CHAPTER XVIII

When Gertrude found herself beside Trefusis in the Pullman, she wondered

how she came to be travelling with him against her resolution, if not

against her will. In the presence of two women scrutinizing her as if

they suspected her of being there with no good purpose, a male

passenger admiring her a little further off, her maid reading Trefusis’s

newspapers just out of earshot, an uninterested country gentleman

looking glumly out of window, a city man preoccupied with the

“Economist,” and a polite lady who refrained from staring but not from

observing, she felt that she must not make a scene; yet she knew he had

not come there to hold an ordinary conversation. Her doubt did not last

long. He began promptly, and went to the point at once.

“What do you think of this engagement of mine?”

This was more than she could bear calmly. “What is it to me?” she said

indignantly. “I have nothing to do with it.”

“Nothing! You are a cold friend to me then. I thought you one of the

surest I possessed.”

She moved as if about to look at him, but checked herself, closed her

lips, and fixed her eyes on the vacant seat before her. The reproach he

deserved was beyond her power of expression.

“I cling to that conviction still, in spite of Miss Lindsay’s

indifference to my affairs. But I confess I hardly know how to bring you

into sympathy with me in this matter. In the first place, you have never

been married, I have. In the next, you are much younger than I, in more

respects than that of years. Very likely half your ideas on the subject

are derived from fictions in which happy results are tacked on to

conditions very ill-calculated to produce them--which in real life

hardly ever do produce them. If our friendship were a chapter in a

novel, what would be the upshot of it? Why, I should marry you, or you

break your heart at my treachery.”

Gertrude moved her eyes as if she had some intention of taking to

flight.

“But our relations being those of real life--far sweeter, after all--I

never dreamed of marrying you, having gained and enjoyed your friendship

without that eye to business which our nineteenth century keeps open

even whilst it sleeps. You, being equally disinterested in your regard

for me, do not think of breaking your heart, but you are, I suppose, a

little hurt at my apparently meditating and resolving on such a serious

step as marriage with Agatha without confiding my intention to you. And

you punish me by telling me that you have nothing to do with it--that it

is nothing to you. But I never meditated the step, and so had nothing to

conceal from you. It was conceived and executed in less than a minute.

Although my first marriage was a silly love match and a failure, I have

always admitted to myself that I should marry again. A bachelor is a man

who shirks responsibilities and duties; I seek them, and consider it

my duty, with my monstrous superfluity of means, not to let the

individualists outbreed me. Still, I was in no hurry, having other

things to occupy me, and being fond of my bachelor freedom, and doubtful

sometimes whether I had any right to bring more idlers into the world

for the workers to feed. Then came the usual difficulty about the lady.

I did not want a helpmeet; I can help myself. Nor did I expect to be

loved devotedly, for the race has not yet evolved a man lovable on

thorough acquaintance; even my self-love is neither thorough nor

constant. I wanted a genial partner for domestic business, and Agatha

struck me quite suddenly as being the nearest approach to what I desired

that I was likely to find in the marriage market, where it is extremely

hard to suit oneself, and where the likeliest bargains are apt to be

snapped up by others if one hesitates too long in the hope of finding

something better. I admire Agatha’s courage and capability, and believe

I shall be able to make her like me, and that the attachment so begun

may turn into as close a union as is either healthy or necessary between

two separate individuals. I may mistake her character, for I do not know

her as I know you, and have scarcely enough faith in her as yet to tell

her such things as I have told you. Still, there is a consoling dash of

romance in the transaction. Agatha has charm. Do you not think so?”

Gertrude’s emotion was gone. She replied with cool scorn, “Very romantic

indeed. She is very fortunate.”

Trefusis half laughed, half sighed with relief to find her so

self-possessed. “It sounds like--and indeed is--the selfish calculation

of a disilluded widower. You would not value such an offer, or envy the

recipient of it?”

“No,” said Gertrude with quiet contempt.

