VIII

Eberhard von Auffenberg had returned to the city shortly after the death

of Gertrude Nothafft. The last large sum he had received from Herr

Carovius, now nearly a year ago, he had almost used up. He found Herr

Carovius quite changed in his attitude toward him. Herr Carovius

declared that he was bankrupt, that he could not get any more money for

him. Instead of complaining or boasting, or flattering his princely

friend, or trying to incite him to activity of some kind, as he had been

accustomed to do, he wrapped himself in a silence that could not be

regarded as a favourable omen.

Eberhard had no desire to beg. Herr Carovius's personality was so

disagreeable to him that he refused to investigate the cause of his

novel behaviour. He let his thoughts take their own course; and they

drifted into other channels.

The gossip afloat concerning Eleanore had naturally reached his ears.

Herr Carovius had seen to it that there was no lack of insinuations,

either written or oral. But Eberhard had ignored them. Offensive insults

that had dared attach themselves to Eleanore seemed to him as incredible

as litter from the street on the radiant moon.

One day he had to call on Herr Carovius because of a note that had been

protested. They discussed the affair in a dry, business-like way, and

then, all of a sudden, Herr Carovius fixed his piercing eyes on the

Baron, walked around the table time after time, dressed in his sleeping

gown, and told, without the omission of a single detail, of the

lamentable death of Daniel Nothafft's young wife.

He became highly excited; why, it would be hard to say. "Let us hope

that the Kapellmeisterette will come to his senses now," he cried in a

falsetto voice. "He is already on the point of starvation; ah, believe

me, he is nearly done for. It will be necessary to take up a collection

for the unrecognised genius. He has already put one of his women in the

grave, the other is still kicking. By the way, how do you like her, the

angel? Are you not a bit sorry for the neat little halo that now hangs

like a piece of castoff clothing on the bedpost of an adulteress? Of

course, geniuses are allowed to do as they please. O Eleanore, bloody

lie that you are, you hypocritical soft, sneaking, slimy lie--Eleanore!"

With that Eberhard stepped up very calmly to the unleashed demon in

pajamas, seized him by the throat, and held him with such a fierce and

unrelenting grip that Herr Carovius sank to his knees, while his face

became as blue as a boiled carp. After this he was remarkably quiet; he

crept away. At times he tittered like a simpleton; at times a venomous

glance shot forth from under his eyelids. But that was all.

Eberhard poured some water in a basin, dipped his hands in it, dried

them, and went away.

The picture of the whining man with the puffed and swollen eyes and the

blue face was indelibly stamped on Eberhard's memory. He had felt a

greedy, voluptuous desire to commit murder. He felt he was not merely

punishing and passing final judgment on his own tormentor and

persecutor, but on the hidden enemy of humanity, the arch-criminal of

the age, the destroyer of all noble seed.

And yet the exalted outburst of Herr Carovius had precisely the effect

that Eberhard had least expected. His confidence in Eleanore's innocence

had been shaken. There may have been in Herr Carovius's voice, despite

the slanderous wrath with which his cowardly tongue was coated,

something that sounded truer than the wretch himself suspected. Eberhard

saw just then, for the first time in his life, the adored figure of the

girl as a human being like all other human beings; and as if through a

distant vision he experienced in his heart what had taken place.

His illusions were destroyed.

In his soul he had gone through the trials of renunciation long ago. His

passionate wishes of former times had gone through a process of

weakening from loss of blood. He had learned to bow to the inevitable;

he had made a special effort to acquire this bit of earthly wisdom. When

he surveyed the life he had lived in the past five years, it resembled,

despite its flux and the incessant change from city to city and country

to country, a sojourn in a room with closed doors and drawn shades.

When he had returned to the city, which he loved simply because Eleanore

lived in it, he had had no intention of reminding Eleanore of the

expiration of the time mutually agreed upon. He felt that it would be a

banal display of poor taste to appear before her once again as an

awkward, jilted suitor, and try to reconnect the thread where it had

been so ruthlessly broken five years ago. He had intended not to disturb

her or worry her in any way. But to go to her and speak with her, that

had been the one bright ray of hope in all these empty years.

After the scene with Herr Carovius he decided quite firmly to keep away

from Eleanore.

His ready cash had shrunk to a few hundred marks. He discharged his

servants, disposed of some of his jewelry, and rented one of those

little houses that are stuck on the rocks up by the castle like so many

wasp nests. The house he took had been occupied before him by the

Pfragners, and with its three rooms was not much larger than a

fair-sized cage in a menagerie. But he had taken it into his head to

live there, and that was all there was to it. He bought some old

furniture, and adorned the slanting walls of the dilapidated barracks

with such pictures as he had.

One evening there was a knock at the green door of the cottage. Eberhard

opened, and saw Herr Carovius standing before him.

Herr Carovius entered the Baron's doll house, looked around in

astonishment, and, pale as a sheet, said: "So help me God, it seems to

me you are trying to play the role of a hermit. This won't do; this is

no place for a Baron; I will not stand for it."

Eberhard reached for the book he had been reading, a volume of Carl du

Prel, and read on without replying to Herr Carovius or even taking

notice of the fact that he was present.

Herr Carovius tripped from one foot to the other. "Perhaps the Baron

will be so good as to take a look at his account," he said in a

beseeching tone. "I am in a tight place. My capital is gone, and my

debts in the shape of interest have been swelling like the Pegnitz in

the spring of the year. Would you like to know what I have been living

on for the last three months? I have been living on turnips, potato

peelings, and brick cheese; that has been my daily diet; and I have

submitted to it for the sake of my Baron."

"I am not a bit interested in what you have been eating," said the Baron

arrogantly, and kept on reading.

Herr Carovius continued with an imbecile sulk: "When you left me

recently because of that little quarrel we had about the Goose Man, it

never occurred to me that you were going to take the matter so

seriously. Lovers like to be teased, I thought. He'll come back, I

thought, he'll come back just as sure as laughter follows tickling.

Well, I was mistaken. I thought you were of a more gentle disposition,

and that you would be more indulgent with an old friend. Yes, we make

mistakes sometimes."

Eberhard remained silent.

Herr Carovius sighed, and sat down timidly on the narrow edge of the

sofa that stood next to the whitewashed wall. He sat there for almost an

hour in perfect silence. Eberhard appreciated neither the ridiculous nor

the fantastic element in the conduct of his guest. He read on.

And then, all of a sudden, Herr Carovius sprang to his feet, took his

wallet from his pocket, drew out a thousand-mark note, and laid it,

together with a blank receipt, across the page Eberhard was reading.

Before the Baron could recover from his amazement he had already

disappeared, closing the door behind him. The sound of his footsteps on

the street could be heard in the room; but he was gone.

What rare living creatures there are, O World, and what rare dead ones,

too! This is the thought that passed through Eberhard's mind.

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