Alone in the
Wide World
CRAGG was finishing his breakfast with Dot upon his knee. He liked to
have her company whenever it was possible, and breakfast being one of
his leisure times, he generally then indulged the inclination.
Whatever the pressure of business might be, he always declined
to attend to it until he had enjoyed a good morning meal.
To-day, for once, not even breakfast and the presence of Dot could
prevent an air of haste. Mr. Cragg was anxious to get out as early as
might be.
Dot was a small person, even for her limited age, with an obtrusively
turned-up nose, and a wide mouth always on the grin. Dot was not
easily suppressed. She had an aggressive look of self-confidence, and,
like a cork, though she could be pushed under water, she soon rose to
the surface again.
Without being in the least pretty, there was a certain charm in her
expression of blissful content; and the wide-awake air was startling
at less than four years old. Nothing escaped Dot. She already had her
own views, ready-made, upon most subjects which came to hand.
Mr. Cragg had been telling her, between mouthfuls of food, about the
events of the evening before; Dot listening to him, open-eyed. She
possessed big light-grey eyes, and supreme pity now filled them,
not so much for the injured man as for Pattie.
"She's a poo-ar lickle girl, ain't she?" came at the first pause.
Dot had a considerable vocabulary, but the style of pronunciation
was peculiarly her own. "Biggern me, I s'pose, dad?"
"Ever so much bigger than you, Dot."
"Evern so much," repeated Dot, with satisfaction. "And she hasn't got
no ma-ma, nor no dadda."
"I'm afraid her dadda is badly hurt. That's what I'm after now, to see
how he is, poor man."
Then Cragg was conscious of imprudence. He had not meant to let slip
this intention. When one lives with argumentative people, the less
said about one's intentions the better, and Cragg had by this time
learnt as much.
Mrs. Cragg sat at the other end of the table, in a loose gown which
could not be described as clean, while her hair was twisted up and
still in curling-pins. The effect was not becoming. She jerked up
her head, and said:
"I should think you'd wasted time enough already over those Dales.
How much do you suppose that house cost you to build?"
Cragg intimated that all the bills were not in yet.
"And how much do you imagine you'll ever make by it?"
"A good deal less than nothing, I'm afraid."
"And that's what you call 'business,' I suppose?"
"I call it one of the mistakes which the best of business men may
make, once in a way. Nobody thought of any old mine being
thereabouts."
"Somebody ought to have thought of it."
"I don't know who would. The old verger fancies now that he can
remember hearing of one which was closed nearly seventy years ago,
but he had forgotten all about it—till this happened."
"If you had taken the trouble to make proper inquiries before
building, he would have remembered, fast enough. That's just your
way of doing things."
Cragg was silent. He knew it would be useless to reply, that, when no
idea of a possible mine is entertained, people do not go about asking
after one.
"And now you'll be for ever croaking about expenses, I suppose; saying
you can't afford this, and don't mean to afford that."
The opportunity was not allowed to slip.
"I think it will be needful to draw in a little, there's no doubt,"
her husband said mildly.
"You can draw in as much as you like. Nobody minds if you do."
"It will be needful for us both, my dear; not for one only. I can't go
on at this rate."
Mrs. Cragg wanted to know what rate he meant. Mr. Cragg, being a
kindly and placid man, found it difficult to state point-blank that
his wife's bills were too heavy. He knew it must come to that, but for
the moment he temporised.
"The present rate," he explained. "Business hasn't been good lately,
and we are spending too much—a lot too much—all round."
"I s'pose you mean to say I'm spending too much, Mr. Cragg?"
Cragg did mean it, and he was silent. Mrs. Cragg held her head high,
but curling-pins are not dignified. She also grew very red, and Dot,
gazing with curious eyes, remarked,—"Ma-ma angly."
"The way you encourage that child's impertinence!"
"My dear, she does not understand. She is but a babe. I do not wish
to vex you, but it is as well that you should know my means to be—
not unlimited. I have had some heavy losses this year, and here is
another. Unless we draw in a little now, I may by-and-by find my head
under water. I think you should manage to fix upon a definite sum for
your clothes and for housekeeping, and keep to it. That is what I have
wanted to say for some time past."
"I'm very much obliged indeed!" said Mrs. Cragg.
Thereupon she flounced off in a huff, and once more Dot serenely
observed, "Ma-ma angly."
"No, no, Dot, you mustn't say that." Cragg put the child down, kissed
her, and added, "Run away to the nursery, little one."
"You'm going to see that poo-ar lickle girl, dadda?"
"Yes, yes; and when I come back, by-and-by, you shall hear how
she is."
A few minutes later Cragg was wending his way to the row of red
cottages, where lay Mr. Dale. On the road thither he met one of the
numerous children belonging to those cottages, a small shock-haired
boy, who stopped and thrust into Cragg's hand a folded slip of paper.
Cragg opened and read it:
"My father is dying. He wants to see you. Pattie Dale."
"I'll be there directly," Cragg said.
Outside the cottage door he was met by Pattie. She had watched
his approach from a window; and she looked up with grieved eyes.
"He will not live long, the doctor says. He has been worse for some
hours. Nothing more can be done. And he keeps asking for you. I don't
know why. The doctor thinks he doesn't know what he is saying, but I—I
think he does know. And we thought—I felt sure—you would come, if you
knew that he wanted you."
