WHAT CAN I DO?

HE was a poor cripple--with fingers twisted out of all useful shape,

and lower limbs paralyzed so that he had to drag them after him

wearily when he moved through the short distances that limited his

sphere of locomotion--a poor, unhappy, murmuring, and, at times,

ill-natured cripple, eating the bread which a mother's hard labor

procured for him. For hours every fair day, during spring, summer,

and autumn, he might be seen in front of the little house where he

lived leaning upon the gate, or sitting on an old bench looking with

a sober face at the romping village children, or dreamily regarding

the passengers who moved with such strong limbs up and down the

street. How often, bitter envy stung the poor cripple's heart! How

often, as the thoughtless village children taunted him cruelly with

his misfortune, would he fling harsh maledictions after them. Many

pitied the poor cripple; many looked upon him with feelings of

disgust and repulsion; but few, if any, sought to do him good.

Not far from where the cripple lived was a man who had been

bedridden for years, and who was likely to remain so to the end of

his days. He was supported by the patient industry of a wife.

"If good works are the only passport to heaven," he said to a

neighbor one day, "I fear my chances will be small."

"'Well done, good and faithful servant,' is the language of

welcome," was replied; and the neighbor looked at the sick man in a

way that made him feel a little uncomfortable.

"I am sick and bedridden--what can I do?" he spoke, fretfully.

"When little is given, little is required. But if there be only a

single talent it must be improved."

"I have no talent," said the invalid.

"Are you sure of that?"

"What can I do? Look at me! No health, no strength, no power to rise

from this bed. A poor, helpless creature, burdening my wife. Better

for me, and for all, if I were in my grave."

"If that were so you would be in your grave. But God knows best.

There is something for you to do, or you would be no longer

permitted to live," said the neighbor.

The sick man shook his head.

"As I came along just now," continued the neighbor, "I stopped to

say a word to poor Tom Hicks, the cripple, as he stood swinging on

the gate before his mother's house, looking so unhappy that I pitied

him in my heart. 'What do you do with yourself all through these

long days, Tom?' I asked. 'Nothing,' he replied, moodily. 'Don't you

read sometimes?' I queried. 'Can't read,' was his sullen answer.

'Were you never at school?' I went on. 'No: how can I get to

school?' 'Why don't your mother teach you?' 'Because she can't read

herself,' replied Tom. 'It isn't too late to begin now,' said I,

encouragingly; 'suppose I were to find some one willing to teach

you, what would you say?' The poor lad's face brightened as if the

sunshine had fallen upon it; and he answered, 'I would say that

nothing could please me better.' I promised to find him a teacher;

and, as I promised, the thought of you, friend Croft, came into my

mind. Now, here is something that you can do; a good work in which

you can employ your one talent."

The sick man did not respond warmly to this proposition. He had been

so long a mere recipient of good offices,--had so long felt himself

the object towards which pity and service must tend,--that he had

nearly lost the relish for good deeds. Idle dependence had made him

selfish.

"Give this poor cripple a lesson every day," went on the neighbor,

pressing home the subject, "and talk and read to him. Take him in

charge as one of God's children, who needs to be instructed and led

up to a higher life than the one he is now living. Is not this a

good and a great work? It is, my friend, one that God has brought to

your hand, and in the doing of which there will be great reward.

What can you do? Much! Think of that poor boy's weary life, and of

the sadder years that lie still before him. What will become of him

when his mother dies? The almshouse alone will open its doors for

the helpless one. But who can tell what resources may open before

him if stimulated by thought. Take him, then, and unlock the doors

of a mind that now sits in darkness, that sunlight may come in. To

you it will give a few hours of pleasant work each day; to him it

will be a life-long benefit. Will you do it?"

"Yes."

The sick man could not say "No," though in uttering that

half-extorted assent he manifested no warm interest in the case of

poor Tom Hicks.

On the next day the cripple came to the sick man, and received his

first lesson; and every day, at an appointed hour, he was in Mr.

Croft's room, eager for the instruction he received. Quickly he

mastered the alphabet, and as quickly learned to construct small

words, preparatory to combining them in a reading lesson.

After the first three or four days the sick man, who, had undertaken

this work with reluctance, began to find his heart going down into

it. Tom was so ready a scholar, so interested, and so grateful, that

Mr. Croft found the task of instructing him a real pleasure. The

neighbor, who had suggested this useful employment of the invalid's

time, looked in now and then to see how matters were progressing,

and to speak words of encouragement.