“Yet there is some calculation behind every such offer. We marry to

satisfy our needs, and the more reasonable our needs are, the more

likely are we to get them satisfied. I see you are disgusted with me;

I feared as much. You are the sort of woman to admit no excuse for my

marriage except love--pure emotional love, blindfolding reason.”

“I really do not concern myself--”

“Do not say so, Gertrude. I watch every step you take with anxiety; and

I do not believe you are indifferent to the worthiness of my conduct.

Believe me, love is an overrated passion; it would be irremediably

discredited but that young people, and the romancers who live upon their

follies, have a perpetual interest in rehabilitating it. No relation

involving divided duties and continual intercourse between two people

can subsist permanently on love alone. Yet love is not to be despised

when it comes from a fine nature. There is a man who loves you exactly

as you think I ought to love Agatha--and as I don’t love her.”

Gertrude’s emotion stirred again, and her color rose. “You have no right

to say these things now,” she said.

“Why may I not plead the cause of another? I speak of Erskine.” Her

color vanished, and he continued, “I want you to marry him. When you are

married you will understand me better, and our friendship, shaken just

now, will be deepened; for I dare assure you, now that you can no longer

misunderstand me, that no living woman is dearer to me than you. So much

for the inevitable selfish reason. Erskine is a poor man, and in

his comfortable poverty--save the mark--lies your salvation from the

baseness of marrying for wealth and position; a baseness of which women

of your class stand in constant peril. They court it; you must shun it.

The man is honorable and loves you; he is young, healthy, and suitable.

What more do you think the world has to offer you?”

“Much more, I hope. Very much more.”

“I fear that the names I give things are not romantic enough. He is a

poet. Perhaps he would be a hero if it were possible for a man to be a

hero in this nineteenth century, which will be infamous in history as

a time when the greatest advances in the power of man over nature only

served to sharpen his greed and make famine its avowed minister. Erskine

is at least neither a gambler nor a slave-driver at first hand; if he

lives upon plundered labor he can no more help himself than I. Do not

say that you hope for much more; but tell me, if you can, what more you

have any chance of getting? Mind, I do not ask what more you desire; we

all desire unutterable things. I ask you what more you can obtain!”

“I have not found Mr. Erskine such a wonderful person as you seem to

think him.”

“He is only a man. Do you know anybody more wonderful?”

“Besides, my family might not approve.”

“They most certainly will not. If you wish to please them, you must sell

yourself to some rich vampire of the factories or great landlord. If you

give yourself away to a poor poet who loves you, their disgust will be

unbounded. If a woman wishes to honor her father and mother to their own

satisfaction nowadays she must dishonor herself.”

“I do not understand why you should be so anxious for me to marry

someone else?”

“Someone else?” said Trefusis, puzzled.

“I do not mean someone else,” said Gertrude hastily, reddening. “Why

should I marry at all?”

“Why do any of us marry? Why do I marry? It is a function craving

fulfilment. If you do not marry betimes from choice, you will be driven

to do so later on by the importunity of your suitors and of your family,

and by weariness of the suspense that precedes a definite settlement of

oneself. Marry generously. Do not throw yourself away or sell yourself;

give yourself away. Erskine has as much at stake as you; and yet he

offers himself fearlessly.”

Gertrude raised her head proudly.

“It is true,” continued Trefusis, observing the gesture with some anger,

“that he thinks more highly of you than you deserve; but you, on the

other hand, think too lowly of him. When you marry him you must save him

from a cruel disenchantment by raising yourself to the level he fancies

you have attained. This will cost you an effort, and the effort will do

you good, whether it fail or succeed. As for him, he will find his

just level in your estimation if your thoughts reach high enough to

comprehend him at that level.”

Gertrude moved impatiently.

“What!” he said quickly. “Are my long-winded sacrifices to the god of

reason distasteful? I believe I am involuntarily making them so because

I am jealous of the fellow after all. Nevertheless I am serious; I want

you to get married; though I shall always have a secret grudge against

the man who marries you. Agatha will suspect me of treason if you don’t.

