Produced by Al Haines
WINDYRIDGE
BY
W. RILEY
HERBERT JENKINS LIMITED
YORK STREET, ST. JAMES'S
LONDON S.W.1.
1915
_POPULAR EDITION._
_Printed in Great Britain by Love & Malcomson, Ltd.,
London and Redhill._
CONTENTS
CHAPTER
I. THE CALL OF THE HEATHER
II. FARMER GOODENOUGH STATES HIS TERMS
III. GRACE MEETS THE SQUIRE
IV. THE STUDIO
V. FARMER BROWN IS PHOTOGRAPHED
VI. OVER THE MOOR TO ROMANTON
VII. THE CYNIC DISCOURSES ON WOMAN
VIII. CHRISTMAS DAY AT WINDYRIDGE
IX. MRS. BROWN EXPLAINS
X. INTRODUCES WIDOW ROBERTSHAW
XI. GINTY RUNS AWAY
XII. THE CYNIC EXAGGERATES
XIII. WHITSUNTIDE EXPERIENCES
XIV. BARJONA FALLS INTO THE TRAP
XV. ROSE ARRIVES
XVI. THE CYNIC SPEAKS IN PARABLES
XVII. GRACE BECOMES DEJECTED
XVIII. CARRIER TED RECEIVES NOTICE TO QUIT
XIX. BARJONA'S DOWNFALL
XX. THE CYNIC'S RENUNCIATION
XXI. AT ZERMATT
XXII. THE HEATHER PULLS
XXIII. THE PARABLE OF THE HEATHER
XXIV. ROGER TREFFIT INTRODUCES "MISS TERRY"
XXV. THE RETURN OF THE PRODIGAL
XXVI. THE CYNIC BRINGS NEWS OF GINTY
XXVII. MOTHER HUBBARD HEARS THE CALL
XXVIII. IN THE CRUCIBLE
XXIX. THE GREAT STORM
XXX. CALM AFTER STORM
WINDYRIDGE
CHAPTER I
THE CALL OF THE HEATHER
I am beginning to-day a new volume in the book of my life. I wrote the
Prologue to it yesterday when I chanced upon this hamlet, and my Inner
Self peremptorily bade me take up my abode here. My Inner Self often
insists upon a course which has neither rhyme nor reason to recommend
it, but as I am a woman I can plead instinct as the explanation--or
shall I say the excuse?--of my eccentric conduct. Yet I don't think I
have ever been quite so mad before as I fully realise that I am now,
and the delight of it all is that I don't care and I don't repent,
although twenty-four hours have passed since I impulsively asked the
price of my cottage, and found that I could have it, studio and all,
for a yearly rental of ten pounds. I have never been a tenant "on my
own" before, and the knowledge that I am not going back to the attic
bedroom and the hard "easy" chairs of the Chelsea lodging-house which
has been my home for the last three years fills me with a great joy. I
feel as if I should suffocate if I were to go back, but it is my soul
which would be smothered. Subconsciously I have been panting for
Windyridge for months, and my soul recognised the place and leaped to
the discovery instantaneously.
Yet how strange it all seems: how ridiculously fantastic! I cannot get
away from that thought, and I am constantly asking myself whether
Providence or Fate, or any other power with a capital letter at the
beginning, is directing the move for my good, or whether it is just
whimsicalness on my part, self-originated and self-explanatory--the
explanation being that I am mad, as I said before.
When I look back on the events of the last three days and realise that
I have crossed my Rubicon and burned my boats behind me, and that I had
no conscious intention of doing anything of the kind when I set out, I
just gasp. If I had stayed to reason with myself I should never have
had the courage to pack a few things into a bag and take a third-class
ticket for Airlee at King's Cross, with the avowed intention of hearing
a Yorkshire choir sing in a summer festival. Yet it seems almost
prophetic as I recall the incident that I declined to take a return
ticket, though, to be sure, there was no advantage in doing so: no
reduction, I mean. Whether there was an advantage remains to be seen;
I verily believe I should have returned rather than have wasted that
return half. I dislike waste.
That was on Tuesday; on Wednesday I went to the Town Hall and entered a
new world. It cost me a good deal in coin of the realm--much more than
I had dreamed of--but I got it all back in the currency of heaven
before I came away. It may have been my excitable temperament--for my
mother, I remember, used to condone my faults by explaining that I was
"highly-strung," whatever that may mean--or it may have been the
Yorkshire blood in my veins which turned to fever heat as the vast
volume of sweet sound rose and fell; one thing is certain, I lost
myself completely, and did not find myself again until I discovered
that the room was almost bare of people, and realised by the
good-humoured glances of the few who remained that I appeared to be
more vacant than the room, and was making myself foolishly conspicuous
by remaining seated with my head in my hands and that far-away look in
my eyes which tells of "yonderliness."
