CHAPTER XXI.

IN WHICH CAPTAIN LAKE VISITS HIS SISTER'S SICK BED.

I suspect there are very few mere hypocrites on earth. Of course, I do

not reckon those who are under compulsion to affect purity of manners and

a holy integrity of heart--and there are such--but those who volunteer an

extraordinary profession of holiness, being all the while conscious

villains. The Pharisees, even while devouring widows' houses, believed

honestly in their own supreme righteousness.

I am afraid our friend Jos. Larkin wore a mask. I am sure he often wore

it when he was quite alone. I don't know indeed, that he ever took it

off. He was, perhaps, content to see it, even when he looked in the

glass, and had not a very distinct idea what the underlying features

might be. It answers with the world; it almost answers with himself. Pity

it won't do everywhere! 'When Moses went to speak with God,' says the

admirable Hall, 'he pulled off his veil. It was good reason he should

present to God that face which he had made. There had been more need of

his veil to hide the glorious face of God from him than to hide his from

God. Hypocrites are contrary to Moses. He showed his worst to men, his

best to God; they show their best to men, their worst to God; but God

sees both their veil and their face, and I know not whether He more hates

their veil of dissimulation or their face of wickedness.'

Captain Lake wanted rest--sleep--quiet thoughts at all events. When he

was alone he was at once in a state of fever and gloom, and seemed always

watching for something. His strange eyes glanced now this way, now that,

with a fierce restlessness--now to the window--now to the door--and you

would have said he was listening intently to some indistinct and too

distant conversation affecting him vitally, there was such a look of fear

and conjecture always in his face.

He bolted his door and unlocked his dressing case, and from a little

silver box in that glittering repository he took, one after the other,

two or three little wafers of a dark hue, and placed them successively on

his tongue, and suffered them to melt, and so swallowed them. They were

not liquorice. I am afraid Captain Lake dabbled a little in opium. He was

not a great adept--yet, at least--like those gentlemen who can swallow

five hundred drops of laudanum at a sitting. But he knew the virtues of

the drug, and cultivated its acquaintance, and was oftener under its

influence than perhaps any mortal, except himself, suspected.

The greater part of mankind are, upon the whole, happier and more

cheerful than they are always willing to allow. Nature subserves the

majority. She smiled very brightly next morning. There was a twittering

of small birds among the brown leaves and ivy, and a thousand other

pleasant sounds and sights stirring in the sharp, sunny air. This sort of

inflexible merry-making in nature seems marvellously selfish in the eyes

of anxious Captain Lake. Fear hath torment--and fear is the worst

ingredient in mental pain. This is the reason why suspense is so

intolerable, and the retrospect even of the worst less terrible.

Stanley Lake would have given more than he could well afford that it were

that day week, and he no worse off. Why did time limp so tediously away

with him, prolonging his anguish gratuitously? He felt truculently, and

would have murdered that week, if he could, in the midst of its loitering

sunshine and gaiety.

There was a strange pain at his heart, and the pain of intense and

fruitless calculation in his brain; and, as the Mahometan prays towards

Mecca, and the Jew towards Jerusalem, so Captain Lake's morning orisons,

whatsoever they were, were offered at the window of his bed-room toward

London, from whence he looked for his salvation, or it might be the other

thing--with a dreadful yearning.

He hated the fresh glitter of that morning scene. Why should the world be

cheerful? It was a repast spread of which he could not partake, and it

spited him. Yes; it was selfish--and hating selfishness--he would have

struck the sun out of the sky that morning with his walking-cane, if he

could, and draped the world in black.

He saw from his window the good vicar walk smiling by, in white choker

and seedy black, his little boy holding by his fingers, and capering and

wheeling in front, and smiling up in his face. They were very busy

talking.

