TRAVAIL
For more than an hour Judge Bolitho tramped the streets of Manchester,
unheeding whither he went and as little knowing. He was vainly trying
to understand what he had heard, trying to bring some order out of the
chaos of his thoughts and feelings. Everything was confused,
bewildering. He was like a man in a dream. The experiences through
which he had passed refused to shape themselves definitely. A mist
hung before the eyes of his mind, and yet he knew it was no dream. It
was all real, terribly real, and presently everything would stand out
before him with a ghastly clearness. Even now one thing was plain
enough, one fact impressed itself upon the tablets of his brain--Paul
Stepaside was his son. The interview he had had with the woman he
deceived was in the background; even although past memories had been
roused and the deeds of his youth had been brought before him with
awful clearness, they were as nothing compared with this fact of facts.
He did not know he had a son; he never dreamt of such a thing. During
the long years which had elapsed since he parted with Jean at the
lonely inn near the Scottish border he had often wondered what had
become of her, wondered, too, whether those past days would ever be
resurrected; but the thought that he had a son had never occurred to
him. And now the knowledge overwhelmed everything else.
Little by little things shaped themselves in his mind. He saw them as
others would see them. The events of the past few years, since he had
first met Paul, began to stand out with clearness. He remembered his
own impressions on the day when Paul was first brought before him,
accused of rioting and of inciting others to deeds of violence. He
remembered, too, that he had a kind of pleasure in obtaining a hard
sentence for him. He recalled the fact that both Mr. Wilson and his
son Ned had spoken of him as an evil-dispositioned fellow, who deserved
the utmost penalty of the law, and he had fallen in with their ideas,
and had taken a kind of grim pleasure in doing so. It was a strange
business altogether. For the moment he seemed to be a kind of third
party considering a curious phenomenon. He seemed to have no direct
connection with it at all. But as he remembered after events, when he
called to mind the fact that he fought Paul at the election and failed
to condemn those who made use of slanderous gossip, then he was more
than a spectator. He realised all too vividly against whom he had been
fighting. And it had come to this: this man whom he had always
disliked, and against whom there seemed to be always a feeling of
antagonism, was revealed to him as his own son! His treatment of Jean,
bad though it was, took a second place; indeed, at that time he
troubled very little about it. He felt as though he could deal with it
later on. Everything was centred upon the situation, which was summed
up in a few words: He had a son, his son was accused of murder, and he
was the judge!
Presently he found himself in Oxford Road. He did not know how he had
come there. He had no recollection of passing through the streets
which led him there, but as he noticed the gables of Owens College he
realised where he was. He remembered some time before being an
honoured visitor at this centre of education. The principal of the
college had sought to do him honour. The professors made much of him.
He was strangely interested in the fact. Why should it be? Owens
College was nothing to him. It was simply the centre of one of the
newer universities. Why, then, did it interest him? Then he
remembered that Paul had been a student there. He had travelled all
the way from Brunford so that he might attend certain classes--and Paul
was his son!
Always this! Always this! In whichever direction his mind travelled,
it always came back to this point--Paul Stepaside was his son!
Slowly he trudged back towards the city again. Presently he found
himself outside Strangeways Gaol. He looked at the grim,
forbidding-looking building. He thought of the creatures who lay
there, some awaiting trial, others suffering the penalty of their
misdoings. During the very assizes which he was now attending he had
committed several to suffer there; but it was not of them he thought.
What were they?--merely the off-scourings of Lancashire life. The only
one who mattered was his own son, and he lay there in a dark cell,
waiting for the morrow. He did not ask himself whether he was innocent
or guilty. At that moment it did not seem of importance. Paul was his
son! He, Judge Bolitho, was his father. He, who had never realised
that he had a son, suddenly woke up to the fact that his son lay there
in Strangeways Gaol, while he, his father, was the judge.
