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A RIGHTED WRONG.
A RIGHTED WRONG.
A Novel.
BY
EDMUND YATES,
AUTHOR OF
"BLACK SHEEP," "THE FORLORN HOPE," "BROKEN TO HARNESS," ETC.
IN THREE VOLUMES.
VOL. I.
LONDON:
TINSLEY BROTHERS, 18 CATHERINE ST., STRAND.
1870.
[_All rights reserved_.]
LONDON:
ROBSON AND SONS, PRINTERS, PANCRAS ROAD, N.W.
CONTENTS OF VOL. I.
CHAP.
I. Homeward bound.
II. Pages from the Past.
III. Discomfiture.
IV. The Ideal and the Real.
V. Chayleigh.
VI. Half-confidences.
VII. The old familiar Faces.
VIII. Mrs. Carteret is congratulated.
IX. What the Woman meant.
X. The Letter from Melbourne.
XI. Fools' Paradise.
XII. Dawning.
A RIGHTED WRONG.
CHAPTER I.
HOMEWARD BOUND.
"Good-bye, again; good-bye!"
"Good-bye, my dear; perhaps not for ever, though: I may make my way
back to the old country once more. You will tell my old friend I kept
my word to him:" and then the speaker kissed the woman to whom he
addressed these parting words tenderly, went quickly away, and was
hidden from her in a moment by all the bewildering confusion of "board
ship" at the hour of sailing.
He had not waited for words in reply to his farewell; she could not
have spoken them, and he knew it; and while she tried to make out his
figure among the groups upon the deck, formed of those who were about
to set forth upon the long perilous ocean voyage, and those who had
come to bid them good-bye, some with hearts full of agony, a few
careless and gay enough, a suffocating silence held her.
But when at length she saw him for one brief moment as he went over
the side to the boat waiting to take him to the shore so long familiar
to her, but already, under the wonderful action of change, seeming
strange and distant, the spell was lifted off her, and a deep gasping
sob burst from her lips.
A very little longer, and the boat, with its solitary passenger, was a
speck upon the water; and then she bowed her head, unconsciously, and
slightly waved her hand, and went below.
There was no one person in all the crowd upon the deck of the good
ship Boomerang sufficiently disengaged from his or her own cares to
take any notice of the little scene which had just passed--only one
amid a number in the great drama which is always being acted, and for
which a ship with its full complement of passengers, at the moment of
beginning a long voyage, is a capacious and fine theatre. Selfishness
and self-engrossment come out strongly in such a scene, and are as
excusable under such circumstances as they ever can be.
She was quite alone in the little world of the ship; in the great
world of England, to which she was going, she might find herself alone
too, for who could say what tidings might await her there? in the
inner world of her heart she was still more surely and utterly alone.
In the slight shiver, in the forlorn glance around, which had
accompanied her gesture of farewell to the man who had escorted her on
board, there was something expressive of a suddenly deepened sense of
this solitude.
In the cabin, which she shared with her maid only, she found this sole
and newly-selected companion making such preparation as she could for
the comfort of her mistress. The girl's face was kind and pleasant and
handsome; but the sight of it did not lessen the sense of her solitude
to Margaret Hungerford, for the kind and handsome face was also
strange.
Rose Moore, whom she had engaged to act as her servant during the
voyage, was an orphan girl, who wished to return to Ireland to her
"friends," as the Irish people, with striking inaccuracy of speech and
touching credulity, designate their relatives.
When Margaret Hungerford had lain down upon the little crib, which was
to serve her for a bed during a period which would sound appalling in
duration in the ears of a world so much accelerated in everything as
our world of to-day is, she thought of Rose Moore, and of the
difference between her own position and that of the girl who was to be
her companion.
"She is going home to friends," she thought, "to a warm welcome, to a
kindly fireside, and she is bringing money with her to gild the
welcome, to gladden the hearth; while I--I am returning alone--O, how
utterly alone!--and destitute--ah, how destitute!--I, to whom not even
the past is left; I, who do not possess even the right to grieve; I,
to whom life has been only a mistake, only a delusion. I am returning
to a home in which I was regarded rather as a trouble than anything
else in my childhood, and which I was held to have disgraced in my
girlhood. Returning to it, to feel that the judgment I set aside, the
wisdom I derided, was right judgment and true wisdom, and that the
best I can hope is to keep them from ever finding out how terribly
right they were. The only real friend I now possess I am leaving
behind me here; and I am glad it is so, because he knows all the
truth. Surely no one in the world can be more lonely than I."
Margaret Hungerford lay quietly in her narrow bed, while the ship
resounded with all the indescribable and excruciating noises which
form a portion of the tortures of a sea-voyage.
