Chapter 26

Mrs. Gardiner's caution to Elizabeth was punctually and kindly given

on the first favourable opportunity of speaking to her alone; after

honestly telling her what she thought, she thus went on:

"You are too sensible a girl, Lizzy, to fall in love merely because

you are warned against it; and, therefore, I am not afraid of speaking

openly. Seriously, I would have you be on your guard. Do not involve

yourself or endeavour to involve him in an affection which the want

of fortune would make so very imprudent. I have nothing to say against

_him_; he is a most interesting young man; and if he had the fortune he

ought to have, I should think you could not do better. But as it is, you

must not let your fancy run away with you. You have sense, and we all

expect you to use it. Your father would depend on _your_ resolution and

good conduct, I am sure. You must not disappoint your father."

"My dear aunt, this is being serious indeed."

"Yes, and I hope to engage you to be serious likewise."

"Well, then, you need not be under any alarm. I will take care of

myself, and of Mr. Wickham too. He shall not be in love with me, if I

can prevent it."

"Elizabeth, you are not serious now."

"I beg your pardon, I will try again. At present I am not in love with

Mr. Wickham; no, I certainly am not. But he is, beyond all comparison,

the most agreeable man I ever saw--and if he becomes really attached to

me--I believe it will be better that he should not. I see the imprudence

of it. Oh! _that_ abominable Mr. Darcy! My father's opinion of me does

me the greatest honour, and I should be miserable to forfeit it. My

father, however, is partial to Mr. Wickham. In short, my dear aunt, I

should be very sorry to be the means of making any of you unhappy; but

since we see every day that where there is affection, young people

are seldom withheld by immediate want of fortune from entering into

engagements with each other, how can I promise to be wiser than so many

of my fellow-creatures if I am tempted, or how am I even to know that it

would be wisdom to resist? All that I can promise you, therefore, is not

to be in a hurry. I will not be in a hurry to believe myself his first

object. When I am in company with him, I will not be wishing. In short,

I will do my best."

"Perhaps it will be as well if you discourage his coming here so very

often. At least, you should not _remind_ your mother of inviting him."

"As I did the other day," said Elizabeth with a conscious smile: "very

true, it will be wise in me to refrain from _that_. But do not imagine

that he is always here so often. It is on your account that he has been

so frequently invited this week. You know my mother's ideas as to the

necessity of constant company for her friends. But really, and upon my

honour, I will try to do what I think to be the wisest; and now I hope

you are satisfied."

Her aunt assured her that she was, and Elizabeth having thanked her for

the kindness of her hints, they parted; a wonderful instance of advice

being given on such a point, without being resented.

Mr. Collins returned into Hertfordshire soon after it had been quitted

by the Gardiners and Jane; but as he took up his abode with the Lucases,

his arrival was no great inconvenience to Mrs. Bennet. His marriage was

now fast approaching, and she was at length so far resigned as to think

it inevitable, and even repeatedly to say, in an ill-natured tone, that

she "_wished_ they might be happy." Thursday was to be the wedding day,

and on Wednesday Miss Lucas paid her farewell visit; and when she

rose to take leave, Elizabeth, ashamed of her mother's ungracious and

reluctant good wishes, and sincerely affected herself, accompanied her

out of the room. As they went downstairs together, Charlotte said:

"I shall depend on hearing from you very often, Eliza."

"_That_ you certainly shall."

"And I have another favour to ask you. Will you come and see me?"

"We shall often meet, I hope, in Hertfordshire."

"I am not likely to leave Kent for some time. Promise me, therefore, to

come to Hunsford."

Elizabeth could not refuse, though she foresaw little pleasure in the

visit.

"My father and Maria are coming to me in March," added Charlotte, "and I

hope you will consent to be of the party. Indeed, Eliza, you will be as

welcome as either of them."

The wedding took place; the bride and bridegroom set off for Kent from

the church door, and everybody had as much to say, or to hear, on

the subject as usual. Elizabeth soon heard from her friend; and their

correspondence was as regular and frequent as it had ever been; that

it should be equally unreserved was impossible. Elizabeth could never

address her without feeling that all the comfort of intimacy was over,

and though determined not to slacken as a correspondent, it was for the

sake of what had been, rather than what was. Charlotte's first letters

were received with a good deal of eagerness; there could not but be

curiosity to know how she would speak of her new home, how she would

like Lady Catherine, and how happy she would dare pronounce herself to

be; though, when the letters were read, Elizabeth felt that Charlotte

expressed herself on every point exactly as she might have foreseen. She

wrote cheerfully, seemed surrounded with comforts, and mentioned nothing

which she could not praise. The house, furniture, neighbourhood, and

roads, were all to her taste, and Lady Catherine's behaviour was most

friendly and obliging. It was Mr. Collins's picture of Hunsford and

Rosings rationally softened; and Elizabeth perceived that she must wait

for her own visit there to know the rest.

Jane had already written a few lines to her sister to announce their

safe arrival in London; and when she wrote again, Elizabeth hoped it

would be in her power to say something of the Bingleys.

Her impatience for this second letter was as well rewarded as impatience

generally is. Jane had been a week in town without either seeing or

hearing from Caroline. She accounted for it, however, by supposing that

her last letter to her friend from Longbourn had by some accident been

lost.

"My aunt," she continued, "is going to-morrow into that part of the

town, and I shall take the opportunity of calling in Grosvenor Street."