Poor Tom was seen less frequently than before hanging on the gate,

or sitting idly on the bench before his mother's dwelling; and when

you did find him there, as of old, you saw a different expression on

his face. Soon the children, who had only looked at him, half in

fear, from a distance, or come closer to the gate where he stood

gazing with his strange eyes out into the street, in order to worry

him, began to have a different feelings for the cripple, and one and

another stopped occasionally to speak with him; for Tom no longer

made queer faces, or looked at them wickedly, as if he would harm

them if in his power, nor retorted angrily if they said things to

worry him. And now it often happened that a little boy or girl, who

had pitied the poor cripple, and feared him at the same time, would

offer him a flower, or an apple, or at handful of nuts in passing to

school; and he would take these gifts thankfully, and feel better

all day in remembrance of the kindness with which they had been

bestowed. Sometimes he would risk to see their books, and his eyes

would run eagerly over the pages so far in advance of his

comprehension, yet with the hope in his heart of one day mastering

them; for he had grown all athirst for knowledge.

As soon as Tom could read, the children in the neighborhood, who had

grown to like him, and always gathered around him at the gate, when

they happened to find him there, supplied him with books; so that he

had an abundance of mental food, and now began to repay his

benefactor, the bedridden man, by reading to him for hours every

day.

The mind of Tom had some of this qualities of a sponge: it absorbed

a great deal, and, like a sponge, gave out freely at every pressure.

Whenever his mind came in contact with another mind, it must either

absorb or impart. So he was always talking or always listening when

he had anybody who would talk or listen.

There was something about him that strongly attracted the boys in

the neighborhood, and he usually had three or four of them around

him and often a dozen, late in the afternoon, when the schools were

out. As Tom had entered a new world,--the world of books,--and was

interested in all he found there, the subjects on which he talked

with the boys who sought his company were always instructive. There,

was no nonsense about the cripple: suffering of body and mind had

long ago made him serious; and all nonsense, or low, sensual talk,

to which boys are sometimes addicted, found no encouragement in his

presence. His influence over these boys was therefore of the best

kind. The parents of some of the children, when they found their

sons going so often to the house of Tom Hicks, felt doubts as to the

safety of such intimate intercourse with the cripple, towards whom

few were prepossessed, as he bore in the village the reputation of

being ill-tempered and depraved, and questioned them very closely in

regard to the nature of their intercourse. The report of these boys

took their parents by surprise; but, on investigation, it proved to

be true, and Tom's character soon rose in the public estimation.

Then came, as a natural consequence, inquiry as to the cause of such

a change in the unfortunate lad; and the neighbor of the sick man

who had instructed Tom told the story of Mr. Croft's agency in the

matter. This interested the whole town in both the cripple and his

bedridden instructor. The people were taken by surprise at such a

notable interest of the great good which may sometimes be done where

the means look discouragingly small. Mr. Croft was praised for his

generous conduct, and not only praised, but helped by many who had,

until now, felt indifferent, towards his case--for his good work

rebuked them for neglected opportunities.

The cripple's eagerness to learn, and rapid progress under the most

limited advantages, becoming generally known, a gentleman, whose son

had been one of Tom's visitors, and who had grown to be a better boy

under his influence, offered to send him in his wagon every day to

the school-house, which stood half a mile distant, and have him

brought back in the afternoon.

It was the happiest day in Tom's life when he was helped down from

the wagon, and went hobbling into the school-room.

Before leaving home on that morning he had made his way up to the

sick room of Mr. Croft.

"I owe it all to you," he said, as he brought the white, thin hand

of his benefactor to his lips. It was damp with more than a kiss

when he laid it back gently on the bed. "And our Father in heaven

will reward you."

"You have done a good work," said the neighbor, who had urged Mr.

Croft to improve his one talent, as he sat talking with him on that

evening about the poor cripple and his opening prospects; "and it

will serve you in that day when the record of life is opened. Not

because of the work itself, but for the true charity which prompted

the work. It was begun, I know, in some self-denial, but that

self-denial was for another's good; and because you put away love of

ease, and indifference, and forced yourself to do kind offices,

seeing that it was right to help others, God will send a heavenly

love of doing good into your soul, which always includes a great

reward, and is the passport to eternal felicities.

