Roland Hamerton was not one of those on whom Mr. Rivers made this
favorable impression. He would fain indeed have found something against
him, something which would have justified him in stigmatizing as a
“cad,” or setting down as full of conceit, the new-comer about whom
everybody was infatuated. Roland was not shabby enough to make capital
out of the lowliness of Arthur’s connections, though the temptation to
do so crossed his mind more than once; but the young man was a
gentleman, and could not, even in all the heat of rivalship, make use of
such an argument. There was, indeed, nothing to be said against the man
whom Roland felt, with a pang, to be so much more interesting than
himself; a man who knew when to hold his tongue as well as when to
speak; who would never have gone and done so ridiculous a thing as he
(Hamerton) had done, trying to convince a girl against her will and to
shake her partisan devotion. The young fellow perceived now what a mad
idea this had been, but unfortunately it is not till after the event
that a simple mind learns such a lesson. Rivers, who was older, had no
doubt found it out by experience, or else he had a superior instinct and
was a better diplomatist, or perhaps thought less of the consequences
involved. It wounded Roland to think of the girl he loved as associated
in any way with a woman who was under a stain. He could not bear to
think that her robe of whiteness should ever touch the garments of one
who was sullied. But afterwards, when he came to think, he saw how
foolish he had been. Perhaps Rosalind felt, though she could not allow
it, everything he had ventured to suggest; but, naturally, when it was
said to her brutally by an outsider, she would flare up. Roland could
remember, even in his own limited experience, corresponding instances.
He saw the defects of the members of his own family clearly enough, but
if any one else ventured to point them out! Yes, yes, he had been a
fool, and he had met with the fate he deserved. Rosalind had said
conditionally that if it were true she would never speak to him again,
but that it was not true. She had thus left for herself a way of escape.
He knew very well that it was all truth he had said, but he was glad
enough to take advantage of her wilful scepticism when he perceived that
it afforded a way of escape from the sentence of excommunication
otherwise to be pronounced against him. He stayed away from the Elms for
a time, which was also the time of the frost, when there was nothing to
be done; but ventured on the third or fourth day to the pond to skate,
and was invited by Mrs. Lennox, as was natural, to stay and dine, which
he accepted eagerly when he perceived that Rosalind, though cold, was
not inexorable. She said very little to him for that evening or many
evenings after, but still she did not carry out her threat of never
speaking to him again. But when he met the other, as he now did
perpetually, it was not in human nature to preserve an unbroken
amiability. He let Rivers see by many a silent indication that he hated
him, and found him in his way. He became disagreeable, poor boy, by dint
of rivalry and the galling sense he had of the advantages possessed by
the new-comer. He would go so far as to sneer at travellers’ tales, and
hint a doubt that there might be another version of such and such an
incident. When he had been guilty of suggestions of this kind he was
overpowered with shame. But it is very hard to be generous to a man who
has the better of you in every way; who is handsomer, cleverer, even
taller; can talk far better, can amuse people whom you only bore; and
when you attempt to argue can turn you, alas! inside out with a touch of
his finger. The prudent thing for Roland to have done would have been to
abstain from any comparison of himself with his accomplished adversary;
but he was not wise enough to do this: few, very few, young men are so
wise. He was always presenting his injured, offended, clouded face, by
the side of the fine features and serene, secure look of the elder man,
who was thus able to contemplate him, and, worse, to present him to
others, in the aspect of a mad youngster, irritable and unreasoning.
Roland was acutely, painfully aware that this was not his character at
all, and yet that he had the appearance of it, and that Rosalind no
doubt must consider him so. The union of pain, resentment, indignation
at the thought of such injustice, with a sense that it scarcely was
injustice, and that he was doing everything to justify it, made the poor
young fellow as miserable as can be imagined. He did not deserve to be
so looked upon, and yet he did deserve it; and Rivers was an intolerable
prig and tyrant, using a giant’s strength villainously as a giant, yet
in a way which was too cunning to afford any opening for reproach. He
could have wept in his sense of the intolerable, and yet he had not a
word to say. Was there ever a position more difficult to bear? And poor
Roland felt that he had lost ground in every way. Ever since that
unlucky interference of his and disclosure of his private information
(which he saw now was the silliest thing that could have been done)
there was no lingering in the fire-light, no _tête-à-tête_ ever accorded
to him. When Mrs. Lennox went to dress for dinner, Rosalind went too.