Erskine will be a disappointed man if you don’t. You will be moody,

wretched, and--and unmarried if you don’t.”

Gertrude’s cheeks flushed at the word jealous, and again at his mention

of Agatha. “And if I do,” she said bitterly, “what then?”

“If you do, Agatha’s mind will be at ease, Erskine will be happy, and

you! You will have sacrificed yourself, and will have the happiness

which follows that when it is worthily done.”

“It is you who have sacrificed me,” she said, casting away her

reticence, and looking at him for the first time during the

conversation.

“I know it,” he said, leaning towards her and half whispering the

words. “Is not renunciation the beginning and the end of wisdom? I have

sacrificed you rather than profane our friendship by asking you to share

my whole life with me. You are unfit for that, and I have committed

myself to another union, and am begging you to follow my example, lest

we should tempt one another to a step which would soon prove to you how

truly I tell you that you are unfit. I have never allowed you to roam

through all the chambers of my consciousness, but I keep a sanctuary

there for you alone, and will keep it inviolate for you always. Not even

Agatha shall have the key, she must be content with the other rooms--the

drawing-room, the working-room, the dining-room, and so forth. They

would not suit you; you would not like the furniture or the guests;

after a time you would not like the master. Will you be content with the

sanctuary?” Gertrude bit her lip; tears came into her eyes. She looked

imploringly at him. Had they been alone, she would have thrown herself

into his arms and entreated him to disregard everything except their

strong cleaving to one another.

“And will you keep a corner of your heart for me?”

She slowly gave him a painful look of acquiescence. “Will you be brave,

and sacrifice yourself to the poor man who loves you? He will save you

from useless solitude, or from a worldly marriage--I cannot bear to

think of either as your fate.”

“I do not care for Mr. Erskine,” she said, hardly able to control her

voice; “but I will marry him if you wish it.”

“I do wish it earnestly, Gertrude.”

“Then, you have my promise,” she said, again with some bitterness.

“But you will not forget me? Erskine will have all but that--a tender

recollection--nothing.”

“Can I do more than I have just promised?”

“Perhaps so; but I am too selfish to be able to conceive anything more

generous. Our renunciation will bind us to one another as our union

could never have done.”

They exchanged a long look. Then he took out his watch, and began to

speak of the length of their journey, now nearly at an end. When they

arrived in London the first person they recognized on the platform was

Mr. Jansenius.

“Ah! you got my telegram, I see,” said Trefusis. “Many thanks for

coming. Wait for me whilst I put this lady into a cab.”

When the cab was engaged, and Gertrude, with her maid, stowed within, he

whispered to her hurriedly:

“In spite of all, I have a leaden pain here” (indicating his heart).

“You have been brave, and I have been wise. Do not speak to me, but

remember that we are friends always and deeply.”

He touched her hand, and turned to the cabman, directing him whither to

drive. Gertrude shrank back into a corner of the vehicle as it departed.

Then Trefusis, expanding his chest like a man just released from some

cramping drudgery, rejoined Mr. Jansenius.

“There goes a true woman,” he said. “I have been persuading her to take

the very best step open to her. I began by talking sense, like a man of

honor, and kept at it for half an hour, but she would not listen to me.

Then I talked romantic nonsense of the cheapest sort for five minutes,

and she consented with tears in her eyes. Let us take this hansom. Hi!

Belsize Avenue. Yes; you sometimes have to answer a woman according to

her womanishness, just as you have to answer a fool according to his

folly. Have you ever made up your mind, Jansenius, whether I am an

unusually honest man, or one of the worst products of the social

organization I spend all my energies in assailing--an infernal

scoundrel, in short?”

“Now pray do not be absurd,” said Mr. Jansenius. “I wonder at a man of

your ability behaving and speaking as you sometimes do.”