"You said," continued the neighbor, "only a few months ago, 'What

can I do?' and spoke as a man who felt that he was deprived of all

the means of accomplishing good; and yet you have, with but little

effort, lifted a human soul out of the dark valley of ignorance,

where it was groping ill self-torture, and placed it on an ascending

mountain path. The light of hope has fallen, through your aid, with

sunny warmth upon a heart that was cold and barren a little while

ago, but is now green with verdure, and blossoming in the sweet

promise of fruit. The infinite years to come alone can reveal the

blessings that will flow from this one act of a bedridden man, who

felt that in him was no capacity for good deeds."

The advantages of a school being placed within the reach of Tom

Hicks, he gave up every thought to the acquirement of knowledge. And

now came a serious difficulty. His bent, stiff fingers could not be

made to hold either pen or pencil in the right position, or to use

them in such a way as to make intelligible signs. But Tom was too

much in earnest to give up on the first, or second, or third effort.

He found, after a great many trials, that he could hold a pencil

more firmly than at first, and guide his hand in some obedience to

his will. This was sufficient to encourage him to daily

long-continued efforts, the result of which was a gradual yielding

of the rigid muscles, which became in time so flexible that he could

make quite passable figures, and write a fair hand. This did not

satisfy him, however. He was ambitious to do better; and so kept on

trying and trying, until few boys in the school could give a fairer

copy.

"Have you heard the news?" said a neighbor to Mr. Croft, the poor

bedridden man. It was five years from the day he gave the poor

cripple, Tom Hicks, his first lesson.

"What news?" the sick man asked, in a feeble voice, not even turning

his head towards the speaker. Life's pulses were running very low.

The long struggle with disease was nearly over.

"Tom Hicks has received the appointment of teacher to our public

school."

"Are you in earnest?" There was a mingling of surprise and doubt in

the low tones that crept out upon the air.

"Yes. It is true what I say. You know that after Mr. Wilson died the

directors got Tom, who was a favorite with all the scholars, to keep

the school together for a few weeks until a successor could be

appointed. He managed so well, kept such good order, and showed

himself so capable as an instructor, that, when the election took

place to-day, he received a large majority of votes over a number of

highly-recommended teachers, and this without his having made

application for the situation, or even dreaming of such a thing."

At this moment the cripple's well-known shuffling tread and the

rattle of crutches was heard on the stairs. He came up with more

than his usual hurry. Croft turned with an effort, so as to get a

sight of him as he entered the room.

"I have heard the good news," he said, as he reached a hand feebly

towards Tom, "and it has made my heart glad."

"I owe it all to you," replied the cripple, in a voice that trembled

with feeling. "God will reward you."

And he caught the shadowy hand, touched it with his lips, and wet it

with grateful tears, as once before. Even as he held that thin,

white hand the low-moving pulse took an lower beat--lower and

lower--until the long-suffering heart grew still, and the freed

spirit went up to its reward.

"My benefactor!" sobbed the cripple, as he stood by the wasted form

shrouded in grave-clothes, and looked upon it for the last time ere

the coffin-lid closed over it. "What would I have been except for

you?"

Are your opportunities for doing good few, and limited in range, to

all appearances, reader? Have you often said, like the bedridden

man, "What can I do?" Are you poor, weak, ignorant, obscure, or even

sick as he was, and shut out from contact with the busy outside

world? No matter. If you have a willing heart, good work will come

to your hands. Is there no poor, unhappy neglected one to whom you

can speak words of encouragement, or lift out of the vale of

ignorance? Think! Cast around you. You may, by a single sentence,

spoken in the right time and in the right spirit, awaken thoughts in

some dull mind that may grow into giant powers in after times,

wielded for the world's good. While you may never be able to act

directly on society to any great purpose, in consequence of mental

or physical disabilities, you may, by instruction and guidance,

prepare some other mind for useful work, which, but for your agency,

might have wasted its powers in ignorance or crime. All around us

are human souls that may be influenced. The nurse, who ministers to

you in sickness, may be hurt or helped by you; the children, who

look into your face and read it daily, who listen to your speech,

and remember what you say, will grow better or worse, according to

the spirit of your life, as it flows into them; the neglected son of

a neighbor may find in you the wise counsellor who holds him back

from vice. Indeed, you cannot pass a single day, whether your sphere

be large or small, your place exalted or lowly, without abundant

opportunities for doing good. Only the willing heart is required. As

for the harvest, that is nodding, ripe for the sickle, in every

man's field. What of that time when the Lord of the Harvest comes,

and you bind up your sheaves and lay them at his feet?

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