THE PARABLE OF THE HEATHER
We left Zermatt on the following day. I must say that I entered the
squire's room with some trepidation, but it was quite unnecessary. He
smiled as I bent over to kiss him, and relieved my apprehension at once.
"It's all right, Grace," he said; "the heather pulls. You know, don't
you?"
Dr. Grey was splendid. Motor cars are of no use in Zermatt, except to
bring you there or take you away, so the smell of petrol does not often
draw the tourist's attention from the sublime to the--nauseous; but it
was characteristic of the almost impudent audacity of the man that he
commandeered the only one there was at the Victoria.
"How have you managed it?" I asked, when I learned that we were all to
travel as far as Lausanne in the Marquis d'Olsini's luxurious
automobile.
"Oh, easily enough," he replied in his hearty way; "the marquis is no
end of a decent sort, and when I explained matters, and pointed out
that the car was rusting for want of use, he placed it at my disposal
with the grace and courtliness that distinguish your true Italian
nobleman."
It was a veritable little palace on tyres, and we reached Lausanne
quickly and without inconvenience. The squire was not a bit worse for
the effort, but the sight of old Gottlieb turning away from the door
when he had bidden us good-bye, with a shrug of the shoulders that said
as plainly as any words could have done that he washed his hands of all
responsibility and was disgusted at the capriciousness of the mad
English, afforded me much delight and remains with me still.
It took us four days to reach Folkestone, and we stayed there a couple
of nights before we went on to London. Dr. and Mrs. Grey remained with
us until we reached the St. Pancras hotel, where the Cynic was waiting
to receive us. The squire will see a good deal of the Greys, as the
doctor is a Manchester man and can easily run over. The Cynic took to
them at once, and Mrs. Grey, or "Dot" as I have learned to call her,
confided to me that my friend was a very nice fellow of whom she would
be desperately afraid. Fancy any woman being afraid of the Cynic!
Mr. Derwent is, in his way, quite as good an organiser as the doctor,
though he goes about his work so quietly that you hardly realise it.
Instead of our having to change at Airlee he had arranged for a saloon
to be attached to the Scotch express, so that we travelled with the
utmost possible comfort. The squire was by this time so accustomed to
travelling, and had borne the fatigue of the journey so well, that I
should not have hesitated to accompany him alone, but it was very
pleasant to have the Cynic's company and to feel that he shared the
responsibility. He seemed pleased to see me, I thought, and
congratulated me warmly on the success of my mission.
"You must thank Dr. Grey for all this," I said; "it was his persistence
that brought Mr. Evans home."
"Nay, child," said the squire, "you and your word pictures sent me
home."
Webster met us at Fawkshill with the pair of bays, and his eyes shone
as he greeted the squire. It was good to observe the sympathy that
exists between the two as they grasped hands at the station gate. One
was master and the other servant, but they were just old friends
reunited, and neither of them was ashamed of his emotion.
When we entered the lane the squire closed his eyes. "I will play at
being a boy again, Grace. Tell me when we reach the brow of the hill,
so that I may see it all at once."
I knew what he meant, and none of the three spoke a word until Webster
pulled up his horses at my request. It was nearly five o'clock in the
afternoon, and the warm August sun was well on his way to the west. A
thin haze hung over the distant hills, but the moors were glorious in
brown and purple, and there was here and there the glint of gorse.
"Now, sir," I said, "look and rejoice!"
He stood up in the carriage and looked around; and as he looked he
filled his lungs with the sweet moorland air. Then he said, with deep
emotion:
"Thank God for this!--Drive on, Webster, please."
I was anxious to see the motherkin, and leaving the squire to the
companionship of Mr. Derwent I hastened to the cottage. It would be
more correct to say that I did my best to hasten, but so many of the
villagers stopped me to offer their greetings and inquire the news that
my progress was considerably retarded.
When I was nearing the cottage I met Farmer Goodenough, whose hearty
hand-grasp I accepted cautiously. After the usual preliminary
questions had been asked and answered his voice became rather grave as
he said:
"Miss 'Olden, I don't want to worry ye, knowing 'at you're an extra
speshul hand at findin' trouble, but I don't altogether like the looks
o' Mrs. Hubbard. She's gone a bit thin an' worn, in a manner o'
speakin'. Ye'll excuse me saying ought, I know, but 'a stitch in time
saves nine,' as t' Owd Book puts it."
