CHAPTER XX

Galilee was rich in poor men and poor in rich men. And it might have

been thought that Jesus, the friend of the poor, was the right man in

the right place there. And yet His teaching took no hold in that land.

A few rich men among a multitude of poor have all the more power

because they are few, and they used all their influence with the people

to dethrone the Prophet from His height, and to undermine His career.

These illustrious men found their best tools in the Rabbis, who

circulated the sophism that the people who followed the teaching of

this man must quickly come to ruin. For the poor, who willingly gave

up their last possessions, must become poorer, and the rich, who

pursued their advantages, must become still richer, which implied that

not the rich but only the poor would accept the Prophet's teaching,

since we know that Jesus especially called on the rich to alter the

tenor of their ways, and always for the benefit of the poor. But, they

answered: The rich will not alter the tenor of their ways, they will

consume the gentle disciples of Jesus, as the wolf the sheep. Many

were impressed by that view, and lost courage: The Prophet means well,

they reflected, but nothing is to be gained by adopting His methods.

Then it became known that Jesus had allowed Himself to be anointed. To

allow Himself to be anointed meant that He regarded Himself as the

Heaven-sent Messiah! And that was hostile to the existing order of

things, to the king. So said the preachers in the synagogues, the

houses, and the streets, but they were silent over the fact that the

anointing was the work of a poor woman who desired to heal His sore

feet. In fact, the preachers cared nothing for the people or the king

but only for the letter of the law.

When the woman who had anointed His feet saw that He was despised

because of her, she went silently apart by herself. No human being

cared so much for Him, and none left Him so calmly. She did not go

back to the old man she had married out of pity, and forgotten--out of

love, but she went to relations at Bethany. Since the Prophet had

raised her up before all the people, her relatives no longer closed

their doors to her, but received her kindly.

Jesus was aware how His native ground tottered under His feet, how the

people began to shun Him more and more, how the inns made difficulties

about receiving Him. So He went, with those who were true to Him, out

into the rocky desert of Judaea. He gained new adherents on the way,

and people came from the surrounding places with pack and staff to hear

the wonderful preacher. Some had had enough of the barren wisdom of

the Pharisees, others were disgusted with the bad administration of the

country, and with the fine promises of the Romans, they were ruined by

the agricultural depression, or in despair over the low level of men's

minds, over the barbarism of men. There were some, too, who had fled

before the robber bands of Barabbas which infested the desert to their

undoing. They came into His presence, hungering for the living word on

which to feed their starving souls. John said to them: "His teaching

is nourishment. His word is flesh. Who eats of His flesh and drinks

of His blood will not die."

They wondered at those words. How were they to understand what was

meant by eating His flesh and drinking His blood?

Then John; "The word is like flesh, it nourishes the soul. Manna was

sent from Heaven for our ancestors, yet they died. His word is bread

from heaven which makes us immortal." They remembered another saying:

"His flesh is food indeed!" And they explained that a man's body is

destined to be consumed by the spirit, like tallow and wick by flame.

So man, in order to become divine, must attain the divine life through

the medium of humanity.

They remained with Him day and night in their thousands, and were

satisfied. And many entreated Him to pour water over their heads as a

token that they were His adherents and desired to be pure.

It was a starry night in the desert, one of those nights when the stars

shine down in sparkling brilliance and envelop the rocks in a bluish

shimmer and vapour, so that it seems like a resurrection of glorified

souls. One of the disciples looked up at the stars shining in the sky

in holy stillness, and said: "Brother, this infinitude of space makes

me afraid."

The other disciple: "I rejoice over that infinite space."

"My terror causes me to flee to my Heavenly Father."

"I take my joy to my Heavenly Father."

They were all lying on the ground in a wide circle round Jesus. They

wished to rest, but the night was too beautiful for sleep.

And one of them began to say softly: "This is like the Kingdom of God."

Another lifted his head, which had been resting on his arm, and said:

"Do you know, then, what the Kingdom of God is like?"

The first speaker was silent for a space, and then replied: "No,

indeed, I don't know, but I like to think about it. He speaks so often

of the Kingdom of Heaven, I should like to know something more definite

about it."

"Shall we ask Him?"

"You ask Him."

"I dare not."

"Let us ask John. He knows Him best, and possibly can tell us

something."

John was lying on the sand with his head on a stone. His soft hair was

his pillow. But he was not asleep. They crept up to him, and boldly

asked him where the Kingdom of Heaven was, of which the Master so often

spoke. Was it under the earth or above the sun? Would it begin soon

or in a thousand years?

John said; "How long have you been with Him?"

"Seven weeks."

"And you don't know yet where the Kingdom of Heaven is? Then you do

not understand His language."

"He speaks the language of our fathers."

"He speaks the language of the Kingdom of God. Remember, the Kingdom

of Heaven is where God is. God is where Love is, where trustful,

self-sacrificing, glad Love is."