If he could only go to him, talk with him, it might help him to clear
his mind, help him to understand. But he could not do that. He had
been too long a servant of the law to so far transgress against the
most elementary usages of the law. No judge was allowed to see a
prisoner alone while his case was being tried. But if he could--if he
could!
He called to mind Paul's face as he had seen it through the day. Even
when he sat on the Bench he remembered being struck by it. It was so
calm, so proud, so unyielding. He had felt angry that this man,
accused of murder, had seemed to treat his accusers, as well as his
judge and counsel, with a kind of contempt. Now he felt almost proud
of him. Paul Stepaside was no ordinary man. And he was his son!
Again he looked at the gloomy, grim pile. Of what was his boy
thinking? He lay in a black prison cell, with the shadow of death
hanging over him. What were his feelings? During his career Judge
Bolitho had been brought into contact with some of the darkest
characters in the land. He knew something of what men suffered for
their crimes. And at that moment he realised what Paul was suffering.
"Oh, if I could only go to him!" he repeated to himself--"if I only
could!"
He did not know why it was, but he felt a change coming over him. He
realised that he had a wondrous interest in this man whom he pictured
lying in Strangeways Gaol. He knew that the anger and scorn which he
had felt for him were passing away. A kinder feeling was coming into
his heart. It seemed as though old bitternesses were being removed,
and he began to long with a great longing to do something. The young
girl whom he had met as a boy, and who was Paul's mother, was for the
moment forgotten. That stormy interview did not possess his mind at
all, only in so far as she had revealed to him the relationship between
him and the prisoner. Then, suddenly, it seemed to him as though the
barriers around his heart were broken down. He loved, as he never
realised that he could love, the prisoner who lay waiting for the next
day's trial. He wanted to go to him with words of comfort. He wanted
to kneel before him and beseech his forgiveness. He wanted to tell him
that all the strength of his being were given to him. It seemed to him
as though he had become a new man, capable of new feelings, realising
new emotions. His knowledge had swallowed up everything else. He no
longer regarded the prisoner as a case, or even as one with whom he had
had associations in the past. He was everything to him--his son, his
only son!
But he could not go to him. Even the warders would not allow him.
They knew their duty too well for that. He was the judge and Paul was
the prisoner. But, oh! how his heart went out to him! How he longed
to go to him!
"I wonder what he would say to me if I went to him, supposing I defied
all law and all usage?" he asked himself. "Supposing I found my way
into his cell, what would he say on seeing me? What would he do?"
And then into Judge Bolitho's heart came a great, haunting fear. He
knew that his son must hate him, even as Jean hated him. Paul had
heard her side of the story. He knew only of his mother's wrongs, her
years of loneliness, the unworthy betrayal! The punishment seemed
almost too hard for him to bear. Whatever Paul had suffered, whatever
his mother had suffered, Judge Bolitho was sure that neither of them
suffered as he did at that moment.
Slowly his mind asserted itself more and more. His vigorous intellect,
strengthened by long years of training, caused him to grasp the whole
situation more and more clearly. He began to take a practical view of
everything, and to form plans as to what must be done in the future.
And even as he did so the grimness of the tragedy faced him.
Throughout the day he knew that he had, to a large extent, prejudged
Paul's case. His own inherent dislike of the man had caused him to
feel sure he was guilty. Of course there were difficulties, and of
course a clever counsel would mercilessly riddle the evidence which had
been adduced. Nevertheless, he had felt convinced that the jury would
find him guilty. There was a perfect chain of circumstantial evidence,
and he, with his long experience, knew what juries were. They could
only judge according to evidence. He went over the points one by
one--the years of enmity between Paul and the murdered man; the threats
he had made; the injuries which the murdered man had persistently done
to the accused; the knife which was known to belong to Paul, and which
could only have been in his possession; the quarrel on the eve of the
murder; the fact that Paul had left his own house at midnight and had
not returned till just before dawn; Wilson found not far from his own
house with Paul's knife in his heart; and the evidence which would be
surely adduced that Paul had been seen not far from Howden Clough that
same morning, acting in a most strange and distracted manner. Added to
this was the fact that Wilson was respected in the town; that he was
not known to have an enemy in the world but Paul. No, no! Unless Paul
could bring evidence of the strongest nature, the jury would find him
guilty.