"My dear, of course I would. I would have come at once, if I had not
already been on my way. I would do anything that I could for him. This
is sad for you, isn't it?—poor girl!"
She gave him a watery little smile, then turned back, leading him in.
Upstairs the nurse met them.
"Mr. Dale seems to know you are here," she said. "He must have heard
your voice. He wants a few words with you alone, and I don't suppose
it can make much difference now, either way—only of course the less
excitement the better. He is very weak."
Then Cragg found himself in the small room with the dying man, whose
face was altered and fallen. The others went away.
"Is the door shut? Shut it, please." Dale spoke in faint tones. "I've
not much time. Pattie not here? That is right. Sit down, please.
I want to say something."
Cragg obeyed, much moved.
"Anything you wish me to do for you?" he asked kindly.
"Yes. Pattie."
"You want me to care for her?"
"She has no one. No friends. We are—friendless."
"How is that?" Cragg put the question involuntarily, and there was an
uneasy movement on the part of the sick man.
"Not my fault," came slowly. "I want—if you would promise me—I want—"
"Don't trouble yourself to say much. I think I understand. You want me
to see that Pattie has a home. I had thought of that already. It is
through me that you are like this. Not my fault, I hope, for nobody
had a notion of the old mine being there; but still it is through me.
I couldn't neglect your child."
"You will care for her? She will have—almost nothing of her own—
almost nothing. Only twenty pounds a year."
"That is better than nothing. I promise to see to her. Something shall
be arranged somehow." Cragg put aside recollections of his own
embarrassments and of what his wife might say. He felt that he had
no choice.
Dale's hand grasped his with a feverish clutch.
"You promise—promise—"
"I do indeed. Pattie shall never be without a friend, so long as I
live. One way or another, I'll see that she is not homeless. I will
count myself her guardian. Will that do?"
"You promise to take her in—to give her a home in your house?"
Cragg had carefully avoided giving that pledge exactly, and he
hesitated, not from personal reluctance, but from a fear of what
Mrs. Cragg might say.
"A home in your house," repeated the other faintly; and the craving
gaze overmastered his doubts.
"She shall live with us as long as she wishes to do so."
Dale's face worked.
"Thank you—thank you," was murmured. "I may be sure—I may rely on your
word?"
"I promise," repeated Cragg.
"I thought—I was sure—you would not refuse a dying man's wish."
"You say Pattie has twenty pounds a year. But you have had more
than that?"
"Yes. The rest ceases with my life. I mean—it goes elsewhere. I had—
only a life-interest."
Then a pause. Cragg wondered if he ought to go.
"Remember—one thing—" broke out the other suddenly,—"remember, if—"
"Yes. What am I to remember?"
"If he—if Mr. Peterson comes—"
"Yes. Go on. Who is Mr. Peterson?"
"He was—he was my employer before we came here. If he ever comes—
remember—I did not do it. In the sight of God I say that. It was
not I. I didn't do it. You believe me?"
"I don't quite understand. You were accused of something wrongfully?"
"Yes, wrongfully."
"And that was how you lost your friends? That was why you came away?"
"That was why. I could prove nothing. It was done by another—not me!
But they would not believe what I said. Will you believe me? I could
not keep up a lie now—in the face of death. And before God I can say
that I did not do it. Can you believe me?"
"Yes, yes! I am sure it wasn't you. At such a time as this I am sure,
quite sure, you could not tell me what was not true. I do believe
you."
"I am speaking the truth to you. I say I didn't do it, and I don't
know who did. I could not bear to be suspected by them—and they
dismissed me. So we came here. Pattie doesn't know. I don't want her
to know—unless my name is cleared some day, and everything comes out.
Only, you will remember that it was not I. And Pattie will be alone
in the world."
"No, not alone. She can never be alone while God is with her. He is
with you too—at hand to help you."
Dale smiled dimly.
"If He wasn't—I should be in a bad way now," he panted. His breath
came very painfully.
"Would you like to see the clergyman?"
"He has been. I should like to see him again. Soon—if possible."
Dale closed his eyes. Cragg wondered whether he would live until the
Vicar could come. He doubted it. He would have liked to kneel down by
the sick-bed and to offer up a few words of prayer, but shyness
withheld him. He muttered only a subdued, "God bless you, poor
fellow!" and then without another word he cautiously tip-toed from the
room. Outside the door the nurse stood waiting.
"I'll ask the Vicar to call. He says he would like to see him at once,
if I can get him. He looks bad," observed Cragg.
"He won't be here much longer. But he's ready to go," the nurse said
confidently. "To hear him praying in the night—! I'm sure I wish
everybody else was as ready as Mr. Dale is to go."
"I'm very glad," Cragg replied; and he went down the narrow staircase
to find Pattie waiting for him below.
"So kind of you to come!" she whispered. "I'm sure it has been a
comfort to him. I don't know what he wanted, but—"
"It was about you, a good deal. He didn't feel happy about your
future."
"Oh, there's time enough for thinking about me. I only have to think
of him now. And I must go. I mustn't wait. He might want me. But thank
you very much for all you have done for him; it was very good of you."
Then Cragg went home, and Pattie returned to her father's side,
to watch through the few remaining hours. He lingered over a good part
of the following day; but before the Vicar could arrive, and very soon
after Pattie's return to the room, he became unconscious. From the
unconsciousness he never rallied.
Towards the evening of the next day Pattie Dale was an orphan.