A SINGED BUTTERFLY.
When New Year's Day came round, the little household had fallen back
into its ordinary routine. Mona had decorated the parlour with
evergreens before Rachel left her sick-room; had superintended divers
important proceedings in the kitchen; and had done her best to feel,
and to make others feel, the festive influence of the season. The
attempt had not been a very successful one, however; Rachel was at no
time susceptible to the poetry of domestic life; and when dim visions
rose in Mona's mind of giving a treat to her _protégées_, or to the
Sunday-school children, she forced herself to remember that she was
only a humble shopkeeper, bound to keep within the limits of her
_rôle_. For one night she had played a more important part, but that
was over now. She was back in her humble sphere, and, for very art's
sake, she must keep her true proportion till the end. Fortunately,
she was asked to assist in the management of one or two "treats,"
and, by means of these and a few anonymous contributions to local
charities, she--to use an expression of her own--"saved her soul
alive." She looked for no selfish enjoyment, she told herself.
Auntie Bell was the only human thing in the neighbourhood whom, for
her own sake, she really cared to see; Auntie Bell--and perhaps one
other; but, although Mona often saw the doctor's gig in those days,
she never chanced to meet the doctor.
A New Year dinner is not a very cheerful festivity in a somewhat
uncongenial _solitude à deux_, and Mona was not sorry when an
invitation came for Rachel to drink tea with a crony in the evening.
She herself was included in the invitation, but had no difficulty in
getting out of it. She was popular on the whole, among Rachel's
friends, but there was a general consensus of opinion among them
that, when it came to a regular gossip over the fire, Miss Maclean,
with all her cleverness, was a sad wet-blanket. Sally had been
promised a half-holiday, and Rachel had some compunction about
leaving her cousin alone, but Mona laughed at the idea.
"The arrangement suits me quite as well as it does you," she said; "I
am going to take some of my mince-pies to old Jenny, and I have no
doubt she will give me a cup of tea. She has been on my mind all
day. It is glorious weather for a walk, and I shall have a full moon
to light me home."
And in truth it was a glorious day for a walk. The thermometer had
fallen abruptly after a heavy mist, and the great stretch of fields
was perfectly white with the deepest hoar-frost Mona had ever seen.
From every stone in the dyke, every blade of grass by the wayside,
every hardy scrap of moss and lichen, the most exquisite ice-needles
stood out in wonderful coruscations, sparkling and blazing in the
slanting rays of the afternoon sun; a huge spider's web in the window
of an old barn looked like some marvellous piece of fairy lacework;
the cart-ruts in the more deserted roads were spanned by tiny rafters
of ice; and above all, the moon, modest and retiring as yet, looked
down from an infinitely distant expanse of pale, cloudless sky.
Very slowly the sun sank below the horizon, and the moon asserted
herself more and more; till, when Mona reached the pine-wood, the
mystic, unearthly beauty of the scene brought the actual tears into
her eyes. The silence was broken only by sounds that served to gauge
its depth; the recesses of the wood were as gloomy and mysterious as
ever; but the moonlight streamed down on graceful tops and spreading
branches, not burdened with massive whiteness, but transformed into
crystal. A pine-wood in snow is a sight to be seen, but the work of
the snow is only a daub, after all, when compared with the artist
touch of a frost like this.
Mona scarcely knew how long she stood there, unwilling even to lean
against the gate and so destroy its perfect bloom; but she was
disturbed at last by the sound of wheels on the carriage-drive. Had
the Colonel come back? Was Jenny ill? And then with a quick flash
of conviction she knew whom she was going to see.
It was Dudley, leading his horse by the bridle, and looking worn and
anxious. He brightened up and quickened his step when he saw a
woman's figure at the gate; then recognised who it was, and stopped
short, with something like a groan. Poor Dudley! A moment before he
would have given almost anything he possessed for the presence of a
female human creature, and now that his prayer was granted, how he
wished that it had been any other woman in the world than just this
one whom the Fates had sent!
He had no choice, however, and he plunged into the matter at once,
with white lips, but with a quick, resolute voice.
"I am in a sore dilemma, Miss Maclean," he said. "I was sent for
suddenly up country to a case of arsenical poisoning; and, as I went
past, they stopped me at those cottar-houses to tell me that there
was a poor soul in extremity here. It's your little Maggie, by the
way. Poor child! She may well ask herself whether life is worth
living now! Of course I had to go on to my man, but I left him
before I really ought to have done so, and now I must hurry back.
The baby is just born."
"Is Jenny here?" Mona found it difficult to speak at all in the
deafening rush of sorrow and bitterness that came over her.
"Jenny is away to Leith. Her brother's ship has just come in. The
girl came home unexpectedly, and had to get the key of the house at
the cottage. Everybody is down in the town celebrating the New Year,
except a few infants, and an infirm old man, who noticed that she was
ill and hailed me. Will you go in? There is no fire, nor comfort of
any sort for the poor child. It is no work for you----"
Mona looked up with a curious light in her eyes.
"You don't really mean that," she said quietly. "If there were only
a duchess on the road to-night, it would be her work. I suppose I
may run to the cottage for some milk? I expect Maggie has eaten
nothing all day."
His lips quivered slightly, in the relief of finding how simply she
took it.
"God bless you," he said, as he took the reins. "I believe the girl
will do well. I will be back as soon as I possibly can, and I will
send the first woman I meet to your relief."
"No, you won't," she said gently. "I would rather stay all night
than have a woman here of whom I know nothing. Go on. Good speed to
your case!"
She fetched the milk, and then ran like the wind to the house. It
was a lonely place at the best of times, and now it seemed bleak and
damp and dreary,--a fitting home for the poor little singed human
butterfly, who, in the hour of her agony, had taken refuge within its
walls.
