CHAPTER XLI

Narcissa being in danger from the brutality of Sir Timothy, is rescued

by me, who revenge myself on my rival—I declare my passion, and retreat

to the seaside—am surrounded by smugglers, and carried to Boulogne—find

my Uncle Lieutenant Bowling in great distress, and relieve him—our

conversation

At certain intervals my ambition would revive; I would despise myself

for my tame resignation to my sordid fate, and revolve a hundred

schemes for assuming the character of a gentleman, to which I thought

myself entitled by birth and education. In these fruitless suggestions

time stole away unperceived, and I had already remained eight months in

the station of a footman, when an accident happened that put an end to

my servitude, and, for the present, banished all hopes of succeeding in

my love.

Narcissa went one day to visit Miss Thicket, who lived with her brother

within less than a mile of our house, and was persuaded to walk home in

the cool of the evening, accompanied by Sir Timothy, who, having a good

deal of the brute in him, was instigated to use some unbecoming

familiarities with her, encouraged by the solitariness of a field

through which they passed. The lovely creature was incensed at his rude

behaviour for which she reproached him in such a manner that he lost

all regard to decency, and actually offered violence to this pattern of

innocence and beauty. But Heaven would not suffer so much goodness to

be violated, and sent me, who, passing by accident near the place, was

alarmed with her cries, for her succour. What were the emotions of my

soul, when I beheld Narcissa almost sinking beneath the brutal force of

this satyr! I flew like lightning to her rescue, and he, perceiving me,

quitted his prey, and drew his hanger to chastise my presumption. My

indignation was too high to admit one thought of fear, so that, rushing

upon him, I struck his weapon out of his hand, and used my cudgel so

successfully that he fell to the ground, and lay, to all appearance,

without sense. Then I turned to Narcissa, who had swooned, and sitting

down by her, gently raised her head, and supported it on my bosom,

while, with my hand around her waist, I kept her in that position. My

soul was thrilled with tumultuous joy, at feeling the object of my

dearest wishes within my arms; and, while she lay insensible, I could

not refrain from applying my cheeks to hers, and ravishing a kiss. In a

little time the blood began to revisit her face, she opened her

enchanting eyes, and, having recollected her late situation, said, with

a look full of tender acknowledgment, “Dear John, I am eternally

obliged to you!” So saying she made an effort to rise, in which I

assisted her, and she proceeded to the house, leaning upon me all the

way. I was a thousand times tempted by this opportunity to declare my

passion, but the dread of disobliging her restrained my tongue. We had

not moved a hundred paces from the scene of her distress, when I

perceived Sir Timothy rise and walk homeward—a circumstance which,

though it gave me some satisfaction, inasmuch as I thereby knew I had

not killed him, filled me with just apprehension of his resentment,

which I found myself in no condition to withstand; especially when I

considered his intimacy with our squire, to whom I knew he could

justify himself for what he had done, by imputing it to his love, and

desiring his brother Bruin to take the same liberty with his sister,

without any fear of offence.

When we arrived at the house, Narcissa assured me she would exert all

her influence in protecting me from the revenge of Thicket, and

likewise engage her aunt in my favour. At the same time, pulling out

her purse, offered it as a small consideration for the service I had

done her. But I stood too much upon the punctilios of love to incur the

least suspicion of being mercenary, and refused the present, by saying

I had merited nothing by barely doing my duty. She seemed astonished at

my disinterestedness, and blushed: I felt the same suffusion, and, with

a downcast eye and broken accent, told her I had one request to make,

which, if her generosity would grant, I should think myself fully

recompensed, for an age of misery. She changed colour at this preamble,

and, with great confusion, replied, she hoped my good sense would

hinder me from asking anything she was bound in honour to refuse, and

therefore bade me signify my desire. Upon which I kneeled, and engaged

to kiss her hand. She immediately, with an averted look, stretched it

out: I imprinted on it an ardent kiss, and, bathing it with my tears,

cried, “Dear Madam, I am an unfortunate gentleman, and love you to

distraction, but would have died a thousand deaths rather than make

this declaration under such a servile appearance, were I not determined

to yield to the rigour of my fate, to fly from your bewitching

presence, and bury my presumptuous passion in eternal silence.” With

these words I rose, and went away before she could recover her spirits

so far as to make any reply.

