"A simple creature unlettered.--Which creature afore desired three
gifts of God"
These Revelations were shewed to a simple creature unlettered,[1] the
year of our Lord 1373, the Thirteenth day of May. Which creature [had]
afore desired three gifts of God. The First was mind of His Passion;
the Second was bodily sickness in youth, at thirty years of age; the
Third was to have of God's gift three wounds.
As to the First, methought I had some feeling in the Passion of Christ,
but yet I desired more by the grace of God. Methought I would have
been that time with Mary Magdalene, and with other that were Christ's
lovers, and therefore I desired a bodily sight wherein I might have
more knowledge of the bodily pains of our Saviour and of the compassion
of our Lady and of all His true lovers that saw, that time, His pains.
For I would be one of them and suffer with Him. Other sight nor shewing
of God desired I never none, till the soul were disparted from the
body. The cause of this petition was that after the shewing I should
have the more true mind in the Passion of Christ.
The Second came to my mind with contrition; [I] freely desiring that
sickness [to be] so hard as to death, that I might in that sickness
receive all my rites of Holy Church, myself thinking that I should die,
and that all creatures might suppose the same that saw me: for I would
have no manner of comfort of earthly life. In this sickness I desired
to have all manner of pains bodily and ghostly that I should have if
I should die, (with all the dreads and tempests of the fiends) except
the outpassing of the soul. And this I meant[2] for [that] I would be
purged, by the mercy of God, and afterward live more to the worship of
God because of that sickness. And that for the more furthering[3] in my
death: for I desired to be soon with my God.
These two desires of the Passion and the sickness I desired with a
condition, saying thus: _Lord, Thou knowest what I would,--if it be
Thy will that I have it--; and if it be not Thy will, good Lord, be not
displeased: for I will nought but as Thou wilt._
For the Third [petition], by the grace of God and teaching of Holy
Church I conceived a mighty desire to receive three wounds in my life:
that is to say, the wound of very contrition, the wound of kind[4]
compassion, and the wound of steadfast[5] longing toward God.[6] And
all this last petition I asked without any condition.
These two desires aforesaid passed from my mind, but the third dwelled
with me continually.
[1] "that cowde no letter" = unskilled in letters.
[2] thought of, designed.
[3] MS. "speed."
[4] _i.e._ natural.
[5] MS. "wilful" = earnest, with set will.
[6] For these wounds see xvii. p. 40, xxvii. p. 56, xxviii., lxxii. and
xxxix.