To be quite candid, I am not quite sure that I _did_ find myself; I
suspect some tenant moved out and another moved in that afternoon, and
I am disposed to think that Airlee explains Windyridge. If I were to
attempt to put down in cold words what I heard or what I felt I should
fail, and it would seem very ordinary and uninspiring, so I shall not
make the attempt. But when I got outside, the noise of the busy city
grated on my senses, and the atmosphere--which was really not bad, for
the day was bright and sunny--seemed heavy and stifling. I longed for
something which I had not previously cared about; I did not understand
my yearnings--I do not yet--but I wanted to get away from the wooden
pavements, and the granite banks, and the brick warehouses, and the
huge hotels, and the smoke and bustle and din, and lay my head in the
lap of Nature, and think.
I slept a little, I am sure, but I tossed about a good deal in the cosy
little bed of the modest hotel where I took lodging, and when morning
came I found my Inner Self still harping on the same string, and more
vigorously than ever. Perhaps, if I had been sensible, I should have
gone straight to the station, and by this time have been going through
the old routine in Bloomsbury and Chelsea, instead of which I made my
way into the street after breakfast, and asked a kind-faced clergyman
which tramcar would take me farthest away from the turmoil. He was a
fatherly man, but his answers were so vague, and he seemed in so much
doubt of their reliability, that I disregarded them and accosted a
bright young workman who crossed the square a moment later. "A good
long ride?" he repeated; "right into the country, eh? Take this car
and go to the far end." With this he led me to one which bore the
fateful sign "Fawkshill."
It was a lovely day even in the city, warm but not muggy. When I had
found an outside seat at the extreme front of the upper deck of the
car, the greater part of which was covered, and redolent of tobacco
fumes, I made up my mind to enjoy the breeze and the experience. So
far as I knew it was just a parenthesis in a chapter of my life, not
the beginning of a new volume. In the background of my thoughts there
was always Chelsea, though I affected to forget it. Meantime, in the
foreground, there was a good deal to make even Chelsea attractive by
comparison.
We made our way slowly along the grimy road, with its rows of
monotonously uninteresting warehouses, and its endless drays filled
with the city's merchandise. When the warehouses ended the grime
remained. We passed street after street of brick-built cottages, over
which spread a canopy of smoke from a hundred factory chimneys. When
the country was reached--if the bleak and sad-looking fields could be
called country--the mill chimneys were just as evident. They were
everywhere, even on the horizon, and my spirits sank. The villages
through which we passed were just suburbs, with the thumb-print of the
city on them all. Every cottage, every villa, spoke of the mill or the
shop. As we neared the terminus I found to my dismay that so far from
leaving these things behind we were entering a prosperous-looking
little town which was just Airlee on a smaller scale, with its full
quota of smoke-producing factories. How I blamed myself for following
the advice of the young workman and regretted that I had not trusted
the parson!
I had an early lunch at a confectioner's and then wandered, aimlessly
enough, up a quiet road which led away from the town and the
tram-lines. It was not very promising at first, but when I had passed
the last row of houses and found myself hemmed in by green, moss-grown
walls, my spirits rose. By and by I reached cross-roads and a broad,
white highway, which was manifestly one of the great arteries of this
thriving district. It had no attractions for me and I crossed it, and
continued my upward path. A sign-post told me that I was on my way to
Windyridge.
I was now in a rather pleasant country road, but one which certainly
could boast few attractions. Yet I was attracted, perhaps because I
could see so little in front of me, perhaps because I could not see a
single factory chimney, look where I would.
Fifteen minutes after leaving Fawkshill I had reached the brow of the
hill, and my spirits rose with a bound. Just in front of me, on a
rising knoll, some fine sycamores and beeches clustered together,
guarding the approach to a grey, ivy-coated hall. The rooks cawed
dismally in the highest branches of the sycamores, the leaves of which
were already beginning to fall. Autumn, apparently, lays her hand in
good time upon the foliage in these northern regions, for some of the
trees had already grown ruddy at her touch.
When I came to the bend of the road I think my heart stood still for a
second or two. There in front of me and to my left--almost, as it
seemed, at my feet--were the heather-covered moors, gloriously purple,
and the tears came into my eyes. I could not help it; it was so
unexpected, and it unlocked too suddenly the chamber where a memory was
preserved--a hallowed, never-to-be-forgotten memory.
Years ago, and long before his sufferings ended, my father was leaning
back in his chair one day, his hand clasping its arms, as his custom
was, when there came into his eyes a look of inexpressible longing,
almost of pain. I went and knelt by his side, and passed my hand
gently through his hair, and asked, "What is it, dad dear?" He drew my
face to his and answered sadly--it was little more than a whisper, for
he was very weak,--"It was the heather calling me, lassie; I felt its
sweet breath upon my cheek for a moment, and longed to fall upon its
comfortable breast. But it cannot be; it cannot be!"
