AN EXPLANATION--DEPARTURE--DISAPPOINTMENT.
I was so elated with the unexpected result of my meeting with Dinah
North, that it was not until I missed the fairy figure of my sweet
cousin at the supper-table, that my mind reverted to the conversation
that had passed between us in the Park.
"Where is Miss Moncton?" I asked of Sir Alexander, in a tone and
manner which would have betrayed the agitation I felt, to a stranger.
"She is not well, Geoffrey, has a bad headache, or is nervous, I
forget which, and begged to be excused joining us to-night. These
little female complaints are never dangerous, so don't look alarmed.
My girl is no philosopher, and this double parting affects her
spirits. She will be all right again when you come back."
I sighed involuntarily. The provoking old man burst into a hearty
laugh.
"I am likely to have a dull companion to-night, Geoffrey. Hang it!
boy, don't look so dismal. Do you think that you are the only man who
ever was in love? I was a young man once. Ay, and a fine young man
too, or the world and the ladies told great stories, but I never could
enact the part of a sentimental lover. Fill your glass and drive away
care. Success to your journey. Our journeys, I might have said--and a
happy meeting with little Madge."
I longed to tell Sir Alexander the truth, and repeat to him my
conversation with his daughter. But I could not bear to mortify his
pride, for I could not fail to perceive that he contemplated a union
between us with pleasure, and was doing his best to encourage me to
make a declaration of my attachment to Margaret.
I was placed in a most unfortunate predicament, and in order to drown
my own miserable feelings, I drank more wine than usual, and gaining
an artificial flow of spirits, amused my generous patron with a number
of facetious stories and anecdotes, until the night was far advanced,
and we both retired to rest.
My brain was too much heated with the wine I had drank to sleep, and
after making several ineffectual efforts, I rose from my
bed--relighted my candle, and dressing myself, sat down to my desk,
and wrote a long letter to Margaretta, in which I informed her of my
first meeting with Catherine Lee; the interest which her beauty had
created in my heart--the romantic attachment I had formed for her, and
which, hopeless as it was, I could not wholly overcome. I assured
Margaretta, that I felt for herself, the greatest affection and
esteem--that but for the remembrance of the first passion, the idea
that she loved me would have made me the happiest of men. That if she
would accept the heart I had to offer, divided as I felt it was with
another, and my legitimacy could be established, my whole life should
be devoted to her alone.
I ended this long candid confession, by relating verbatim my interview
with Dinah North, and begged, if possible, that I might exchange a few
words with her before leaving the Hall.
I felt greatly relieved by thus unburdening my mind. I had told the
honest truth, without fear and without disguise; and I knew that she,
who was the mirror of truth, would value my sincerity as it deserved.
The sun was scarcely up when I dispatched my letter, and before the
early breakfast, that had been ordered previous to our departure, was
ready, I received the following answer--
"My dear Cousin Geoffrey,
"Your invaluable letter has greatly raised you in my esteem; I
cannot sufficiently admire the conscientious scruples which
dictated it--and though we cannot meet as lovers, after the candid
revelation you have confided to me, we may still remain, what all
near relatives ought to be, firm and faithful friends.
"To you I can attach no blame whatever, and I feel proud that my
affections, though fixed upon an object beyond their reach, were
bestowed upon one so every way worthy of them.
"Let us therefore forget our private sorrows, and drown unavailing
regrets in doing all we can to serve Philip and his sister.
Farewell--with sincere prayers for the successful issue of your
journey, believe me, now and ever, your faithful and loving
friend,
"Margaretta."
"What a noble creature she is," said I, as I pressed the letter to my
lips; "I am indeed unworthy of such a treasure."
Yet I felt happy at that moment; happy that she knew all--that I had
not deceived her, but had performed an act of painful duty, though by
so doing I had perhaps destroyed the brilliancy of my future prospects
in life.
With mingled feelings of gratitude and pleasure I met my dear cousin
at the breakfast-table. Her countenance, although paler than usual,
wore a tranquil and even cheerful expression.
"Why, Madge, my darling," cried the Baronet, kissing her pale cheek,
"you are determined to see the last of us: is your early rising in
honour of Geoffrey or me?"
"Of both," she said, with her sweetest smile. "I never employ a proxy
to bid farewell to my friends."
Several efforts were made at conversation during the meal, which
proved eminently unsuccessful. The hour of parting came. The Baronet
was safely stowed away into his carriage; the noble horses plunged
forward, and the glittering equipage was soon lost among the trees. I
lingered a moment behind.
"Dear Margaret, we part friends."
"The best of friends."
