VII

Without quite knowing how he came to be there Oleron found himself

striding over the loose board he had temporarily placed on the step

broken by Miss Bengough. He was hatless, and descending the stairs. Not

until later did there return to him a hazy memory that he had left the

candle burning on the table, had opened the door no wider than was

necessary to allow the passage of his body, and had sidled out, closing

the door softly behind him. At the foot of the stairs another shock

awaited him. Something dashed with a flurry up from the disused cellars

and disappeared out of the door. It was only a cat, but Oleron gave a

childish sob.

He passed out of the gate, and stood for a moment under the "To Let"

boards, plucking foolishly at his lip and looking up at the glimmer

of light behind one of his red blinds. Then, still looking over his

shoulder, he moved stumblingly up the square. There was a small

public-house round the corner; Oleron had never entered it; but he

entered it now, and put down a shilling that missed the counter by

inches.

"B--b--bran--brandy," he said, and then stooped to look for the shilling.

He had the little sawdusted bar to himself; what company there

was--carters and labourers and the small tradesmen of the

neighbourhood--was gathered in the farther compartment, beyond the space

where the white-haired landlady moved among her taps and bottles. Oleron

sat down on a hardwood settee with a perforated seat, drank half his

brandy, and then, thinking he might as well drink it as spill it,

finished it.

Then he fell to wondering which of the men whose voices he heard across

the public-house would undertake the removal of his effects on the

morrow.

In the meantime he ordered more brandy.

For he did not intend to go back to that room where he had left the

candle burning. Oh no! He couldn't have faced even the entry and the

staircase with the broken step--certainly not that pith-white,

fascinating room. He would go back for the present to his old

arrangement, of workroom and separate sleeping-quarters; he would

go to his old landlady at once--presently--when he had finished his

brandy--and see if she could put him up for the night. His glass was

empty now....

He rose, had it refilled, and sat down again.

And if anybody asked his reason for removing again? Oh, he had reason

enough--reason enough! Nails that put themselves back into wood again

and gashed people's hands, steps that broke when you trod on them, and

women who came into a man's place and brushed their hair in the dark,

were reasons enough! He was querulous and injured about it all. He had

taken the place for himself, not for invisible women to brush their

hair in; that lawyer fellow in Lincoln's Inn should be told so, too,

before many hours were out; it was outrageous, letting people in for

agreements like that!

A cut-glass partition divided the compartment where Oleron sat from the

space where the white-haired landlady moved; but it stopped seven or

eight inches above the level of the counter. There was no partition at

the farther bar. Presently Oleron, raising his eyes, saw that faces were

watching him through the aperture. The faces disappeared when he looked

at them.

He moved to a corner where he could not be seen from the other bar; but

this brought him into line with the white-haired landlady.

She knew him by sight--had doubtless seen him passing and repassing; and

presently she made a remark on the weather. Oleron did not know what he

replied, but it sufficed to call forth the further remark that the winter

had been a bad one for influenza, but that the spring weather seemed to

be coming at last.... Even this slight contact with the commonplace

steadied Oleron a little; an idle, nascent wonder whether the landlady

brushed her hair every night, and, if so, whether it gave out those

little electric cracklings, was shut down with a snap; and Oleron was

better....

With his next glass of brandy he was all for going back to his flat. Not

go back? Indeed, he would go back! They should very soon see whether he

was to be turned out of his place like that! He began to wonder why he

was doing the rather unusual thing he was doing at that moment, unusual

for him--sitting hatless, drinking brandy, in a public-house. Suppose he

were to tell the white-haired landlady all about it--to tell her that a

caller had scratched her hand on a nail, had later had the bad luck to

put her foot through a rotten stair, and that he himself, in an old house

full of squeaks and creaks and whispers, had heard a minute noise and had

bolted from it in fright--what would she think of him? That he was mad,

of course.... Pshaw! The real truth of the matter was that he hadn't been

doing enough work to occupy him. He had been dreaming his days away,

filling his head with a lot of moonshine about a new _Romilly_ (as if the

old one was not good enough), and now he was surprised that the devil

should enter an empty head!