Mona was thankful there was so much to do, for her indignation burned
like fire at the sight of that altered, chubby face. All honour to
the stern and noble women who, by the severity of their views, have
done so much to preserve the purity of their sex; but let us be
thankful, too, for those who, like Mona, in time of need lose sight
of the sinning woman in the injured suffering child.
In a very short time a bright fire was blazing in the grate; the bed
had been arranged as comfortably as might be, and Mona was holding a
cup of hot milk to the lips of the half-starved girl. Only an
invalid knows the relief of having some one in the sick-room who,
without fuss or questioning, quietly takes the helm of affairs; and
poor little Maggie looked up at her comforter with the eyes of a
hunted animal, which, bruised and bleeding, finds that it has run by
chance into a haven of rest.
For some time Mona doubted whether the baby would live till Dr
Dudley's return. It was such a puny little thing--a poor morsel of
humanity, thrust prematurely into a cold and busy world that had no
need of him. "He had better have died!" thought Mona, as she did all
that in her lay to keep him in life; and, in truth, I know not
whether the woman or the doctor in her rejoiced more truly when she
saw that all immediate danger was past.
All was peaceful, and Maggie, with the tears undried on her long
eyelashes, had fallen asleep when Dudley came back.
"I don't know how to apologise for being so long away," he said, in a
low voice. "Talk of Scylla and Charybdis!" He asked a few simple
questions, and then, leading the way into the kitchen, he pushed
forward the shabby old armchair for her, and seated himself on the
corner of the table.
"I am afraid you are very tired," he said,
"Oh no!"
"You are reserving that for to-morrow?"
He would have liked to feel her pulse, both as a matter of personal
and of scientific interest, but he did not dare.
"I wonder what poor little Maggie and I would have done without you
to-night," he said. "As it is, I have had a close shave with my man.
I found him a good deal collapsed when I went back,--cold and clammy,
with blue lines round his eyes."
"What did you do?" said Mona eagerly, with a student's interest.
"You may well ask. One's textbooks always fail one just at the point
that offers a real difficulty in practice. They tell you how to get
rid of and to neutralise the poison; they overwhelm you with Marsh's
and Reinsch's tests; but how to keep the patient alive--that is a
mere detail. Hot bottles were safe, of course, and 'in the right
direction.' I was afraid to give stimulants, in case I should
promote the absorption of any eddies of the poison, but finally I had
to chance a little whisky-and-water, and that brought him round. I
was very ill at ease about leaving you so long, but I thought some
married woman from the cottar-houses would have been here before
this."
"They won't come," said Mona, "I gave the old man a sovereign to hold
his peace." And then she bit her lip, remembering that Miss
Simpson's shop-girl could scarcely be supposed to have sovereigns to
spare.
Dudley smiled,--a half-amused but very kindly smile, that reflected
itself in a moment in Mona's face.
"Do you think it was foolish?" she asked simply.
"God forbid that I should criticise a woman's instinct in such a
matter! With my powers of persuasion, I might as well have tried to
hush up the death of a prince. I have long since decided that if I
don't want people to talk about a thing, the best plan is to
advertise it at once, then turn up the collar of my coat, fold my
arms, and--thole."
"That is all very well when only one's self is concerned, but, by the
time Jenny came back, no choice would have been left her."
"True. I might have known all along that you were right. It will be
worth more than a sovereign to be able to tell Jenny that no one
knows. And if she comes soon, the statement will do for the truth.
Heigh-ho! do you know, I could throw my cap in the air, and hurrah
like a schoolboy, when I think that my man has pulled through. A
poisoning case is no joke, I can tell you; all hurry and confusion
and uncertainty, with the prospect of a legal inquiry at the end of
it. 'Do you mean to say, sir,'--Dudley adjusted an imaginary wig and
weighed an imaginary eyeglass,--'that with a man's life at stake, you
did so-and-so?' Ugh! who says a doctor's fees are easily earned? It
would take many a jog-trot dyspepsia or liver complaint to restore
the balance after that!"
"I am quite sure of it; and now I advise you to go home and get a
night's rest if you can."
"But what am I to do about you? You don't suppose I am going to
sleep the sleep of the unjust and leave you here?"
"That is precisely what you are going to do. An hour's forced march
will do me no harm; you have had no lack of them lately. I will ask
you to leave this note for my cousin, and if you have no objection, I
think you might ask Jenny's friend, Mrs Arnot--you know who I
mean--to come up to-morrow morning. She is absolutely safe. Tell
her to wait till the shops are open, and bring me the things I have
jotted down here."
Maggie was awake by this time, and Dudley paid her a short visit
before he left. The poor girl thought the gentleman very kind, but
she was thankful when he was gone, and she was alone once more with
Mona.
"I will tell you all how it was," she sobbed out convulsively.
"Not to-night, dear," Mona said quietly, stroking the thick brown
hair. "When you are a little stronger, you shall tell me the whole
story. To-night you must lie quite still and rest. I will take care
of you."
It was a strange experience to sit there through the long hours,
listening to the regular breathing of the young mother, the steady
tick of the clock, and the occasional fall of a cinder from the
grate. It seemed so incredible that this girl--this butterfly--had
passed already, all frivolous and unprepared, through that tract of
country which, to each fresh traveller, is only less new and
mysterious than the river of death. A few months before, Mona had
felt so old and wise, compared to that ignorant child; and now a
great gulf of experience and of sorrow lay between them, and the
child was on the farther side.
More and more heavily the burden of the sorrows of her sex pressed on
Mona's heart as the night went on; more and more she longed to carry
all suffering women in her arms; more and more she felt her
unworthiness for the life-work she had chosen, till at last, half
unconsciously, she fell on her knees and her thoughts took the form
of a prayer.