"God bless you! dearest and noblest of women," said I, faintly; for my
lips quivered with emotion; I could scarcely articulate a word; "you
have removed a load of anxiety from my heart. To have lost your
friendship would have been a severer trial to me, than the loss of
name or fortune."
"I believe you, Geoffrey. But never allude again to this painful
subject, if you value my health and peace. We understand each other.
If God wills it so, we may both be happy, though the attainment of it
may not exactly coincide with our present wishes. Adieu! dear cousin.
You have my heart-felt prayers for your success."
She raised her tearful eyes to mine. The next moment she was in my
arms, pressed closely against my breast--a stifled sob--one kiss--one
long lingering embrace--a heavy melancholy deep-drawn sigh, and she
was gone.
I mounted my horse and rode quickly forward; my thoughts so occupied
with Margaretta and that sad parting, that I nearly forgot the
promised interview with Dinah North, until my proximity to the lodge
brought it vividly to my remembrance.
Fastening my horse to the rustic railing which fronted the cottage, I
crossed the pretty little flower-garden, and knocked rather
impatiently at the door. My summons, though given in loud and
authoritative tones, remained unanswered.
Again and again I applied my hand to the rusty iron knocker; it awoke
no response from the tenant of the house. "She must be dead or out,"
said I, losing all patience; "I will stay here no longer," and lifting
the latch, I very unceremoniously entered the cottage. All was silent
within. The embers on the hearth were dead, and the culinary vessels
were scattered over the floor. The white muslin curtains which shaded
the rose-bound windows were undrawn. The door which led into the
bedroom was open, the bed made and the room untenanted. It was evident
that the old woman was not there. I called aloud:
"Dinah, Dinah North! Is any one within?"
No answer.
I proceeded to explore the rest of the dwelling. In the front room or
parlour, the contents of a small chest of drawers had been emptied out
on the floor, and some few articles of little value were strewn about.
It was an evident fact, that the bird had flown; and all my
high-raised expectations resolved themselves into air.
Whilst cursing the crafty old woman bitterly in my heart, my eye
glanced upon a slip of paper lying upon a side table. I hastily
snatched it up and read the following words traced in a bold hand:
"Geoffrey Moncton, when next we meet, your secret and mine will be
of equal value.
"Dinah North."
I was bitterly disappointed, and crushing the paper in my hand, I
flung it as far from me as I could.
"Curse the old fiend! We shall yet meet. I will trace her to the
utmost bounds of earth to bring her to justice."
I left the house in a terrible ill-humour, and remounting my horse,
pursued my journey, to Derbyshire.
It was late on the evening of the second day, when I reached the
little village over which my grandfather Rivers had exercised the
pastoral office for nearly fifty years. The good man had been gathered
to his fathers a few months before I was born. It was not without
feeling a considerable degree of interest that I rode past the humble
church, surrounded by its lofty screen of elms, and glanced at the
greensward beneath whose daisy-sprinkled carpet, the
"Rude forefathers of the village slept."
The rain had fallen softly but perseveringly the whole day, and I was
wet, hungry and tired. I hailed therefore the neat little inn, with
its gay sign-board, white-washed walls and green window-blinds, as the
most welcome and picturesque object which had met my sight for the
last three hours.
"Stay all night, sir?" said the brisk lad, from whose helmet-like
leathern cap the water trickled in the most obtrusively impertinent
manner over his rosy, freckled face, as he ran forward to hold my
horse. "Good accommodation for man and beast--capital beds, sir."
"Yes, yes," I replied, somewhat impatiently, as I threw him the reins
and entered the brick passage of the inn. "Where is the master of the
house?"
"No master, sir," returned the officious lad, following me. "The
master be a missus, sir. Here she come."
"What's your pleasure?" said a very pretty woman, about thirty years
of age, advancing from an inner room. She was dressed in widow's
weeds, which became her very fair face amazingly, and led by the hand
a rosy, curly-headed urchin, whose claims to general admiration were
by no means contemptible. The mother and her lovely boy would have
made a charming picture; and I forgot, while contemplating the
originals, that I was wet and hungry.
With the quickness of her sex, Mrs. Archer perceived that she had made
a favourable impression on her new guest. And putting back the
luxuriant curls from the white brow of her boy, she remarked, with a
sigh:
"He's young to be an orphan--poor child!"
"He is, indeed," I replied, kissing the little fellow, as I spoke;
"and his mother far too young and pretty to remain long a widow."
"La! sir; you don't say so," said Mrs. Archer, smiling and blushing
most becomingly. "And you standing all this while in the drafty, cold
passage in your wet clothes. You can have a private room and a fire,
sir."