That was ten years ago, and now the heather was to call me and I was to
respond to the call. How long I stood there, with the tear-drops
dimming my vision, I do not know, but presently I became conscious of a
village street, if the few houses which straggled back from the roadway
could with any propriety be termed a village. I walked along the path
and drank in every sight and sound, and thirsted for more. I thought,
in the intoxication of that hour, that peace and contentment must be
the portion of every dweller in that quiet spot. I know it will not be
so, of course. I suppose sorrow and heartache may inhabit that quaint
one-storeyed cottage from which the wreath of blue smoke curls so
lazily; that the seeds of greed and falsehood and discontent may thrive
and grow here, and be just as hateful and hideous as the flowers which
fill the gardens around me are bright and beautiful. But for the
moment I did not realise this.
A woman was washing the flags at her cottage door, and she smiled upon
me as I passed. It was my first human welcome to the moors. At the
sound of my footsteps a whole regiment of hens flew from the hilly
field which was their pasture, and perched in line upon the wall to
give me greeting.
I saw no sign of church or inn; no shop save a blacksmith's, and that
was closed. The cottage windows and the little white curtains behind
them were spotlessly clean. Within, I caught a glimpse here and there
of shining steel and polished brass which sparkled in the firelight;
and the comfort and cosiness of it all appealed to me strongly.
I do not think there are more than a score houses in the village, but
before I had come to the end of the street my soul had made the
discovery I referred to just now. "Surely," I said to myself, "it is
good to be here; this people shall be my people."
It was doubtless a mad thing to say, but I was prospered in my madness.
At the extreme end of the village, just past the little Methodist
chapel which by its newness struck a jarring note in the otherwise
perfect harmony, I saw a long, low building, of one storey like most of
its fellows, roofed with stone, and fronted by a large garden. It was
separated by a field-length from its nearest neighbour, and the field
was just the side of a hill, nothing more. Two doors gave access to
the building, which was apparently unevenly divided into two cottages,
for a couple of windows appertained to the one door and one only to the
other. A board at the bottom of the garden and abutting upon the road
conveyed the information that this "Desirable cottage" was "to let,
furnished."
Then and there I gave hostages to fortune. If that cottage was to be
had for a sum which came within the limits of my slender purse, it
should be mine from that hour. For I saw at a glance that it faced the
moors and the sunset; and I vowed that the windows should be always
open, so that the breath of the heather might have free entrance.
I pushed aside the little green gate and walked up the tiny path amid a
profusion of flowers whose names are as yet unknown to me. I promise
myself to know them all ere long: to know their habits and their
humours: to learn their secrets and the story of their lives; but that
is for the future. Something almost as sweet and dainty as the flowers
claimed my attention first.
At the sound of the creaking gate, a dear old lady appeared at the door
of the doll's house which was joined to my cottage and advanced to meet
me. She had the pleasantest of faces, and was pink and pretty in spite
of her sixty odd years. She wore a cap with strings, in the style of
long ago: it was a rather jaunty cap and not devoid of colour. A faded
shawl hung loosely around her shoulders, and a white apron protected
her neat black frock. I saw at once that she was a nervous little
body, yet there was dignity as well as deference in the face which
looked smilingly into mine. But the manner of her address took my
heart by storm. I had never been accosted in this way before, and I
nearly took the old lady in my arms and kissed her. I have done since!
"Yes, love!" she said. It was not an inquiry exactly, though there may
have been the faintest note of interrogation in her voice. It was as
though I had told her of my desire to rent the cottage, and she was
expressing a gratified assent.
"I see this little house is to let," I began; "may I look at it, and
will you tell me all about it?"
"To be sure, love," was the reply. "Now, just come inside my cottage
and rest yourself, and I'll pour you out a cup of tea if you're in no
hurry, for there's sure to be someone passing who will tell Reuben
Goodenough to come hither."
"How sweet of you!" I replied. "A cup of tea will be like the nectar
of the gods. I will drink it thankfully."
The inside of that room was a revelation to me. It was, oh, so very,
very small--the smallest living-room I am sure that I ever set eyes
upon--but so marvellously clean, and so comfortably homelike that I
uttered an exclamation of surprise and delight as I crossed the
threshold.
The ceiling was of oak, with deep, broad, uneven beams of the same
material, all dark and glossy with age. The stone floor was covered
for the most part with druggeting, whilst a thick rug composed of small
cuttings of black cloth with a design in scarlet was laid before the
ample hearth. An old oak sideboard, or dresser, nearly filled the wall
facing the window, and on its open shelves was an array of china which
would make some people I know break the tenth commandment. A
magnificent grandfather's clock, also in oak, with wonderful carving,
ticked importantly in one corner, and a capacious cupboard filled
another.
The wall decorations consisted of a bright but battered copper
warming-pan, which hung perpendicularly from the ceiling, looking like
the immense pendulum of some giant clock; and three "pictures" which
aroused my interest. Two of them were framed examples of their owner's
skill in needlework, as evidenced by the inscription, carefully worked
in coloured wool--"Mary Jackson, her work, aged 13." The letters of
the alphabet, and the numerals from 1 to 20, with certain enigmatical
figures which I took to represent flowers, completed the one effort,
whilst familiar texts of Scripture, after the style of "Thou God Seest
Me," made up the other.
