CHAPTER XV.

"YOU SHOULD REMEMBER THAT I AM HIS MOTHER."

"This is so kind of you," said Lady Carbury, grasping her cousin's

hand as she got out of the carriage.

"The kindness is on your part," said Roger.

"I felt so much before I dared to ask you to take us. But I did so

long to get into the country, and I do so love Carbury. And--and--"

"Where should a Carbury go to escape from London smoke, but to the

old house? I am afraid Henrietta will find it dull."

"Oh no," said Hetta smiling. "You ought to remember that I am never

dull in the country."

"The bishop and Mrs. Yeld are coming here to dine to-morrow,--and the

Hepworths."

"I shall be so glad to meet the bishop once more," said Lady Carbury.

"I think everybody must be glad to meet him, he is such a dear, good

fellow, and his wife is just as good. And there is another gentleman

coming whom you have never seen."

"A new neighbour?"

"Yes,--a new neighbour;--Father John Barham, who has come to Beccles

as priest. He has got a little cottage about a mile from here, in

this parish, and does duty both at Beccles and Bungay. I used to know

something of his family."

"He is a gentleman then?"

"Certainly he is a gentleman. He took his degree at Oxford, and

then became what we call a pervert, and what I suppose they call a

convert. He has not got a shilling in the world beyond what they

pay him as a priest, which I take it amounts to about as much as

the wages of a day labourer. He told me the other day that he was

absolutely forced to buy second-hand clothes."

"How shocking!" said Lady Carbury, holding up her hands.

"He didn't seem to be at all shocked at telling it. We have got to be

quite friends."

"Will the bishop like to meet him?"

"Why should not the bishop like to meet him? I've told the bishop all

about him, and the bishop particularly wishes to know him. He won't

hurt the bishop. But you and Hetta will find it very dull."

"I shan't find it dull, Mr. Carbury," said Henrietta.

"It was to escape from the eternal parties that we came down here,"

said Lady Carbury. She had nevertheless been anxious to hear what

guests were expected at the Manor House. Sir Felix had promised to

come down on Saturday, with the intention of returning on Monday, and

Lady Carbury had hoped that some visiting might be arranged between

Caversham and the Manor House, so that her son might have the full

advantage of his closeness to Marie Melmotte.

"I have asked the Longestaffes for Monday," said Roger.

"They are down here then?"

"I think they arrived yesterday. There is always a flustering breeze

in the air and a perturbation generally through the county when they

come or go, and I think I perceived the effects about four in the

afternoon. They won't come, I dare say."

"Why not?"

"They never do. They have probably a house full of guests, and they

know that my accommodation is limited. I've no doubt they'll ask us

on Tuesday or Wednesday, and if you like we will go."

"I know they are to have guests," said Lady Carbury.

"What guests?"

"The Melmottes are coming to them." Lady Carbury, as she made the

announcement, felt that her voice and countenance and self-possession

were failing her, and that she could not mention the thing as she

would any matter that was indifferent to her.

"The Melmottes coming to Caversham!" said Roger, looking at

Henrietta, who blushed with shame as she remembered that she had been

brought into her lover's house solely in order that her brother might

have an opportunity of seeing Marie Melmotte in the country.

"Oh yes,--Madame Melmotte told me. I take it they are very intimate."

"Mr. Longestaffe ask the Melmottes to visit him at Caversham!"

"Why not?"

"I should almost as soon have believed that I myself might have been

induced to ask them here."

"I fancy, Roger, that Mr. Longestaffe does want a little pecuniary

assistance."

"And he condescends to get it in this way! I suppose it will make no

difference soon whom one knows, and whom one doesn't. Things aren't

as they were, of course, and never will be again. Perhaps it's all

for the better;--I won't say it isn't. But I should have thought that

such a man as Mr. Longestaffe might have kept such another man as Mr.

Melmotte out of his wife's drawing-room." Henrietta became redder

than ever. Even Lady Carbury flushed up, as she remembered that Roger

Carbury knew that she had taken her daughter to Madame Melmotte's

ball. He thought of this himself as soon as the words were spoken,

and then tried to make some half apology. "I don't approve of them

in London, you know; but I think they are very much worse in the

country."