After a while she ceased to show her displeasure, and talked to him as
usual when they met in the presence of the family, but he saw her by
herself no more. He could not make out indeed whether _that_ fellow was
ever admitted to any such privilege, but it certainly was extended to
himself no more.
The neighborhood began to take a great interest in the Elms when this
rivalship first became apparent, which it need not have done had
Hamerton shown any command of himself; for Mr. Rivers was perfectly
well-bred, and there is nothing in which distinguished manners show more
plainly than in the way by which, in the first stage of a love-making, a
man can secure the object of his devotion from all remark. There can be
no better test of a high-bred gentleman; and though he was only the son
of an humble family with no pretension to be considered county people,
he answered admirably to it. Rosalind was herself conscious of the
special homage he paid her, but no one else would have been at all the
wiser had it not been for the ridiculous jealousy of Roland, who could
not contain himself in Rivers’s presence.
The position of Rosalind between these two men was a little different
from the ordinary ideal. The right thing to have done in her
circumstances would have been, had she “felt a preference,” as it was
expressed in the eighteenth century, to have, with all the delicacy and
firmness proper to maidenhood, so discouraged and put down the one who
was not preferred as to have left him no excuse for persisting in his
vain pretensions. If she had no preference she ought to have gently but
decidedly made both aware that their homage was vain. As for taking any
pleasure in it, if she did not intend in either case to recompense
it--that would not be thought of for a moment. But Rosalind, though she
had come in contact with so much that was serious in life, and had so
many of its gravest duties to perform, was yet so young and so natural
as not to be at all superior to the pleasure of being sought. She liked
it, though her historian does not know how to make the admission. No
doubt, had she been accused of such a sentiment, she would have denied
it hotly and even with some indignation, not being at all in the habit
of investigating the phenomena of her own mind; but yet she did not in
her heart dislike to feel that she was of the first importance to more
than one beholder, and that her presence or absence made a difference
in the aspect of the world to two men. A sense of being approved,
admired, thought much of, is always agreeable. Even when the sentiment
does not go the length of love, there is a certain moral support in the
consciousness in a girl’s mind that she embodies to some one the best
things in humankind. When the highest instincts of love touch the heart
it becomes a sort of profanity, indeed, to think of any but the one who
has awakened that divine inspiration; but, in the earlier stages, before
any sentiment has become definite, or her thoughts begun to contemplate
any final decision, there is a secret gratification in the mere
consciousness. It may not be an elevated feeling, but it is a true one.
She is pleased; there is a certain elation in her veins in spite of
herself. Mr. Ruskin says that a good girl should have seven suitors at
least, all ready to do impossibilities in her service, among whom she
should choose, but not too soon, letting each have a chance. Perhaps in
the present state of statistics this is somewhat impracticable, and it
may perhaps be doubted whether the adoration of these seven gentlemen
would be a very safe moral atmosphere for the young lady. It also goes
rather against the other rule which insists on a girl falling in love as
well as her lover; that is to say, making her selection by chance, by
impulse, and not by proof of the worthiest. But at least it is a high
authority in favor of a plurality of suitors, and might be adduced by
the offenders in such cases as a proof that their otherwise not quite
excusable satisfaction in the devotion of more than one was almost
justifiable. The dogma had not been given forth in Rosalind’s day, and
she was not aware that she had any excuse at all, but blushed for
herself if ever she was momentarily conscious of so improper a
sentiment. She blushed, and then she withdrew from the outside world in
which these two looked at her with looks so different from those they
directed towards any other, and thought of neither of them. On such
occasions she would return to her room with a vague cloud of incense
breathing about her, a sort of faint atmosphere of flattered and happy
sentiment in her mind, or sit down in the firelight in the drawing-room,
which Aunt Sophy had left, and think. About whom? Oh, about no one! she
would have said--about a pair of beautiful eyes which were like
Johnny’s, and which seemed to follow and gaze at her with a rapture of
love and devotion still more wonderful to behold. This image was so
abstract that it escaped all the drawbacks of fact. There was nothing to
detract from it, no test of reality to judge it by. Sometimes she found
it impossible not to laugh at Roland; sometimes she disagreed violently
with something Mr. Rivers said; but she never quarrelled with the
visionary lover, who had appeared out of the unknown merely to make an
appeal to her, as it seemed, to frustrate her affections, to bid her
wait until he should reveal himself. Would he come again? Should she
ever see him again? All this was unreal in the last degree. But so is
everything in a young mind at such a moment, when nature plays with the
first approaches of fate.
