! You will let me have this, won't
you? and one of yourself, too, and they shall go on the chimney-piece in
my room. Really, you have no business to be as happy as this; it isn't
at all fair."
Reggie stood up, and drew in a long breath.
"Yes; I'm awfully happy. I never knew anyone as happy as I am. But may I
send you another photograph of her? I can get one from the photographer.
You see, she gave me this herself."
"No; certainly not," said Eva. "I want this one. I want it now. Surely
you have no need of photographs. You have got the original, you see.
And this is signed by her."
"Oh! but I'm sure she'd sign another one for you, if I ask her to."
"If it please my lord the king," said Eva. "No; I want this one. Mayn't
I have it?"
"Yes, it doesn't make any difference, does it?" said Reggie,
guilelessly. "I've got the original, as you say."
"Thanks so much. That is very good of you."
"Of course it's an exchange," said Reggie.
"Ah, you're mercenary after all. I knew I should find a weak point in
you. Very good, it's an exchange. But I don't suppose Miss Carston would
care for my photograph. She doesn't know me, you see."
"Well, anyhow, mine must be an exchange."
"You're very bold," said Eva. "Of course you could make me give it you;
you're much stronger than I am. If you held me down in this chair, and
throttled me until I promised, I should have to promise. I'm very
cowardly. I should never have made an early Christian martyr. I should
have sworn to believe in every heathen goddess, and the Thirty-Nine
Articles long before they put the thumbscrew really on."
"Yes, I expect the thumbscrew hurt," said Reggie, meditatively.
"Don't you miss her tremendously?" said Eva, looking at the photograph
again. "I should think you were miserable without her."
"Oh, I don't think I could be miserable if I tried," said Reggie.
"Most people find it so easy to be miserable. But I don't think you're
like most people."
"I certainly don't find it easy to be miserable; not natural, at least.
You see, Gerty's only away for a month, and it wouldn't do the slightest
good if I was miserable."
"You have great common sense. Really, common sense is one of the rarest
things in the world. Ah, Hayes, that is you, is it? Do you know Mr.
Reggie Davenport?"
Lord Hayes made a neat little bow, and took some tea.
"There is a footman waiting to know if you were in," he said. "Somebody
has called."
"Please tell the man that I'm not in, or that I'm engaged."
Reggie started up.
"Why didn't you tell me to go?" he said. "I'm afraid I've been here an
awful time."
"Sit down again," said Eva. "You are my engagement. I don't want you to
go at all."
Reggie sat down again.
"Thank you so much," he said.
"There has been," said Lord Hayes, stirring his tea, "there has been a
most destructive earthquake in Zante. The town, apparently, has been
completely demolished."
Reggie tried to look interested, and said "Indeed."
"Do you know where Zante is?" asked Eva. "I don't."
"I think it's in the Levant," said Reggie.
"That makes it worse."
"Zante is off the west coast of Greece," said Lord Hayes. "I was
thinking at one time of building a villa there."
"Ah," said Eva, "that would be charming. Have you finished your tea,
Hayes? Perhaps you would order the carriage for to-night. I have to go
out at half-past ten. You must find it draughty here with your bad cold.
You would be prudent to sit indoors."
Reggie looked at him with sympathy as he went inside.
"I'm sorry he's got a cold," he said.
"It is an intermittent catarrh," said Eva, with amusement. "There is
nothing to be anxious about--thanks."
Lord Hayes had gone indoors without protest or remonstrance, but he was
far from not feeling both. The polite indifference which Eva had
practised earlier in their married life--the neutral attitude--had begun
to wear very thin. When they were alone, he did not care much whether
she was polite or not, but he distinctly objected to be made a fool of
in public. Why he had not made a stand on this occasion, and insisted
that he had no cold at all, which was indeed the case, he found himself
wondering, even as he was making his retreat, but that wonder brought
him no nearer to doing it. Investigation into mesmerism and other occult
phenomena are bringing us nearer a rational perception of such forces,
and we are beginning to believe that each man has a set of moral
muscles, which exercise moral force, just as he has a similar physical
system which is superior or inferior to that of another man. And to
judge by any analogy which is known to us, it appears inevitable that
when one moral organisation strips as it were to another moral
organisation, that a fight, a victory and a defeat will be the result.
