On the morning succeeding the day described in the last chapter, father
startled me very much at the breakfast table, by asking:
“John, how would you like to commence school? you are getting too old
to be playing all the time.”
“Oh, ever so much!” I replied, eagerly, watching his face closely, to
see if he was in earnest. “Ned Cheyleigh began last session, and I can
read and spell as well as he can now, so it will be easy for me to keep
up.”
“Well, I saw Miss Hester Weck about it yesterday, and she said she
would be very glad to take you, so you can get ready to start to-morrow
morning.”
I was too much excited to eat any more, but began teazing mother to
begin right away on my school outfit.
“Mother, I want a satchel to carry my books in, and a basket for my
luncheon; and, mother, please get me a string for my top, because all
the boys play top, and I broke my string yesterday; and father, please
sir, get me a knife to peel apples and to cut pencils with, and a piece
of leather to make me a sling, and a——”
“Hush, Johnnie,” said mother, “be quiet, and I will be sure to have you
ready. The school room is just around the corner, so you can come home
for your lunch; and as your ‘books’ only consist of one ‘Angell’s First
Book’ you will hardly need a bag.”
I gulped down a mouthful of food, then hastening from the table, I got
my Reader and devoted the whole morning to picking out all the hard
words and spelling them over. By dinner time I had mastered nearly all
of them, and could read with considerable fluency the pathetic tale of
retributive justice which befel the cruel James Killfly.
That evening when father came in he brought me a beautiful knife with a
file blade in it. To possess a knife with a file blade had always been
one of the unattained pinnacles of my ambition—this appurtenance, in
my eyes, being the very _toga virilis_ of cutlery; and as my property
in this department had hitherto consisted of blunt pointed Barlows,
and fatigued looking dog knives, with their edges purposely made dull,
to be the undisputed owner of an exquisite pearl handled knife, with
brightest blades, placed me at once upon the pinnacle, and I enjoyed
the situation. I was never tired of opening and snapping the blades,
and blowing my breath upon them, as the larger boys did, to test their
metal. I trimmed my pencil quite away, because the cedar cut smoothly,
and the chairs suffered as severely as Washington, Sr.’s, cherry tree
did.
I rose next morning with the sun, and was busying everywhere in my
preparations for school. Breakfast finished, with my book in my hand,
and that adored knife in my pocket, I started with father for the
school. I felt a little sinking about the heart as I kissed mother
good-bye and descended the steps, and would, had I not been ashamed,
have shrunk from the new life I was entering, and gone back to the old
routine of play. As we turned our corner I looked back, and mother was
still standing in the door, gazing thoughtfully after us. I could not
then understand or appreciate her feelings, but I can now.
Miss Hester answered our tap at her door in person, and invited us
in to a seat. I shrank closer to father as the curious eyes of the
scholars were all turned towards me, and I found no kindly sympathy in
the glances. Father took a seat and entered into conversation with Miss
Hester, while I timidly surveyed the apartment where my ideas were to
be taught to shoot.
Miss Hester Weck kept a small preparatory school for girls and boys,
and ruled it with old maidish particularity. All the scholars had to
sit up straight on three rows of benches, which were so arranged with
reference to Miss Hester’s seat that she could have a full view of
all. None were allowed to speak or laugh, and as for rocking backwards
and forwards, a motion believed by children to be conducive to study
and essential to retention, the thing was unheard of in Miss Hester’s
school. Some, indeed, had tried it on first entering, but after one
or two interviews with Miss Hester’s rod they had learned to study
in one position. On one side of the room was a row of pegs for the
girls’ hats and bonnets, and on the opposite side a similar row for
the boys’. At one end of the room was the rostrum on which our monarch
sat, and at the other was a long desk, covered with ink splotches, at
which the scholars wrote. Having completed my survey of the room I
turned my attention to the scholars, and scanned their faces closely,
as I was to associate, more or less intimately, with all of them. They
were all, with the exception of two or three, munching the corners of
their books, and staring steadily at father and me. There were five
occupants of the front bench, who, I thought, from their position,
must be first grade scholars. The first was a tall, raw-boned girl,
with sandy hair and freckled face, and light gray eyes, turned up at
the corners, giving her a sinister and Chinese expression that assured
me of victimization. Next to her was her brother, a small and sleepy
second edition of herself, not at all revised or corrected. Then came
a bright-eyed little fellow who was engaged in the pleasant diversion
of making hideous faces at me. At his side was a fat, redheaded girl,
who was the only one studying; and lastly, a stupid, tow-haired youth,
whose straight flax hair looked as if it had been hung on his head to
dry, and had dried stiff, and who was gazing at me as if I were vacancy.