The third frame was of mahogany like the others, and contained a
collection of deep, black-edged funeral cards of ancient date.
But the fireplace! My father's description of a real, old-fashioned
Yorkshire range was understood now for the first time, as I saw the
high mantelpiece, the deep oven and the wide-mouthed grate and chimney,
in which the yellow flames were dancing merrily, covering the whole
room with the amber glow which made it so warm and enticing. Through
an open door I caught sight of a white counterpane, and found that
there was, after all, a wee bedroom built out at the back.
Drawn quite close to the hearthrug was a round deal table covered with
a snowy cloth. Two minutes later I was seated there, sipping tea and
eating toast, deliciously crisp and hot, and taking my new friend into
my confidence.
I confess it pleased me to find that my mad proposal was all as natural
as the sunshine to her. The dear old soul never uttered one word of
warning or suggestion. She was delighted with the scheme I rapidly
evolved and ready to be my willing helper. I won her affection at once
when I told her that I was a "Yorkshireman," and she took me to her
heart and begged me to let her "mother" me. I lost my own mother
before I had learned to value her, and I think I shall like to be
"mothered," though I shall be thirty-five in April.
God bless Mother Hubbard! I must tell how I took the cottage to-morrow.
CHAPTER II
FARMER GOODENOUGH STATES HIS TERMS
A fee of one penny, paid in advance, lent wings to the feet of the
small boy who was pressed into my service, and before many minutes had
passed Farmer Goodenough appeared upon the scene.
He shook hands with me, after Mother Hubbard had performed the ceremony
of introduction, and I can feel the warmth of his greeting in my right
hand yet. I shall be careful in future when I get to close grips with
big, horny-handed Yorkshire farmers.
I almost regretted that I had felt it necessary to explain the
situation to him when I heard his hearty and somewhat patronising
laugh, but Mother Hubbard's previous treatment had emboldened me.
"Well, I do declare, Miss..." he hesitated and looked at me
inquiringly, for my hostess had not mentioned my name.
"Grace Holden is my name, and I am unmarried," I said in reply.
"Oh!" he answered--only he pronounced it "Aw!"
"Well now, miss, you must excuse _me_, for I mostly speaks straight and
no offence meant, and I hope none taken; but isn't this just a little
bit daft-like? 'Marry in 'aste an' repent at leisure,' as t' Owd Book
says. I'm thinkin' this'll be summat o' t' same sort. Hadn't you
better sleep on it, think ye? It'll happen be a mucky day to-morrow,
an' Windyridge 'll hev t' polish ta'en off it."
I have written this down with Mother Hubbard's assistance, and I
required a little help from her at the time in the interpretation of
it. But the farmer's candour pleased me.
"If the rent is more than I can afford to pay I shall return to London
early to-morrow," I said; "but if it is within my means I shall
certainly stay--at any rate for twelve months," I added guardedly.
"Now look you here, miss," returned the farmer; "I've got this cottage
to let, an' if you take it for three months, _or_ for six months, _or_
for twelve months--for three months _or_ for six months _or_ for twelve
months you'll hev it to pay for. Right's right, an' a bargain's a
bargain all the world over. Frenchman, Scotchman _or_ Yorkshireman, a
bargain's a bargain. But nob'dy shall say 'at Reuben Goodenough took
advantage of a woman. I won't let you this cottage, if you like it so
as never, an' whether you can afford it or no, not until to-morrow I
won't. An' I'll tell you why.
"You've just come an' seen Windyridge when all t' glory o' t'
sunshine's on it, an' t' birds is singin' an' t' flowers is bloomin';
but it isn't allus like that. Not 'at I'm runnin' Windyridge down.
_I_'m content here, but then I were born here, an' my work's here, an'
t' missus an' t' youngsters were brought up here. But when you've
slept on it you'll happen see different. Now you've no 'casion to
speak"--as I was about to protest--"I've made up my mind, an' I'm as
stupid as a mule when I set myself, an' there can be no harm done by
waiting a toathree hours. Come, I'll show you what I can let you have
for a ten-pun' note a year, if so be as you decide to take it at t'
finish."
He unlocked the door and stepped aside to let us enter. The kitchen
was almost a duplicate of Mother Hubbard's, but longer. There were the
same oak rafters, the same oak sideboard, the same huge fireplace, the
same cupboard. A horrible contrivance of cocoa-matting covered the
floor, and a hearthrug, neatly folded, was conspicuous in one corner.
A bedroom, of ample size for one woman of modest requirements, opened
out of the kitchen, and I saw at a glance that I might have as cosy a
home as Mother Hubbard herself. My mind was made up; but then so was
Farmer Goodenough's, and as I looked at the square jaw and the thin
lips I was convinced that this man with the good-natured face was not
to be moved from his resolution.
