CHAPTER XXXV

THE ULTIMATE CHOICE

We carried her home next day in George's motor car, ploughing with

difficulty over the heavy roads, which in a month's time would have

become impassable. A golden morning had followed the rain; the sun shone

clear, the wind sang in the bronzed tree-tops, and on the low hills to

the right of us, the harvested corn ricks stood out illuminated against

a deep blue sky. When the brown-winged birds flew, as they sometimes

did, across the road, her eyes measured their flight with a look in

which there was none of the radiant impulse I had seen on that afternoon

when she gazed after the flying swallows. She spoke but seldom, and then

it was merely to thank me when I wrapped the fur rug about her, or to

reply to a question of George's with a smile that had in it a touching

helplessness, a pathetic courage. And this helplessness, this courage,

brought to my memory the sound of her voice when she had called George's

name aloud in her terror. Even after we had reached home, and when she

and I stood alone, for a minute, before the fire in her room, I felt

still that something within her--something immaterial and flamelike that

was her soul--turned from me, seeking always a clearer and a diviner

air.

"Are you in pain now, Sally? What can I do for you?" I asked.

"No, I am better. Don't worry," she answered.

Then, because there seemed nothing further to say, I stood in silence,

while she moved from me, as if the burden of her weight was too much for

her, and sank down on the couch, hiding her face in the pillows.

Two days later there came down a great specialist from New York for a

consultation; and while he was upstairs in her closed bedroom, I walked

up and down the floor of the library, over the Turkish rugs, between the

black oak bookcases, as I had walked in that other house on the night of

my failure. How small a thing that seemed to me now compared with this!

What I remembered best from that night was the look in her face when she

had turned and run back to me with her arms outstretched, and the warm,

flattened braid of her hair that had brushed my cheek. I understood at

last, as I walked restlessly back and forth, waiting for the verdict

from the closed room, that I had been happy then--if I had only known

it! The warmth stifled me, and going to the window, I flung it open, and

leaned out into the mild November weather. In the street below leaves

were burning, and while the odour floated up to me I saw again her red

shoes dancing over the sunken graves in the churchyard.

The door opened above, there was the sound of a slow heavy tread on the

staircase, and I went forward to meet the great specialist as he came

into the room.

For a minute he looked at me enquiringly over a pair of black-rimmed

glasses, while I stood there neither thinking nor feeling, but waiting.

Something in my brain, which until then had seemed to tick the slow

movement of time, came suddenly to a stop like a clock that has run

down.

"In my opinion an operation is unnecessary, Mr. Starr," he said, drawing

out his watch as he spoke, "and in your wife's present condition I

seriously advise against it. The injury to the spine may not be

permanent, but there is only one cure for it--time--time and rest. To

make recovery possible she should have absolute quiet, absolute freedom

from care. She must be taken to a milder climate,--I would suggest

southern California,--and she must be kept free from mental disturbance

for a number of years."

"In that case there is hope of recovery?"

For an instant he stared at me blankly, his gaze wandering from his

watch to the clock on the mantel, as if there were a discrepancy in the

time, which he would like to correct.

"Ah, yes, hope," he replied suddenly, in a cheerful voice, "there is

always hope." Then having uttered his confession of faith, he appeared

to grow nervous. "Have you a time-table on your desk?" he enquired. "I'd

like to look up an earlier train than the Florida special."

Having looked up his train, he turned to shake hands with me, while the

abstracted and preoccupied expression in his face grew a trifle more

human, as if he had found what he wanted.

"What your wife needs, my dear sir," he remarked, as he went out, "is

not medical treatment, but daily and hourly care."

A minute later, when the front door had closed after him, and the motor

car had borne him on his way to the station, I stood alone in the room,

repeating his words with a kind of joy, as if they contained the secret

of happiness for which I had sought. "Daily and hourly care, daily and

hourly care." I tried to think clearly of what it meant--of the love,

the sacrifice, the service that would go into it. I tried, too, to think

of her as she was lying now, still and pale in the room upstairs, with

the expression of touching helplessness, of pathetic courage, about her

mouth; but even as I made the effort, the scent of burning leaves

floated again through the window and I could see her only in her red

shoes dancing over the sunken graves. "Daily and hourly care," I

repeated aloud.

The words were still on my lips when old Esdras, stepping softly, came

in and put a telegram into my hands, and as I tore it open, I said over

slowly, like one who impresses a fact on the memory, "What your wife

needs is daily and hourly care." Ah, she should have it. How she should

have it! Then my eyes fell on the paper, and before I read the words, I

knew that it was the offer of the presidency of the Great South Midland

and Atlantic Railroad. The end of my ambition, the great adventure of my

boyhood, lay in my grasp.

With the telegram still in my hand, I went up the staircase, and entered

the bedroom where Sally was lying, with wide, bright eyes, in the

dimness.

"It's good news," I said, as I bent over her, "there's only good news

to-day."

She looked up at me with that searching brightness I had seen when she

gazed straight beyond me for the help that I could not give.