“I hope a little insincerity, when meant to act as chloroform--to save

a woman from feeling a wound to her vanity--is excusable. By-the-bye,

I must send a couple of telegrams from the first post-office we pass.

Well, sir, I am going to marry Agatha, as I sent you word. There was

only one other single man and one other virgin down at Brandon Beeches,

and they are as good as engaged. And so--

“‘Jack shall have Jill, Nought shall go ill, The man shall have his mare

again; And all shall be well.’”

APPENDIX

LETTER TO THE AUTHOR FROM MR. SIDNEY TREFUSIS.

My Dear Sir: I find that my friends are not quite satisfied with the

account you have given of them in your clever novel entitled “An

Unsocial Socialist.” You already understand that I consider it my duty

to communicate my whole history, without reserve, to whoever may desire

to be guided or warned by my experience, and that I have no sympathy

whatever with the spirit in which one of the ladies concerned recently

told you that her affairs were no business of yours or of the people who

read your books. When you asked my permission some years ago to make

use of my story, I at once said that you would be perfectly justified

in giving it the fullest publicity whether I consented or not, provided

only that you were careful not to falsify it for the sake of artistic

effect. Now, whilst cheerfully admitting that you have done your best

to fulfil that condition, I cannot help feeling that, in presenting the

facts in the guise of fiction, you have, in spite of yourself, shown

them in a false light. Actions described in novels are judged by a

romantic system of morals as fictitious as the actions themselves. The

traditional parts of this system are, as Cervantes tried to show, for

the chief part, barbarous and obsolete; the modern additions are largely

due to the novel readers and writers of our own century--most of them

half-educated women, rebelliously slavish, superstitious, sentimental,

full of the intense egotism fostered by their struggle for personal

liberty, and, outside their families, with absolutely no social

sentiment except love. Meanwhile, man, having fought and won his fight

for this personal liberty, only to find himself a more abject slave

than before, is turning with loathing from his egotist’s dream of

independence to the collective interests of society, with the welfare

of which he now perceives his own happiness to be inextricably bound

up. But man in this phase (would that all had reached it!) has not yet

leisure to write or read novels. In noveldom woman still sets the moral

standard, and to her the males, who are in full revolt against the

acceptance of the infatuation of a pair of lovers as the highest

manifestation of the social instinct, and against the restriction of the

affections within the narrow circle of blood relationship, and of

the political sympathies within frontiers, are to her what she calls

heartless brutes. That is exactly what I have been called by readers

of your novel; and that, indeed, is exactly what I am, judged by the

fictitious and feminine standard of morality. Hence some critics

have been able plausibly to pretend to take the book as a satire on

Socialism. It may, for what I know, have been so intended by you.

Whether or no, I am sorry you made a novel of my story, for the effect

has been almost as if you had misrepresented me from beginning to end.

At the same time, I acknowledge that you have stated the facts, on the

whole, with scrupulous fairness. You have, indeed, flattered me very

strongly by representing me as constantly thinking of and for other

people, whereas the rest think of themselves alone, but on the other

hand you have contradictorily called me “unsocial,” which is certainly

the last adjective I should have expected to find in the neighborhood

of my name. I deny, it is true, that what is now called “society”

is society in any real sense, and my best wish for it is that it may

dissolve too rapidly to make it worth the while of those who are “not

in society” to facilitate its dissolution by violently pounding it into

small pieces. But no reader of “An Unsocial Socialist” needs to be

told how, by the exercise of a certain considerate tact (which on the

outside, perhaps, seems the opposite of tact), I have contrived to

maintain genial terms with men and women of all classes, even those

whose opinions and political conduct seemed to me most dangerous.