“Mr. Rivers seems to be staying a long time in Clifton,” Mrs. Lennox
said one evening, disturbing Rosalind out of these dreams. Roland was in
the room, though she could scarcely see him, and Rosalind had been
guilty of what she herself felt to be the audacity of thinking of her
unknown lover in the very presence of this visible and real one. She had
been sitting very quiet, drawing back out of the light, while a gentle
hum of talk went on on the other side of the fire. The windows, with the
twilight stars looking in, and the bare boughs of the trees waving
across, formed the background, and Mrs. Lennox, relieved against one of
those windows, was the centre of the warm but uncertainly lighted room.
Hamerton sat behind, responding vaguely, and intent upon the shadowed
corner in which Rosalind was. “How can he be spared, I wonder, out of
his newspaper work!” said the placid voice. “I have always heard it was
a dreadful drudgery, and that you had to be up all night, and never got
any rest.”
“He is not one of the principal ones, perhaps,” Roland replied.
“Oh, he must be a principal! John would not have brought a man here who
is nothing particular to begin with, if he had not been a sort of a
personage in his way.”
“Well, then, perhaps he is too much of a principal,” said Hamerton;
“perhaps it is only the secondary people that are always on duty; and
this, you know, is what they call the silly time of the year.”
“I never knew much about newspaper people,” said Aunt Sophy, in her
comfortable voice, something like a cat purring by the warm glow of the
fire. “We did not think much of them in my time. Indeed, there are a
great many people who are quite important in society nowadays that were
never thought of in my time. I never knew how important a newspaper
editor was till I read that novel of Mr. Trollope’s--do you remember
which one it is, Rosalind?--where there is Tom something or other who is
the editor of the _Jupiter_. That was said to mean the _Times_. But if
Mr. Rivers is so important as that, how does he manage to stay so long
at Clifton, where I am sure there is nothing going on?”
“Sometimes,” said Hamerton, after a pause, “there are things going on
which are more important than a man’s business, though perhaps they
don’t show.”
There was something in the tone with which he said this which called
Rosalind out of her dreams. She had heard them talking before, but not
with any interest; now she was roused, though she could scarcely tell
why.
“That is all very well for you, Roland, who have no business. Oh! I know
you’re a barrister, but as you never did anything at the bar-- A man,
when he has money of his own and does not live by his profession, can
please himself, I suppose; but when his profession is all he has,
nothing, you know, ought to be more important than that. And if his
family keep him from his work, it is not right. A mother ought to know
better, and even a sister; they ought not to keep him, if it is they who
are keeping him. Now, do you think, putting yourself in their place,
that it is right?”
“I can’t fancy myself in the place of Rivers’s mother or sister,” said
Roland, with a laugh.
“Oh, but I can, quite! and I could not do such a thing; for my own
pleasure injure him in his career! Oh, no, no! And if it was any one
else,” said Aunt Sophy, “I do think it would be nearly criminal. If it
was a girl, for instance. Girls are the most thoughtless creatures on
the face of the earth; they don’t understand such things; they don’t
really know. I suppose, never having had anything to do themselves, they
don’t understand. But if a girl should have so little feeling, and play
with a man, and keep him from his work, when perhaps it may be ruinous
to him,” said Mrs. Lennox--when she was not contradicted, she could
express herself with some force, though if once diverted from her course
she had little strength to stand against opposition--“I cannot say less
than that it would be criminal,” she said.