"It means going away from everything I have ever known," she said

slowly; "it means leaving you, Ben."

"It means never leaving me again in your life," I replied; "not for a

day--not for an hour."

"You will go, too?" she asked, and the faint wonder in her face pierced

to my heart.

"Do you think I'd be left?" I demanded.

Her eyes filled and as she turned from me, a tear fell on my hand.

"But your work, your career--oh, no, no, Ben, no."

"You are my career, darling, I have never in my heart had any career but

you. What I am, I am yours, Sally, but there are things that I cannot

give you because they are not mine, because they are not in me. These

are the things that were George's."

Lifting my hand she kissed it gently and let it fall with a gesture that

expressed an acquiescence in life rather than a surrender to love.

"I've sometimes thought that if I hadn't loved you first, Ben--if I

could ever have changed, I should have loved George," she said, and

added very softly, like one who seeks to draw strength from a radiant

memory, "but I had already loved you once for all, I suppose, in the

beginning."

"I am yours, such as I am," I returned. "Plain I shall always be--plain

and rough sometimes, and forgetful to the end of the little things--but

the big things are there as you know, Sally, as you know."

"As I know," she repeated, a little sadly, yet with the pathetic courage

in her voice; "and it is the big things, after all, that I've wanted

most all my life."

Then she shook her head with a smile that brought me to my knees at her

side.

"You've forgotten the railroad," she said. "You've forgotten the

presidency of the South Midland--that's what _you_ wanted most."

My laugh answered her. "Hang the presidency of the South Midland!" I

responded gaily.

Her brows went up, and she looked at me with the shadow of her old

charming archness. By this look I knew that the spirit of the Blands

would fight on, though always with that faint wonder. Then her eyes fell

on the crumpled telegram I still held in my hand, and she reached to

take it.

"What is that, dear?" she asked.

Breaking away from her, I walked to the fireplace and tossed the offer

of the presidency of the South Midland and Atlantic Railroad into the

grate. It caught slowly, and I stood there while it flamed up, and then

crumbled with curled fiery ends among the ashes. When it was quite gone,

I turned and came back to her.

"Only a bit of waste paper," I answered.

Mr. JAMES LANE ALLEN'S NOVELS

The Choir Invisible

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Outlook_.

The Reign of Law. A Tale of the Kentucky Hempfields

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as Hawthorne's, and he has also Hawthorne's fondness for spiritual

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right way, it cannot fail to add to one's spiritual

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The Mettle of the Pasture

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and English fiction, and that it is worth the reading, the

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Summer in Arcady. A Tale of Nature

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_Shorter Stories_

The Blue Grass Region of Kentucky

Flute and Violin, and Other Kentucky Tales

The Bride of the Mistletoe

A Kentucky Cardinal.

Aftermath. A Sequel to "A Kentucky Cardinal"

Mr. F. MARION CRAWFORD'S NOVELS

Mr. Crawford has no equal as a writer of brilliant cosmopolitan fiction,

in which the characters really belong to the chosen scene and the story

interest is strong. His novels possess atmosphere in a high degree.

Mr. Isaacs (India)

Its scenes are laid in Simla, chiefly. This is the work which first

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Greifenstein (The Black Forest)

"... Another notable contribution to the literature of the day. It

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Zoroaster (Persia)

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The Witch of Prague (Bohemia)

"_A fantastic tale," illustrated by W. J. Hennessy._

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Paul Patoff (Constantinople)

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Marietta (Venice)

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complicated plot and the skilful unravelling of the tangled

skein."--_Chicago Record-Herald._

"He has gone back to the field of his earlier triumphs, and has,

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THE SARACINESCA SERIES

Saracinesca

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Sant' Ilario. A Sequel to "Saracinesca"

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in human action, without owing any of its effectiveness to

sensationalism or artifice. It is natural, fluent in evolution,

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Don Orsino. A Sequel to "Sant' Ilario"

"Perhaps the cleverest novel of the year.... There is not a dull

paragraph in the book, and the reader may be assured that once begun,

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Taquisara

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subtly drawn characters to a plot of uncommon interest."--_Chicago

Tribune._

Corleone

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imagination, and insight added to a varied and profound knowledge of

social life."--_The Inter-Ocean_, Chicago.

Casa Braccio. _In two volumes, $2.00._ Illustrated by A. Castaigne.

"Mr. Crawford's books have life, pathos, and insight; he tells a

dramatic story with many exquisite touches."--_New York Sun._

The White Sister

NOVELS OF ROMAN SOCIAL LIFE

A Roman Singer

"One of the earliest and best works of this famous novelist.... None but

a genuine artist could have made so true a picture of human life,

crossed by human passions and interwoven with human weakness. It is a

perfect specimen of literary art."--_The Newark Advertiser._

Marzio's Crucifix

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could not have been written otherwise, so naturally does the story

unfold itself, and so logical and consistent is the sequence of incident

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Heart of Rome. A Tale of the Lost Water

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genuine thrill in it; he has drawn his characters with a sure and

brilliant touch, and he has said many things surpassingly well."--_New

York Times Saturday Review._

Cecilia. A Story of Modern Rome

"That F. Marion Crawford is a master of mystery needs no new telling....