"And a good supper, I hope," said I, laughing. "I have ridden fifty
miles to-day, and I feel desperately hungry."
"You shall have the best the house affords. Pray, walk this way."
I followed my conductress into a neat little room. A fat country girl
was on her knees before the grate striving to kindle the fire; but the
wood was wet, and in spite of the girl's exertions, who was supplying
with her mouth the want of a pair of bellows, the fire refused to
burn.
"It's of no manner of use: no it isn't," said the girl. "I may blow
till I bust, an' it won't kindle."
"Try again, Betty," said her mistress, encouragingly. "You were always
a first-rate hand at raising the fire."
"But the wood warn't wet," returned the fat girl, discontentedly. "I
can't make it burn when it won't."
And getting up from her fat knees she retreated, scowling alternately
at me and the refractory fire.
The room looked cold and comfortless. The heavy rain dashed drearily
against the narrow window-panes; and I inquired if I could not dry my
wet clothes and eat my supper by the kitchen-fire.
"Oh! yes. If such a gentleman as you will condescend to enter my
humble kitchen," was the reply.
I did condescend--heaven only knows how gladly; and soon found myself
comfortably seated before an excellent fire, in company with a stout,
red-faced, jolly old farmer, and a thin, weazel-faced, undersized
individual, dressed in a threadbare suit of pepper and salt, who kept
his hat on, and wore it on one side with a knowing swagger, talked
big, and gave himself a thousand consequential airs.
This person I discovered to be the barber, and great politician of the
village; who talked continually of King George and the royal family;
of the king's ministers; the war in Rooshia, the burning of Moscow,
and the destruction of that monster Bonyparty.
The farmer, who was no scholar, and looked upon him of the strop and
razor as a perfect oracle, was treating him to a pot of ale, for the
sake of the news; the barber paying twopence a week for the sight of a
second-hand newspaper.
Mrs. Archer went softly up to the maker of perukes, and whispered
something in his ear. He answered with a knowing nod, and without
moving, stared me full in the face.
"Not an inch will I budge, Mrs. Archer. One man's money is as good as
another man's money. No offence to the gemman, 'A man's a man for a'
that.' That's what I call real independence, neighbour Bullock."
And his long, lean fingers descended upon the fat knee of the farmer
with a whack that rang through the kitchen.
"Deuce take you! Sheldrake. I wish you'd just show it in some other
way," said the farmer, rubbing his knee. "Why, man, your fingers are
as long and as lean as a crow's claws, and as hard as your own block,
and sting like whip-cord. One would think that you had dabbled long
enough in oil and pomatum, and such like messes, to make them as white
as a lady's hand, and as soft as your own head."
"They have been made tough by handling such hard numskulls as yours,
neighbour Bullock. That chin of yours, with its three days' growth of
bristles, would be a fortune to a bricklayer, whilst it spoils my best
razors, and never puts a penny into the pocket of the poor operator."
"_Operator!_" repeated the farmer, with a broad, quizzical grin, "is
that your new-fangled name for a shaver? It's a pity you didn't put it
on the board with the farrago of nonsense, by which you hope to
attract the attention of all the fool bodies in the town."
"Don't speak disrespectfully of my sign, sir," quoth the little
barber, waxing wroth. "My sign is an excellent sign--the admiration of
the whole village; and let me tell you that it is not in _spite_ and
_envy_ to put it down, let spite and envy try as hard as they can. The
genius which suggested that sign is not destined to go unrewarded."
"Ha! ha! ha,!" roared the chewer of bacon.
"Mrs. Archer," said the offended shaver, turning to the pretty widow
with an air of wounded dignity truly comic, "did you ever before hear
a Bullock laugh like a hog?"
"Dang it! man, such conceit would make a cow caper a horn-pipe, or a
Shelled Drake crow like a cock."
"I beg you, _Mister_ Bullock, to take no liberties with my name,
especially in the presence of the fair sex," bowing gracefully to Mrs.
Archer, who was leaning upon the back of my chair, half suffocated
with suppressed laughter.
"What are you quarrelling about, Sheldrake?" said the good-natured
widow. "Bullock, can't you let his sign alone? It is something new, I
hear--something in praise of the ladies."
"I was always devoted to the ladies," said the barber, "having
expended the best years of my life in their service."
"Well, well, if so be that you call that powetry over your door a
compliment to the women-folk, I'll be shot!" said the farmer. "Now,
sir," turning to me, "you are a stranger, and therefore unprejudiced;
you shall be judge. Come, barber, repeat your verses, and hear what
the gemman says of them."