I thanked him, and hurried home, feeling very troubled and uneasy, but
when the dear old lady came tripping down to meet me my fears retired
into the background. She was so bright and sweet and altogether
dainty, and she looked so happy and so well, with the pink flush of
pleasure on her cheeks, that I concluded the worthy farmer had for once
deceived himself.
"Yes, love!" she exclaimed, flinging her arms around my neck as I
stooped to kiss her; "but you are so brown, love, and you are really
handsome. Do come in and have some tea."
She hovered about me all the time I was removing my hat and coat,
anxious to render me service, and seizing every opportunity of stroking
my hands and cheeks.
"You foolish old pussy-cat!" I said at length, as I forced her into her
easy-chair and placed the hot toast before her. "Give over petting and
spoiling me, and tell me all about yourself--the truth, the whole
truth, and nothing but the truth."
She evaded all my questions, however, and insisted that I should
describe for her every incident of my journey.
When we had cleared away the things and drawn our chairs up to the fire
I returned to the attack. Perhaps she was a little thin, after all,
and there was a tired look about the eyes that I did not like.
"What have you been doing in my absence?" I asked; "not working
yourself to death in the vain attempt to impart a brighter surface to
everything polishable, eh?"
"No, love, I have taken things very easily, and have just kept the
cottages and your studio tidy. I have spent a good deal of time at
Reuben's, where they have been very kind to me; but I have missed you
very much, love."
"Well, I am back now, and not likely to leave you again for a long
time. We must have another full day's jaunt on the moors and see the
heather in all its royal magnificence."
Her eyes brightened, but I noticed they fell again, and there was doubt
in her voice as she replied:
"Yes, love. That will be nice. I think the heat has been very trying,
and you may find it so, too. You must take care not to overtire
yourself."
Then I knew that there was something wrong, and was glad that I had not
consented to live at the Hall. It had been a disappointment to the
squire, but he had not pressed the point when he saw that I was
unwilling, and I had, of course, readily agreed to spend a good deal of
time with him. I know he would have welcomed my old lady as a
permanent guest for my sake, but she would never have consented to
abandon her own little Hall of Memories, though she would have sought
by every cunning artifice which love could devise to induce me to leave
her, and would have suffered smilingly. I registered a mental vow that
she should never know, if I could keep the secret from her, and that I
would do all in my power to make her declining days happy.
"Why are you so weary, dear?" I asked.
"Oh, it is nothing, love," she replied. "It is just the heat. I shall
be better when the days are cooler. Indeed, love, I am feeling better
already."
I slept soundly enough, in spite of my new anxiety, but the morrow
brought me no alleviation. The old lady's vigour was gone, and she
moved about the house without energy. But her cheerfulness never
failed her, and her patience was something to marvel at.
Dr. Trempest pulled up his horse at the gate and stopped to have a chat
one day, and I took the opportunity of mentioning my uneasiness.
"I'll pop in and look at her," he said. "Why don't you give her the
same magic physic you've poured down the throat of my old friend Evans?
He's taken on a new lease of life. I tell you it's a miracle, and he
says you did it, but he won't divulge the secret. Dear! dear! we old
fogeys are no use at all in competition with the women! But come,
let's have a look at the old girl."
He walked brusquely in and sat astride a chair, leaning his chin on the
high back, and talked with her for ten minutes. Then he came out to me
again.
"Can't say much without an examination, but appears to me the
machinery's getting done. We can none of us last for ever, you know.
Keep her still, if you can, and tell her she needn't be up every two
minutes to flick the dust off the fireirons. Drive her out, now and
then, and let her have exercise without exertion; and don't you pull a
long face before her or get excited or boisterous."
I pulled a face at _him_, and he grinned as he mounted his horse.
"I'll send her up a bottle," he said; "works wonders, does a bottle, if
it's mixed with faith in them that take it;" and the caustic old man
moved slowly away.