The second bench held three girls and two boys, who resembled in many
particulars those on the first bench. On number three I recognized,
to my great joy, Ned Cheyleigh and Lulie Mayland, and to my annoyance
Frank Paning. Before we had concluded our interchange of whispered
salutations, father rose and said to Miss Hester:
“I will now leave him with you. He is a good boy and easy enough to
manage, though a little inclined to mischief.”
“Oh, I will take care of that,” she said. “We will be first rate
friends; won’t we, Johnnie?”
Father left me, the door closed on him, and I was beginning to enter
Life’s shallowest waters alone.
“Come here, Johnnie,” said Miss Hester, “let me see how much you know,
so that I can put you in a class.”
I rose, and with a great swelling knot in my throat, drew my book from
my side pocket and carried it to her.
“How far have you been in this?” she said, as she carelessly fluttered
over the leaves.
“I went clear through it, ma’am, under mother.”
“Well, let me see how you spell; spell ‘honest’?”
I had begun, at first, spelling by recollecting how the letters looked
on the page, but mother had broken me from it and taught me to spell
words by their sound. Accordingly I stammered out, while my eyes filled
with tears and the knot in my throat almost choked me:
“O-n-n-e-s-t—Onnest.”
At this Frank Paning led off with a laugh, followed by the whole
school. A rap on Miss Hester’s desk secured silence, and she proceeded.
“Don’t be so frightened, child, try another word; spell ‘Business.’”
Knowledge of everything, save the names of the letters, was gone, and I
blindly blurted out:
“B-i-z-z-i-n-e-double ess!” I broke down completely and stood there
trying to hide my crying, while the perverse tears would drop on the
floor, and my nose, treacherous organ, required constant snuffling or
the tell-tale use of my handkerchief.
Another titter was heard, but Miss Hester repressed it, and said in her
kindest tone:
“Poor child, you are too much agitated to spell. I will put you, for
the present, in a class with Lulie Mayland and Edward Cheyleigh. Go
there, and let her show you where the lesson is.”
As I started across the room a wad of chewed paper struck me in the
face. I did not see who threw it, but Miss Hester did, and calling up
Frank Paning gave him a sound whipping.
Sitting down with Ned and Lulie I felt more at my ease, and by the time
recess was announced, felt like joining in the games. All was clatter
and chatter as we poured from the door, and the scholars forgot I was a
“newy” in the excitement of the play. The game of “goosey” was proposed
and commenced. We separated to our bases, and at the call advanced.
Scampering hither and thither, some tried to catch, some to be caught.
I dodged, in good earnest, both boys and girls, and endeavored to reach
the opposite base with a zeal that would have adorned a fanatic. But it
was no use; the tall and freckled girl singled me out, and with a speed
that would have disdained Atalanta’s apples, pursued steadily, and with
the utmost perseverance, after me. No matter how I twisted, turned and
doubled, still she was behind me, nearer and nearer, never relaxing her
speed, while with every backward glance I gave, her brown calico dress
flew higher and higher, and her parrot-toed feet stepped over each
other more and more swiftly.
Of course she overhauled me, and, catching me by the lower edge of my
jacket, triumphantly dragged me backwards to the base, in the style
known as “walking turkey.” Throughout the whole game it was my fate to
be caught by the girls, but I was not over timid on this score, and
rather enjoyed it. At one o’clock I ran home for lunch, and gave father
and mother a detailed account of my morning’s experience, omitting
the crying scene. I returned to the school room with a light heart,
and, as children are not very formal, was soon acquainted with all the
scholars. Frank met me first, and begged my pardon for his rudeness
in the morning. He made himself so kind and attentive to me that my
prejudices against him imperceptibly began to wear off, though I could
not help observing that he was overbearing to those who were meaner
dressed than himself, and whom he considered his inferiors.
As the days wore on I had time to form intimacies, and I found one
friend in the school whom I could “grapple unto my soul with hooks of
steel.”