Then the terror of it seized him. His own son would be hanged!
He lifted up his hands to heaven like a man distraught.
"Great God, forgive me and help me!" he cried. But it seemed to him
even then as though his prayer were a mockery, as though the black,
cloud-laden sky were filled with doom.
Almost mechanically he turned his face towards his hotel.
"I must think this out," he said to himself. "Besides---- Oh, my son!
My son!"
He had not walked far towards his hotel when he suddenly stopped in the
middle of the pavement. His intellect, which had wakened from its
torpor, awakened something else. He began to realise his own share in
this tragedy. It was not Paul who was guilty of murder at all--it was
he, the judge. If long years before he had done his duty, if he had
not listened to the voice of self interest, if he had been true to the
pleadings of his own heart and openly confessed to having married the
girl whose love he had won, then Paul would have grown up honoured, and
this deed would never have been committed. He, he, Judge Bolitho, was
guilty. But he could do nothing; how could he?
A few minutes later he found himself back at the entrance to the hotel,
and the porter saluted him respectfully. Judge Bolitho had often
spoken to this man in a friendly sort of way, and the man was proud of
his notice.
"A dark, dreary night, my lord?"
"Yes; a dark, dreary night," repeated the judge.
He found his way to the suite of rooms which he had engaged, and as he
divested himself of the heavy ulster he had worn he planned a kind of
programme for the night. He had no thought of going to bed. During
his early days at the Bar, whenever a complicated case presented itself
to him, he had always written out a kind of resume, or synopsis of the
whole situation, so as to have everything clear before his mind. After
that he had been able to classify and to arrange with precision and
accuracy. He made up his mind to do this now. But on entering the
room where he intended to work he was startled to find that his
daughter Mary was awaiting him.
"Not in bed, Mary?" he said. "It's very late!"
"No, father. I've been waiting for you."
"Why?" he asked; and there was something almost suspicious in his
voice. He had a kind of feeling that his daughter knew something of
where he had been that night.
"I could not go to bed," said the girl.
"But why, my child? By the way, did you go to the Gordons? I was glad
when I heard that they had asked you, because I had to attend a dinner,
and I did not like the idea of your being alone."
"No; I did not go to the Gordons'," she replied.
"What have you been doing, then?"
"I have been sitting alone all the evening, part of the time in my
bedroom, part of it here."
"What have you been doing?"
"Thinking. Father, I was at the trial to-day."
"I am very sorry," he replied. "Such places are not for you."
"Why? There was no one so interested as I."
"Of course you are naturally interested in the murder of Ned Wilson,"
he replied. "All the same, it is unhealthy and morbid, this desire to
be present at murder trials. But good-night, Mary. I want to be
alone. I have a great deal to do."
"Not yet, father," she said. "I want to talk with you about this
trial. Of course you do not believe him guilty?"
"Why not?"
Somehow the presence of his daughter had made him cool and collected
again, and he had a kind of instinctive feeling that she must be kept
in the dark concerning what had happened. He was so far able to
control himself, too, that he spoke to her quite naturally.
"You do not believe him guilty, father?" she repeated.
"Don't you?" And there was something eager in his voice as he uttered
the words.
"Why, father, how could he be? It is madness to suppose such a thing!"
"I cannot discuss it with you," he said; and his voice was almost
harsh. "Go to bed, my child. Good-night."
She looked at him searchingly, and for the first time in her life she
felt almost afraid of him. His face was drawn and haggard, and in his
eyes was a look she never saw before.
"You do not believe him guilty, do you?"
"My God, I don't know," he replied hoarsely. "I would give--I would
give----" And then he ceased speaking.