"I shall take the cottage for twelve months," I said; "but I recognise
the force of your objection, and I will not ask you to make out an
agreement until to-morrow--to-morrow morning.
"But I claim to be a Yorkshirewoman, and so can be just a wee bit
stupid myself, and you know the proverb says, 'When a woman says she
will, she _will_, you may depend on 't.' Tell me, though, is not ten
pounds per annum a very low rental, seeing that the cottage is
furnished?"
"Low enough," he answered, "sadly too low; but it's as much as I can
get. I charge fifteen shillin' a week in summer time, but then it
never lets for more'n three months at t' outside, an' for t' rest o' t'
year it 'ud go to rack an' ruin if I didn't put fires in it now an'
then, an' get Mrs. 'Ubbard here to look after it. So I reckon it'll
pay me as well to have someone in for a twelvemonth, even if I make no
more money. But, miss"--he hesitated a moment, and thrust his hands
deep into his trousers' pockets, whilst his eyes, as I thought, became
tender and fatherly--"you must excuse _me_; I'm a deal older nor you,
an' though I haven't knocked about t' world much, I've learned a thing
or two i' my time, an' I have it on my mind to warn you. What t' Owd
Book says is true: 'As you make your bed, so you must lie on 't,' an'
it's uncommon hard an' lumpy at times. You know your own business
best, an' I will say 'at I like t' look on you, an' it 'ud be a good
thing for Mrs. 'Ubbard here to have you for a neighbour, but--think it
well over, an' don't do nowt daft."
I suppose some people would not have liked it, but I did, and I told
him so. And really it had the opposite effect from that he intended,
for it showed me that I might have at least two friends in Windyridge,
and that one of them would not be wanting in candour.
These preliminaries settled, the farmer handed the key to Mother
Hubbard, so that it would be handy for me, as he explained, IF I should
turn up again in the morning, and prepared to take his departure. Just
as he reached the gate, however, he turned back.
"I should ha' said 'at you're welcome to t' use o' t' paddock. If so
be as you care to keep a few hens there's pasture enough for 'em an'
nob'dy hurt. An' if you want a greenhouse"--he laughed heartily--"why,
here you are!"
He motioned that I should follow him, and I stepped through a gate in
the wall into the hilly field which he called the paddock. There,
firmly secured to the end of the house, was a structure of wood and
glass which seemed out of all proportion to the size of the cottage.
"What in the world is this?" I exclaimed, but my landlord only laughed
the louder.
"Now then, what d'ye think of that, eh? Kind o' Crystal Palace, that
is. Strikes me I should ha' put this cottage in t' _Airlee
Mercury_--'Desirable country residence with conservatory. Apply,
Goodenough, Windyridge.' Them 'at takes t' cottage gets t'
conserva_tory_ thrown in at t' same rent. It was put up by t' last
tenant wi' my consent, an' he was as daft as----"
"As I am?" I suggested.
"Well, he _proved_ hisself daft. He kep' hens i' one part an' flowers
in t' other, but he neither fed t' hens nor t' flowers, bein' one o'
them menseless creatures 'at gets their heads buried i' books, an'
forgets their own meals, let alone t' meals o' them 'at can't sing out
for 'em. T' upshot of it all was he left t' cottage an' made me a
present of all t' bag o' tricks."
Then and there the idea of my studio had its birth. With a very little
alteration I saw that I could easily adapt it to photographic purposes;
and I was more determined than before--if that were possible--to take
possession of my Yorkshire home. I know people will laugh and call me
madder than ever. It does seem rather ridiculous to fit up a studio in
a village of perhaps a hundred inhabitants, but my Inner Self urges it,
and I am going to live by faith and not by sight. I am irrational, I
know, but I just don't care. I have got a theory of life--not a very
definite one just now, though it is getting clearer--and I am sure I am
taking a right step, though I could not explain it if I wished, and I
don't wish.
Mother Hubbard was tearful when I wished her good-night, and it was as
an antidote to pessimism that I took the dear old soul into my arms and
bade her stifle her tears and look confidently for my return. Farmer
Goodenough's worldly wisdom had convinced her that the anticipations of
a quarter-hour ago had been ill-founded. She had counted only too
prematurely on my companionship, but the farmer's words had led her to
see how unreasonable it was. She was stricken with remorse, too, at
the selfishness of her conduct.
"You see, love," she explained, as we sought her cottage again and drew
our chairs up to the fire--she had turned back her skirt lest the heat
should scorch it--"I was just thinking about myself. I'm a lonely old
woman, love, and it's only natural I should like the company of a nice,
friendly young lady like yourself; but that's just selfishness. You
must think over what Reuben has said, and don't do anything rash,
but----"
"Mother Hubbard," I said, "you need not crumple your apron by turning
it into a handkerchief, nor wet it by shedding useless tears. And I'm
not a hair-brained young lady, fresh from school, but a sensible woman
of thirty-five. Mark my word! At twelve o'clock to-morrow I shall be
with you again, and I shall have lunch with you; and you'll oblige me
by airing my bed for me, and getting things ship-shape, for to-morrow
night I shall be your next-door neighbour."