Between Edward Cheyleigh and myself there sprang up the most lasting
friendship. He was the most noble hearted boy I ever knew. Manly and
firm to the last degree, yet gentle and soft as a girl in his manners;
full of life and gaiety, yet no amount of persuasion could make him
yield his consent to what he thought was wrong. He was, in consequence,
rather unpopular with the scholars, and I have often seen his face
flush at a sneer about his being the favorite, after a refusal to join
in some plan to worry Miss Hester. I used to admire his firmness and
moral courage, and long to imitate his example, but I was too much
afraid of the ridicule of the school, and I would often forfeit Ned’s
approval rather than face the jeers of so many.
As the session passed on I lost all my reserve, and, with the absence
of embarrassment, came my love for fun. I was soon up to all the
tricks of school, and an expert in their performance. I was perfect in
the art of chewing and shooting paper, and William Tell took no more
pride in his apple feat than did I in the accuracy with which I could
plant a two inch pulp in a boy’s forehead across the room, and never
attract a glance from Miss Hester. I could gauge a pin to the exact
desideratum of pain, as I inserted it just above my neighbor’s point of
contact with the bench. I could stand up and call out, “M’ I g’ out?”
as loudly as the boldest, or assume, with perfect ease, the don’t care
expression and slinging gait, after a mortifying attempt at recitation.
These accomplishments were only acquired after months of timidity and
practice, but by degrees I became a ringleader in all the mischief, and
many were the difficulties I became involved in. Frank Paning always
joined us in our schemes, but somehow generally managed to escape the
punishment that fell on the rest of us.
One day Miss Hester was later coming than usual. We had all assembled,
and waited patiently for her some time, when Frank suddenly proposed
that we bar her out, and make her give us holiday. His proposition was
agreed to by several, of which I was the first; while all the girls,
and two or three of the very small boys, went outside to wait for her.
We commenced our operations with vigor, piling up chairs, tables, and
Miss Hester’s desk, against the door, in our haste turning the ink
over the copy books and papers, and scattering the pens and rulers
generally. As we concluded our arrangements, we observed Ned still
inside, sitting quietly at his usual corner.
“Why, hallo, Ned!” said Frank, “I thought you were outside with the
other girls. Why don’t you go?”
“Because I don’t wish to,” Ned replied, quietly, rubbing out one figure
on his slate with a wet forefinger and putting down another.
“But you won’t tell on us, will you?” asks a timid one.
“I shall not tell on any one, as it is none of my business;” and Ned
bent over his slate as if that was all he had to say.
“All right! here she comes ’round the corner,” exclaimed two or three
excited ones, peeping through a crevice in the window. “Wonder what the
old lady will do?”
Sure enough Miss Hester was coming, walking with all the majesty of
a teacher, and carrying demoralization to our garrison by her very
presence. As she came up we could hear a chorus of shrill voices crying:
“Lor! Miss Hester, what do you think? the boys have locked us and you
out, and say they won’t let us in till you promise to give ’em holiday.”
She did not reply, but we heard her come up the steps, and shake the
door two or three times. Finding it barred, there was an ominous
silence of a minute or two, then another more violent shake. The more
timorous of our number now wished to open the door, and surrender
unconditionally; but Frank and I, by dint of hard persuasion, and by
representing to them that this course would not palliate their sin,
induced them to hold out. She left the house, and went off, walking
rapidly. The advocates of surrender now gained strength, but we argued
and plead them into a little more obduracy. Before our council of war
had ended Miss Hester returned with a carpenter, and we felt that the
battle was hers. We got our books, took our seats, and watched, with
anxious eyes, the door, as it creaked and strained with every blow.
A moment more and it flew open, scattering our barricade in every
direction, and Miss Hester marched in victorious. Having dismissed the
carpenter, and put things to rights, she turned her attention to the
perpetrators of the deed. We saw, from the miniature thunder cloud that
had gathered between her brows, that there was no hope for mercy, so we
prepared to meet our fate resignedly. Calling us all up in a row, she
began at the top of the roll:
“Eliza Atly, were you inside or outside?”
Miss Eliza Atly, the freckled girl, with corner-drawn eyes, is
delighted to testify that she was outside.
“Abram Barn, outside or inside?”
Abram Barn, the small, fat boy, with puffy cheeks and dry tow hair,
bubbles out his answer as if it were liquid:
“Out chide, m’m!”
“Edward Cheyleigh?”
“Inside, ma’am.”