Eva's prize fight with her husband had lasted more than a year, and
though it was practically over, yet the defeated party still delivered
itself of small protests from time to time, which resembled those
anonymous challenges, or challenges in which it is not distinctly stated
that "business is meant," and which are common in the columns of such
periodicals as register the more palpable sort of encounters.
Lord Hayes, in fact, still preserved his malignant potentialities. It
was a source of satisfaction to him that he still retained a slight
power of annoying Eva in small ways. This he did not venture to use in
public, because, if Eva suspected anything like a whisper of a
challenge not strictly in private, she would take steps to investigate
it, and these public investigations were not to his taste. But in
private he could vent a little malignity without being publicly
pommelled for it.
Thus it came about that, when they were seated at dinner alone that
night, Lord Hayes said,--
"May I ask who that young man was with you? He was here yesterday, I
believe."
"Didn't I introduce you?" said Eva. "I thought I did. It was Reggie
Davenport."
"What do you intend to do with him?"
"I beg your pardon?"
"Is he to be a sort of Jim Armine the second?"
Eva finished eating her soufflé without replying, and Lord Hayes rather
prematurely thought the shot had told.
"Oh! dear no," she said at length, "nothing of the sort. I am very fond
of Reggie Davenport. Quite devoted to him, in fact. He is quite the
nicest young man I ever saw."
"I thought you were very fond of Jim."
"How dull men are," said Eva. "Any woman would have seen at once that it
was he who was fond of me. But with Reggie--he asked me to call him
Reggie--it is reciprocal, I think. I should advise you to be jealous."
"I should not think of such a thing," said he. "Nothing makes a man so
ridiculous as to be jealous."
"Except, perhaps, to be complaisant," said Eva, not sparing herself in
the desire not to spare him. "I think that is absurder still."
"I have no intention of being complaisant."
"That is such a comfort," said Eva; "it is a great thing to know that
one's honour is safe in one's husband's hands. You are my guardian
angel. Are you coming to the ball to-night? Yes? I shall be upstairs in
my room. Please send a man to tell me when the carriage is round. And
don't keep me waiting as you did on Thursday."
Eva went upstairs into her room, and found, among her letters, Reggie's
photograph, which he had already sent. She took it up and looked at it
for a few moments, and placed it by the side of Gertrude's. Something,
perhaps the scene at dinner, had made her restless, and she walked up
and down the room, with her long, white dress sweeping the ground behind
her.
"What is the matter with me?" she thought to herself impatiently.
"Surely I, of all people--"
She sat down again and opened some of her letters. There was one from
her mother, who was coming to stay with them for a week or two.
"I hear such a lot about you," she wrote; "everyone seems to be talking
about nothing else except Lady Hayes and her beauty and success. And
when I think that it is my own darling little Eva, I can only feel full
of gratitude and thankfulness that a mother's prayers for her own
daughter's welfare have been answered so fully and bountifully. But I
hope that, in the riches of love and position and success, which have
been so fully granted her, she will not forget--"
Eva tore the letter in half with a sudden, dramatic gesture, and threw
it into the paper-basket. She was annoyed, ashamed of herself for her
want of self-control, but a new spring of feeling had been rising in her
this last day or two, that gave her a sense of loss, of something missed
which might never come again, a feeling which she had experienced in
some degree after her marriage, when she found out what it was to be
linked to a man who did not love her, and whom she was beginning to
detest. But now the feeling was deeper, keener, more painful, and from
the mantlepiece Reggie's photograph looked at her, smiling, well-bred,
well-dressed, and astonishingly young. Surely it couldn't be that!
An hour later a message came that the carriage was round, and she went
downstairs again, impassive, cold, perfectly beautiful. As she swept
down into the hall, Lord Hayes, who was standing there, with a pair of
white kid gloves in his hand, was suddenly struck and astonished at her
beauty. He felt freshly proud at having become the owner of this
dazzling, perfect piece of life. He moved forward to meet her, and in a
burst of pleased proprietorship, laying his hand on her bare arm,--
"My dear Eva," he said, "you are more beautiful than ever."