Little 'Fairy' used to walk, when parochial visits were not very distant,

with his 'Wapsie;' how that name came about no one remembered, but the

vicar answered to it more cheerily than to any other. The little man was

solitary, and these rambles were a delight. A beautiful smiling little

fellow, very exacting of attention--troublesome, perhaps; he was so

sociable, and needed sympathy and companionship, and repaid it with a

boundless, sensitive _love_. The vicar told him the stories of David and

Goliath, and Joseph and his brethren, and of the wondrous birth in

Bethlehem of Judea, the star that led the Wise Men, and the celestial

song heard by the shepherds keeping their flocks by night, and snatches

of 'Pilgrim's Progress'; and sometimes, when they made a feast and eat

their pennyworth of cherries, sitting on the style, he treated him, I am

afraid, to the profane histories of Jack the Giant-killer and the Yellow

Dwarf; the vicar had theories about imagination, and fancied it was an

important faculty, and that the Creator had not given children their

unextinguishable love of stories to no purpose.

I don't envy the man who is superior to the society of children. What can

he gain from children's talk? Is it witty, or wise, or learned? Be frank.

Is it not, honestly, a mere noise and interruption--a musical cackling of

geese, and silvery braying of tiny asses? Well, say I, out of my large

acquaintance, there are not many men to whom I would go for wisdom;

learning is better found in books, and, as for wit, is it always

pleasant? The most companionable men are not always the greatest

intellects. They laugh, and though they don't converse, they make a

cheerful noise, and show a cheerful countenance.

There was not a great deal in Will Honeycomb, for instance; but our dear

Mr. Spectator tells us somewhere that 'he laughed easily,' which I think

quite accounts for his acceptance with the club. He was kindly and

enjoying. What is it that makes your dog so charming a companion in your

walks? Simply that he thoroughly likes you and enjoys himself. He appeals

imperceptibly to your affections, which cannot be stirred--such is God's

will--ever so lightly, without some little thrillings of happiness; and

through the subtle absorbents of your sympathy he infuses into you

something of his own hilarious and exulting spirit.

When Stanley Lake saw the vicar, the lines of his pale face contracted

strangely, and his wild gaze followed him, and I don't think he breathed

once until the thin smiling man in black, with the little gambolling

bright boy holding by his hand, had passed by. He was thinking, you may

be sure, of his Brother Mark.

When Lake had ended his toilet and stared in the glass, he still looked

so haggard, that on greeting Mr. Larkin in the parlour, he thought it

necessary to mention that he had taken cold in that confounded

billiard-room last night, which spoiled his sleep, and made him awfully

seedy that morning. Of course, his host was properly afflicted and

sympathetic.

'By-the-bye, I had a letter this morning from that party--our common

friend, Mr. W., you know,' said Larkin, gracefully.

'Well, what is he doing, and when does he come back? You mean Wylder, of

course?'

'Yes; my good client, Mr. Mark Wylder. Permit me to assist you to some

honey, you'll find it remarkably good, I venture to say; it comes from

the gardens of Queen's Audley. The late marquis, you know, prided himself

on his honey--and my friend, Thornbury, cousin to Sir Frederick

Thornbury--I suppose you know him--an East Indian judge, you know--very

kindly left it at Dollington for me, on his way to the Earl of Epsom's.'

'Thank you--delicious, I'm sure, it has been in such good company. May I

see Wylder's note--that is, if there's no private business?'

'Oh, certainly.'

And, with Wylder's great red seal on the back of the envelope, the letter

ran thus:--

'DEAR LARKIN,--I write in haste to save post, to say I shall be detained

in town a few days longer than I thought. Don't wait for me about the

parchments; I am satisfied. If anything crosses your mind, a word with

Mr. De C. at the Hall, will clear all up. Have all ready to sign and seal

when I come back--certainly, within a week.

'Yours sincerely,

'M. WYLDER,

'London.'

It was evidently written in great haste, with the broad-nibbed pen he

liked; but notwithstanding the sort of swagger with which the writing

marched across the page, Lake might have seen here and there a little

quaver--indicative of something different from haste--the vibrations of

another sort of flurry.

'"Certainly within a week," he writes. Does he mean he'll be here in a

week or only to have the papers ready in a week?' asked Lake.

'The question, certainly, does arise. It struck me on the first perusal,'

answered the attorney. 'His address is rather a wide one, too--London! Do

you know his club, Captain Lake?'

