CHAPTER XII

OF THE STRANGER'S TALE, WHICH, BEING SHORT, MAY PERHAPS MEET WITH

THE READER'S KIND APPROBATION.

"In ancient times, sirs," began the stranger, with his gaze upon the

hurrying waters of the brook, "when a man had committed some great

sin he hid himself from the world, and lashed himself with cruel

stripes, he walked barefoot upon sharp flints and afflicted himself

with grievous pains and penalties, glorying in the blood of his

atonement, and wasting himself and his remaining years in woeful

solitude, seeking, thereby, to reclaim his soul from the wrath

to come. But, as for me, I walk the highways preaching always

forgiveness and forgetfulness of self, and if men grow angry at my

teaching and misuse me, the pain of wounds, the hardships, the

fatigue, I endure them all with a glad and cheerful mind, seeking

thereby to work out my redemption and atonement, for I was a very

selfish man." Here the stranger paused, and his face seemed more

lined and worn, and his white hair whiter, as he stared down into

the running waters of the brook.

"Sirs," he continued, speaking with bent head, "I once had a daughter,

and I loved her dearly, but my name was dearer yet. I was proud of

her beauty, but prouder of my ancient name, for I was a selfish man."

"We lived in the country, a place remote and quiet, and consequently

led a very solitary, humdrum life, because I was ever fond of books

and flowers and the solitude of trees--a selfish man always. And so,

at last, because she was young and high-spirited, she ran away from

my lonely cottage with one who was a villain. And I grieved for her,

young sirs, I grieved much and long, because I was lonely, but I

grieved more for my name, my honorable name that she had besmirched,

because, as I told you, I was a selfish man." Again the stranger was

silent, sitting ever with bent head staring down at the crystal

waters of the brook, only he clasped his thin hands and wrung them

as he continued:

"One evening, as I sat among my roses with a book in my hand, she

came back to me through the twilight, and flung herself upon her

knees before me, and besought my forgiveness with sobs and bitter,

bitter tears. Ah, young sirs! I can hear her weeping yet. The sound

of it is always in my ears. So she knelt to me in her abasement with

imploring hands stretched out to me. Ah, the pity of those white

appealing hands, the pity of them! But I, sirs, being as I say a

selfish man and remembering only my proud and honorable name, I, her

father, spurned her from me with reproaches and vile words, such

burning, searing words as no daughter should hear or father utter."

"And so, weeping still, she turned away wearily, hopelessly, and I

stood to watch her bowed figure till she had crept away into the

evening and was gone."

"Thus, sirs, I drove her from me, this wounded lamb, this poor

broken-hearted maid--bone of my bone, flesh of my flesh--I drove her

from me, I who should have comforted and cherished her, I drove her

out into the night with hateful words and bitter curses. Oh, was

ever sin like mine? Oh, Self, Self! In ancient times, sirs, when a

man had committed some great sin he lashed himself with cruel stripes,

but I tell you no rod, no whip of many thongs ever stung or bit so

sharp and deep as remorse--it is an abiding pain. Therefore I walk

these highways preaching always forgiveness and forgetfulness of self,

and so needs must I walk until my days be done, or until--I find her

again." The stranger rose suddenly and so stood with bent head and

very still, only his hands griped and wrung each other. Yet when he

looked up his brow was serene and a smile was on his lips."

"But you, sirs, you are friends again, and that is good, for

friendship is a blessed thing. And you have youth and strength, and

all things are possible to you, therefore. But oh, beware of self,

take warning of a selfish man, forget self, so may you achieve great

things."

"But, as for me, I never stand upon a country road when evening

falls but I see her, a broken, desolate figure, creeping away from me,

always away from me, into the shadows, and the sound of her weeping

comes to me in the night silences." So saying, the stranger turned

from them and went upon his way, limping a little because of his

hurts, and his hair gleamed silver in the sunshine as he went.

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