MY VISIT TO MONCTON PARK.
It was a fine, warm, balmy evening in May--green delicious May. With
what delight I gazed abroad upon the face of Nature. Every scene was
new to me, and awakened feelings of curiosity and pleasure.
Just out of a sick-bed, and after having been confined for weeks in a
dusky, badly-ventilated and meanly-furnished garret, my heart actually
bounded with rapture, and, I drank in health and hope from the fresh
breeze which swept the hair from my pale brow and hollow cheeks.
Ah, glorious Nature! beautiful, purest of all that is pure and holy!
Thou visible perfection of the invisible God. I was young then, and
now am old, but never did I find a genuine love of thee, dwelling in
the heart of a deceitful, wicked man. To love thee, we must adore the
God who made thee; and however sin may defile what originally He
pronounced good, when we return with child-like simplicity to thy
breast, we find the happiness and peace which a loving parent can
alone bestow.
Nothing remarkable occurred during my journey. The coach in due time
deposited me at the gates of the Lodge, in which my poor friend
Harrison had first seen the light. An involuntary shudder ran through
me, when I recognized old Dinah North, standing within the porch of
the cottage.
She instantly knew me, and drew back with a malignant scowl.
Directing the coachman to leave my portmanteau at the village inn
until called for, I turned up the broad avenue of oaks that led to the
Hall.
The evening was calm and lovely. The nightingale was pouring his first
love-song to the silent dewy groves. The perfume of the primrose and
violet made every swelling knoll redolent of sweets. I paused often,
during my walk, to admire the beauty of a scene so new to me. Those
noble hills and vales; that bright-sweeping river; those towering
woods, just bursting into verdure, and that princely mansion, rising
proudly into the blue air--all would be mine, could I but vindicate my
mother's honour, and prove to the world that I was the offspring of
lawful wedlock.
I felt no doubt myself upon the subject. Truth may be obscured for a
while, but cannot long remain hid. The innate consciousness of my
mother's moral rectitude never for a moment left my mind--a proud
conviction of her innocence, which, I was certain, time would make
clear.
Full of these reflections, I approached the Hall. It was an
old-fashioned building, which had been created during the wars of York
and Lancaster, now venerable with the elemental war of ages, and might
in its day have stood the shock of battle and siege. It was a fine old
place, and associated as it was with the history of the past sent a
thrill of almost superstitious awe through my heart.
For upwards of three hundred years it had been the birth-place of my
family. Here they had lived and flourished as Lords of the soil; here,
too, most of them had died, and been gathered into one common
burial-place, in the vault of the picturesque gothic church, which
stood embosomed in trees not far from the old feudal mansion.
And I, the rightful heir of the demesne, with a soul as large,--with
heart and hand equal to do and dare, all that they in their day and
generation had accomplished--approached the old home, poor and
friendless, with a stigma upon the good name, which legally I might
never be able to efface.
But, courage, Geoffrey Moncton! He who first added the appendage of
Sir to that name, rode among the victors at the battle of Cressy, and
the war-shout of one of his descendants rang out defiantly on the
bloody field of Agincourt! Why need you despair? England wants
soldiers yet, and if you fail in establishing your claims to that name
and its proud memories, win one, as others have done before you, at
the cannon's mouth.
I sent up my card, which gained me instant admittance. I was shown
into the library, which Harrison had so often described. A noble old
room panelled to the ceiling, with carved oak now almost black with
age. Here I found the Baronet engaged with his daughter in a game at
chess. He rose to meet me with evident marks of pleasure, and
introduced me to Miss Moncton, as a young cousin, in whom he felt much
interested, and one with whom he hoped to see her better acquainted.
With a soft blush, and a smile of inexpressible sweetness, the little
fairy, for she was almost as diminutive in stature, bade me welcome.
Her face, though very pleasing, was neither striking nor beautiful. It
was, however, exquisitely feminine, and beaming with intelligence,
dignity and truth. Her large, dark, soul-lighted eyes were singularly
beautiful. Her complexion, too fair and pale for health; the rich
ruby-coloured full lips and dazzling teeth, forming a painful contrast
with the pure white cheeks, shaded by a dark cloud of raven tresses,
which, parting on either side of her lofty brow, flowed in rich curls
down her snowy neck, and over her marble shoulders to her waist.
Her figure in miniature comprised all that was graceful and lovely in
woman; and her frank, unsophisticated manners rendered her, in spite
of a faulty mouth, very attractive.
After exchanging a few sentences, Miss Moncton withdrew, and I lost no
time in explaining to her father the cause of my visit; the manner in
which I had been treated by my uncle, my recent illness, and the utter
friendlessness of my position. "You told me, sir, to come to you at
any crisis of difficulty, for advice and assistance. I have done so,
and shall feel most grateful for your counsels in the present
emergency. I am willing and able to work for my bread; I only want an
opening to be made in order to get my own living."
"Your profession, Geoffrey; why not stick to that?"
"Most gladly would I do so, had not Robert Moncton put the finishing
stroke to his tyranny, by tearing my indentures, and by this malicious
act destroyed the labour of seven years."
