CHAPTER XXXVI.

NORTHERN MISTS.

It seems gratuitously cruel to take my readers back to bleak old

Borrowness in this dreary month of December: away from the roses and

the sunshine, and the wonderful matchless blue, to the mud, and the

mist, and the barren fields, and the cold, grey sea.

Princely, luxurious Cannes! Home of the wealth of nations! stretched

out at ease like a beautiful woman, along the miles of wooded hill

that embrace the bay. Homely, work-a-day Borrowness! stooping down

all unseen, shrouded in northern mists, to gather its daily bread.

Do you indeed belong to the same world? feel the same needs? share

the same curse? Do the children play on the graves in the one as in

the other? in both do man and maid touch hands and blush and wonder?

Is there canker at the core of the luscious glowing fruit? is there

living sap in the heart of the gnarled and stunted tree? Beautiful

Cannes! resting, expanding, enjoying, smiling! Brave little

Borrowness! frowning and panting and sighing, and wiping with weary

hand the sweat from a workworn brow!

Christmas was drawing near, but it had been heralded by no fairy

frost, only by rain and fog and dull grey skies. Mona's life had

been unmarked by any event that had distinguished one day from

another. The last entry in the unwritten diary of her life was some

three weeks old, and consisted of one word in red

letters--_Stradivarius_. And yet the days had been so full, that, in

order to redeem her promise to Mr Reynolds, she had often found

herself constrained, when bedtime came, to rake together the embers

of the fire, and spend an hour over the mechanics of the circulation,

or the phenomena of isomerism. "Don't talk to me of the terpenes or

the recent work on the sugars," she wrote to a friend in London, who

had offered to send her some papers. "I have little time to read at

all; and when I do, I have sworn to keep to the beaten track.

Well-thumbed, jog-trot text-books for me; no nice damp Transactions!

Wae is me! wae is me! You must send your entrancing fairy tales to

some one else!"

Trade had continued very brisk in the little shop; indeed its

character and reputation had completely changed. A few interesting

boxes had arrived from the Stores, and the local traveller no longer

had amusing tales to relate of the way in which Miss Simpson kept

shop. In fact, had it not been for his prospects in life, and for

his desire to spare the feelings of his family, he would have been

strongly tempted to offer his heart and hand to Miss Simpson's bright

and capable assistant. It would be an advantage in many ways to have

a wife who understood the business; and, poor thing, she would not

readily find a husband in Borrowness. She was thrown away at

present--there was no doubt of that. Why, with her quick head at

figures, and her fine lady manners, she could get a situation

anywhere.

Mona, fortunately, was all unaware of the tempting fruit that dangled

just above her head. She had, it is true, some difficulty in keeping

the traveller to the point, when she had dealings with him; but her

limited intercourse with the other sex had not taught her to regard

this as peculiarly surprising.

What rejoiced her heart, far more even than the success of the shop,

was the number of women and girls who had got into the way of

consulting her about all sorts of things. "I exist here now," she

wrote to Doris, "in the dual capacity of assistant to Miss Simpson,

and of general referee on the choice of new goods and the

modification of old ones. 'Goods' is a vague term, and is to be

interpreted very liberally. It includes not only dresses and bonnets

and furniture, but also husbands."

Rachel did not at all approve of this large and unremunerative

_clientèle_. If there had been any question of "honesty and religion

like," it would have been different; but she considered that the

"hussies wasted a deal of Mona's time, when she might have been

better employed."

To Matilda Cookson, of course, she objected less; but she never could

sufficiently express her wonder at Mona's inconsistency in this

respect.

"As soon as the Cooksons begin to notice you, you just bow down like

all the rest, for all your fine talk," she said one day, in a moment

of irritation.

Mona strove to find a gentle reply in vain, so, contrary to all her

principles, she was constrained to receive the remark in irritating

silence.

Matilda Cookson had remained very true to her allegiance, and would

at this time have proved an interesting study to any psychologist

whose path she had chanced to cross. Almost at a glance he could

have divided all the opinions she uttered into two classes--those

that were her own, and those that were Mona's. The former were

expressed with timid deference; the latter were flung in the face of

her acquaintances, with a dogmatic air of finality that was none the

less irritating because the opinions themselves were occasionally

novel and striking. Matilda glowed with pride when she repeated a

bold and original remark; she stammered and blushed when one of her

own poor fledgelings stole into the light. It was on the former that

a rapidly developing reputation for "cleverness" was insecurely

based; it was the latter that delighted Mona's heart, and made her

intercourse with the girl a source of never-ceasing interest. It is

so easy to heap fuel on another mind; but to apply the first spark,

to watch it flicker, and glow, and catch hold--that is one of the

things that is worth living for.