My first care was to go and consult Mrs. Sagely, with whom I had

entertained a friendly correspondence ever since I left her house. When

she understood my situation, the good woman, with real concern,

condoled with me on my unhappy fate, and approved of my resolution to

leave the country, as being perfectly well acquainted with the

barbarous disposition of my rival, “who, by this time,” said she, “has

no doubt meditated a scheme of revenge. Indeed, I cannot see how you

will be able to elude his vengeance; being himself in the commission,

he will immediately grant warrants for apprehending you; and, as almost

all the people in this country are dependent on him or his friend, it

will be impossible for you to find shelter among them. If you should be

apprehended, he will commit you to jail, where you may possibly in

great misery languish till the next assizes, and then be transported

for assaulting a magistrate.”

While she thus warned me of my danger, we heard a knocking at the door,

which threw us both into great consternation, as in all probability, it

was occasioned by my pursuers; whereupon this generous old lady,

putting two guineas into my hand, with tears in her eyes, bade me, for

God’s sake, get out at the back-door and consult my safety as

Providence should direct me. There was no time for deliberation. I

followed her advice, and escaped by the benefit of a dark night to the

seaside, where, while I ruminated on my next excursion, I was all of a

sudden surrounded by armed men, who, having bound my hands and feet,

bade me make no noise on pain of being shot, and carried me on board of

a vessel, which I soon perceived to be a smuggling cutter. This

discovery gave me some satisfaction at first, because I concluded

myself safe from the resentment of Sir Timothy; but, when I found

myself in the hands of ruffians, who threatened to execute me for a

spy, I would have thought myself happily quit for a year’s

imprisonment, or even transportation. It was in vain for me to protest

my innocence: I could not persuade them that I had taken a solitary

walk to their haunt, at such an hour, merely for my own amusement; and

I did not think it my interest to disclose the true cause of my

retreat, because I was afraid they would have made their peace with

justice by surrendering me to the penalty of the law. What confirmed

their suspicion was, the appearance of a custom-house yacht, which gave

them chase, and had well nigh made a prize of their vessel; when they

were delivered from their fears by a thick fog, which effectually

screened them, and favoured their arrival at Boulogne. But, before they

got out of sight of their pursuer, they held a council of war about me,

and some of the most ferocious among them would have thrown me

overboard as a traitor who had betrayed them to their enemies; but

others, more considerate, alleged, that if they put me to death, and

should afterwards be taken, they could expect no mercy from the

legislature, which would never pardon outlawry aggravated by murder. It

was therefore determined by a plurality of votes, that I should be set

on shore in France, and left to find my way back to England, as I

should think proper, this being punishment sufficient for the bare

suspicion of a crime in itself not capital.

Although this favourable determination gave me great pleasure, the

apprehension of being robbed would not suffer me to be perfectly at

ease. To prevent this calamity, as soon as I was untied, in consequence

of the aforesaid decision, I tore a small hole in one of my stockings,

into which I dropped six guineas, reserving half a piece and some

silver in my pocket, that, finding something, they might not be tempted

to make any further inquiry. This was a very necessary precaution, for,

when we came within sight of the French shore, one of the smugglers

told me, I must pay for my passage. To this declaration I replied, that

my passage was none of my own seeking; therefore they could not expect

a reward from me for transporting me into a strange country by force.

“D—me!” said the outlaw, “none of your palaver; but let me see what

money you have got.” So saying, he thrust his hand into my pocket

without any ceremony, and emptied it of the contents; then, casting an

eye at my hat and wig, which captivated his fancy, he took them off,

clapping his own on my head, declared, that a fair exchange was no

robbery. I was fain to put up with this bargain, which was by no means

favourable to me; and a little while after we went all on shore

together.