She did not suffer from them, nor from the motion. She was tired, too
tired in body and mind to care about discomfort, and she did not
dislike the sea. So she lay still, while Rose Moore moved about in the
little space allotted to the two, and which she regarded as a den
rather than a "state-room," looking now and then curiously at her
mistress, whom she had not had much previous opportunity of observing.
The girl looked at a face which was not less remarkable for its beauty
than for its expression of weariness and sorrow, at a figure not more
noticeable for its grace and suppleness than for the languor and
listlessness which every movement betrayed.
Margaret Hungerford was tall, but not so tall as to be remarked for
her height; and her figure, rounded and lithe, had still much of the
slightness of girlhood remaining. Her face was not perfect; the
forehead was too high and too heavy for ideal beauty; there was not
enough colour in the clear pale cheek; there was not enough richness
in the outline of the delicate mouth. Her face was one in which
intellect ruled, and thus its beauty served a master which is pitiless
in its exactions, and wears out the softness and the fineness and the
tinting in a service which is not gentle.
But it was a beautiful face for all that, more than beautiful for
those who looked beyond the deep dark colouring of the large gray
eyes, deep-set under the finely-marked brows; who looked for the
spirit in their light, for the calm and courage which lent them the
limpid placid beaming which was their ordinary characteristic. It was
not a perfect face; but it had that which very few perfect faces
possess--the capacity for expressing feeling, intelligence, the nobler
passions, and utter forgetfulness of self.
To look at Margaret Hungerford was to feel that, however faulty her
character might be, it at least was noble, and to know that vanity had
no share in an organisation which had no place for anything small,
whether good or evil. It was a magnanimous resolute face--not strong,
in any sense implying roughness, hardness, or self-assertion, but
evincing a large capacity of loving and working and suffering.
And she had loved and worked and suffered. The bloom that was wanting
to her pure fair cheek, which touched too faintly and grudgingly her
small, well-curved, but ascetic lips, had vanished from her heart as
well; the slight white fingers, too thin for beauty,--though the
hands, clasped over her breast as she lay still with closed eyes, were
curiously small and perfectly shaped,--had been unsparingly used in
many and various kinds of toil in the new land, which had been wild
and rough indeed when she had come there.
The girl looked at her admiringly, and with a sort of pity, for which
she had no reason to give to herself except that her mistress was a
widow. Explanation enough, she would have said, and naturally; and
still, there was something in the face which Rose Moore felt, in her
untaught, instinctive, but very acute fashion, had been there longer
than three months, which was the exact period since Mrs. Hungerford's
husband had died.
Who was she going to? she thought; and did she like going home? and
what was she leaving behind? Not her husband's grave, the girl knew,
and felt the knowledge as an Irish peasant would feel it. No, she had
not even that consolation; for her husband, who had been a member of
one of the earliest-formed exploring parties who had undertaken to
investigate the capacities of the unknown new continent, had been
killed in the Australian bush. It was better not to think what the
fate of his remains had been, better that it was not known.
What, then, was this pale young widow, who looked as though her sorrow
far antedated her weeds, leaving behind her? Rose Moore was not
destined to know. What was she going to? the girl wondered. In the
short time she had been with her, Mrs. Hungerford's kindness had been
accompanied with strict reserve, and Rose had learned no more than
that she was returning, probably, to her father's home; but of even
that she was not certain.
Thus the "lone woman" seemed pitiable to the gay and handsome Irish
girl, and the thought of it interfered with her visions of "home," and
her exultation in the money she had to take thither, and the love she
was going to find.
Pitiable indeed she was.
As the long low banks of Port Phillip faded from the sight of the
passengers on board the "homeward bound," not a heart among the number
but yearned with some keen and strong regret, too keen and strong to
be overborne by the gladness of hope and the relief of having really
begun the long voyage. Not a heart, not even that of Margaret
Hungerford; for she had looked her last on the land where she had left
her youth, and all its dreams and hopes; where love had died for her,
and truth had failed; where she had been rudely awakened, and had
never again found rest.
At such a time, at such a crisis in life, retrospection is inevitable,
however undesirable; however painful and vain, it must be submitted
to. The mind insists on passing the newly-expired epoch in review; in
repeating, in the full and painful candour of its reverie, all the
story so far told; in returning to the old illusions, and exposing
their baselessness; in summoning up the defeated hopes, which, gauged
by the measure of disappointment, appear so unreasonable--weighed in
the balance of experience, seem so absurd.
Can I ever have been such a fool as to have believed that life held
such possibilities? is the question we all ask at such times; and the
self-contempt which inspires it is only as real, and no more, as the
pain which no scorn or wonder can decrease.
So, like one performing an enforced task, with what patience it is
possible to command, but wearily, and longing for the end, and for
release, Margaret Hungerford, during the early days of the long voyage
from Australia to England, gazed into her past life as into a mirror,
and it gave her back a succession of images, of which the chief were
these which follow.