“Edward! I am surprised at that. Did you bar the door against me?”
“No, madam.”
“Do you know who did it?”
“Yes, ma’am, I do, but I cannot tell.”
Miss Hester’s face flushed, as she said, sternly:
“Those who conceal are as guilty as those who commit.”
She proceeded down the roll, receiving confessions from some, and
denials from others, till she came to Frank’s name.
“Frank Paning,” she said, with her darkest frown, “did you bar my door?”
“No, madam, I did not.”
He had been nailing down the windows while we were barring the door.
“Did you see who did it?”
“I did not see any one do it. When I looked the door was all barred up
tight.”
Every one looked at him in amazement, but he replied by a smirk of
conceit at his success.
“John Smith, did you help to keep me out?” thundered Miss Hester, her
patience all gone.
“Yes, ma’am, I did.”
“That will do; you can all take your seats.”
My name completed the roll, and she laid aside the book, and took
up the rod. After some remarks on the enormity of our offence, and
the surprise she felt that some of her best scholars should have
countenanced it, and that it was her unpleasant duty to punish all
concerned, she proceeded to call up the offenders in order.
“Edward Cheyleigh, come here, sir. I regret very much the necessity of
punishing you, as it is the first time, and I have never before even
reproved you; but the offence is very grievous, and as you know who did
it, and won’t tell, you are accessory to the deed. Hold out your hand!”
I could stand it no longer, as Ned, with his face crimson from
mortification, yet his head erect with conscious innocence, held out
his hand for the undeserved blows, but springing from my seat, I cried:
“Miss Hester, Ned had nothing to do with it. We all begged him to join
us, but he wouldn’t; and if you are going to whip him, let me take his
share.”
“Stand back, sir,” she said sternly, “your time will come soon enough.
Your hand, Edward.”
He extended each palm, and received the cutting blows without a quiver,
then turned to his seat. As he sat down his fortitude gave way, and,
burying his face in his hands, he burst into sobbing.
My time came last, but so much did I feel for Ned that I scarce heeded
the stinging ferule. Miss Hester, after some further remarks, dismissed
us for the evening. As we poured from the door, the occasion furnished
food for more chattering than a cargo of magpies could have made.
“Wasn’t old Hess mad, though?” says one, whose hand was still red from
the ruler.
“She couldn’t get much out of my hand with her old slapjack,” boasts
another, rubbing his hands unconsciously on his pants, in striking
contradiction of his assertion.
As Frank Paning came out I heard him say:
“But didn’t I get out of it nice?”
“Yes, you sneaked out like a dog,” I replied indignantly. Another
chimed in:
“Yes, you did. Ned Cheyleigh’s good game, though. I don’t believe he
ever would have told old Hess, if she had beat him till now.”
“Umph!” sneered Frank, “‘twas because he was afraid to tell. He knew
some of us would whip him if he did.”
Ned was coming down the steps, the traces of tears still on his cheeks,
when he heard Frank’s remarks.
The crimson on his face gave place to the white hue of anger, as he
walked up to Frank and said:
“You lie. I dare you to try it.”
Frank looked sheepish, but the boys were all around him, and he felt
that he must fight, so, laying down his books, he met Ned.
What a momentous subject of interest is a fight between school boys! A
duel between senators excites not more proportionate attention.
These only passed a couple of blows, then clinched and fell, Frank
underneath. What digging in the ground with heels and toes! Frank
trying to wring his body from under Ned, and Ned trying to hold him
down; while the enthusiastic spectators clapped their hands and shouted
as the tide of battle wavered:
“Oh my, Ned! Hold him down! Turn him over, Frank! Throw out your leg
and push! Jerk his hands up, Ned,” etc., etc.
After several futile struggles Frank gave up, cried “Enough!” and both
arose considerably soiled and blown.
I took Ned in charge, and we started home, I brushing the dirt from his
clothes, and endeavoring to remove all traces of the conflict.
“Ned,” I said, as we reached Mr. Cheyleigh’s gate, “I am so sorry I got
you into this trouble.”
“Oh, never mind that,” he replied cheerfully. “I hated it on account of
its being my first, but I wasn’t in fault any way, and I wouldn’t tell
her now to save her life.”
Ned was human, and could not but feel anger at his undeserved
punishment.