I resolved to take my leave of those desperadoes without much ceremony,

when one of them cautioned me against appearing to their prejudice if

ever I returned to England, unless I had a mind to be murdered; for

which service, he assured me, the gang never wanted agents. I promised

to observe his advice, and departed for the Upper Town, where I

inquired for a cabaret, or public-house, into which I went, with an

intention of taking some refreshment. In the kitchen, five Dutch

sailors sat at breakfast with a large loaf, a firkin of butter, and a

keg of brandy, the bung of which they often applied to their mouths

with great perseverance and satisfaction. At some distance from them I

perceived another person in the same garb, sitting in a pensive

solitary manner, entertaining himself with a whiff of tobacco, from the

stump of a pipe as black as jet. The appearance of distress never

failed to attract my regard and compassion. I approached this forlorn

tar with a view to offer him my assistance, and, notwithstanding the

alteration of dress and disguise of a long beard, I discovered in him

my long lost and lamented uncle and benefactor, Lieutenant Bowling!

Good Heaven! what were the agitations of my soul, between the joy of

finding again such a valuable friend, and the sorrow of seeing him in

such a low condition! The tears gushed down my cheeks; I stood

motionless and silent for some time. At length, recovering the use of

speech, I exclaimed, “Gracious God! Mr. Bowling!” My uncle no sooner

heard his name mentioned, than he started up, crying, with some

surprise, “Holla!” and, after having looked at me steadfastly, without

being able to recollect me, said, “Did you call me, brother,” I told

him I had something extraordinary to communicate, and desired him to

give me the hearing for a few minutes in another room; but he would by

no means consent to this proposal, saying, “Avast there, friend: none

of your tricks upon travellers;—if you have anything to say to me, do

it above board;—you need not be afraid of being overheard;—here are

none who understand our lingo.” Though I was loth to discover myself

before company, I could no longer refrain from telling him I was his

own nephew, Roderick Random. On this information, he considered me with

great earnestness and astonishment, and, recalling my features, which,

though enlarged, were not entirely altered since he had seen me, came

up, and shook me by the hand very cordially, protesting he was glad to

see me well. After some pause, he went on thus; “And yet, my lad, I am

sorry to see you under such colours; the more so, as it is not in my

power, at present, to change them for the better, times being very hard

with me,” With these words I could perceive a tear trickle down his

furrowed cheek, which affected me so much that I wept bitterly.

Imagining my sorrow was the effect of my own misfortunes, he comforted

me with observing, that life was a voyage in which we must expect to

meet with all weathers; sometimes was calm, sometimes rough; that a

fair gale often succeeded a storm; that the wind did not always sit one

way, and that despair signified nothing; that resolution and skill were

better than a stout vessel: for why? because they require no carpenter,

and grow stronger the more labour they undergo. I dried up my tears,

which I assured him were not shed for my own distress, but for his, and

begged leave to accompany him into another room, where we could

converse more at our ease. There I recounted to him the ungenerous

usage I had met with from Potion; at which relation he started up,

stalked across the room three or four times in a great hurry, and,

grasping his cudgel, cried, “I would I were alongside of him—that’s

all—I would I were alongside of him!” I then gave him a detail of my

adventures and sufferings, which affected him more than I could have

imagined; and concluded with telling him that Captain Oakun was still

alive, and that he might return to England when he would to solicit his

affairs, without danger or molestation. He was wonderfully pleased with

this piece of information, of which, however, he said he could not at

present avail himself, for want of money to pay for his passage to

London. This objection I soon removed, by putting five guineas into his

hand, and telling him I thought myself extremely happy in having an

opportunity of manifesting my gratitude to him in his necessity. But it

was with the utmost difficulty I could prevail upon him to accept of

two, which he affirmed were more than sufficient to defray the

necessary expense.

After this friendly contest was over, he proposed we should have a mess

of something; “For,” said he, “it has been banyan day with me a great

while. You must know I was shipwrecked, five days ago, near a place

called Lisieux, in company with those Dutchmen who are now drinking

below; and having but little money when I came ashore, it was soon

spent, because I let them have share and share while it lasted.