"The scoundrel! the mean, cowardly scoundrel!" cried Sir Alexander,
striking the table with such violence with his clenched hand, that
kings, queens, knights, bishops and commoners made a general movement
to the other side of the chess-board. "Never mind, Geoffrey, my boy,
give me your hand--I will be your friend. I will restore you to your
rights, if it costs me the last shilling in my purse--ay, or the last
drop in my veins. Let the future for a short time take care of itself.
Make this your home; look upon me as your father, and we shall yet
live to see this villain reap the reward of his evil deeds."
"Generous, noble man!" I cried, while tears of joy and gratitude
rolled down my cheeks: "how can I ever hope to repay you for such
disinterested goodness?"
"By never alluding to the subject, Geoffrey. Give me back the love
your father once felt for me, and I shall be more than repaid.
Besides, my lad, I am neither so good nor so disinterested as you give
me credit for. I detest, despise that uncle of yours, and I know the
best way to annoy him is to befriend you, and get you safe out of his
villainous clutches. This is hardly doing as I would be done by, but I
can't help it. No one blames another for taking a fly out of a
spider's web, when the poor devil is shrieking for help, although he
be the spider's lawful prey; but who does not applaud a man for
rescuing his fellow man from the grasp of a scoundrel! By-the-by,
Geoffrey," added he, "have you dined?"
"At the last inn we stopped at on the road."
"The Hart; a place not very famous for good cheer. Their beef is
generally as hard as their deer's horns. Let me order up
refreshments."
"By no means. You forget, Sir Alexander, that of late I have not been
much used to good living. The friend on whose charity I have been
boarding is a poor fellow like myself."
"Well, we must have our chat over a glass of old wine."
He rang the bell. The wine was soon placed upon the table, and most
excellent wine it proved. I was weak from my long confinement to a
sick chamber, and tired with my long journey; I never enjoyed a glass
of wine so much in my life.
"What do you think of Moncton, Geoffrey?"
"It is a glorious old place."
"Wish it were yours--don't you? Confess the truth, now."
"Some fifty years hence," said I, laughing.
"You would then be too old to enjoy it, Geoffrey; but wait patiently
God's good time, and it may be yours yet. There was a period in my
life," and he sighed a long, deep, regretful sigh, "when I hoped that
a son of mine would be master here, but as that cannot be, I am doomed
to leave no male heir to my name and title, I know no one whom I would
rather see in the old place than my cousin Edward's son."
"Your attachment to my father must have been great, when, after so
many years, you extend it to his son."
"Yes, Geoffrey, I loved that wild, mad-cap father of yours better than
I ever loved any man; but I suffered one rash action to separate
hearts formed by nature to understand and appreciate each other. You
are not acquainted with this portion of the family history. Pass the
bottle this way, and I will enlighten your ignorance."
"When your grandfather, in the plenitude of his worldly wisdom (for he
had a deal of the fox in his character), left the guardianship of his
sons to his aged father, it was out of no respect for the old
gentleman, whom had cast him off rather unceremoniously, when his
plebeian tastes led him to prefer being a rich citizen, rather than a
poor gentleman; but he found, that though he amassed riches, he had
lost caste, and he hoped by this act to restore his sons, for whom he
had acquired wealth, to their proper position in society.
"My grandfather, Sir Robert, grumbled a good deal at being troubled
with the guardianship of the lads in his old age. But when he saw
those youthful scions of his old house, he was so struck with their
beauty and talents, that from that hour they held an equal place in
his affections with myself, the only child of his eldest son, and heir
to his estates.
"I was an extravagant, reckless young fellow of eighteen, when my
cousins first came to live at Moncton; and I hailed their advent with
delight. Edward, I told you before, had been an old chum of mine at
school; and when Robert was placed in a lawyer's office, he
accompanied me to college to finish my education. He was intended to
fill his father's place in the mercantile world, but he had little
talent or inclination for such a life. All his tastes were decidedly
aristocratic, and I fear that my expensive and dissipated habits
operated unfavourably on his open, generous, social disposition.
"With a thousand good qualities, and possessing excellent qualities,
Edward Moncton was easily led astray by the bad example of others. He
was a fine musician, had an admirable voice, a brilliant wit, and
great fluency of speech, which can scarcely be called advantageous
gifts, to those who don't know how to make a proper use of them. He
was the life of the society in which we moved, courted and admired
wherever he went, and a jolly time we had of it, I can tell you, in
those classical abodes of learning, and frequently of sin.
"Edward gave me his whole heart, and I loved him with the most entire
affection. But, though I saw that my example acted most perniciously
on his easy disposition, I wanted the moral courage to give up a
course of gaiety, in order to save him from ruin.
"Poor Edward!--I would give worlds to recall the past. But the bad
seed was sown, and in time we reaped the bitter fruits.