“Is any one keeping Mr. Rivers from his work?” said Rosalind, suddenly,
out of her corner, which made Mrs. Lennox start.
“Dear me, are you there, Rosalind? I thought you had gone away” (which
we fear was not quite true). “Keeping Mr. Rivers, did you say? I am
sure, my dear, I don’t know. I think something must be detaining him. I
am sure he did not mean to stay so long when he first came here.”
“But perhaps he knows best himself, Aunt Sophy, don’t you think?”
Rosalind said, rising up with youthful severity and coming forward into
the ruddy light.
“Oh, yes, my dear, I have no doubt he does,” Mrs. Lennox said,
faltering; “I was only saying--”
“You were blaming some one; you were saying it was his mother’s fault,
or perhaps some girl’s fault. I think he is likely to know much better
than any girl; it must be his own fault if he is wasting his time. I
shouldn’t think he was wasting his time. He looks as if he knew very
well what he was about--better than a girl, who, as you were saying,
seldom has anything to do.”
“Dear me, Rosalind, I did not know you were listening so closely. Yes,
to be sure he must know best. You know, Roland, gossip is a thing that
she cannot abide. And she knows you and I have been gossiping about our
neighbors. It is not so; it is really because I take a great interest;
and you too, Roland.”
“Oh, no, I don’t take any interest,” cried Hamerton, hastily; “it was
simple gossip on my part. If he were to lose ever so much time or money,
or anything else, I shouldn’t care!”
“It is of no consequence to any of us,” Rosalind said. “I should think
Mr. Rivers did what he pleased, without minding much what people say.
And as for throwing the blame upon a girl! What could a girl have to do
with it?” She stood still for a moment, holding out her hands in a sort
of indignant appeal, and then turned to leave the room, taking no notice
of the apologetic outburst from her aunt.
“I am sure I was not blaming any girl, Rosalind. I was only saying, if
it was a girl; but to be sure, when one thinks of it, a girl couldn’t
have anything to do with it,” came somewhat tremulously from Aunt
Sophy’s lips. Miss Trevanion took no notice of this, but went away
through the partial darkness, holding her head high. She had been
awakened for the moment out of her dreams. The two who were left behind
felt guilty, and drew together for mutual support.
“She thinks I mean her,” said Mrs. Lennox; “she thinks I was talking at
her. Now I never talk at people, Roland, and really, when I began, I did
think she had gone away. You don’t suppose I ever meant it was
Rosalind?” she cried.
“But it _is_ Rosalind,” said young Hamerton. “I can’t be deceived about
it. We are both in the same box. She might make up her mind and put us
out of our misery. No, I don’t want to be put out of my misery. I’d
rather wait on and try, and think there was a little hope.”
“There must be hope,” cried Mrs. Lennox; “of course there is hope. Is it
rational that she should care for a stranger with gray hair, and old
enough to be her father, instead of you, whom she has known all her
life? Oh, no, Roland, it is not possible. And even if it were, I should
object, you may be sure. It may be fine to be a _Times_ Correspondent,
but what could he settle upon her? You may be sure he could settle
nothing upon her. He has his mother and sister to think of. And then he
is not like a man with money; he has only what he works for; there is
not much in that that could be satisfactory to a girl’s friends. No, no,
I will never give my consent to it; I promise you that.”
Roland shook his head notwithstanding. But he still took a little
comfort from what Aunt Sophy said. Such words always afford a grain of
consolation; though he knew that she was not capable of holding by them
in face of any opposition, still there was a certain support even in
hearing them said. But he shook his head. “If she liked him best I would
not stand in their way,” he said; “that is the only thing to be guided
by. Thank you very much, Mrs. Lennox; you are my only comfort. But
still, you know, if she likes him best-- I don’t think much of the gray
hair and all that,” he added somewhat tremulously. “I’m not the man he
is, in spite of his gray hair. And girls are just as likely as not to
like that best,” said the honest young fellow. “I don’t entertain any
delusion on the subject. I would not stand in her way, not a moment, if
she likes him best.”