Yes, he would go back. He would take a walk in the air first--he hadn't

walked enough lately--and then he would take himself in hand, settle

the hash of that sixteenth chapter of _Romilly_ (fancy, he had actually

been fool enough to think of destroying fifteen chapters!) and

thenceforward he would remember that he had obligations to his fellow-men

and work to do in the world. There was the matter in a nutshell.

He finished his brandy and went out.

He had walked for some time before any other bearing of the matter than

that on himself occurred to him. At first, the fresh air had increased

the heady effect of the brandy he had drunk; but afterwards his mind grew

clearer than it had been since morning. And the clearer it grew, the less

final did his boastful self-assurances become, and the firmer his

conviction that, when all explanations had been made, there remained

something that could not be explained. His hysteria of an hour before had

passed; he grew steadily calmer; but the disquieting conviction remained.

A deep fear took possession of him. It was a fear for Elsie.

For something in his place was inimical to her safety. Of themselves, her

two accidents might not have persuaded him of this; but she herself had

said it. "_I'm not wanted here_..." And she had declared that there was

something wrong with the place. She had seen it before he had. Well and

good. One thing stood out clearly: namely, that if this was so, she must

be kept away for quite another reason than that which had so confounded

and humiliated Oleron. Luckily she had expressed her intention of staying

away; she must be held to that intention. He must see to it.

And he must see to it all the more that he now saw his first impulse,

never to set foot in the place again, was absurd. People did not do that

kind of thing. With Elsie made secure, he could not with any respect to

himself suffer himself to be turned out by a shadow, nor even by a danger

merely because it was a danger. He had to live somewhere, and he would

live there. He must return.

He mastered the faint chill of fear that came with the decision, and

turned in his walk abruptly. Should fear grow on him again he would,

perhaps, take one more glass of brandy....

But by the time he reached the short street that led to the square he was

too late for more brandy. The little public-house was still lighted, but

closed, and one or two men were standing talking on the kerb. Oleron

noticed that a sudden silence fell on them as he passed, and he noticed

further that the long-nosed Barrett, whom he passed a little lower down,

did not return his good-night. He turned in at the broken gate, hesitated

merely an instant in the alley, and then mounted his stairs again.

Only an inch of candle remained in the Sheffield stick, and Oleron did

not light another one. Deliberately he forced himself to take it up and

to make the tour of his five rooms before retiring. It was as he returned

from the kitchen across his little hall that he noticed that a letter lay

on the floor. He carried it into his sitting-room, and glanced at the

envelope before opening it.

It was unstamped, and had been put into the door by hand. Its handwriting

was clumsy, and it ran from beginning to end without comma or period.

Oleron read the first line, turned to the signature, and then finished

the letter.

It was from the man Barrett, and it informed Oleron that he, Barrett,

would be obliged if Mr. Oleron would make other arrangements for the

preparing of his breakfasts and the cleaning-out of his place. The sting

lay in the tail, that is to say, the postscript. This consisted of a text

of Scripture. It embodied an allusion that could only be to Elsie

Bengough....

A seldom-seen frown had cut deeply into Oleron's brow. So! That was it!

Very well; they would see about that on the morrow.... For the rest, this

seemed merely another reason why Elsie should keep away....

Then his suppressed rage broke out....

The foul-minded lot! The devil himself could not have given a leer at

anything that had ever passed between Paul Oleron and Elsie Bengough,

yet this nosing rascal must be prying and talking!...

Oleron crumpled the paper up, held it in the candle flame, and then

ground the ashes under his heel.

One useful purpose, however, the letter had served: it had created in

Oleron a wrathful blaze that effectually banished pale shadows.

Nevertheless, one other puzzling circumstance was to close the day. As he

undressed, he chanced to glance at his bed. The coverlets bore an impress

as if somebody had lain on them. Oleron could not remember that he

himself had lain down during the day--off-hand, he would have said that

certainly he had not; but after all he could not be positive. His

indignation for Elsie, acting possibly with the residue of the brandy in

him, excluded all other considerations; and he put out his candle, lay

down, and passed immediately into a deep and dreamless sleep, which, in

the absence of Mrs. Barrett's morning call, lasted almost once round the

clock.

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