I went back to Airlee by train from Fawkshill. I had noticed the
railway as I came in the morning, and I felt that the tram would be too
slow. As a matter of fact it took nearly as long and cost me more
money. But my mind was full of Windyridge and I was oblivious to
everything else. When I reached the coffee-room of the hotel I was
calmer, for somehow the old familiar sights and sounds of the city
threw my cottage into the background, and I was able to view the
situation dispassionately.
Had I been a fool? Was not Farmer Goodenough right, after all; and had
not his sound common sense saved me from committing myself to a rash
and quixotic adventure?
"Grace Holden," I said, "you have got to face this question, and not
make an ass of yourself. Weigh up the pros and cons. Get pencil and
paper and make your calculations and strike your balance, and don't for
goodness' sake be emotional."
Then my Inner Self said with great distinctness, "Grace Holden, the
heather has called you! Listen to it!" And I went to bed and slept
the sleep of the just.
My first sensation on awaking was one of exhilaration. Not a single
cloud of doubt or apprehension appeared upon the sky of my hopes; on
the contrary, it was rosy bright with the promise of success. I like
to trust my intuitions, for it seems to me you treat them unfairly and
do not give them a chance of developing upon really strong lines if you
don't do so. Intuitions are bound to become weak and flabby if you are
always coddling them and hesitating whether to let them feel their
feet. An intuition that comes to you deprecatingly, and hints that it
does not expect to be trusted, is a useless thing that is dying of
starvation. _My_ intuitions are healthy and reliable because I believe
in them and treat them as advisers, and am becomingly deferential.
It's nice to feel that your Inner Self likes you too well to lead you
astray.
I wrote several letters and chuckled to myself when I thought of the
effect they would produce in certain quarters. I am just a nonentity,
of course, in the city of London, and nobody outside of it ever heard
of me so far as I know, and I am my own mistress, without a relative of
any kind to lay a restraining hand upon my actions; yet there are just
two or three people who will be interested in this new phase of madness.
I can see Madam Rusty adjust her pince-nez and scan the postmark
carefully before unfolding my note. And I dare bet anything that the
glasses will fly the full length of the chain when she finds she has to
pack up my belongings and despatch them to Windyridge. I always carry
my cheque book with me in case of emergencies, so I have sent her a
blank cheque "under five pounds" to cover her charges. I guess there
won't be much change out of that when madam has filled it in.
And Rose! I wonder what Rose will say. I think she will be rather
sorry, but she has many other friends and will soon console herself.
And, after all, she _did_ say I was "_swanky_"; but I daresay I shall
ask her down some day, and I am sure she will attend to the little
matters I have mentioned.
I paid my bill, and by ten o'clock was once more in the Fawkshill car;
but I went inside this time, and closed my eyes and dreamed dreams. I
got rid of the factory chimneys that way.
It was approaching twelve when I walked up the garden path to my new
abode, and heard the joyful "Yes, love!" of my new mother. She could
not forbear giving me one peep into my own cottage as we passed the
door. A cheerful fire was blazing in the grate, the rug was in its
place, the mattress and all its belongings were heaped around the
hearth, and the clock upon the wall was ticking away in homeliest
fashion and preparing to strike the noontide hour. There was not a
speck of dust anywhere. Evidently Mother Hubbard had been up early and
had worked with a will, and I was touched by this evidence of her
faith, and glad that I had proved worthy of it.
"But what will Farmer Goodenough say?" I asked jocularly, as we
discussed the appetising ham and eggs which she had prepared in her own
kitchen.
"Reuben? Oh, I take no notice of him, love. He called out as he
passed, whilst I was in the garden this morning, that I was to remember
that he had not yet let you the house, and that we might never see your
face again; but I said, 'For shame! Reuben Goodenough,' though I will
admit I was glad to see you, love. And now we'll just go in together
and get everything made tidy. Bless you! I'm glad you've come. I
think the Lord must have sent you to cheer a lonely old woman."
CHAPTER II
GRACE MEETS THE SQUIRE
I have spent my first Sunday in Windyridge, and have made a new
acquaintance. I believe I shall soon feel at home here, for the
villagers do not appear to resent the presence of a stranger, and there
is no sign of the Cranford spirit, perhaps because there is an entire
lack of the Cranford society.
My adventure befell me as I walked back from church in the morning. It
was too far for Mother Hubbard to accompany me to Fawkshill if she had
wished to do so, but she has no leanings in the direction of the
Establishment, being, as I have discovered, a staunch dissenter. She
has asked me to go with her to the little Methodist chapel one day, but
I put her off with a caress.