"And where is that?"

"Where do you think?"

"I think Love must be in the heart."

Whereupon John answered: "Then you do know where the Kingdom of Heaven

is."

The two looked at each other, but did not quite seem to know. Then

John went to Jesus, who was sitting on a rock and looking out into the

darkness as if it was full of visions. His countenance was as bright

as if the stars had lent it their brilliance.

"Master," said John, "we cannot sleep. Tell us of the Kingdom of

Heaven."

Jesus turned round, and pointing to the disciple nearest him, said: "To

you is it granted to know the Kingdom of Heaven. To the others it can

only be explained through parables. For the Kingdom of God is not

built of wood or stone like a temple, it cannot be conquered like an

earthly empire, it cannot be seen by mortal eyes like a garden of

flowers, neither can we say it is here or there. The Kingdom of God

must be conquered with the power of the will, and he who is strong and

constant will gain it. His eye and his hand must be continually set to

the plough which makes furrows in the kingdom of earth for the great

harvest. He who sets his hand to the plough, and looks at something

else, he is not dedicated to the Kingdom of God. But to him who

earnestly seeks it, it comes overnight. The seed thrown on the field

yesterday has sprung up--man knows not how. The seed is the Word of

God which was scattered on all sides. Part falls on the wayside, and

the birds devour it. Part falls among thorns, and is choked. A part

falls on a thin covering of earth, it comes up but is parched by the

hot sun. Only a very small quantity falls on rich earth and bears much

fruit. So it is with the tidings of God. Evil inclinations devour it,

earthly cares choke it, burning passions parch it, but the heart that

desires God receives it, and with him the word becomes the Kingdom of

Heaven."

More and more heads were lifted up. "He is speaking." Then all

bestirred themselves and listened.

Jesus raised His voice and went on; "Some of you who listen to Me have

the Kingdom of Heaven within you. But be careful! The enemy comes in

the night and sows weeds. Hear more. The word is like a grain of

mustard-seed. It is the smallest of all seeds, and yet it becomes the

biggest tree. Perhaps without your knowledge a word has fallen into

your heart. You are scarcely aware of it, you pass it by, but it grows

secretly, and all at once enlightenment is there, and you have the

Kingdom of Heaven. Then, again, it is like yeast, and stirs up and

changes your whole being. The Kingdom of Heaven is like treasure

hidden in a field. A man finds it and buys the field. And it is like

a pearl for which a merchant gives all his wealth. But it is also like

a lamp which a man must feed with oil lest it be extinguished. If it

goes out, you will have no light, and suddenly comes the attack. And

hear this also: the Lord of the Kingdom of Heaven is like a king who at

urgent request remits all his slave's debts. But the slave does not

remit his debtor's debt, but lets him be cast into prison. So the king

summons him before his judgment-seat and says: I have shown you mercy,

and you have shown your fellow no mercy. So now I shall have you put

upon the rack until you have paid me your debts to the last farthing.

Who does not show mercy to others, to him shall no mercy be shown."

Jesus was silent, and a shudder of terror passed through the crowd.

John went to the man who had just questioned Him, and said: "Do you

understand now what He means by the Kingdom of God?"

"I think so."

"That is enough for the present. It is mercy, blessedness, and

justice. . . . Consider, it was night He chose in order to unveil the

Kingdom of Heaven. For it is not visible to the outward eye, but to

the inward eye. Man, if you possess the Kingdom of Heaven, you possess

it in your soul. If it is not there, you seek it elsewhere in vain."

"But," someone ventured to say hesitatingly, "it must also be somewhere

else. The Master Himself says: 'Father who art in heaven.'"

John answered him: "The Kingdom of Heaven is wherever you are, wherever

you come with your faith and with your love. Only do not think that

you are obliged to understand such mysteries with your reason."

And the man asked no more.

Then an old man tottered up and ventured to ask Jesus what he should

do. He was a worldly man, had never lived save for earth, and he was

told it was now too late to change. "How shall I reach the Kingdom of

Heaven?"

Then Jesus spoke as follows:

"There was once a man who employed labourers for his vineyard. He

engaged one in the morning, another at noon, and the last towards

evening when the day's work was almost over. And when the pay-hour

came round, he gave each good wages. Then those who had been hired in

the morning and at noon complained that they had worked much longer in

the toil and heat of the day, and ought therefore to receive more wages

than he who only began towards evening, and had scarcely laboured for

an hour. Then said the master of the vineyard; 'I told you beforehand

the wages I should give you, and you were content. What is it to you

how much I give the other? Let him come to me late, or let him come to

me as soon as it is morning. The chief thing is that he comes to me.'"

Then the old man began to weep for joy that although he came so late to

the vineyard of Jesus, he would still be employed.

