COUNT VON RUDLOFF
The effect of my announcement was supreme. I myself was deeply affected,
and in the moments of critical silence during which the Emperor and his
old confidential adviser stood gazing at me I could not raise my head to
meet their looks.
The Kaiser was the first to speak.
"You have amazed me. I know you now, but I did not. What was the meaning
of your pretended death? Rise, I do not wish you to kneel to me."
There seemed a little hope in the last sentence. I got up slowly.
"It was not premeditated, sire. I gave my word to Count von Augener
here--"
"Stay," interposed the Kaiser quickly, turning a frowning face to his
adviser. "What is this?"
"I should prefer to discuss these matters in private with your Majesty,"
was the answer, not without what appeared to me to be some anxiety.
"Would you prefer to retire at once?"
"As your Majesty pleases."
This reply was given with great reluctance.
"Be it so, then," and the old man went away, giving me a glance of hate
as he passed.
I did not understand the meaning of this development, and stood waiting
in silence for the Imperial command to speak.
The silence lengthened itself into minutes, and, when I ventured to
glance at the Kaiser, I was disconcerted to find that he was staring at
me fixedly, and, as it seemed, very sternly. But there were certain
symptoms of unrest and agitation that made me believe that he was
forcing himself rather to repress every trace of the feelings I had
roused.
When at length he spoke, his voice had a depth and vibration which told
me, who knew him so well, how strongly he was moved.
"Why have you done this? Why deceive me with a gorgeous lie of your
death and funeral? Why never declare yourself till now?"
There was much more reproach than anger in the tone, and I began to hope
again.
"May I tell your Majesty plainly all that occurred? When that mad thing
happened on the yacht--a madness that will be an ever-pressing grief and
shame to me to my dying hour--I went out feeling that only death at my
own hands could wipe out the disgrace of it. I should have killed myself
that night but for the reflection that my death might come to be
publicly associated with what had happened. Then, the next day, Count
von Augener came and told me that unless I was dead within a week my
death would be an infamous one. The threat was unneeded, sire. That day
I went to Berlin to Dr. Mein S----."
And I went on to give him a succinct account of all the circumstances by
which the old doctor had led me to believe that I was dying, and had
played out the drama of my funeral while I lay in his house unconscious.
"I set out from Berlin," I continued, "to make the career which the old
man had spoken of, and my first effort was on the stage. There I learnt
the secret of disguise, and became what you see me, to all intents and
purposes another man in appearance. A little more than a year ago the
doctor died and left me his large fortune, and I was once again set
roaming, alive, but without a life to live, when I was carried, against
my will and in spite of my protests, to Gramberg, and plunged into the
seething cauldron of intrigue there. The rest your Majesty knows, and it
remains only for me to say that the one wild hope I had in carrying the
intrigue forward was that I might perhaps so control the position here
in Munich as to prove myself of service to you, sire, and be able to
plead it as a ground for your pardon."
His Majesty had made no comment during the whole narrative, and now he
stood for some moments without making a reply. He stared steadfastly at
me the whole time with an expression of sombre, stern melancholy. When
he spoke at length it was in the firm, quick, decisive tone which he
used when his mind was made up and his course chosen.
"I accept your story absolutely, for I believe you incapable of
intentional deceit toward me. So far as the Countess Minna is concerned,
it will be my personal care to see that she is righted, and her enemies
thwarted."
He ceased as abruptly as he had spoken.
"May I thank you----" I began.
"You have no right to speak for her," he interrupted shortly.
I took the rebuff in silence, and stood wondering what he would say as
to my own affairs. There came another long, trying pause.
"You did wrong, very wrong," he burst out, with sudden vehemence,
speaking almost passionately. "I have been badly served in your matters.
You were no more to blame than I myself, and you have made me bear for
five years the secret fear that I drove you to your death. And I have
cares enough without that."