"I tell you he's innocent," replied the girl. "And I am going to----"
But Judge Bolitho did not hear her. "Go to bed--go to bed!" he said;
and taking her by the arm he led her from the room, and, closing the
door, turned the key. A moment later he had unlocked the door and
called her back.
"What is that you said about--about something you were going to do?" he
asked.
"Surely, father, you do not believe him guilty?" was her reply. "I
know that the evidence is black against him; but he could not do it!
He could not do it!"
As the judge looked at his daughter's face, a ray of hope shone into
his heart. If the trial had impressed her in this way, might not the
jury also be led to doubt the evidence given? He knew that many men
had been hanged on circumstantial evidence, but it might be that they
would refuse to accept the evidence in this case as sufficient.
"You see," persisted the girl, and he noticed that her lace was full of
anguish, that her eyes shone with an unnatural light--"he could not do
it, father."
"Do you mean to say that you regard the evidence as insufficient?"
It was utterly unlike him to talk with her about any trial in which he
was engaged. Such things, he had always maintained, were not for
women. They had neither the training nor the acumen to give an opinion
worth considering. But now he caught at the girl's words like a
drowning man might catch at a straw.
"Oh, I know the evidence is terrible enough," she replied. "But that
doesn't convince me a bit. Father, you cannot allow them to hang him."
He stood still looking at her steadily, and as he did so the horror of
the whole situation seized him more terribly than ever. He knew what
she did not know. His mind was filled with thoughts of which she was
in utter ignorance.
"I can do nothing, my child," he said, "nothing! It is a case for the
jury. They have to hear the evidence, and then they pass judgment
accordingly. If they condemn him as guilty, I must pass judgment of
death, I cannot help myself. I am as helpless as the hangman. If the
jury says 'Guilty,' I must pronounce death, and the hangman must do the
horrible thing!"
"But, father, don't you see? He has refused to have counsel, and you
would have to sum up the evidence. And when you are summing up you
could say how inconclusive it was, how terrible it would be to hang a
man because a set of circumstances seemed to point in a certain
direction."
He was silent for a few seconds. The old numbness had come over his
mind again. But he determined to let his daughter know nothing of it.
"You see, Mary," he said, "a judge can do so little, even in the way of
summing up, and he must do justice. A judge sits on the bench as a
representative of justice, and all he can do is to analyse the
evidence. And you know what the evidence is!"
"But he could not do it," said the girl.
"Think," went on the judge, and he spoke more like a machine than a
man. "Think of the terrible train of events: the long years of
personal enmity between them; the injuries which the prisoner suffered
at the hands of the murdered man; the blow struck on the night of the
murder; and then--don't you see, Mary? Besides, there is something
else, something which has never come to light, something which must
never come to light. Wilson had been, as you know, spoken of as your
fiancé, and you know the letter I received from Stepaside. He asked
that you might be his wife, and he would be jealous of Wilson. Don't
you see? Don't you see? Mind you, this must not come to light. It
must not be spoken of at all. Nobody guesses that Stepaside cared
anything about you. But what am I saying? Drive it out of your mind,
Mary--it's of no consequence at all, and you must not consider it for a
moment. Oh, my God, the horror of it! Don't you see, Mary? The
horror of it!"
Evidently she did not understand altogether what he was thinking. She
did not realise that Paul was her half-brother, and therefore could not
altogether understand her father's cry of anguish.
For a moment the two stood together, silent, each looking into the
other's face and trying to read each other's thoughts.
"Father," she said at length, "I want to tell you something. I have
been to see Paul."
"Been to see Paul! Where? When?"
"I went to see him in prison."
Her father seemed to be staggered by the thought.
"You went to see the prisoner?" he said. Even yet he could not call
him by the name that was so dear to him. The legal formulae were
almost a habit with him.
"I went to see Paul," she said.
"Why?"
"I went to tell him that I loved him," she replied simply. "I knew
what he must be suffering, and I know that he loves me, because he told
me so. And I wanted to comfort him. I wanted to assure him that all
would be well."