The bottle came, but so far it has wrought no miracle, and there has
crept into my heart the unwelcome suggestion of loss. I have tried not
to admit it, not to recognise it when admitted, but the attempt is
vain. Dr. Trempest shakes his head and repeats his sagacious remark
that we can't live for ever, and the squire presses my hand in
sympathy, being too honest to attempt to comfort me with hollow hopes.
Only Mother Hubbard herself is cheerful, and as her physical strength
decreases she appears to gain self-possession and mental vigour. When
the squire suggested that she should be asked to accompany us on the
drives which he so much enjoys I anticipated considerable opposition,
and felt certain that she would yield most reluctantly, but to my
surprise she consented without demur.
"This is very kind of Mr. Evans, love," she said, "and if you do not
mind having an old woman with you I shall be glad to go."
She did not say much on these excursions, but when she was directly
spoken to she answered without confusion, and was quite unconscious
that she occasionally addressed the squire as "love." He never
betrayed any consciousness of it, but I once noticed a repressed smile
steal over Webster's face as he sat upon the box.
Now it was that I saw the full beauty of the moorland which had made so
strong an appeal to my father's heart. I felt my own strangely
stirred, and my two companions were also full of emotion. I believe it
spoke to each of us with a different voice, and had not quite the same
message for any two of us. I have hardly analysed my own feelings, but
I think the rich and yet subdued colouring got hold of my imagination,
and the wildness of the scene impressed me powerfully.
I had always known these moors--known them from my childhood; but only
as one knows many things--the moon or the Mauritius, for instance--from
the description of others. The picture painted for me had been true to
life, but not living; yet it had been sufficiently lifelike to make the
reality strangely familiar. And now I looked at it with double
vision--through my own eyes and my father's; and the thought of what he
would have felt quickened my perceptions and attuned them to the spirit
of my ancestors. The moors were sheeted in purple, brightened by
clumps of golden gorse, and I could easily have followed the example of
Linnaeus, who, when he first saw the yellow blossom, is said to have
fallen on his knees and praised God for its beauty.
The squire had known the moors always. To him the scene speaks of
home. I do not think the actual beauty of it impresses him greatly,
perhaps because of its extreme familiarity, and it does not arouse in
him the same sensation of pleasure or appeal to his artistic sense in
the same degree as the grander scenery he has so lately left behind.
But this _contents_ him as nothing else does or could! It is as when
one exchanges the gilded chairs of state for the old, familiar
arm-chair which would appear shabby to some people, or the dress shoes
of ceremony for the homely slippers on the hearth. He admits now that
he is happier than he had ever been abroad, and that he is glad to
spend the late evening of his days amid the friendly scenes of his
youth and manhood.
As for Mother Hubbard, she is quite unconsciously a mixture of poet and
prophet. Everything speaks to her of God.
"Yes, love," she said quite recently, "'He maketh everything beautiful
in its season;'" and to her the country is always beautiful, because it
is always as God made it. That is why she loves it so much, I am sure;
and whether it glows and sparkles beneath the hot sun of August or lies
dun and grey under the clouded skies of February it is always full of
charm. To her, all God's paintings show the hand of the Master,
whether done in monochrome or in the colours of the rainbow, and none
of them fails to satisfy her.
And Nature preaches to her, but the sermons are always comforting to
her soul, for her inward ear has never been trained to catch the gloomy
messages which some of us hear so readily. But where she finds
consolation I discover disquietude.
The horse had been pulled up at a point where the wide panorama
stretched limitlessly before us, and for a time we had all been
speechless. I had gathered a tiny bunch of heather and fastened it in
my belt, and now stood, shading my eyes with my hand, as I looked
across the billowy expanse. The squire had closed his eyes, but his
face showed no trace of weariness, and I knew that he was happy.
Mother Hubbard broke the silence, as she sank back into her seat with a
little sigh, and when I sat down Webster drove slowly on.
"It is nice to think, love, that though you have gathered and taken
away a sprig of heather the landscape is still beautiful. And yet, you
know, the little flowers you have plucked gave their share of beauty to
the whole, and helped God to do His work. I think, love, that thought
encourages me when I know that the Lord may soon stretch out His hand
for me. Your little flowers have not lived in vain. Only their
neighbours will miss them, but their little world would not have been
quite as beautiful without them."