I was as full of the joy of life as a healthy woman can be, whose
church-going garments are two hundred miles away, and I filled my lungs
again and again with the sweet moorland air as I sauntered leisurely up
the village street. A delightful breeze was blowing from the west, and
I knew that my hair would be all about my ears before I reached the
church; but that was a small matter, for who was there to care or
criticise? The village rested in the calm of the Sabbath: no sound of
human voice or human feet disturbed its quiet. But the cocks crowed
proudly from their elevated perches by the roadside, and the rooks
cawed noisily in the sycamores as they saw their lofty homes rocked to
and fro in the swell of the wind. I stood for a moment or two to watch
the behaviour of the trees when Boreas, rude as ever, flung himself
upon them. How irritable and angry they became! How they shook their
branches and shrieked their defiance, trembling all the time through
every stem and leaf!
As I passed the entrance gate at the farther end of the Hall grounds a
carriage was leaving it, and I caught sight of an old gentleman sitting
alone within. I guessed him to be the owner of the place and dubbed
him the Squire, and I was right, except as to the title, which I find
he disavows.
I must have dawdled away more time than I realised, for they were well
on with the prayers when I entered the church, but I will guard against
that in future, for I pride myself on my methodical and punctual
habits. But hurrying makes one hot, and churches are often chilly, as
this one was! I was glad when the service was over and I could get out
into the sunshine again.
The squire's carriage passed me on its homeward way soon after I had
left the church, but when I reached the cross-roads I saw that its
owner must have sent it forward and decided to continue the journey on
foot, for he was standing at the bend of the lane in conversation with
Farmer Goodenough.
The latter smiled as I approached and half raised his cap; and the
squire turned and saluted me with grave politeness.
"Mornin', Miss 'Olden, mornin'," said my landlord. "So you've
exchanged the 'eath for the 'assock, in a manner o' speakin'," and he
laughed loudly at his alliterative success. "Well, well, some must
pray an' some must work. 'There's a time for everything,' as t' Owd
Book says; that's it, isn't it, sir, eh?" and without waiting for an
answer Farmer Goodenough strode off. In a few seconds, however, he was
back.
"Excuse me, miss, but I should ha' made you two known to each other.
Miss 'Olden, this is Mr. Evans of the 'All, an' this is my new tenant,
sir; a lady from London, Miss 'Olden, who's taken the cottage for
twelve months for a sort of a whim, as far as I can make out." He
touched his cap, and turned on his heel once more.
The situation was amusing and a little embarrassing, but I was left in
no suspense. The old gentleman smiled and looked down into my eyes.
He is a fine old man, something over seventy years of age, I should
say, but very erect, with deep, rather cold eyes, surmounted by bushy
eyebrows, and a head of thick, steely-grey hair. One glance at his
face told me that he was a man of intellect and culture.
"We may as well be companions, Miss Holden, if you do not object," he
said smilingly. "I should like to ascertain for myself whether the
village report is true, for I may inform you that I have heard all that
my butler can tell me, which means all that he can ascertain by shrewd
and persistent inquiry."
"I am flattered by the attention of my neighbours," I replied, "and I
can quite understand that in a little place like this the advent of a
stranger will create a mild sensation, but I was not aware that there
was anything so dreadful as a 'report' in circulation. The knowledge
makes me uneasy; can you relieve my anxiety?"
He was walking along with his hands holding the lapels of his jacket,
his light overcoat blowing about behind him, and he looked quizzically
at me for a moment or two before he replied:
"I think you are able to take it in good part, for--if you will permit
me to say so--I judge that you have too much common sense to be easily
offended, and therefore I will admit that the villagers are prepared to
look upon you as slightly 'daft,' to use their own expression. They
cannot understand how, on any other supposition, you should act on a
momentary impulse and leave the excitements of the metropolis for the
simple life of a tiny village. I need hardly say that I realise that
this is distinctly your own affair, and I am not asking you to give me
your confidence, but you will not mind my telling you in what light the
village regards this somewhat--unusual conduct."
I laughed. Goodness knows I am not touchy, and the opinion of my
neighbours only amused me. But somehow I felt that I must justify my
action to the squire, and my Inner Self put on her defensive armour in
readiness for the battle. I seemed to know that this rather stern old
man would regard my action as childish,--and indeed the scheme could
not be regarded as reasonable; it was simply intuitive, and who can
defend an intuition? I therefore replied:
"You have certainly relieved my disquietude. I thought the villagers
might have conceived the notion that I was a fugitive from justice, and
had a good reason for hiding myself in an out-of-the-way place. If
they consider me inoffensive in my daftness I am quite content; for,
after all, there are hundreds of people of much wider experience who
would be not a whit more lenient in their judgment. In fact, I suspect
that you yourself would endorse it emphatically, especially when I
admit that the premise is correct from which the conclusion is drawn."