"With all my faults, I was never a gambler; women, wine, and
extravagant living, were my chief derelictions from the paths of
rectitude. But even while yielding to these temptations, I was neither
an habitual drunkard nor a profligate, though I frequented haunts,
where both characters were constantly found, and ranked many such men
among my chosen friends and associates. My moral guilt, was perhaps as
great as theirs; for it is vain for a man to boast of his not being
intemperate, because nature has furnished him with nerves which enable
him to drink, in defiance to reason, quantities which would deprive
the larger portion of men of their senses.
"Your father thought, boy like (for he was full three years my
junior), to prove his title to manhood by following closely in my
steps, and too soon felt the evil effects of such a leader. He wasted
his health in debauchery, and wine maddened him. The gaming-table held
out its allurements, he wanted fortitude to resist its temptation, and
was the loser to a considerable amount. He kept this a secret from me.
He was a minor, and he feared that it might reach my grandfather's
ears, and that Sir Robert would stop the supplies, until his debts
were paid. I heard of it through a mutual friend, and very
consistently imagined the crime far greater than any that I had
committed.
"The night before we left college, I followed him to his favourite
rendezvous, held in the rooms of a certain young nobleman, unknown to
the authorities, where students who were known to belong to wealthy
parents, met to play hazard and ecarte, and lose more money at a
sitting, than could be replaced by the economy of years.
"I was not one of Lord ----'s clique, and I sent my card to Edward by
a friend, requesting to speak to him on a matter of importance. After
some delay, he came out to me. He was not pleased at being disturbed,
and was much flushed with wine.
"'What do you want, Alick?' said he, in no very gentle tones.
"'I want you to come and help me prepare for our journey to-morrow.'
"'There will be plenty of time for that, by-and-by. I am engaged, and
don't choose to be dictated to like a school-boy.'
"'You are mad,' said I, taking hold of his arm, 'to go there at all.
Those fellows will cheat you out of every penny you have.'
"'That's my own look-out. I tell you once for all, Alick, I don't
choose you to ride rough-shod over me, because you fancy yourself
superior. I will do as I please. I have lost a deal of money to-night,
and I mean to play on until I win it back.'
"You will only lose more. You are not in a fit state to deal with
sharpers. You are so tipsy now, you can hardly stand.'
"As I said this, I put my arm around him to lead him away, when he,
maddened I suppose by drink and his recent losses, burst from me, and
turning sharp round, struck me a violent blow on the face. 'Let that
satisfy you, whether I am drunk or sober,' he exclaimed, and with a
bitter laugh, returned to the party he had quitted.
"Geoffrey, I felt that blow in my heart. The disgrace was little in
comparison to the consciousness that it came from his hand--the hand
of the friend I loved. I could have returned the injury with ten-fold
interest; but I did nothing of the sort. I stood looking after him
with dim eyes and a swelling heart, repeating to myself--
"'Is it possible that Edward struck me?'
"That blow, however, achieved a great moral reformation. It led me to
think--to examine my past life, and to renounce for ever those
follies, which I now felt were debasing to both soul and body, and
unworthy the pursuit of any rational creature.
"The world expected me, as a gentleman, to ask satisfaction of Edward
for the insult I had received.
"I set the, world and its false laws at defiance.
"I returned to my lodgings and wrote him a brief note, telling him
that I forgave him, and gently remonstrating with him on the violence
of his conduct.
"Instead of answering, or apologizing for what he had done, he
listened to the advice of a pack of senseless idiots, who denounced me
as a coward, and lauded his rash act to the skies.
"To seek a reconciliation, would be to lose his independence, they
said, and prove to the world that he had been in the wrong. I, on my
part, was too proud to solicit his friendship, and left London before
the effort of mutual friends had effected a change in his feelings.
"Perhaps, as the injurer, he never forgave me for being the originator
of the quarrel: be that as it may, we never met again. My grandfather
died shortly after. I formed an unfortunate attachment to a person far
beneath me in rank, and but for the horror of entailing upon myself
her worthless mother, would certainly have made her my wife. To avoid
falling into this snare, I went abroad for several years, and
ultimately married a virtuous and lovely woman, and became a happy
husband and father, and I hope a better man."
The Baronet ceased speaking for a few minutes, then said with a half
smile.
"Geoffrey, men are sad fools. After losing that angel, I came very
near marrying my old flame, who was a widow at the time, and as
handsome as ever. She died most opportunely, I am now convinced, for
my comfort and respectability, and I gave up all idea of taking a
second wife."
This account tallied exactly with Harrison's story, which had given me
a key to the Baronet's history. I inquired, rather anxiously, if he
and my father remained unreconciled up to the period of his death.
"'I wrote to him frequently, Geoffrey,' he replied, 'when time had
healed the wound he inflicted on my heart, but he never condescended
to reply to any of my communications. I have since thought that he
_did_ write, and that his brother Robert, who was always jealous
of our friendship, destroyed the letters. I assure you, that this
unnatural estrangement formed one of the saddest events in my life;
and for the love I still bear his memory, I will never desert his
orphan son.'"
I thanked the worthy Baronet again and again, for the generous
treatment I had received from him, and we parted at a late hour,
mutually pleased with each other.