Eva looked at him for a moment fixedly; then she suddenly shook his hand
off.
"Ah! don't touch me," she said shuddering, and moved past him and got
into the carriage.
Lord Hayes, however, had one consolation which Eva could never deprive
him of, and that was the knowledge that she was his, and the knowledge
that she knew it. She might writhe and shrink, or treat him with
indifference, or scorn, or anger, but she could never alter that, except
by disgracing herself, and she was too proud and sensitive, as he knew,
to do anything of the sort. Consequently, her assaults on him at dinner
on the subject of complaisance did not trouble him for a moment. It was
morally impossible, he felt, for her to put him into such a position,
for her own position was as dear to her as he was odious. His lordship
had a certain cynical sense of humour, which whispered that though this
state of things was not pleasant, it was distinctly amusing.
Meantime, as the days went on, if Eva was beginning to be a little
anxious about herself, Mrs. Davenport was not at her ease about Reggie.
Gertrude's letters came regularly, and he liked to let his mother read
them, and they, at any rate, betrayed no dissatisfaction. But in one of
these which arrived soon after the last interview recorded between Lady
Hayes and Reggie, Mrs. Davenport suddenly felt frightened. It was a very
short sentence which gave rise to this feeling, and apparently a very
innocent one:--
"What on earth does Lady Hayes want my photograph for?"
Reggie was sitting by the open window after a particularly late
breakfast, smoking into the window box. His back was turned to the room,
and he was apparently absorbed in his occupation. He had read Gertrude's
letter as he was having breakfast, and when he had finished, he had
given it to his mother, saying--
"Such a jolly note from Gerty; you will like to see it, mummy."
Mrs. Davenport read it and looked up with some impatience at the
lounging figure in the window seat.
"What's this about Gerty's photograph and Lady Hayes?" she asked. "I
don't understand."
Reggie did not appear to hear, and continued persecuting a small, green
fly that was airing itself on a red geranium, and was consequently
conspicuous.
"You may smoke in here, Reggie," said Mrs. Davenport, raising her voice
a little; "come in and sit down."
Reggie turned round somewhat unwillingly. He had heard his mother's
first question, and it had suddenly struck him that it was rather an
awkward one. A very frank nature will, on occasions, use extreme
frankness to cover the deficiency of it, and he decided that the whole
truth, very openly stated, was less liable to involve him in
difficulties than the subtlest prevarication.
"Oh, Lady Hayes said she wanted Gerty's photograph and mine," he said,
walking towards his mother. "Of course, I gave them her, and she gave me
hers in exchange. I told Gerty all about it in a letter."
Mrs. Davenport looked up at him, and observed that his face was flushed.
"What an odd request," she said.
"I don't see why. I know her quite well, somehow, though I have only
known her such a short time."
There was a short silence. Mrs. Davenport was casting about in her mind
as to how she might learn what she wanted, without betraying her desire
to know it.
"Did you write to Gerty yesterday?" she asked at length.
"No, I didn't," said Reggie, frankly. "I was out all day and then I went
to the Hayes in the evening."
"Are you going out to Lucerne at the end of the month?"
"No, I think not; somebody told me--Lady Hayes, I think--that it was
awfully slow. I told Gerty the Arbuthnots were going out, and suggested
she should leave Mrs. Carston with them and come back to London. I like
London, somehow, this year."
Mrs. Davenport was beginning to understand. She could have found it in
her heart at that moment to label Eva with some names that would have
astonished her.
"Does Lady Hayes talk about Gerty much?"
"Oh, yes, a good deal; at least, she lets me talk about her whenever I
want to."
"Is that a good deal?"
Reggie frowned. He had been acting for this last week or so with such
spontaneity, obeying so instantaneously his inclinations, that he found
it hard to answer questions about these things. It is always harder to
recall what we have done unthinkingly, than what has been the result of
thought or conscious effort.
"I don't know," he said. "We talk about her now and then, but we talk
about a thousand things. I don't know what you mean. Lady Hayes said the
other day that she was sure Gerty would detest her."
"I think Lady Hayes is probably quite right."
"Then it would be very unreasonable of Gerty," said Reggie, frowning
again, "and I don't know why you think so. Why should Gerty detest her?"
