CHAPTER VIII.

THE GARDEN.

"Take a cigar, Helen?" said George.

"No, thank you," answered Helen; "I like it diluted."

"I don't see why ladies should not have things strong as men."

"Not if they don't want them. You can't enjoy everything--I mean,

one can't have the strong and the delicate both at once. I don't

believe a smoker can have the same pleasure in smelling a rose that

I have."

"Isn't it a pity we never can compare sensations?"

"I don't think it matters much: everyone would have to keep to his

own after all."

"That's good, Helen! If ever man try to humbug you, he will find he

has lost his stirrups. If only there were enough like you left in

this miserable old hulk of a creation!"

It was an odd thing that when in the humour of finding fault,

Bascombe would not unfrequently speak of the cosmos as a creation.

He was himself unaware of the curious fact.

"You seem to have a standing quarrel with the creation, George! Yet

one might think you had as little ground as most people to complain

of your portion in it," said Helen.

"Well, you know, I don't complain for myself. I don't pretend to

think I am specially ill-used. But I am not everybody. And then

there's such a lot of born-fools in it!"

"If they are born-fools they can't help it."

"That may be; only it makes it none the pleasanter for other people;

but, unfortunately, they are not the only or the worst sort of

fools. For one born-fool there are a thousand wilful ones. For one

man that will honestly face an honest argument, there are ten

thousand that will dishonestly shirk it. There's that curate-fellow

now--Wingfold I think aunt called him--look at him now!"

"I can't see much in him to rouse indignation," said Helen. "He

seems a very inoffensive man."

"I don't call it inoffensive when a man sells himself to the keeping

up of a system that----"

Here Bascombe checked himself, remembering that a sudden attack upon

what was, at least, the more was the pity, a time-honoured system,

might rouse a woman's prejudices; and as Helen had already listened

to a large amount of undermining remark without perceiving the

direction of his tunnels, he resolved, before venturing an open

assault, to make sure that those prejudices stood, lightly borne,

over an abyss of seething objection. He had had his experiences as

the prophet-pioneer of glad tidings to the nations, and had before

now, although such weakness he could not anticipate in Helen, seen

one whom he considered a most promising pupil, turned suddenly away

in a storm of terror and disgust.

"What a folly is it now," he instantly resumed, leaving the general

and attacking a particular, "to think to make people good by

promises and threats--promises of a heaven that would bore the

dullest among them to death, and threats of a hell the very idea of

which, if only half conceived, would be enough to paralyse every

nerve of healthy action in the human system!"

"All nations have believed in a future state, either of reward or

punishment," objected Helen.

"Mere Brocken-spectres of their own approbation or disapprobation of

themselves. And whither has it brought the race?"

"What then would you substitute for it, George?"

"Why substitute anything? Ought not men be good to one another

because they are made up of ones and others? Do you or I need

threats and promises to make us kind? And what right have we to

judge others worse than ourselves? Mutual compassion," he went on,

blowing out a mouthful of smoke and then swelling his big chest with

a huge lungsful of air, "might be sufficient to teach poor

ephemerals kindness and consideration enough to last their time."

"But how would you bring such reflections to bear?" asked Helen,

pertinently.

"I would reason thus: You must consider that you are but a part of

the whole, and that whatever you do to hurt the whole, or injure any

of its parts, will return upon you who form one of those parts."

"How would that influence the man whose favourite amusement is to

beat his wife!"

"Not at all, I grant you. But that man is what he is from being born

and bred under a false and brutal system. Having deluged his

delicate brain with the poisonous fumes of adulterated liquor, and

so roused all the terrors of a phantom-haunted imagination, he sees

hostile powers above watching for his fall, and fiery ruin beneath

gaping to receive him, and in pure despair acts like the madman the

priests and the publicans have made him. Helen," continued Bascombe

with solemnity, regarding her fixedly, "to deliver the race from the

horrors of such falsehoods, which by no means operate only on the

vulgar and brutal, for to how many of the most refined and delicate of

human beings are not their lives rendered bitter by the evil suggestions

of lying systems--I care not what they are called--philosophy,

religion, society, I care not?--to deliver men, I say, from such

ghouls of the human brain, were indeed to have lived! and in the

consciousness of having spent his life in the slaying of such dragons,

a man may well go from the nameless past into the nameless future

rejoicing, careless even if his poor length of days be shortened by

his labours to leave blessing behind him, and, full of courage even

in the moment of final dissolution, cast her mockery back into the

face of mocking Life, and die her enemy, and the friend of Death!"

George's language was a little confused. Perhaps he mingled his

ideas a little for Helen's sake--or rather for obscurity's sake.

Anyhow, the mournful touch in it was not his own, but taken from the

poems of certain persons whose opinions resembled his, but floated

on the surface of mighty and sad hearts. Tall, stately, comfortable

Helen walked composedly by his side, softly shared his cigar, and

thought what a splendid pleader he would make. Perhaps to her it

sounded rather finer than it was, for its tone of unselfishness, the

aroma of self-devotion that floated about it, pleased and attracted

her. Was not here a youth in the prime of being and the dawn of

success, handsome, and smoking the oldest of Havannahs, who, so far

from being enamoured of his own existence, was anxious and careful

about that of less favoured mortals, for whose welfare indeed he was

willing to sacrifice his life?--nothing less could be what he meant.

And how fine he looked as he said it, with his head erect, and his

nostrils quivering like those of a horse! For his honesty, that was

self-evident!

Perhaps, had she been capable of looking into it, the self-evident

honesty might have resolved itself into this--that he thoroughly

believed in himself; that he meant what he said; and that he offered

her nothing he did not prize and cleave to as his own.

To one who had read Darwin, and had chanced to see them as they

walked in their steady, stately young life among the ancient cedars

and clipped yews of the garden, with the rags and tatters of the

ruined summer hanging over and around them, they must have looked as

fine an instance of natural selection as the world had to show. And

now in truth for the first time, with any shadow of purpose, that

is, did the thought of Helen as a wife occur to Bascombe. She

listened so well, was so ready to take what he presented to her, was

evidently so willing to become a pupil, that he began to say to

himself that here was the very woman made--no, not made, that

implied a maker--but for him, without the MADE; that is, if ever he

should bring himself by marriage to limit the freedom to which man,

the crown of the world, the blossom of nature, the cauliflower of

the spine, was predestined or doomed, without will in himself or

beyond himself, from an eternity of unthinking matter, ever

producing what was better than itself in the prolific darkness of

non-intent.

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