She wrote again when the visit was paid, and she had seen Miss Bingley.

"I did not think Caroline in spirits," were her words, "but she was very

glad to see me, and reproached me for giving her no notice of my coming

to London. I was right, therefore, my last letter had never reached

her. I inquired after their brother, of course. He was well, but so much

engaged with Mr. Darcy that they scarcely ever saw him. I found that

Miss Darcy was expected to dinner. I wish I could see her. My visit was

not long, as Caroline and Mrs. Hurst were going out. I dare say I shall

see them soon here."

Elizabeth shook her head over this letter. It convinced her that

accident only could discover to Mr. Bingley her sister's being in town.

Four weeks passed away, and Jane saw nothing of him. She endeavoured to

persuade herself that she did not regret it; but she could no longer be

blind to Miss Bingley's inattention. After waiting at home every morning

for a fortnight, and inventing every evening a fresh excuse for her, the

visitor did at last appear; but the shortness of her stay, and yet more,

the alteration of her manner would allow Jane to deceive herself no

longer. The letter which she wrote on this occasion to her sister will

prove what she felt.

"My dearest Lizzy will, I am sure, be incapable of triumphing in her

better judgement, at my expense, when I confess myself to have been

entirely deceived in Miss Bingley's regard for me. But, my dear sister,

though the event has proved you right, do not think me obstinate if I

still assert that, considering what her behaviour was, my confidence was

as natural as your suspicion. I do not at all comprehend her reason for

wishing to be intimate with me; but if the same circumstances were to

happen again, I am sure I should be deceived again. Caroline did not

return my visit till yesterday; and not a note, not a line, did I

receive in the meantime. When she did come, it was very evident that

she had no pleasure in it; she made a slight, formal apology, for not

calling before, said not a word of wishing to see me again, and was

in every respect so altered a creature, that when she went away I was

perfectly resolved to continue the acquaintance no longer. I pity,

though I cannot help blaming her. She was very wrong in singling me out

as she did; I can safely say that every advance to intimacy began on

her side. But I pity her, because she must feel that she has been acting

wrong, and because I am very sure that anxiety for her brother is the

cause of it. I need not explain myself farther; and though _we_ know

this anxiety to be quite needless, yet if she feels it, it will easily

account for her behaviour to me; and so deservedly dear as he is to

his sister, whatever anxiety she must feel on his behalf is natural and

amiable. I cannot but wonder, however, at her having any such fears now,

because, if he had at all cared about me, we must have met, long ago.

He knows of my being in town, I am certain, from something she said

herself; and yet it would seem, by her manner of talking, as if she

wanted to persuade herself that he is really partial to Miss Darcy. I

cannot understand it. If I were not afraid of judging harshly, I should

be almost tempted to say that there is a strong appearance of duplicity

in all this. But I will endeavour to banish every painful thought,

and think only of what will make me happy--your affection, and the

invariable kindness of my dear uncle and aunt. Let me hear from you very

soon. Miss Bingley said something of his never returning to Netherfield

again, of giving up the house, but not with any certainty. We had better

not mention it. I am extremely glad that you have such pleasant accounts

from our friends at Hunsford. Pray go to see them, with Sir William and

Maria. I am sure you will be very comfortable there.--Yours, etc."

This letter gave Elizabeth some pain; but her spirits returned as she

considered that Jane would no longer be duped, by the sister at least.

All expectation from the brother was now absolutely over. She would not

even wish for a renewal of his attentions. His character sunk on

every review of it; and as a punishment for him, as well as a possible

advantage to Jane, she seriously hoped he might really soon marry Mr.

Darcy's sister, as by Wickham's account, she would make him abundantly

regret what he had thrown away.

Mrs. Gardiner about this time reminded Elizabeth of her promise

concerning that gentleman, and required information; and Elizabeth

had such to send as might rather give contentment to her aunt than to

herself. His apparent partiality had subsided, his attentions were over,

he was the admirer of some one else. Elizabeth was watchful enough to

see it all, but she could see it and write of it without material pain.

Her heart had been but slightly touched, and her vanity was satisfied

with believing that _she_ would have been his only choice, had fortune

permitted it. The sudden acquisition of ten thousand pounds was the most

remarkable charm of the young lady to whom he was now rendering himself

agreeable; but Elizabeth, less clear-sighted perhaps in this case than

in Charlotte's, did not quarrel with him for his wish of independence.

Nothing, on the contrary, could be more natural; and while able to

suppose that it cost him a few struggles to relinquish her, she was

ready to allow it a wise and desirable measure for both, and could very

sincerely wish him happy.

All this was acknowledged to Mrs. Gardiner; and after relating the

circumstances, she thus went on: "I am now convinced, my dear aunt, that

I have never been much in love; for had I really experienced that pure

and elevating passion, I should at present detest his very name, and

wish him all manner of evil. But my feelings are not only cordial

towards _him_; they are even impartial towards Miss King. I cannot find

out that I hate her at all, or that I am in the least unwilling to

think her a very good sort of girl. There can be no love in all this. My

watchfulness has been effectual; and though I certainly should be a more

interesting object to all my acquaintances were I distractedly in love

with him, I cannot say that I regret my comparative insignificance.

Importance may sometimes be purchased too dearly. Kitty and Lydia take

his defection much more to heart than I do. They are young in the

ways of the world, and not yet open to the mortifying conviction that

handsome young men must have something to live on as well as the plain."

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