However, I do not here propose to go fully into my own position, lest

I should seem tedious, and be accused, not for the first time, of a

propensity to lecture--a reproach which comes naturally enough from

persons whose conceptions are never too wide to be expressed within the

limits of a sixpenny telegram. I shall confine myself to correcting a

few misapprehensions which have, I am told, arisen among readers who

from inveterate habit cannot bring the persons and events of a novel

into any relation with the actual conditions of life.

In the first place, then, I desire to say that Mrs. Erskine is not dead

of a broken heart. Erskine and I and our wives are very much in and out

at one another’s houses; and I am therefore in a position to declare

that Mrs. Erskine, having escaped by her marriage from the vile caste

in which she was relatively poor and artificially unhappy and

ill-conditioned, is now, as the pretty wife of an art-critic, relatively

rich, as well as pleasant, active, and in sound health. Her chief

trouble, as far as I can judge, is the impossibility of shaking off her

distinguished relatives, who furtively quit their abject splendor to

drop in upon her for dinner and a little genuine human society much

oftener than is convenient to poor Erskine. She has taken a patronizing

fancy to her father, the Admiral, who accepts her condescension

gratefully as age brings more and more home to him the futility of his

social position. She has also, as might have been expected, become an

extreme advocate of socialism; and indeed, being in a great hurry for

the new order of things, looks on me as a lukewarm disciple because I do

not propose to interfere with the slowly grinding mill of Evolution, and

effect the change by one tremendous stroke from the united and awakened

people (for such she--vainly, alas!--believes the proletariat already to

be). As to my own marriage, some have asked sarcastically whether I ran

away again or not; others, whether it has been a success. These are

foolish questions. My marriage has turned out much as I expected

it would. I find that my wife’s views on the subject vary with the

circumstances under which they are expressed.

I have now to make one or two comments on the impressions conveyed

by the style of your narrative. Sufficient prominence has not, in my

opinion, been given to the extraordinary destiny of my father, the

true hero of a nineteenth century romance. I, who have seen society

reluctantly accepting works of genius for nothing from men of

extraordinary gifts, and at the same time helplessly paying my

father millions, and submitting to monstrous mortgages of its future

production, for a few directions as to the most business-like way of

manufacturing and selling cotton, cannot but wonder, as I prepare my

income-tax returns, whether society was mad to sacrifice thus to him and

to me. He was the man with power to buy, to build, to choose, to endow,

to sit on committees and adjudicate upon designs, to make his own terms

for placing anything on a sound business footing. He was hated, envied,

sneered at for his low origin, reproached for his ignorance, yet nothing

would pay unless he liked or pretended to like it. I look round at

our buildings, our statues, our pictures, our newspapers, our domestic

interiors, our books, our vehicles, our morals, our manners, our

statutes, and our religion, and I see his hand everywhere, for they

were all made or modified to please him. Those which did not please him

failed commercially: he would not buy them, or sell them, or countenance

them; and except through him, as “master of the industrial situation,”

nothing could be bought, or sold, or countenanced. The landlord could

do nothing with his acres except let them to him; the capitalist’s hoard

rotted and dwindled until it was lent to him; the worker’s muscles

and brain were impotent until sold to him. What king’s son would not

exchange with me--the son of the Great Employer--the Merchant Prince?

No wonder they proposed to imprison me for treason when, by applying my

inherited business talent, I put forward a plan for securing his full

services to society for a few hundred a year. But pending the adoption

of my plan, do not describe him contemptuously as a vulgar tradesman.

Industrial kingship, the only real kingship of our century, was his by

divine right of his turn for business; and I, his son, bid you respect

the crown whose revenues I inherit. If you don’t, my friend, your book

won’t pay.

I hear, with some surprise, that the kindness of my conduct to Henrietta

(my first wife, you recollect) has been called in question; why, I do

not exactly know. Undoubtedly I should not have married her, but it is

waste of time to criticise the judgment of a young man in love. Since

I do not approve of the usual plan of neglecting and avoiding a spouse

without ceasing to keep up appearances, I cannot for the life of me see

what else I could have done than vanish when I found out my mistake. It

is but a short-sighted policy to wait for the mending of matters that

are bound to get worse. The notion that her death was my fault is sheer

unreason on the face of it; and I need no exculpation on that score; but

I must disclaim the credit of having borne her death like a philosopher.