His latest novel, _Cecilia_, is as weird as anything he has done since

the memorable _Mr. Isaacs_.... A strong, interesting, dramatic story,

with the picturesque Roman setting beautifully handled as only a

master's touch could do it."--_Philadelphia Evening Telegraph._

Whosoever Shall Offend

"It is a story sustained from beginning to end by an ever increasing

dramatic quality."--_New York Evening Post._

Pietro Ghisleri

"The imaginative richness, the marvellous ingenuity of plot, the power

and subtlety of the portrayal of character, the charm of the romantic

environment,--the entire atmosphere, indeed,--rank this novel at once

among the great creations."--_The Boston Budget._

To Leeward

"The four characters with whose fortunes this novel deals are, perhaps,

the most brilliantly executed portraits in the whole of Mr. Crawford's

long picture gallery, while for subtle insight into the springs of human

passion and for swift dramatic action none of the novels surpasses this

one."--_The News and Courier._

A Lady of Rome

Via Crucis. A Romance of the Second Crusade.

"_Via Crucis...._ A tale of former days, possessing an air of reality

and an absorbing interest such as few writers since Scott have been able

to accomplish when dealing with historical characters."--_Boston

Transcript._

In the Palace of the King (Spain)

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With the Immortals

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and progress, while its execution, the setting it forth in proper

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assimilative knowledge both literary and scientific, and no less by his

courage and capacity for hard work. The book will be found to have a

fascination entirely new for the habitual reader of novels. Indeed, Mr.

Crawford has succeeded in taking his readers quite above the ordinary

plane of novel interest."--_Boston Advertiser._

Children of the King (Calabria)

"One of the most artistic and exquisitely finished pieces of work that

Crawford has produced. The picturesque setting, Calabria and its

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bewitching accessories that climate, sea, and sky afford, give Mr.

Crawford rich opportunities to show his rare descriptive powers. As a

whole the book is strong and beautiful through its simplicity, and ranks

among the choicest of the author's many fine productions."--_Public

Opinion._

A Cigarette Maker's Romance (Munich)

and Khaled, a Tale of Arabia

"Two gems of subtle analysis of human passion and motive."--_Times._

"The interest is unflagging throughout. Never has Mr. Crawford done more

brilliant realistic work than here. But his realism is only the case and

cover for those intense feelings which, placed under no matter what

humble conditions, produce the most dramatic and the most tragic

situations.... This is a secret of genius, to take the most coarse and

common material, the meanest surroundings, the most sordid material

prospects, and out of the vehement passions which sometimes dominate all

human beings to build up with these poor elements, scenes and passages

the dramatic and emotional power of which at once enforce attention and

awaken the profoundest interest."--_New York Tribune._

Arethusa (Constantinople)

Dr. Cooper, in _The Bookman_, once gave to Mr. Crawford the title which

best marks his place in modern fiction: "the prince of storytellers."

A Tale of a Lonely Parish

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and vivid story.... It is doubly a success, being full of human

sympathy, as well as thoroughly artistic in its nice balancing of the

unusual with the commonplace, the clever juxtaposition of innocence and

guilt, comedy and tragedy, simplicity and intrigue."--_Critic._

Dr. Claudius. A True Story

The scene changes from Heidelberg to New York, and much of the story

develops during the ocean voyage.

"There is a satisfying quality in Mr. Crawford's strong, vital, forceful

stories."--_Boston Herald._

An American Politician. The scenes are laid in Boston

"It need scarcely be said that the story is skilfully and picturesquely

written, portraying sharply individual characters in well-defined

surroundings."--_New York Commercial Advertiser._

The Three Fates

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human nature and his finest resources as a master of an original and

picturesque style to bear upon this story. Taken for all in all, it is

one of the most pleasing of all his productions in fiction, and it

affords a view of certain phases of American, or perhaps we should say

of New York, life that have not hitherto been treated with anything like

the same adequacy and felicity."--_Boston Beacon._

Marion Darche

"Full enough of incident to have furnished material for three or four

stories.... A most interesting and engrossing book. Every page unfolds

new possibilities, and the incidents multiply rapidly."--_Detroit Free

Press._

"We are disposed to rank _Marion Darche_ as the best of Mr. Crawford's

American stories."--_The Literary World._

Katharine Lauderdale

The Ralstons. A Sequel to "Katharine Lauderdale"

"Mr. Crawford at his best is a great novelist, and in _Katharine

Lauderdale_ we have him at his best."--_Boston Daily Advertiser._

"A most admirable novel, excellent in style, flashing with humor, and

full of the ripest and wisest reflections upon men and women."--_The

Westminster Gazette._

"It is the first time, we think, in American fiction that any such

breadth of view has shown itself in the study of our social

framework."--_Life._

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