THE INTERMEDIATE.
The classic precincts of Burlington House were once more invaded by a
motley crowd of nervous, excited young men, who hung about the steps
and entrance-hall, poring over their note-books, exchanging "tips,"
or coolly discussing the points of the women.
"None of them are so good-looking as the little girl with the red
hair, who was up last year," Mona overheard one of them say, and she
made a mental note to inform Lucy of her conquest.
About half-a-dozen girls were already assembled in the cloak-room
when she entered.
"Well, Miss Maclean, how are you feeling?"
"Hardened," said Mona, taking off her hat, but she did not look
particularly hardened.
"'In my heart if calm at all
If any calm, a calm despair,'"
quoted Miss Lascelles.
"Do tell me about the cardiac branches of the pneumo-gastric," said
some one.
Miss Lascelles proceeded to give the desired information, while the
others discussed the never-settled question of the number of marks
required for a pass.
"It seems to me that _x_ equals the most you can make plus one," and
Mona sighed resignedly.
"Now, ladies, please," said an imposing individual in broadcloth, and
the little party was marshalled through the hall to the
examination-room.
"Why has Miss Maclean done her hair like that?" said a student with a
mind at leisure from itself. "It is not half so becoming as the old
way."
Nor was it. Mona had made the alteration in order to change the
outline of her head as much as possible, for she was most anxious
that Dr Dudley should not recognise her, in surroundings that did not
admit of an explanation on her part. She did not venture to raise
her eyes as she entered the room, and as soon as she was seated, she
bent low over the pink and green cahiers that lay on her desk. A
minute later the examination papers were distributed, and for three
hours neither Dudley nor any other human being had any existence for
her. She wrote on till the last moment--wrote on, in fact, till the
examiner, Dudley's "monument of erudition," came up and claimed her
paper.
"I think I have seen you before," he said kindly.
"Twice," said Mona smiling, "and I am afraid you are in a fair way to
see me again."
He looked at her with some amusement and interest in his shrewd
Scotch face.
"I don't think you are much afraid of that," he said.
Mona followed him with her eye, as he turned away, and in another
moment saw him at the other end of the room, shaking hands very
cordially with Dr Dudley. She turned her back, and, hastily
gathering together her pens and coloured chalks, she left the room.
Her heart beat fast with apprehension till she reached the open air;
and, as she walked up to Regent Street for lunch, she fancied every
moment that she heard his step behind her.
But she need not have feared. For the three days that the written
examination lasted, Dudley was aware of a patch of colour at the
opposite side of the hall, where the women sat; but he was too
indifferent and preoccupied to investigate its details. He felt so
old among those boys and girls; his one wish was to get the
examination over, and be done with it.
Now that she knew where he sat, Mona had no difficulty in avoiding
his short-sighted eyes. In fact, as time went on, she grew bolder,
and loved to look on from a distance, while Dudley's fellow-students
gathered round and assailed him with a torrent of questions, the
moment each paper was over. It was pleasant to see his relations
with those lads,--the friendly raillery which they took in such good
part. Clearly they looked upon him as a very good fellow, and a mine
of wisdom.
"You are mere boys to him," thought Mona proudly. "He is willing to
play with you; but I am his friend!"
Wednesday evening came at last, and with a mingled sense of
excitement, and of weariness that amounted to physical pain, Mona
went down the steps.
Lucy was awaiting her in the street, and they betook themselves to
the nearest shop where they could get afternoon tea.
"Well," said Lucy, "what is your final judgment?"
Mona sighed. "Anatomy, very fair," she said--"morning paper
especially; Physiology--between you and me and the lamp-post--the
best paper I ever did in my life; Chemistry, safe, I think; Materia
Medica--better at least than last time."
"_Brava!_" cried Lucy.
"Oh, don't! I ought not to have said so much. It is tempting the
Fates."
"No matter. With a record like that you can afford to tempt the
Fates. Oh, Mona, I do hope you have got the Physiology medal!" She
raised her teacup. "Here's to Mona Maclean, Gold Medallist in
Physiology!"
"No, no, no," said Mona. "My paper is not on those lines at all, and
the Practical is still to come."
"And who is better prepared for that than you, with your private
laboratory, and all the rest of it?"
"I have often told you that the best work of the world is rarely done
with the best instruments."
Lucy groaned. "If three days' examination won't keep her from
moralising," she said, "it may safely be predicted that nothing will.
What a prospect?"
