CHAPTER IX.

DURING the first months of her married life, Mrs. Crawford often

accompanied her husband in his rounds, and waited for him in the

carriage with a book, or walked on, to be overtaken by it. But when

winter came, this was less practicable, and Ida herself less fit to

join him, whilst feeling his frequent absences more and more.

In his affectionate consideration for his girl-wife, Dr. Crawford had

been a little too anxious to make her first essay at housekeeping as

easy as possible. He knew her to be absolutely ignorant of domestic

matters, and that she had never been called on to think or plan for

others.

"She will be in good hands," thought the doctor. "Jean Graham will put

her in the way of things, and a sense of her own responsibility as the

mistress of a home will come gradually and naturally; only give her

time."

But time did not effect much change in this respect. Mrs. Crawford was

only too well satisfied to let household cares rest on the faithful

shoulders of Jean Graham, who was the very essence of capability. Jean

had first come to Shelverton, a girl of sixteen, to serve Mrs. Fereday,

and with strong recommendations from Andrew Crawford's parents, and

had been twelve years at Steynes-Cote when her mistress died. By this

event, Jean was placed at the head of the household. She had "just

guided the house," as she expressed it, until Master Andrew should

bring home a proper mistress.

Contrary both to her expectations and wishes, she was allowed to guide

it still. For though Mrs. Crawford nominally took the reins, it was

Jean's head that planned and her hands that directed, so that all ran

smoothly as before. Jean felt a certain awe of her fair young mistress,

because she was "a high-born lady," but this was mingled with a sense

of pity for her utter ignorance of domestic affairs.

"I cannot make out what her folks must have been thinking of," mused

Jean. "They have taught her just nothing. Why, by all accounts, the

very daughters of the Queen, when they were bits o' things, used to

play at housekeeping, and guide a little cottage they had, doing their

cleaning and cooking with their own hands. Food tastes sweet when

it's flavoured with work, and a spread table has a bonnie look in the

eyes of those that have planned the dishes, to say nothing of cooking

them. It's no letting down to the most high-born lady to know how the

homeliest things are done. They were grand housekeepers in the old

Bible times, when Sarah was not ashamed, at the bidding of Abraham, to

knead the meal and bake the cakes."

Day by day Jean went to receive orders from her mistress, and always

with the same result. There would be a pretence at consultation, then

Mrs. Crawford would say, with her winning smile, "Do what you think

will be best, Jean. Everything is certain to be right if you arrange

it, for you know what Dr. Crawford likes far better than I do."

"Indeed, mem, I'm much obliged to you," Jean would say, drawing herself

up with a gratified air. "It's pleasant to be trusted, but all the

same, I am not afraid of every corner being looked into. And would it

not be well for ye, mem, to learn the doctor's likings, and for your

own satisfaction to look round a wee bit more, and cast up the accounts

at the week end?"

"I am quite satisfied, Jean. Even Mrs. Prattely's lovely house is

not more beautifully kept than mine. Besides," she added, with that

musical laugh of hers, "if everything were not right, you would not be

so anxious for me to examine the corners and reckon with you for every

halfpenny. No, no, Jean; I am not clever at proverbial sayings, but

there is one which Dr. Crawford often uses when people want him to give

them medicine for imaginary ailments. It is, 'Let well alone.' I mean

to act upon it with you."

Jean Graham had a very soft heart under a somewhat rugged outside,

and when Mrs. Crawford smiled in her face, she was as wax in the

delicate hands that were of so much less use in the world than were

her work-hardened ones. She felt as though she had not only the

house to guide, but a beautiful child to care for. The faithful

woman would have scorned to take the smallest advantage of her young

mistress's easy-going trustfulness, which, though complimentary, sorely

disappointed Jean. How to rouse Mrs. Crawford into taking her rightful

place was a problem that she was constantly striving to solve, but

every effort was answered by increased assurances of confidence.

"If it were anybody else but you, Jean, I should see to things. With

you, it would be time wasted," Mrs. Crawford would say.

"Had ye not better begin with me, mem? Then, whoever comes after, ye

will be in the way of doing it."

"Surely you are not going to leave me now, Jean," said her mistress,

with a look of dismay.

"Indeed, no, mem, I'm not meanin' to leave ye; but life is uncertain,

and ye should be ready to take the guiding of things if I were called."

Mrs. Crawford's brow cleared. Was that ell? The idea of Jean conjuring

up such a bugbear to frighten her with! She was ready to laugh as she

looked at her maid's solemn face, and she said, "Why, Jean! You talk

as if you were seventy, instead of being a fine, hale young woman of

twenty-nine. You are actually a little younger than Dr. Crawford."