"You invite my interest," he returned, "but your silence will be a
sufficient rebuke if my inquiries over-step the bounds of your
indulgence. You tell me that the premise is correct. I understand,
therefore, that you admit that you have acted on mere impulse; that, in
fact, our friend Goodenough was speaking truly when he called it
bluntly a 'whim.'"
"I am not skilled in dialectics," I said, feeling rather proud of the
word all the same, and mightily astonished at my coolness; "but I
should not call it a whim, but rather an intuition. I suppose there is
a difference?"
He bent his brows together and paused in his walk; then he replied:
"Yes: there is a distinct difference. I cannot deny or disregard the
power of the mind to discern truth without reasoning, but the two have
so much in common that I think a whim may sometimes be mistaken for an
intuition. Can you prove to me that this was an intuition?"
"No," I said, and I think it was a wise answer; at any rate it seemed
to please him; "nobody could do that. Time alone can justify my action
even to myself. I am going to be on the lookout for the proof daily."
He smiled again. "You know what would have been said if a man had done
this?" he said deliberately; "it would be asked, Who is the woman?"
I blushed furiously, and hated myself for it, though he was nearly old
enough to have been my grandfather. "I always feel glad that Eve did
not blame the other sex," I replied, "and, in spite of the annoying
colour in my face, I can say with a clear conscience that there is no
man in the case at all."
"Do not be grieved with me," he said, just as calmly as ever. "I
realised that I was taking a big risk, but I wished to clear the ground
at the outset. I have done so, but I hesitate to venture further."
His tone was so very kindly that I, too, determined to take a big risk,
though I half feared he would not understand, or understanding would be
amused. So I told him something of my life in London, and how its
problems had perplexed and depressed me, and I told him of the heather
and how it had called me; and I think something of the passion of life
shook my voice as I spoke, and I expressed more than I had realised
myself until then.
He listened with grave and fixed attention, and did not reply at once.
Then, halting again in his walk, though only for a second, he said:
"Miss Holden, subconscious influences have been at work upon you for
some time past. You have experienced the loneliness which is never so
hard to bear as when one is jostled by the crowd. I gather that the
wickedness of London--its injustice and inequalities--have been
weighing upon your spirits, and you feel for the moment like some
escaped bird which has gained the freedom of the woods after beating
its wings for many weary months against the bars of its city cage. You
may have done well to escape, but beware of false ideals, and beware of
the inevitable reaction when you discover the wickedness of the
village, and learn that injustice and vice and slander, and a hundred
other hateful things, are not peculiar to city life."
"But surely," I Interposed, "the overcrowding, and the sweating and the
awful, awful wretchedness of the poor are wanting here."
"My dear young lady," he said, "I suppose you think that the devil is a
city gentleman whose attention is so much occupied with great concerns
that he has had no time to discover so insignificant a place as
Windyridge. You will find out your mistake. There are times when he
is very active here, but he has wit enough to vary his methods as
occasion requires.
"Sometimes, as Scripture and experience have shown you, he goes about
as a roaring lion, and there is no mistaking his presence; but at other
times he masquerades as an angel of light. You speak of the evils you
know, and it may be admitted that most of these are absent from
Windyridge, at any rate in their aggravated forms. But analyse these
various evils which have caused you to chafe against your environment,
and you will find that selfishness is at the root of them all, and
selfishness flourishes even in the soil which breeds the moorland
heather.
"Don't let this discourage you, however," he continued, as he held out
his hand, for we had now reached the gateway of the Hall; "the devil
has not undisputed possession here or elsewhere, and Windyridge may
help you to strike the eternal balance.
"Come to see me sometimes; I am an unconventional old man, and you need
not hesitate. I can at least lend you good books, and give you advice
from an experience dearly bought."
He grasped the collar of his coat again and walked slowly up the drive.
Dinner had been waiting quite ten minutes when I reached home, and I
found Mother Hubbard in a state of apprehension, partly lest some evil
should have befallen me, and partly lest the Yorkshire pudding, whose
acquaintance I was to make for the first time, should be so spoiled as
to prejudice my appreciation of its excellences from the beginning.
But no such untoward event occurred, and my appetite enabled me to do
full justice to Mother Hubbard's preparations. We have come to a
convenient and economical arrangement by which we are to share
supplies, Mother Hubbard being appointed cook, and I housemaid to the
two establishments. In her delight at the prospect of my companionship
the dear old lady was prepared to unite the two offices in her one
person, but this was an impossible proposition, as I promptly pointed
out. She might be prime minister, but not the entire Cabinet.
So we shall take our meals together in her cottage or in mine, as may
be most convenient, and I think I shall be able to spare her some of
the delightful drudgery which is harming her body whilst it leaves her
spirit untouched. Not that I shall ever be able to maintain the
spotless cleanliness which she guards as jealously as a reputation; and
I cannot help thinking that her unwillingness to consent to this part
of the bargain was due in some degree to doubts of my competency. But
I am willing to be taught and corrected, and I will encourage her not
to spare the rod.