Mona wrote to Rachel that night, fixing the day and hour of her
arrival at Borrowness some three weeks later; and the next day she
went down to Bournemouth to visit some friends. Only a very unlikely
chance could have taken Dudley to Bournemouth too, but Mona never saw
a tall and lanky figure on the cliffs, without a sudden wild fancy
that it might be he. There was a good deal of gladness in her
agitation at these times, but she did not really want to see him
there. No, no; let things take their course! Let it all come about
quietly and naturally, at dear old Castle Maclean, in the second week
of August!
She returned to town a few days before the Practical Examination, and
found a letter from Rachel awaiting her.
"MY DEAR COUSIN,--I was very pleased to get your letter, telling me
when you were coming to pay me a visit; but there has been a great
change in my life since last I wrote you. You know I have never been
the same being since you went away. That Miss Jenkins, that you
thought so much of, did very well in the shop, and was good at
figures, but she was not like one of my own folk. Then she was a
U.P., and she had friends of her own that she always wanted to go to
in the evening; and many's the time I've been so dull that if it
hadn't been for Sally I believe I'd have gone clean daft. I wrote
and told Mary Ann about it, and she wrote back saying, wouldn't I go
and join her in America? Of course I never thought of such a thing,
but I spoke to my friends about her writing, and a few days after I
got a very good offer for the goodwill of the business. It really
was like a leading, but I never thought of that at the time. Then,
without waiting to hear from me, Mary Ann wrote again, begging me to
come. There was word of a baby coming, and naturally at such a time
she took a longing for her own flesh and blood. She never was one of
your independent ones. Then I began to think I would like to go, but
I'd an awful dread of the sea and the strangeness. Well, would you
believe it? four days ago, Mrs Anderson came in and told me her
brother was sailing to America in about ten days, with all his family
from Glasgow, and he would be very glad to look after me if I would
take my passage by the same steamer. So that settled it somehow.
It's a queer-like thing, after sitting still all one's life, to make
such a move all in a minute; but there seems to be the hand of
Providence in it all, and Mary Ann says some of their acquaintances
are most genteel, and the minister of the Baptist Chapel preaches the
word with power.
"So you see, my dear, I shall be sailing from Glasgow the very day
you were meaning to come to me. I am all in an upturn, as you may
think, with a sale in the house and what not; but if you would come a
week sooner, I'd be very pleased to see you. If you could have been
happy to stay with me, I never would have thought of all this; but I
never could have gone on as I was doing, though it is a terrible
trial to break off all the old ties.
"You must write to me often and tell me what you are doing, and
whether there is any word of your settling down in life.
"Your affectionate Cousin,
"RACHEL SIMPSON.
"_P.S._--Do you know of anything that is good for the seasickness?"
It was some time before Mona grasped the full consequences of this
letter. She even allowed herself to wonder for a moment whether Mary
Ann's difficulty in finding a lady-help had anything to do with this
cordial invitation. But that fancy was soon crowded out of her mind
by the formidable situation that had to be faced. No Rachel, no
shop,--nothing more outside of herself to blush for; but, on the
other hand, no wind-swept coast, no Castle Maclean, no long-postponed
explanation, no Dr Dudley! The truth came upon her with a force that
was absolutely crushing.
"I might have known it," she said, looking out of the window, with
white lips and unseeing eyes. "I was counting on it too much. It
has been the pivot on which my whole life has turned."
Then a bright idea occurred to her. Auntie Bell had plenty of spare
room in the farmhouse, and she was sure the dear old woman would be
glad to have a visit from her at any time.
But, when she timidly suggested it, Auntie Bell wrote back in great
distress to say that, after much persuasion, she had let her
up-stairs rooms to an artist for August. She would be so proud and
pleased if Mona would come to her in September.
But Mona had promised to join the Munros on the 15th of August.
There still remained the chance of the Practical Examination; but
Mona knew by experience that the initials D. and M. came sufficiently
far apart in the alphabet to make it very unlikely that the owners of
them would be called up at the same time.
Nor were they. Neither at Burlington House, nor at the Embankment,
did Mona see a trace of her friend. At the Practical Physiology
examination, all the students were called up together, but Mona did
not take the pass paper; she went in for honours the following day,
and her first glance round the handful of enthusiasts assembled for
six hours' unbroken work was sufficient to convince her that Dr
Dudley was not there. In this subject at least he had evidently
contented himself with a pass. In the bitterness of her
disappointment, she cared little for the results of the examination,
and so worked coolly with a steady hand. When she was called up for
her Viva she vaguely felt that she was doing better than her best,
but she did not care.
At last it was over--the examination which had once seemed to be
wellnigh the aim and end of existence; and now, though conscious of
having done well, she threw herself on the hearth-rug, in a fit of
depression that was almost maddening.
"Oh God," she groaned, "help me! I cannot bear it!"