"That's true. But, mem, we must mind that the stones in the churchyard

have all ages on them, and the prayer, 'So teach us to number our

days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom,' fits you, my bonnie

young lady, that are only just into the twenties, as well as it does

me, that am getting close to the thirties, or the folk that are older

than both our ages put together. Surely it fits us better than it would

suit the threescore years and ten. It would be almost too late to begin

numbering our days then, when we had passed the regular span of human

life."

"Well, Jean, now you have done preaching, I will take a line out of

that same Book, and remind you that 'Sufficient for the day is the evil

thereof.'"

"And that's true enough," returned Jean reverently. "There's always

plenty of ill to battle with, and we want more than our own strength to

come off conquerors; but we may be quite sure we can never get too much

of good into any one day, or start learning a right lesson too soon.

You'll forgive me for preaching, mistress, will ye not?"

"You are a dear, good creature, Jean. I don't know what I should do

without you," replied Mrs. Crawford warmly. "But you must go on as you

have done a little longer; I cannot begin new ways just yet."

The trusty servant left her mistress's presence, wiping her eyes, and

thinking to herself, "There'll be a change by-and-by; she will have

something to think for and take up her spare time. There's wonderful

wisdom and staidness often comes to a young mother along with a baby.

It brings these with it, as well as the love, the poor bit thing!"

Certainly the arrival of the baby-girl brought a vast sense of riches

to Jean herself, and there were that glad tears in her eyes when the

doctor said he hoped the little one would be called after her late

beloved mistress.

"God grant that the babe may be like her both in ways and name!" she

said, as Dr. Crawford bent to kiss the little face of his first-born.

"If she does, she will resemble a good woman, Jean; but I think her

face is like her mother's."

Jean laughed.

"Eh, Master Andrew," she replied, lapsing into the old familiar name,

"we aye see in a new bairn's face the image of that we love best. Ye're

no clearer-sighted than the rest o' folk, if ye can find your leddy's

likeness in the bit red thing before ye."

The doctor echoed Jean's laugh.

"I daresay you are right, Jean," he said. "Little Grace will have to

be very fair to resemble her mother, and very good to be worthy of the

name I hope she will bear."

Dr. Crawford said "I hope," because the question of the baby's name had

not yet been mooted between his wife and himself. When it was, he was

not a little disappointed to hear Ida say,—

"No, Andrew; we must not call her by such an old-fashioned name. I

never liked it, and I am afraid I have cared less for it lately,

because I have heard so much of Mrs. Fereday's perfections from

everybody who knew her. The name repeated, in baby's case, would sound

like a perpetual reproach to me."

The words were lightly said, but they pained him who heard them. At

once, he resolved that the little one should not be called after his

aunt.

"The child shall not bear the name of her I so loved and honoured, if

the sound of it is to be less sweet in her mother's ears than in mine,"

thought he. He said nothing of the feeling of pain engendered by Ida's

careless words, and even in his mind, he did not blame her for them.

Love is ever ready with excuses, and Dr. Crawford had one ready for his

wife, and said to himself, "She never knew Aunt Grace, or she would now

feel as I do."

To Ida, the doctor said, "Choose any name you like. With that one

exception, all names are pretty much the same to me."

"Then we will call her Doris, for I think our little baby is the most

precious of gifts," replied Ida.

And the matter was settled.

Baby Doris was just a fortnight old on Mrs. Crawford's twenty-first

birthday. And then the doctor pointed triumphantly to the pink and

white face, and asked Jean who had been right about the likeness.

Ida was lying on a couch in her room in the daintiest of invalid

wrappers, and looking more beautiful than ever. Rather too beautiful,

thought her husband, for her face was more flushed than he liked to see

it, and bore a troubled expression.

"The second post is in, Andrew, and there is no letter," said Ida in a

tremulous voice, while the tears began to steal down her cheeks. "I did

not think Lindsay would have allowed his only sister's birthday, the

twenty-first too, to pass without a line or a good wish."

"Perhaps he has forgotten the date, darling; men are so often careless

about such things. Lord Carnelly could not be wilfully unkind. Depend

on it, we shall either see or hear from him very soon."

"I have given up all hope of seeing him here. Beatrice will take care

of that, and keep him away always, if possible. She never liked me, and

she has used her influence to prevent either my brother or his children

from coming near us, though we have been nearly a year married.

Besides, if Lindsay did not care enough about me to write a word of

congratulation, he ought to have written about the money. His trust in

regard to my little fortune ends to-day."

Dr. Crawford became alarmed, as he noticed his wife's increasing

excitement, and he strove to soothe her by appearing to make light of

the matter.