We parted, and I hastened home. Anticipating Miss Hester’s narration of
the affair, I gave a faithful account of it; taking care to describe
our conduct as “having just locked her out for a little fun,” and
descanting, in glowing terms, on her cruelty to Ned. Father’s brow
darkened, and he shook his head ominously when I had concluded.
“John,” he said at length, and I knew by his tone that he did not see
the joke as I did, “this will not do. You are always getting in some
school difficulty. I must look into this affair and learn the true
state of the case. Go, get your supper and then go to bed. I will see
you in the morning.”
I sullenly went into the dining room and partook of the meal, with
gloomy forebodings of the morrow, for I knew, from experience, that the
“seeing” in the morning meant something more than vision.
I went to my chamber and got to bed, but not to sleep (for it was too
soon for that, and I could still hear out doors the sounds of day life
and activity); but to ruminate on the injustice of Miss Hester, father
and the world generally. I felt that father should have taken my part
and not threatened another punishment, when I had already expiated my
fault at Miss Hester’s hands. I took a gloomy delight in forgetting
all his kindness, and bringing up to memory all his chastisements and
reproofs, and I finally came to the conclusion that I was a poor,
persecuted little martyr, that nobody cared for me, and that it would
be such a sweet revenge to bundle up all my clothes in a handkerchief
and run away. I thought how fine it would be to go far away where
no one ever heard of our home, and achieve an immense fortune; and
when, at last, everybody thought me dead, and father was sufficiently
penitent for his cruelty, to return in a gilded chariot, with several
dozen white horses, and riding up before our door in great state,
inquire if Col. Smith, the father of an exiled child, lived there. The
only obstacle to my fugitive project was the lack of somewhere to run
to; and as no suitable place presented itself to my mind, I gave up the
scheme for the present, always to be renewed, though, when aggrieved,
and always to be as far from execution. I persevered, however, in my
misanthropic musings till I had rendered myself thoroughly miserable,
when my reverie was broken by the entrance of mother, who came and sat
down on the edge of my bed. Taking my hand in her soft palm, she said:
“Tell me all about your difficulty, Johnnie. How did it occur?” Turning
my face from the wet, warm pillow up to her’s, I gave a full recital of
all, throwing in towards the last a few reflections on father’s harsh
treatment, as it appeared to me.
“Hush! hush! Johnnie, you must not speak so. I know it seems hard to
you, but it was well calculated to provoke your father. This is the
fourth or fifth time you have been punished this session, and he knew
it would not do to encourage you in such rebellious conduct.”
I remained silent and grum, and mother continued:
“I know boys think it very manly and brave to be insubordinate at
school, and to show all the disrespect they can to the teachers; if
they are reproved to reply pertly, and if they are chastised, to bear
it without flinching. All these are foolishly considered marks of great
spirit. But it is a very mistaken idea. Is it not wrong, culpably
wrong, to obstruct and impede the labors of those who are striving
to do us good? The very fact of their being compensated renders them
responsible to parents and guardians for a more careful instruction of
those placed under their charge, and yet you endeavor by every means to
prevent the discharge of this responsibility, even though you are to
receive the benefit. The teacher’s task is a difficult one any way, and
you should strive to lighten the burden, by prompt and ready obedience,
instead of scheming to make it heavier. Miss Hester is an old lady,
and entitled to our respect from her very age; and then she is alone
in the world; she has no one to look to for protection, and makes all
her living by her little school. How shameful and sinful, then, to
tease and trouble her! No wonder she lost her patience when she found
herself locked out of her own house, compelled to stand in the street,
a laughing-stock for the passers by. And see, too, another consequence
of your fun, as you called it: your little playmate, Ned Cheyleigh,
who had the manliness to refuse to join you, is punished equally
with the guilty, and has to suffer for your fault. I like fun and
innocent mischief myself, but never let it be enjoyed at the expense of
another’s feelings.”
Her kind words and manner unnerved me, and the black cloud in my heart
poured its rain from my eyes, as I sobbed out:
“I—didn’t—mean—to hurt—her—feelings—, and—I’ll—beg—father’s
pardon—and hers—the first—thing—in—the—morning. I told—Ned—how
sorry—I was—about—him—this—evening.”
“Well, I hope you will let this prove a lesson to you for the future.
It’s getting late; good night.”
As she left the room I turned over on my pillow, took another hearty
pull at my tears, and was then at Morpheus’ service.