Then there was a movement. The ladies were shown into their rooms,

and Roger again went out into the garden. He began to feel that he

understood it all. Lady Carbury had come down to his house in order

that she might be near the Melmottes! There was something in this

which he felt it difficult not to resent. It was for no love of him

that she was there. He had felt that Henrietta ought not to have been

brought to his house; but he could have forgiven that, because her

presence there was a charm to him. He could have forgiven that, even

while he was thinking that her mother had brought her there with

the object of disposing of her. If it were so, the mother's object

would be the same as his own, and such a manoeuvre he could pardon,

though he could not approve. His self-love had to some extent been

gratified. But now he saw that he and his house had been simply used

in order that a vile project of marrying two vile people to each

other might be furthered!

As he was thinking of all this, Lady Carbury came out to him in

the garden. She had changed her travelling dress, and made herself

pretty, as she well knew how to do. And now she dressed her face in

her sweetest smiles. Her mind, also, was full of the Melmottes, and

she wished to explain to her stern, unbending cousin all the good

that might come to her and hers by an alliance with the heiress. "I

can understand, Roger," she said, taking his arm, "that you should

not like those people."

"What people?"

"The Melmottes."

"I don't dislike them. How should I dislike people that I never saw?

I dislike those who seek their society simply because they have the

reputation of being rich."

"Meaning me."

"No; not meaning you. I don't dislike you, as you know very well,

though I do dislike the fact that you should run after these people.

I was thinking of the Longestaffes then."

"Do you suppose, my friend, that I run after them for my own

gratification? Do you think that I go to their house because I find

pleasure in their magnificence; or that I follow them down here for

any good that they will do me?"

"I would not follow them at all."

"I will go back if you bid me, but I must first explain what I mean.

You know my son's condition,--better, I fear, than he does himself."

Roger nodded assent to this, but said nothing. "What is he to do? The

only chance for a young man in his position is that he should marry a

girl with money. He is good-looking; you can't deny that."

"Nature has done enough for him."

"We must take him as he is. He was put into the army very young, and

was very young when he came into possession of his own small fortune.

He might have done better; but how many young men placed in such

temptations do well? As it is, he has nothing left."

"I fear not."

"And therefore is it not imperative that he should marry a girl with

money?"

"I call that stealing a girl's money, Lady Carbury."

"Oh, Roger, how hard you are!"

"A man must be hard or soft,--which is best?"

"With women I think that a little softness has the most effect. I

want to make you understand this about the Melmottes. It stands to

reason that the girl will not marry Felix unless she loves him."

"But does he love her?"

"Why should he not? Is a girl to be debarred from being loved because

she has money? Of course she looks to be married, and why should she

not have Felix if she likes him best? Cannot you sympathize with my

anxiety so to place him that he shall not be a disgrace to the name

and to the family?"

"We had better not talk about the family, Lady Carbury."

"But I think so much about it."

"You will never get me to say that I think the family will be

benefited by a marriage with the daughter of Mr. Melmotte. I look

upon him as dirt in the gutter. To me, in my old-fashioned way, all

his money, if he has it, can make no difference. When there is a

question of marriage people at any rate should know something of each

other. Who knows anything of this man? Who can be sure that she is

his daughter?"

"He would give her her fortune when she married."

"Yes; it all comes to that. Men say openly that he is an adventurer

and a swindler. No one pretends to think that he is a gentleman.

There is a consciousness among all who speak of him that he amasses

his money not by honest trade, but by unknown tricks,--as does a card

sharper. He is one whom we would not admit into our kitchens, much

less to our tables, on the score of his own merits. But because he

has learned the art of making money, we not only put up with him, but

settle upon his carcase as so many birds of prey."

"Do you mean that Felix should not marry the girl, even if they love

each other?"

He shook his head in disgust, feeling sure that any idea of love on

the part of the young man was a sham and a pretence, not only as

regarded him, but also his mother. He could not quite declare this,

and yet he desired that she should understand that he thought so.