To one of Mona's _protégées_ Rachel never even referred, and that was

the girl who had fainted at the _soirée_. Mona had taken an interest

in her patient, had prescribed a course of arsenic and green

vegetables; and the improvement in the girl's appearance had seemed

almost miraculous.

"She usedna tae be able tae gang up the stair wi'oot sittin' doon tae

get her breath," said her grandmother to Miss Simpson one day; "an'

noo, my word! she's awa' like a cat up a tree."

Rachel carefully refrained from repeating this remark to Mona. She

was afraid that so surprising a result might encourage her cousin to

persevere in a work which Rachel fondly hoped had been relinquished

for ever. The good soul had been much depressed on chancing to see

the prescription which Mona had written for the girl. Why, it was a

real prescription--like one of Dr Burns'! When a woman had got the

length of writing _that_, what was the use of telling her she would

never make a doctor? What more, when you came to think of it, did

doctors do? There was nothing for it but to encourage Mr Brown, and

Rachel forthwith determined to invite him and his sisters to tea.

The study of the _Musci_, _Algæ_, and _Fungi_ had not proved a

striking success hitherto. There had been one delightful ramble

among the rocks and pools, but since then the pursuit had somewhat

flagged. Several excursions had been arranged, but all had fallen

through. On one occasion Miss Brown had been confined to the house;

on another she had been obliged to visit an aunt who was ill; and on

a third the weather had been unpropitious.

"My dear," said Rachel one day, after the formation of the bold

resolution above recorded, "if you are going in to Kirkstoun, you

might stop at Donald's on the Shore, and order some cookies and

shortbread. To-morrow's the day the cart comes round, and I'm

expecting Mr Brown and his sisters to tea."

Mona nearly dropped the box of tape she was holding.

"Dear cousin," she said, "the sisters have never called on you, have

they?"

"No," replied Rachel frankly, "but one must make a beginning. They

offered us tea the day we were there."

"I promised Mrs Ewing that I would play the organ for the choir

practice to-morrow evening."

"Well, I'm sure I never heard the like! She just takes her use of

you."

"You must not forget that she allows me to practise on the organ

whenever I like. It is an infinite treat to me."

"And what's the use of it, I wonder? You can't take an organ about

with you when you go out to tea."

"That's perfectly true," said Mona, laughing; "it is a selfish

pleasure, no doubt."

"It all comes of your going to the English chapel in the evening. If

you'd taken my advice, you'd never have darkened its doors. They say

so much about Mr Ewing being a gentleman, but I do think it was a

queer-like thing their asking you to lunch, and never saying a word

about me. Mr Stuart doesn't set himself up for anything great, but

he did ask you to tea along with me."

"The Ewings have not been introduced to you, dear."

"And whose doing is that, I'd like to know? We've met them often

enough in the town."

Mona sighed. She considered that lunch at the Ewings' the great

mistake of her life at Borrowness. She had resolved so heroically

that Rachel's friends were to be her friends; but the invitation had

been given suddenly, and she had accepted it. She had not stopped to

think of infant baptism, or the relations of Church and State; or the

propriety of a clergyman eking out his scanty stipend by raising

prize poultry, or of allowing himself to be "taken up" by the people

at the Towers; she had had a momentary mental vision of silky damask

and of sparkling crystal, of intelligent conversation and of cultured

voices, and the temptation had proved irresistible. The meek man

lives in history by his hasty word, the truthful man's lie echoes on

throughout the ages; the sin that is in opposition to our character,

and to the resolutions of a lifetime, stands out before all the world

with hideous distinctness. So in the very nature of things, if Mona

had gone to Borrowness, as she might have done, armed with

introductions to all the county families in the neighbourhood, Rachel

would have felt herself less injured than by that single lunch at the

Ewings'.

"Well, I will order the things at Donald's," said Mona, after an

awkward silence.

"Yes; tell him I'll take the shortbread in any case, but I'll only

take the cookies if my visitors come."

"Oh, then they have not accepted yet?"

"No."

"Then I need not have distressed myself," thought Mona, "for they

certainly won't come." But she was annoyed all the same that Rachel

should have subjected herself to the unnecessary snub of a refusal.

The refusal arrived that evening. It was worded with bare civility.

They "regretted that they were unable," but they did not think it

necessary to explain why they were unable.

Rachel was very cross about the slight to herself, but she was not at

all disheartened about her plan. One trump-card was thrown away, but

she still held the king and the ace; the king was Mona's "tocher,"

and the ace was Mr Brown himself. The original damp box of plants

had been followed by a number of others, and these had latterly been

hailed by Rachel with much keener delight than they had afforded to

Mona. Mr Brown was all right; there could be no shadow of doubt

about that; and Rachel would not allow herself to fancy for a moment

that Mona might be so blind to a sense of her own interests as to

side with the Misses Brown.

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