FARE YOU WELL!
The fateful Sabbath came--a day of infinite stillness, so that from
beside the tombs of the martyr Hallidays in the kirkyard of Balmaghie
you could hear the sheep bleating on the hills of Crossmichael a mile
away, the sound breaking mellow and thin upon the ear over the still and
azure river.
To me it was like the calm of the New Jerusalem. And, indeed, no place
that ever I have seen can be so blessedly quiet as the bonnie kirk-knowe
of Balmaghie, mirrored on a windless day in the encircling stillness of
the Water of Dee.
The folk gathered early, clouds upon clouds of them, so that I think
every man, woman, and child in the parish must have save the children
that could not walk, and the aged who dwelt too far away to be carried.
Alexander Gordon sat at my right hand, immediately beneath the pulpit.
There seemed an extraordinary graciousness in the singing that day, a
special fervour in the upward swell of the voices, a more excellent,
sober sweetness in the Sabbath air. And of that I must not think, for I
was to leave all this--to leave for ever the vale of blessing wherein I
had hoped to spend my days.
Yes, I would adventure forth alone rather than that a loyal folk should
suffer any more because of me. But first, so far as in me lay, I would
set right the matter of Alexander Gordon and his trouble.
It was the forty-sixth Psalm that they were singing, and as they sang
the people tell that herds on the hill stood still to listen to the
chorus of that mighty singing, and, without knowing why, the water stood
in their eyes that day. There seemed to be something by-ordinarily
moving in all that was done. Thuswise it went:
God is our refuge and our strength,
In straits a present aid,
Therefore although the earth remove,
We will not be afraid.
And as she sang I saw Mary Gordon looking past me with the glory of the
New Song in her eyes. And I knew that her heart, too, was touched.
By the pillar in the arched nook at the door stood Hob my brother, and
by him Alexander-Jonita. They looked sedately down upon one psalm-book.
And in that day I was glad to think that one man was happy.
Poor lad! That which it was laid upon me to do came as a sad surprise to
him. Out of the window, as I stood up to the sermon, I could see the
river slowly take its way. It glinted back more blue and sparkling than
ever I had seen it, and my heart gave a great stound that never more was
I to abide by the side of that quiet water, and in the sheltered nook
where I had known such strange providences. Once I had thought it would
be gladsome for me to leave it, but now, when the time came, I thought
so no more.
Even the little glimpses I had of that fair landscape through the narrow
kirk windows brought back a thousand memories. Yonder, by the thorn, I
had seen a weak one made nobler than I by the mighty power of love.
Down there beside the dark still waters I had watched the lights glimmer
in the Kirk of Crossmichael, where sat my foes, angry-eager to make an
end. But the psalm again seized my heart and held it.
A river is, whose streams do glad
The city of our God,
The Holy Place wherein the Lord
Most High hath His abode.
And in a moment the Dee Water and its memories of malice were blotted
out. The ripples played instead over the River that flows from about the
Throne of God. I saw all the warrings of earth, the heart-burnings, the
strifes, the little days and evil nights washed away in a broad flood of
grace and mercy.
I was ready to go I knew not whither. It might be that there was a work
greater and more enduring for me to do, my pilgrim staff in my hand,
among the flowe-mosses and peaty wildernesses of the South-west than
here in the well-sheltered strath of Dee.
Now, at all events, I must face the blast, the bluster and the bite of
it. But though I was to look no more on these well-kenned, kindly faces
as their minister, I knew that their hearts would hold by me, and their
lips breathe a prayer for me each day at eventide.
And so I bade them farewell. What I said to them is no man’s business
but theirs and mine, and shall not be written here. But the tears flowed
down and the voice of mourning was heard.
Then, ere I pronounced the benediction, I told them how that one dear to
me and well known to them had a certain matter to set before them.
With that uprose Alexander Gordon in the midst, looming great like a
hero seen in the morning mist.
I put him to the solemn oath, and then and there he declared before them
his innocence of the greater evil, purging himself, as the manner was,
by solemn and binding oath, which purgation had been refused him by the
Presbytery.
“By the grace and kindness of your minister, I, Alexander Gordon of
Earlstoun, being known to you all, declare myself wholly innocent of the
crime laid to my charge by the Presbytery of Kirkcudbright. May the Lord
in whom I believe have no mercy on my soul if I speak not the truth.
“But as for the lesser shame,” so he continued, “that I brought on
myself and on the cause for which I have been in time past privileged to
suffer, in that I was overcome with wine in the change-house of St.
John’s, Clachan--that much is true. With contrition do I confess it. And
I confess also to the unholy and hellish anger that descended on my
spirit, from which blackness of darkness I was brought by your
minister. For which I, unworthy, shall ever continue to praise the Lord
of mercies, who did not cut me off with my sin unconfessed or my
innocence unproclaimed.”
Alexander Gordon sat down, and there went a sigh and a murmur over all
the folk like the wind over ripe wheat in a large field.
Then I told them how that my resolve was taken, and that it was
necessary that I should depart from the midst of them in order that
there might be peace.
But one and another throughout the kirk cried, “Nay, we will not let you
go! We have fought for you; desert us not now. The bitterness of the
blast is surely over; now they will let us alone!”
Thus one and another cried out there in the kirk, but the most part only
groaned in spirit and were troubled.
“Ye shall not be less my people that another is set in my place. I go
indeed to seek a wider ministry. I have been called by the remnant of
the Hill-folk that have so long been without a pastor. Whether I am
fitted to be their minister I do not know, but in weakness and the
acknowledgment of it there is ever the beginning of strength. I have
loved your parish and you. Dear dust lies in that kirkyard out there,
and when for me the Angel of the Presence comes who calls not twice,
that is where I should like to lie, under the blossoming hawthorn trees
near by where the waters of Dee flow largely and quietly about the bonny
kirk-knowe of Balmaghie.”