"I have nothing more to say about it," he continued. "Had it gone on

in London I should have said nothing. It is no affair of mine. When

I am told that the girl is in the neighbourhood, at such a house as

Caversham, and that Felix is coming here in order that he may be near

to his prey, and when I am asked to be a party to the thing, I can

only say what I think. Your son would be welcome to my house, because

he is your son and my cousin, little as I approve his mode of life;

but I could have wished that he had chosen some other place for the

work that he has on hand."

"If you wish it, Roger, we will return to London. I shall find it

hard to explain to Hetta;--but we will go."

"No; I certainly do not wish that."

"But you have said such hard things! How are we to stay? You speak

of Felix as though he were all bad." She looked at him hoping to get

from him some contradiction of this, some retractation, some kindly

word; but it was what he did think, and he had nothing to say. She

could bear much. She was not delicate as to censure implied, or even

expressed. She had endured rough usage before, and was prepared to

endure more. Had he found fault with herself, or with Henrietta, she

would have put up with it, for the sake of benefits to come,--would

have forgiven it the more easily because perhaps it might not have

been deserved. But for her son she was prepared to fight. If she did

not defend him, who would? "I am grieved, Roger, that we should have

troubled you with our visit, but I think that we had better go. You

are very harsh, and it crushes me."

"I have not meant to be harsh."

"You say that Felix is seeking for his--prey, and that he is to be

brought here to be near--his prey. What can be more harsh than that?

At any rate, you should remember that I am his mother."

[Illustration: "You should remember that I am his mother."]

She expressed her sense of injury very well. Roger began to be

ashamed of himself, and to think that he had spoken unkind words. And

yet he did not know how to recall them. "If I have hurt you, I regret

it much."

"Of course you have hurt me. I think I will go in now. How very hard

the world is! I came here thinking to find peace and sunshine, and

there has come a storm at once."

"You asked me about the Melmottes, and I was obliged to speak. You

cannot think that I meant to offend you." They walked on in silence

till they had reached the door leading from the garden into the

house, and here he stopped her. "If I have been over hot with you,

let me beg your pardon." She smiled and bowed; but her smile was not

one of forgiveness; and then she essayed to pass on into the house.

"Pray do not speak of going, Lady Carbury."

"I think I will go to my room now. My head aches so that I can hardly

stand."

It was late in the afternoon,--about six,--and according to his daily

custom he should have gone round to the offices to see his men as

they came from their work, but he stood still for a few moments on

the spot where Lady Carbury had left him and went slowly across the

lawn to the bridge and there seated himself on the parapet. Could it

really be that she meant to leave his house in anger and to take her

daughter with her? Was it thus that he was to part with the one human

being in the world that he loved? He was a man who thought much of

the duties of hospitality, feeling that a man in his own house was

bound to exercise a courtesy towards his guests sweeter, softer, more

gracious than the world required elsewhere. And of all guests those

of his own name were the best entitled to such courtesy at Carbury.

He held the place in trust for the use of others. But if there were

one among all others to whom the house should be a house of refuge

from care, not an abode of trouble, on whose behalf were it possible

he would make the very air softer, and the flowers sweeter than their

wont, to whom he would declare, were such words possible to his

tongue, that of him and of his house, and of all things there she was

the mistress, whether she would condescend to love him or no,--that

one was his cousin Hetta. And now he had been told by his guest that

he had been so rough to her that she and her daughter must return to

London!

And he could not acquit himself. He knew that he had been rough.

He had said very hard words. It was true that he could not have

expressed his meaning without hard words, nor have repressed his

meaning without self-reproach. But in his present mood he could not

comfort himself by justifying himself. She had told him that he ought

to have remembered that Felix was her son; and as she spoke she had

acted well the part of an outraged mother. His heart was so soft that

though he knew the woman to be false and the son to be worthless, he

utterly condemned himself. Look where he would there was no comfort.

When he had sat half-an-hour upon the bridge he turned towards the

house to dress for dinner,--and to prepare himself for an apology, if

any apology might be accepted. At the door, standing in the doorway

as though waiting for him, he met his cousin Hetta. She had on her

bosom the rose he had placed in her room, and as he approached her he

thought that there was more in her eyes of graciousness towards him

than he had ever seen there before.