Since the Master was so ready to speak, others came to Him at this

time, and entreated Him to clear up some matters which they did not

understand. Once he related a story of a king who, when the guests he

had invited to his wedding-feast refused to come, invited the people

out of the highways. They came, but one had not a wedding garment on,

and the king ordered him to be cast into the outer darkness. The

Master intended it as a parable, but they could not understand it. The

king was too severe, they argued; he must have known that people from

off the highways would not be wearing wedding garments.

Jesus was silent, but James observed: "Why, guests must know that it is

not seemly to go to a king's wedding in torn and dirty clothes. All

are freely invited, but he who comes unwashed and presumptuous will be

cast out into the darkness. No one is admitted who is unprepared."

Another of His parables concerning the Kingdom of Heaven disturbed

them. It was that of the unjust steward whom his master praised

because he had prudently used the money entrusted to him in order to

provide for himself. The steward knew that he would be dismissed, and

secretly remitted to his master's debtors a part of their debts, so

that he might stand well with them. And he did right! "But, can we

purchase the Kingdom of Heaven with goods that are not ours?"

A mule-driver interposed: "I understand the story thus: None of us has

any property on earth. We are all only the stewards of the property

and when we give of it to the needy, we are unjust stewards because we

give what is not ours, and yet we do right."

Some shook their heads over this interpretation; the rich and those

learned in the Scriptures could not understand it. But Jesus said in

prayer: "I praise, O Father, that Thou revealest many things to the

simple that are hidden from the worldly wise. Blessed are those who

are not offended by My teaching!"

Now the disciples always discussed together anything that was not quite

clear. Thomas did not exactly understand what the Master meant by the

word truth, by saying that He was the truth, that we must pray to God

in truth, and that he who is of truth would understand God's word.

What did John, the youngest of them, say? "The children of the world

call it truth if they break a stone with a hammer and find that it is

chalk; they call it truth to know the difference between the fishes in

the sea and the worms on the earth, and to be able to measure the

dimensions of the sky with figures; they call it truth when it is

established that a seed of corn germinates, and a man's body turns into

dust after death. Truly, every one can see those things with his own

eyes. But is man's eye the truth? And did He say: 'You shall _know_

the truth'? No; He said: 'You shall _be_ the truth.'"

To _be_ the truth! To be void of guile and falsehood! To be true and

open in mind and heart!

So they sought to increase their knowledge of the Kingdom of Heaven;

hourly and daily did many a one rejoice because he had found what the

wise men of the ages had sought after.

The poor, the despised, and the unhappy came to Him more and more.

That strange desert camp was often filled with the sick, the

over-burdened, and the despairing. Many came from afar full of great

troubles, yet borne up by hope, and then when they saw Him, tall and

earnest, standing there and teaching men in deep sayings, their courage

deserted them; they could not trust Him. They were full of fear. Then

He spread out His hands and exclaimed:

"Come, come unto Me, all that are over-burdened and oppressed; I will

relieve you. I am not come to judge and to punish. I am come to find

what is lost, to heal what is sick, and to revive what is dead. I am

come to the sad to console them, to the fallen to raise them up. I

give Myself for the redemption of many. My power is not of this world.

I am Master in the Kingdom of God, where all are blessed in trustful,

joyful love. Come to Me, all ye who have erred and gone astray. I

have joy and eternal life for you."

The disciples looked at each other in astonishment: He had never before

spoken with such divine gentleness. The people, sobbing, crowded round

Him; His words were as balm to their wounds. They wondered how it was

possible for a man to speak so proudly, lovingly and divinely. They

gave themselves up to Him, filled with trust and enthusiasm; in His

presence the hungry were fed, the blind made to see, the lame walked,

doubters believed, the weak became strong, and dead souls lived.

Simon always rejoiced greatly whenever new wanderers came by and,

withdrawing from their companions, took a vow to follow the Master's

teaching. He was exceedingly angry when they refused, alleging that it

was not possible to accomplish what He demanded of them. Jesus related

a story in connection with Simon's emotions. "A man had two sons, and

told each of them to go and work in his field. One said, 'Yes, father,

I will go at once.' But afterwards he reflected that the work was

hard, and he did not go. The other son told his father to his face

that he would not go into the field; it was too much labour. When he

was alone he thought, 'I will do my father's will,' and he went into

the field and worked. Which of the two, in your opinion, did right?"

A man learned in the Law replied: "He who promised to go. For it

stands written; 'He who declares himself ready to obey the Law.'"

But Jesus was vexed at that reply, and said in sorrow: "It is

extraordinary how falsely you interpret the Law. Sinners who sincerely

repent will find their way to the Kingdom of Heaven before such

expounders of the Law."

From that time forward Simon rejoiced no more over empty promises, nor

did he vex himself over the refusals of those who would perhaps come

later to take up the heavy work. Patiently as once he had waited at

the lake for the fish to come to his nets, he now waited until they

came. And he understood a mystic saying of his Master: "All are

called; many come, few remain."

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