"With all my heart;" and flinging his shoulders back and stretching
forth his right arm, the barber repeated, in a loud theatrical tone--
"I, William, Sheldrake, shave for a penny,
Ladies and gentlemen--there can't come too many--
With heads and beards--I meant to say
Those who've got none may keep away."
A hearty burst of laughter from us all greatly disconcerted the
barber, who looked as ruefully at us as a stuck pig.
"You hairy monster!" quoth Mrs. Archer, "what do you mean by shaving
the ladies? You deserve to be ducked to death in a tub of dirty suds.
Beards, forsooth!" and she patted, with evident complacency, her
round, white, dimpled chin; "who ever saw a woman with a beard? Did
you take us all for Lapland witches? I wonder what our pretty young
lady up at Elm Grove would say to your absurd verses."
"That is no secret to me, Mrs. Archer. I do know what she thinks of
it. Miss Lee is a young lady of taste, and knows how to appreciate
fine poetry, which is more than some folks, not a hundred miles off,
does. She rode past my shop yesterday on horseback, and I saw her
point to my sign with her riding-whip, and heard her say to the London
chap that is allers with her, 'Is not that _capital_?'
"And he says, '_Capital!_ If that does not draw custom to the shop,
nothing will.' So now, neighbour Bullock, you may just leave off
sneering at my sign."
"I did not think Miss Lee had been such a fool," said Bullock, "but
there's no accounting for taste."
"Who is the gentleman that is staying at the Elms just now?" asked
Mrs. Archer. "Do you know his name?"
"I've heard," said Suds, "but really I quite forget. It either begins
with an M or an N."
"That's a wide landmark to sail by, Sheldrake. You might as well have
added a P or a Q."
"Stop," said the barber, "I can give you a clue to it. Do you
remember, Bullock, the name of the fine sporting gemman who ran off
with Parson Rivers's daughter? I was a boy then, serving my time with
Sam Strap."
I started from the contemplation of the fine well-grilled beef-steak
which Mrs. Archer was dishing for my especial benefit.
"Well," said Sheldrake, "he is either a son or a nefy of his, and has
the same name."
"The deuce he is! That was Moncton, if I mistake not. Yes, yes,
Moncton was the name. I well remember it, for it was the means of our
losing our good old pastor."
"How was that?" said I, trying to look indifferent.
"Why, sir, do you see. Mr. Rivers had been many years in the parish.
He married my father and mother, and baptized me, when a babby. He did
more than that. He married me to my old woman, when I was a man--but
that was the worse job he ever done. Well, sir, as I was telling you.
He was a good man and a Christian; but he had one little weakness. We
have all our faults, sir. He loved his pretty daughter too well: wise
men will sometimes play the fool, and 'tis a bad thing to make too
much of woman-kind. Like servants they grow saucy upon it. They always
gets the advantage, any how; and our old parson did pet and spoil Miss
Ellen to her heart's content. There was some excuse too for him, for
he was an old man and a widower. He had lost his wife and a large
family. Parsons always have large families. My wife do say, that 'tis
because they have nothing else to do. But I'se very sure, that I
should find preaching and sermon-work hard enough."
"Lord! man, what a roundabout way you have of telling a story," cried
Suds, who was impatient to hear his own voice again. "Get on a little
quicker. Don't you see, the gemman's steak is a-getting cold--and he
can't eat and listen to you at the same time, an art I learnt long
ago."
"Mind your own business, Sheldrake," said the farmer: "I never trouble
my head with the nonsense which is always frothing out of your mouth."
"Well, sir," turning again to me, "as I was saying; his wife and
family had all died in the consumption, which made him so afraid of
losing Miss Ellen, that he denied her nothing; and truly, she was as
pretty a piece of God's workmanship as ever you saw--and very
sweet-tempered and gentle, which beauties seldom are. I had the
misfortune to marry a pretty woman, and I knows it to my cost. But I
need not trouble you with my missus. It's bad enough to be troubled
with her myself. So, sir, as I was telling you, there came a mighty
fine gentleman down from London, to stay at the Elm Grove, with my old
landlord Squire Lee, who's dead and gone. This Squire Lee was the son
of old-Squire Lee."
"I dare say, Bullock, the gemman does not care a farthing whose son he
was," cried the impatient barber. "You are so fond of genealogies,
that it's a pity you don't begin with the last squire, and end with,
'which was the son of Seth, which was the son of Adam,' &c."
These interruptions were very annoying, as I was on the tenter-hooks
to get out of the mountain of flesh, the head and tail of the story he
found such difficulty in bringing forth.