"Mr. Carbury," she said, "mamma is so unhappy!"

"I fear that I have offended her."

"It is not that, but that you should be so,--so angry about Felix."

"I am vexed with myself that I have vexed her,--more vexed than I can

tell you."

"She knows how good you are."

"No, I'm not. I was very bad just now. She was so offended with me

that she talked of going back to London." He paused for her to speak,

but Hetta had no words ready for the moment. "I should be wretched

indeed if you and she were to leave my house in anger."

"I do not think she will do that."

"And you?"

"I am not angry. I should never dare to be angry with you. I only

wish that Felix would be better. They say that young men have to be

bad, and that they do get to be better as they grow older. He is

something in the city now, a director they call him, and mamma thinks

that the work will be of service to him." Roger could express no

hope in this direction or even look as though he approved of the

directorship. "I don't see why he should not try at any rate."

"Dear Hetta, I only wish he were like you."

"Girls are so different, you know."

It was not till late in the evening, long after dinner, that he made

his apology in form to Lady Carbury; but he did make it, and at last

it was accepted. "I think I was rough to you, talking about Felix,"

he said,--"and I beg your pardon."

"You were energetic, that was all."

"A gentleman should never be rough to a lady, and a man should never

be rough to his own guests. I hope you will forgive me." She answered

him by putting out her hand and smiling on him; and so the quarrel

was over.

Lady Carbury understood the full extent of her triumph, and was

enabled by her disposition to use it thoroughly. Felix might now

come down to Carbury, and go over from thence to Caversham, and

prosecute his wooing, and the master of Carbury could make no further

objection. And Felix, if he would come, would not now be snubbed.

Roger would understand that he was constrained to courtesy by the

former severity of his language. Such points as these Lady Carbury

never missed. He understood it too, and though he was soft and

gracious in his bearing, endeavouring to make his house as pleasant

as he could to his two guests, he felt that he had been cheated out

of his undoubted right to disapprove of all connection with the

Melmottes. In the course of the evening there came a note,--or rather

a bundle of notes,--from Caversham. That addressed to Roger was

in the form of a letter. Lady Pomona was sorry to say that the

Longestaffe party were prevented from having the pleasure of dining

at Carbury Hall by the fact that they had a house full of guests.

Lady Pomona hoped that Mr. Carbury and his relatives, who, Lady

Pomona heard, were with him at the Hall, would do the Longestaffes

the pleasure of dining at Caversham either on the Monday or Tuesday

following, as might best suit the Carbury plans. That was the purport

of Lady Pomona's letter to Roger Carbury. Then there were cards of

invitation for Lady Carbury and her daughter, and also for Sir Felix.

Roger, as he read his own note, handed the others over to Lady

Carbury, and then asked her what she would wish to have done. The

tone of his voice, as he spoke, grated on her ear, as there was

something in it of his former harshness. But she knew how to use her

triumph. "I should like to go," she said.

"I certainly shall not go," he replied; "but there will be no

difficulty whatever in sending you over. You must answer at once,

because their servant is waiting."

"Monday will be best," she said; "--that is, if nobody is coming

here."

"There will be nobody here."

"I suppose I had better say that I, and Hetta,--and Felix will accept

their invitation."

"I can make no suggestion," said Roger, thinking how delightful it

would be if Henrietta could remain with him; how objectionable it was

that Henrietta should be taken to Caversham to meet the Melmottes.

Poor Hetta herself could say nothing. She certainly did not wish to

meet the Melmottes, nor did she wish to dine, alone, with her cousin

Roger.

"That will be best," said Lady Carbury after a moment's thought. "It

is very good of you to let us go, and to send us."

"Of course you will do here just as you please," he replied. But

there was still that tone in his voice which Lady Carbury feared. A

quarter of an hour later the Caversham servant was on his way home

with two letters,--the one from Roger expressing his regret that he

could not accept Lady Pomona's invitation, and the other from Lady

Carbury declaring that she and her son and daughter would have great

pleasure in dining at Caversham on the Monday.

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