I think the squire was astonished, but he remained quite still, and I
replied:
"That is very true, dear, but the heather has never thwarted its
Maker's purpose, but has lived the life He designed, and so has
perfectly fulfilled its mission. With man, alas! it is not so. He too
often makes a sad bungle of life, and is so full of imperfections that
he cannot add much to the beauty of the landscape."
Mother Hubbard shook her head and pointed to the moors. "Yet _that_ is
very beautiful, love, isn't it?"
"It is perfect," I replied.
"Perfect, is it? Look at the little flowers at your waist. See, one
little bell has been blighted in some way, and there are several which
seem to have been eaten away in parts, and here and there some have
fallen off. I wonder if you could find a sprig, love, where every bell
and tiny leaf is perfect. Not many, I think. Yet you say the view is
perfect, though the parts are full of imperfections."
The squire opened his eyes and bent them gravely upon her, but he did
not speak, and she did not observe him.
"Ah, but, dear Mother Hubbard," I said, "the heather bells cannot help
their imperfections. The blight and the insect, the claw of bird, the
foot of beast, the hand and heel of man---how can they resist these
things? But again I say, with man it is not so. He is the master of
his destiny. He has freedom of will, and when he fails and falls and
spoils his life it is his own fault."
"Not always, love," the gentle voice replied; "perhaps not often
entirely his own fault. I used to think like that, but God has given
me clearer vision now. Here is poor Sar'-Ann, not daring to show her
face outside the door; covered with shame for her own sin and Ginty's.
Oh yes, love, she has spoiled her life. But think of how she has been
brought up: in a little cottage where there was a big family and only
two rooms; where the father was coarse and the boys--poor little
fellows--imitated him; and the mother, though she has a kind heart, is
vulgar and often thoughtless; where decency has been impossible and
woman's frailty has been made a jest. It has not been Sar'-Ann's
fault, love, that she has been placed there. She had no voice in the
selection of her lot. She might have been in your home and you in
hers. That little bunch of heather would have been safe yet if it had
not been growing by the roadside where you stood."
"Then God is responsible for Sar'-Ann?" I asked.
"God is her Father, and He loves her very dearly," she replied simply.
"There are lots of questions I cannot answer, love, but I am sure He
will not throw Sar'-Ann away because she has been blighted and stained."
The squire broke in now, and there was just a little tremor in his
voice as he spoke:
"'And when the vessel that he made of the clay was marred in the hands
of the potter he made it again another vessel, as seemed good to the
potter to make it.'"
Mother Hubbard's eyes lit up. "Yes, sir," she said, "and I do not
think he grieved too much because the first design went wrong. He just
made it again another vessel. Perhaps he meant at first to make a very
beautiful and graceful vessel, but there were imperfections and flaws
in the material, so he made it into a homely jug; and yet it was
useful."
"Oh, Mother Hubbard!" I said, "there are all sorts of imperfections and
flaws in your logic, and I know people who would shake it to pieces in
a moment."
"Well, love, perhaps so; but they would not shake my faith:
"'To one fixed ground my spirit clings,
I know that God is good.'"
"Stick to that, Mrs. Hubbard," said the squire earnestly; "never let go
that belief. Faith is greater far than logic. I would sooner doubt
God's existence than His goodness. Problems of sin and suffering have
oppressed my brain and heart all my life, but like you I have got
clearer vision during these later days. The clouds often disperse
towards the sunset, and my mental horizon is undimmed now. You and I
cannot explain life's mysteries, but God can, and meanwhile I hold
"'That nothing walks with aimless feet;
That not one life shall be destroyed,
Or cast as rubbish to the void,
When God hath made the pile complete.'"
"Tennyson was not Paul," I remarked.
"Why should he have been?" he asked. "He was a Christian seer, none
the less, and he had the heavenly vision."
"But you cannot call his theology orthodox," I persisted; "is it in any
sense Biblical?"
"Whence came his vision and inspiration if not from God?" he replied.
Then he turned to Mother Hubbard: "Thank you, thank you much," he said;
"I shall not forget your parable of the heather."