"Does she strike you as the sort of woman Gerty would like?"
"I don't think I ever thought about it till Lady Hayes mentioned it, and
I disagreed with her."
"You told me the other day that you and Gerty agreed that you only liked
good people. I don't think Gerty would think her good."
Reggie flushed angrily.
"I don't really see what you are driving at," he said rather vehemently,
because he did see. "I think I won't talk about her any more if you
don't mind, mummy. You see she's very kind and delightful to me, and
that's all that I have any right to judge by, and I'm sure she'd be just
as nice to Gerty."
He sauntered out of the room with rather exaggerated slowness, feeling a
little uneasy. He was just conscious that this new element which had
come into his life was a very absorbing one, and he wondered a little
how absorbing it was in proportion to other things. Eva showed to him a
different side to that she showed to the world; she was careful when he
was there not to say quite what she was in the habit of saying, when she
was with others. She regarded him as a child--a very charming,
delightful child--and she knew that the greatest respect, as one of the
most finished artists of human life has said, was due to children. In
fact, according to his data, Reggie's glowing, adoring picture of her
was faithful enough. Why Eva behaved like that to him is a question
which concerned her alone, and of which the answer was even now working
out in her mind. She had tried the world for two years, and had found it
distinctly wanting. It amused her at times, but it bored her more
frequently. The frantic interest which she had taken in men and women
was beginning to pall a little; even the interest she had taken in
herself was not so deep as it had been. It must be remembered that the
world, as she knew it, was a certain section of society which, however
much its units differ in individuality, is, to a certain extent, all
dulled and choked in the limitations of its class, the inexorable need
to be well dressed, to be successful, to be smart. Diversity of interest
is the only thing that will make interest long lived; and diversity was
exactly what was wanting. The gossip, the whispered scandals, the
scheming, the jostling, were new to her at first, and she had drunk them
down eagerly, but in her heart of hearts she knew that she was just a
little tired of it all, and she was beginning to behave as others
behaved, not because it was the most amusing thing that could be done,
but because others behaved so. On this stale, gas-lit atmosphere Reggie
had come like a whiff of fresh air. He had not the smallest interest in
scandal or gossip, or any of those things in which her world found its
entire interest settled. He was new, he was fresh, and he was young.
Just now that meant a good deal to Eva, for it was the type to her of
all she had missed. He was, again, distinctly of her own class--he could
not offend the most fastidious taste--Eva would never have cultivated a
grocer's assistant, however fresh--and he was extremely handsome and
attractive in appearance. Her feeling for him was made out of one large
factor, and several small ones; for his pleasant manner, his frank good
breeding, his beauty, she liked him; for his serene, stainless youth she
had a sort of liking that was quite new to her.
That the conception he had formed of her was very far from representing
her, she knew well. She had deliberately held the reckless, cynical,
unprincipled part of her nature rigorously in check when she was with
him. She was sympathetic, simple, divinely kind to him because she liked
him so much and knew that he would detest the other half of her. But now
a mixture of motives led her to determine to let him know all. It had
come to this, that she felt that inevitable longing to throw her nature
open to him, to drop this elaborate suppression, to let him see her as
she was, and judge her. Our deeper emotions are thickly entwined with
the fibres of honesty, which makes even those who are least honest, in
ordinary life, scrupulously truthful and open when those deeper emotions
are touched. To say that Eva was in love with Reggie would be both
overstating it and understating it. He was the symbol to her of her lost
ideals, which she found she had loved now she had lost them; and,
humanly speaking, she found him very attractive as a substantial
embodiment of these.
Eva was sitting in her room one morning, a few days after the talk
Reggie had had with his mother, wondering how she had better carry her
resolve out, when an idea struck her. She got up and wrote a short note
to him:--
"I wonder if you would care to come to the opera to-night with me,"
she said. "Tannhäuser is being played, and I think I remember your
saying you thought the overture very pretty. Do come. Dine here
first."
"Jim Armine shall come too," thought Eva. "He shall chaperone us.
Besides, I can't be worldly all alone with Reggie. I must have some one
to be worldly with. Decidedly that is the best plan."