"You may hear from Lindsay yet," he said. "It would be so like him to

recollect your birthday when it was too late for writing, and to send

you a telegram. I shall not give up hope before midnight. And, darling,

remember, I am not only concerned for my wife, but answerable for the

well-being of my patient also. If you make a trouble of this little

matter, you will do yourself harm and the child too."

Dr. Crawford spoke of Lord Carnelly's neglect as a little matter, but

his conscience reproved him as he used the term. He could not think

lightly of it himself, though he strove to turn his wife's mind from

dwelling upon it. Only the day before, Ida had been so bright and

happy, smiling on her child's face, as she told the unconscious little

one that her coming had cheated mamma of her birthday party.

"But we will have it by-and-by," she said, "my baby Doris and I will

share in it, for it shall take place on the christening day, and

celebrate in a simple way my coming of age. We shall hear from Uncle

Lindsay to-morrow. I shall not need to beg for the company of nephews

or nieces, now I have this precious little daughter of my own."

On the following day, when no message came from Lord Carnelly, the

sunny look faded from Ida's face, and was followed by a troubled one.

Dr. Crawford needed no explanation to tell him that his wife was

deeply pained by her brother's neglect, and that it was preying on her

mind. He did not, however, attribute Lord Carnelly's silence to want

of affection, but to lack of money, and said to himself, "How could

Lindsay write a congratulatory letter without also alluding to business

matters? Poor fellow! He desires to do what is kind and right, but his

wife's influence stands in the way of the one, and her extravagance

renders the other impossible."

Dr. Crawford had long been aware, through another channel, that his

wife's little fortune ought to have been paid to him on her wedding

day, and that Lord Carnelly had purposely deferred the payment. He was

more really sorry for the want of candour in his brother-in-law than

concerned about the money itself. They had been such friends in the old

days, and Dr. Crawford thought sorrowfully, "He might have trusted me.

Surely I was not likely to be less his friend because of the new family

tie between us."

The doctor had abundant cause for displeasure, as even the interest

of the money had not been paid; but he was far more anxious about Ida

herself, and desirous that she should not be injured by the uneasiness

which her brother's silence had caused. He accordingly telegraphed to

Lord Carnelly, and begged him to send a message to his sister through

the same medium, as she was grieved at his apparent neglect. The answer

was prepaid, and it came in these words:—

"Lord Carnelly absent; yachting with a friend. No certain address.

Expected home shortly. Telegram shall be forwarded as soon as possible."

Dr. Crawford recognised the name of the sender, John Morris, as that of

Lord Carnelly's butler, and wondered a little that no allusion was made

to Lady Carnelly.

"She must be from home also," he thought; "and no doubt Morris, who is

a trustworthy man, is left in charge, and bidden to answer any such

communication as mine."

The doctor was mistaken in this supposition. Lady Carnelly was at home,

but did not choose to answer the telegram herself. She therefore bade

Morris use his own name, though she wrote the message apparently sent

by the servant.

Scanty as was the intelligence thus conveyed, it was better than

nothing, and Dr. Crawford hastened with it to his wife's side.

"I telegraphed an inquiry about Lindsay," he said, "and here is the

reply. You see, darling, your brother is away, and probably out of

postal bounds, so there is a fair excuse for his silence. You will hear

from him before long."

The doctor spoke cheerfully, but Ida was not satisfied.

"He ought to have written," she said. "He had no right to pass over

this birthday. I did so wish you to receive the little I can claim as

my own, Andrew. So little, too, in comparison with Lindsay's share, and

yet he withholds it."

The doctor would only treat the matter lightly.

"Then, dearest, we will not make a great trouble about this little,

but rather be thankful that we are in no way dependent on it. When you

placed this dear hand in mine, you bestowed the best you had to give,

for I know your heart was given with it."

"No, Andrew," interrupted Ida, with a bright smile. "The heart was

yours long before."

"True, darling, and I like to hear you say so, and to see the shadow

clearing from your face." He kissed her tenderly, adding, as he passed

his hand lovingly over her shining hair, "For ten times the sum your

brother holds, I would not have you suffer an hour's real heartache.

The settlement is only a question of time."

Won back to smiles by her husband's cheery words and bright face, Mrs.

Crawford strove to think that this neglect of Lindsay's did not arise

from wilful unkindness.

"He never was a good man of business," she said, "and he always put off

letter-writing as long as possible. I am sure you are right, Andrew. I

will not worry myself and you about what cannot at present be helped. I

suppose, so long as the interest is paid, a little delay cannot matter

much."

"Certainly not, dear," was the cheerful answer.

But Dr. Crawford did not tell his wife that hitherto he had received no

interest from Lord Carnelly.

Before night, a second telegram was delivered at the surgery door, and

this caused serious anxiety to Andrew Crawford.

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