'The _Wanderers_. He has left the _United Service_. Nothing for me,

by-the-way?'

'No letter. No.'

'_Tant mieux_, I hate them,' said the captain. 'I wonder how my sister is

this morning.'

'Would you like a messenger? I'll send down with pleasure to enquire.'

'Thank you, no; I'll walk down and see her.'

And Lake yawned at the window, and then took his hat and stick and

sauntered toward Gylingden. At the post-office window he tapped with the

silver tip of his cane, and told Miss Driver with a sleepy smile--

'I'm going down to Redman's Farm, and any letters for my sister, Miss

Lake, I may as well take with me.'

Everybody 'in business' in the town of Gylingden, by this time, knew

Captain Lake and his belongings--a most respectable party--a high man;

and, of course, there was no difficulty. There was only one letter--the

address was written--'Miss Lake, Redman's Farm, near Brandon Park,

Gylingden,' in a stiff hand, rather slanting backwards.

Captain Lake put it in his paletot pocket, looked in her face gently, and

smiled, and thanked her in his graceful way--and, in fact, left an

enduring impression upon that impressible nature.

Turning up the dark road at Redman's Dell, the gallant captain passed the

old mill, and, all being quiet up and down the road, he halted under the

lordly shadow of a clump of chestnuts, and opened and read the letter he

had just taken charge of. It contained only these words:--

'Wednesday.

'On Friday night, next, at half-past twelve.'

This he read twice or thrice, pausing between whiles. The envelope bore

the London postmark. Then he took out his cigar case, selected a

promising weed, and wrapping the laconic note prettily round one of his

scented matches, lighted it, and the note flamed pale in the daylight,

and dropped still blazing, at the root of the old tree he stood by, and

sent up a little curl of blue smoke--an incense to the demon of the

wood--and turned in a minute more into a black film, overrun by a hundred

creeping sparkles; and having completed his mysterious incremation, he,

with his yellow eyes, made a stolen glance around, and lighting his

cigar, glided gracefully up the steep road, under the solemn canopy of

old timber, to the sound of the moaning stream below, and the rustle of

withered leaves about him, toward Redman's Farm.

As he entered the flower-garden, the jaundiced face of old Tamar, with

its thousand small wrinkles and its ominous gleam of suspicion, was

looking out from the darkened porch. The white cap, kerchief, and

drapery, courtesied to him as he drew near, and the dismal face changed

not.

'Well, Tamar, how do you do?--how are all? Where is that girl Margery?'

'In the kitchen, Master Stanley,' said she, courtesying again.

'Are you sure?' said Captain Lake, peeping toward that apartment over the

old woman's shoulder.

'Certain sure, Master Stanley.'

'Well, come up stairs to your mistress's room,' said Lake, mounting the

stairs, with his hat in his hand, and on tip-toe, like a man approaching

a sick chamber.

There was something I think grim and spectral in this ceremonious ascent

to the empty chamber. Children had once occupied that silent floor for

there was a little balustraded gate across the top of the staircase.

'I keep this closed,' said old Tamar, 'and forbid her to cross it, lest

she should disturb the mistress. Heaven forgive me!'

'Very good,' he whispered, and he peeped over the banister, and then

entered Rachel's silent room, darkened with closed shutters, the white

curtains and white coverlet so like 'the dark chamber of white death.'

He had intended speaking to Tamar there, but changed his mind, or rather

could not make up his mind; and he loitered silently, and stood with the

curtain in his gloved hand, looking upon the cold coverlet, as if Rachel

lay dead there.

'That will do,' he said, awaking from his wandering thought. 'We'll go

down now, Tamar.'

And in the same stealthy way, walking lightly and slowly, down the stairs

they went, and Stanley entered the kitchen.

'How do you do, Margery? You'll be glad to hear your mistress is better.

You must run down to the town, though, and buy some jelly, and you are to

bring her back change of this.'

And he placed half-a-crown in her hand.

'Put on your bonnet and my old shawl, child; and take the basket, and

come back by the side door,' croaked old Tamar.

So the girl dried her hands--she was washing the teacups--and in a

twinkling was equipped and on her way to Gylingden.

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