"Pray go on with your story, friend," said I, very demurely, for fear
of hurrying him into becoming more discursive, "I feel quite
interested."
"Well, sir, this young man came to stay at the Grove, during the
shooting-season; and he sees Miss Ellen at church, and falls
desperately in love with her. This was all very natural. I was a
youngster myself once, and a smart active chap, although I be clumsy
enough now, and I remember feeling rather queerish, whenever I cast a
sheep's eye into the parson's pew."
"But the young lady and her lover?" for I perceived that he was
trotting off at full gallop in another direction, "how did they come
on?"
"Oh, ay! As young folk generally do in such cases. From exchanging
looks, they came to exchanging letters and then words. Stolen meetings
and presents of hearts cut out of turnips, with a skewer put through
them, to show the desperation of the case. That was the way at least
that I went a courting my Martha, and it took amazingly."
"Hang you, and your Martha!" thought I, as I turned helplessly to the
beef-steak, but I felt too much excited to do it the least justice.
After deliberately knocking the ashes from his pipe, and taking a long
draught of ale from the pewter-pot beside him, the old farmer went on
of his own accord.
"I s'pose the young man told Miss Ellen that he could not live without
her. We all tell 'em so, but we never dies a bit the sooner, for all
that; and the pretty Miss told him to speak to her father, and he did
speak, and to his surprise, old parson did not like it at all, and did
not give him a very civil answer; and turned the young chap out of the
house. He said that he did not approve of sporting characters for
sons-in-law, and Miss Ellen should never get his consent to marry him.
But as I told you before, sir, the women-folk will have their own way,
especially when there is a sweet-heart or a new bonnet in the case;
and the young lady gave him her own consent, and they took French
leave and went off without saying a word to nobody. Next morning old
parson was running about the village, asking everybody if they had
seen his child, the tears running over his thin face, and he raving
like a man out of his head."
"And were the young people ever married?" and in spite of myself I
felt the colour flush my face to crimson.
"I never heard to the contrary. But it was not right to vex the poor
old man: he took it so to heart, that it quite broke his spirit, and
he lived but a very few months after she left him. His death was a
great loss to the neighbourhood. We never had a parson that could hold
a candle to him since. He was a father to the poor, and it was a
thousand pities to see the good old man pining and drooping from day
to day, and fretting himself after the spoilt gal who forsook him in
his old age."
"You are too hard upon the young lady," said Suds: "it was but human
nature after all, and small blame in her to prefer a young husband to
an old snuffy superannuated parson."
"Did she ever return to ----?"
"She came to see her father in his dying illness, but too late to
receive his forgiveness, for he died while her step was on the stairs.
His last words--'Thank God, Ellen is come, I shall see her before I
die.' But he did not, for he expired directly the words were out of
his mouth. She and her husband followed the old man to his grave, and
barring her grief, I never saw a handsomer couple."
"Do you know," said I, hesitatingly, "the church in which they were
married?"
"I never heard, sir, not feeling curious to ask, as it did not concern
me, but Mrs. Hepburn up at the Grove knows: she was Miss Lee then, and
she and old parson's daughter went to school together, and were fast
friends."
"Thank you," I replied carelessly, drawing my chair from the table,
"you have satisfied my curiosity."
Though outwardly calm my heart was beating violently. Could it be true
that I was in the immediate vicinity of Catherine and her aunt, and
that the latter might be acquainted with the facts so important for me
to procure?
The hopes and fears which this conversation had produced had the
effect of destroying my appetite. It was in vain that the pretty widow
tempted me with a number of delicacies in the shape of sweet home-made
bread, delicious fresh butter, and humming ale, the power of mental
excitement overpowered the mere gratification of the senses.
Before I retired for the night, I observed my loquacious companions
doing ample justice to the savoury supper, from which I had risen with
indifference.
I sought the solitude of my chamber, undressed, and flung myself into
bed. To sleep was out of the question. Catherine Lee, Margaretta
Moncton and my dear mother floated in a continual whirl through my
heated brain. My mind was a perfect chaos of confused images and
thoughts; nor could I reflect calmly on one subject for two minutes
together. My head ached, my heart beat tumultuously, and in order to
allay this feverish mental irritation, I took a large dose of
laudanum, which produced the desired effect of lulling me into
profound forgetfulness.
The day was far advanced when I shook off this heavy unwholesome
slumber, but on endeavouring to rise, I felt so stupid and giddy, that
I was fain to take a cup of coffee in bed. A table-spoonful of
lime-juice administered by the white hand of Mrs. Archer, counteracted
the unpleasant effects of the opiate.