Howsomever, I should have remembered the old saying, every hog his own

apple; for when they found my hold unstowed, they went all hands to

shooling and begging; and, because I would not take a spell at the same

duty, refused to give me the least assistance; so that I have not broke

bread these two days.” I was shocked at the extremity of his distress,

and ordered some bread, cheese, and wine, to be brought immediately, to

allay his hunger, until a fricassee of chickens could be prepared. When

he had recruited his spirits with this homely fare, I desired to know

the particulars of his peregrination since the accident at Cape

Tiberoon, which were briefly these: The money he had about him being

all spent at Port Louis, the civility and hospitality of the French

cooled to such a degree, that he was obliged to list on board one of

their king’s ships as a common foremast man, to prevent himself from

starving on shore. In this situation he continued two years, during

which time he had acquired some knowledge of their language, and the

reputation of a good seaman; the ship he belonged to was ordered home

to France, where she was laid up as unfit for service, and he was

received on board one of Monsieur D’Antin’s squadron, in quality of

quartermaster; which office he performed in a voyage to the West

Indies, where he engaged with our ship, as before related; but his

conscience upbraiding him for serving the one enemies of his country,

he quitted the ship at the same place where he first listed, and got to

Curacoa in a Dutch vessel; there he bargained with a skipper, bound to

Europe, to work for his passage to Holland, from whence he was in hopes

of hearing from his friends in England; but was cast away, as he

mentioned before, on the French coast, and must have been reduced to

the necessity of travelling on foot to Holland, and begging for his

subsistence on the road, or of entering on board of another French

man-of-war, at the hazard of being treated as a deserter, if Providence

had not sent me to his succour. “And now, my lad,” continued he, “I

think I shall steer my course directly to London, where I do not doubt

of being replaced, and of having the R taken off me by the Lords of the

Admiralty, to whom I intend to write a petition, setting forth my case;

if I succeed, I shall have wherewithal to give you some assistance,

because, when I left the ship, I had two years’ pay due to me,

therefore I desire to know whither you are bound: and besides, perhaps,

I may have interest enough to procure a warrant appointing you

surgeon’s mate of the ship to which I shall belong—for the beadle of

the Admiralty is my good friend: and he and one of the under clerks are

sworn brothers, and that under clerk has a good deal to say with one of

the upper clerks, who is very well known to the under secretary, who,

upon his recommendation, I hope, will recommend my affair to the first

secretary; and he again will speak to one of the lords in my behalf; so

that you see I do not want friends to assist me on occasion. As for the

fellow Crampley, tho’f I know him not, I am sure he is neither seaman

nor officer, by what you have told me, or else he could never be so

much mistaken in his reckoning, as to run the ship on shore on the

coast of Sussex before he believed himself in soundings; neither, when

that accident happened, would he have left the ship until she had been

stove to pieces, especially when the tide was making; wherefore, by

this time, I do suppose, he has been tried by a court-martial, and

executed for his cowardice and misconduct.”

I could not help smiling at the description of my uncle’s ladder, by

which he proposed to climb to the attention of the board of admiralty;

and, though I knew the world too well to confide in such dependence

myself, I would not discourage him with doubts, but asked if he had no

friend in London, who would advance a small sum of money to enable him

to appear as he ought, and make a small present to the under secretary,

who might possibly dispatch his business the sooner on that account. He

scratched his head, and after some recollection, replied, “Why, yes, I

believe Daniel Whipcord, the ship-chandler in Wapping, would not refuse

me such a small matter. I know I can have what credit I want for

lodging, liquor, and clothes; but as to money, I won’t be positive. Had

honest Block been living, I should not have been at loss.” I was

heartily sorry to find a worthy man so destitute of friends, when he

had such need of them, and looked upon my own situation as less

miserable than his, because I was better acquainted with the

selfishness and roguery of mankind, consequently less liable to

disappointment and imposition.

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