I ought to have done so, but the truth is that I was greatly affected at

the moment, and the proof of it is that I and Jansenius (the only

other person who cared) behaved in a most unbecoming fashion, as men

invariably do when they are really upset. Perfect propriety at a death

is seldom achieved except by the undertaker, who has the advantage of

being free from emotion.

Your rigmarole (if you will excuse the word) about the tombstone gives

quite a wrong idea of my attitude on that occasion. I stayed away from

the funeral for reasons which are, I should think, sufficiently obvious

and natural, but which you somehow seem to have missed. Granted that my

fancy for Hetty was only a cloud of illusions, still I could not, within

a few days of her sudden death, go in cold blood to take part in a

grotesque and heathenish mummery over her coffin. I should have

broken out and strangled somebody. But on every other point I--weakly

enough--sacrificed my own feelings to those of Jansenius. I let him

have his funeral, though I object to funerals and to the practice of

sepulture. I consented to a monument, although there is, to me, no more

bitterly ridiculous outcome of human vanity than the blocks raised to

tell posterity that John Smith, or Jane Jackson, late of this parish,

was born, lived, and died worth enough money to pay a mason to

distinguish their bones from those of the unrecorded millions. To

gratify Jansenius I waived this objection, and only interfered to save

him from being fleeced and fooled by an unnecessary West End middleman,

who, as likely as not, would have eventually employed the very man to

whom I gave the job. Even the epitaph was not mine. If I had had my way

I should have written: “HENRIETTA JANSENIUS WAS BORN ON SUCH A DATE,

MARRIED A MAN NAMED TREFUSIS, AND DIED ON SUCH ANOTHER DATE; AND NOW

WHAT DOES IT MATTER WHETHER SHE DID OR NOT?” The whole notion conveyed

in the book that I rode rough-shod over everybody in the affair, and

only consulted my own feelings, is the very reverse of the truth.

As to the tomfoolery down at Brandon’s, which ended in Erskine and

myself marrying the young lady visitors there, I can only congratulate

you on the determination with which you have striven to make something

like a romance out of such very thin material. I cannot say that I

remember it all exactly as you have described it; my wife declares

flatly there is not a word of truth in it as far as she is concerned,

and Mrs. Erskine steadily refuses to read the book.

On one point I must acknowledge that you have proved yourself a master

of the art of fiction. What Hetty and I said to one another that day

when she came upon me in the shrubbery at Alton College was known only

to us two. She never told it to anyone, and I soon forgot it. All

due honor, therefore, to the ingenuity with which you have filled the

hiatus, and shown the state of affairs between us by a discourse on

“surplus value,” cribbed from an imperfect report of one of my public

lectures, and from the pages of Karl Marx! If you were an economist I

should condemn you for confusing economic with ethical considerations,

and for your uncertainty as to the function which my father got his

start by performing. But as you are only a novelist, I compliment you

heartily on your clever little pasticcio, adding, however, that as an

account of what actually passed between myself and Hetty, it is the

wildest romance ever penned. Wickens’s boy was far nearer the mark.

In conclusion, allow me to express my regret that you can find no

better employment for your talent than the writing of novels. The first

literary result of the foundation of our industrial system upon the

profits of piracy and slave-trading was Shakspere. It is our misfortune

that the sordid misery and hopeless horror of his view of man’s destiny

is still so appropriate to English society that we even to-day regard

him as not for an age, but for all time. But the poetry of despair will

not outlive despair itself. Your nineteenth century novelists are only

the tail of Shakspere. Don’t tie yourself to it: it is fast wriggling

into oblivion.

I am, dear sir, yours truly,

SIDNEY TREFUSIS.

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