The judge started back as though someone had struck him. "You love----"
"Yes," she interrupted. "I told him so, too. I never loved Mr.
Wilson, father. You know I didn't. I had not thought that I really
cared for anyone until, until----"
"But you love Paul Stepaside?"
The words came from him as if mechanically. Indeed, he had no
knowledge that he had uttered them.
"I do," she replied. "And when he's at liberty I shall be his wife."
For a moment the judge rocked to and fro like a drunken man, and then,
staggering towards a chair, fell into it, and covered his face with his
hands.
"Father!" cried the girl. "Did you not guess?"
"Oh, my God, that I should suffer this too! I never thought, I never
dreamt----"
"I know that Paul is shielding someone," went on the girl presently.
"He did not do this. He could not do it. He is utterly incapable of
it! You see that's why I am so certain. And I'm going to find out who
did it. Do you understand, father? That's why I wanted to speak to
you to-night. You must give me time. You can make the case last for
days, if you want, and I'm going to find out who did it. He's hiding
someone."
The judge lifted his head, and in his eyes was a gleam of hope.
"You believe this, Mary?" he said.
"I am sure of it!" she replied. "You can do this to help me, can't
you?"
"But, my child, don't you see the utter hopelessness of it? You must
not love Paul Stepaside. You dare not! Why--why----"
"But I do dare," replied the girl. "This charge is nothing to me. He
is not guilty, and I love him. Don't you see, father? And I'm going
to save him. And you must give me time. Make the case drag on,
father. Of course, it will be suffering for him, but I cannot help
that. When I'm ready I'll let you know."
The judge sat for some minutes as though in deep thought. Confused and
bewildered as his mind was by the events of the night, there was
something in his daughter's demeanour that gave him hope for the future.
"I must think, Mary," he said. "I've had a trying day, and I do not
think I'm very well. I want to be alone a little while, and
then--well, perhaps in the morning I shall know better what I can do.
Good-night, little girl!"
He rose to his feet as he spoke and kissed her. Then he led her out of
the room again.
"Oh, my God!" he said. "My punishment is greater than I can bear. For
that one deed of wrong, of cowardice, must I suffer this?"
He went into the dressing-room and bathed his head in cold water. It
seemed to him as though his brain were on fire. A few minutes later he
felt better. He could think again. He sat in an arm-chair beside the
fire and reviewed the past. His mind went back to the time when he, a
free-hearted lad, went on a walking tour with some other fellows among
the English lakes, and then on to Scotland. He had been full of good
resolutions, and his heart was light and free. He had meant no harm
when he made Jean Lindsay love him, but he had never dreamt of what
would follow. And then, then all the ensuing events passed before his
mind in ghastly procession. What must he do?
In spite of everything, Judge Bolitho believed himself to be a
religious man. He had identified himself with religious movements, had
professed himself a believer in prayer. In one sense he was a man of
the world, keen as far as his profession went, eager for his own
advancement. But in another he had held fast to the faith of his
childhood. He had had a religious training, and while both his father
and mother had died when he was young, he had never forgotten their
teaching, and had never been able to shake himself free from early
associations.
Almost like a man in a dream, he knelt down by the chair and tried to
pray. What must he do? Life was a tangle, but he entangled it yet
farther himself. He, by his own act, had made everything difficult,
terrible, tragic. His conscience was roused within him, and as he
prayed he seemed to see, as though in a vision, the road he ought to
take.
"No, not that!" he cried. "Not that! Great God, not that! I could
not do it! I could not do it!"
He rose from his knees and began to pace the room. His mind was clear
enough now, for God had spoken.
"But I cannot do it," he said. "If I do what seems right, I shall
bring pain, disgrace on so many. No, I cannot do it! It cannot be
right to do right! It cannot!"
And still he paced the room, struggling, fighting, and sometimes
offering wild, inarticulate prayers.