He stopped, and I looked up as if to speak, but he silenced me with a
gesture; and the grandeur of his dignity awed me. I recognized the
supremely unselfish magnanimity of his act, and I longed to put my
feelings into words; but I fell back abashed and speechless before the
sense of intense power and majesty which surrounded him like a subtle,
magnetic force. He stood buried in thought, wholly self-absorbed for
some minutes; and then in the same abrupt manner broke the silence to
dismiss me.
"Leave me now, and remain in the ante-room. I will see you later or send
you my decision as to yourself."
I backed to the door, bowing, and had all but reached it in silence when
a hasty movement of his caused me to look up.
"Stay," he cried, and he came toward me with his quick, firm stride. "I
cannot let you go like this. I am glad you are living. You come back to
me out of the past that is, and must be, dead; and our friendship is one
of the dead things in it. An Emperor has no friend but his God. Still we
were friends once, and this is our more proper parting."
He held out his hand to me, and took mine and clasped it; and at the
clasp of it my blood thrilled in accord with a thousand thoughts and
promptings. I carried his hand to my lips.
"If your Majesty will give me a chance of serving you again in any
capacity, my life shall be ever at your bidding."
I spoke from my heart, and my voice trembled under the strain of my
feelings.
"I believe you. But you yourself have made it difficult. Save for that,
what might we not have been!"
There was no sternness or harshness in this. It was not my Emperor who
spoke, but for one fleeting instant it was the personal lament of my old
true friend whose friendship I had cast away. The words brought the
tears to my eyes, and I could not look up at him, though I knew his eyes
were bent upon me, and judged that their light was a kindly one. A
moment later the mood passed with him, or was crushed back by the
relentless power of his stern will. He drew himself up to his customary,
rigid, soldier-like attitude, and said in the short, sharp tone of a
military command:
"And now leave me."
I backed out, and took my place in the ante-room, a prey to a tumultuous
rush of emotions which flooded upon me, preventing for the moment any
attempt at consecutive thought. My mind was a maelstrom, in which hopes,
regrets, fear, and delight were mingled in an indistinguishable
whirlpool.
Presently, out of the roar and rush of inchoate emotions, three thoughts
began to dominate me.
Regret--bitter, maddening, and unavailing--for the years I had lost and
the career I had thrown away; wrath, wild and vengeful, against the old
enemy of my family, von Augener, for the treachery of his action toward
me; and delight, infinitely sweet, that Minna's safety was secured, and
that, after all, it was I who had secured it.
The last outweighed the others, and I lost myself in the maze of a love
reverie as I sat there, picturing the joy that would leap from her eyes
and the light that would gladden her beautiful face if only I could be
the messenger of the good news. And it was to be so.
After I had waited I know not how long, for time goes unmeasured in love
dreams, some one came and addressed me by a name that made me jump to my
feet and stare at the messenger like one half beside himself.
"Count von Rudloff!"
It was one of the two members of the suite I had seen with the Emperor
before my interview with him.
"You are addressing me, sir?" I asked.
"I am addressing the Count von Rudloff," he answered, with that air of
impassive coolness that men of his kind affect.
I made an effort to regain my self-possession, and to answer him with
the same measured calmness.
"I am the Count von Rudloff," I said.
"I bring you a letter from the Emperor, count."
He waited while I tore it open with fingers that trembled. It was short
and peremptory enough, but what did it not mean to me?
"I have decided to restore to you your title and possessions. The
question of your future career remains in abeyance for the present."
That was all; with the signature of the Emperor himself.
"May I be the first to offer a word of congratulation, count?" asked the
messenger.
"Thank you, thank you," I murmured. "It is all unexpected."
He still waited, and I thought there might be something more to add.
"Is there anything more to add?" I asked.
"His Majesty suggests that you should travel for a time--a year or so,
perhaps--so that the manner of your return to Berlin and your resumption
of your position may not seem to come as the result of this business
here in Munich."
"I understand," I said, though I still seemed in a dream. "And am I free
to go where I please now?"
"Certainly," he returned, smiling. "Can I be of any assistance?"
"No, thank you. No. I have some urgent business that will not wait
another second."
A minute after that I had left the palace, and was hurrying as fast as
horses could drag me to Minna to tell her the brilliant news.