MIRIAM.
Six years had passed away. Thurston Willcoxen was the most beloved and
honored man, as well as the most distinguished clergyman of his day and
state. His church was always crowded, except when he changed with some
brother minister, whose pulpit was within reach--in which case, a great
portion of his congregation followed him. Many flattering "calls" had
the gifted and eloquent country parson received to metropolitan
parishes; but he remained the faithful shepherd of his own flock as long
as they would hear his voice.
As Miriam grew into womanhood prudence kept her silent on the subject of
her strange vow. She, however, preserved in her memory the slight
indexes that she already had in possession--namely, beginning with
Marian's return after her visit to Washington--her changed manner, her
fits of reverie, her melancholy when she returned empty-handed from the
post-office, her joy when she received letters, which she would read in
secret and in silence, or when questioned concerning them, would gently
but firmly decline to tell from whom or whence they came; the
house-warming at Luckenough, where Marian suddenly became so bright and
gay, and the evening succeeding, when she returned home through night
and storm, and in such anguish of mind, that she wept all night; and the
weeks of unexplained, unaccountable distress that followed this! All
these things Miriam recalled, and studied if by any means they might
direct her in the discovery of the guilty.
And her faithful study had ended in her assurance of one or two
facts--or one or two links, perhaps, we should say, in the chain of
evidence. The first was, that Marian's mysterious lover had been present
in the neighborhood, and perhaps, in the mansion at the time of the
house-warming at Luckenough--that he had met her once or more, and that
his name was not Thomas Truman--that the latter was an assumed name,
for, with all her observation and astute investigation, she had not been
able to find that any one of the name of Truman had ever been seen or
heard of in the county.
She was sure, also, that she had seen the man twice, both times in night
and storm, when she had wandered forth in search of Marian.
She remembered well the strange figure of that man--the tall form
shrouded in the black cloak--the hat drawn over the eyes--the faint
spectral gleam of the clear-cut profile--the peculiar fall of light and
shade, the decided individuality of air and gait--all was distinct as a
picture in her memory, and she felt sure that she would be able to
identify that man again.
Up to this time, the thought of her secret vow, and her life's mission,
had afforded only a romantic and heroic excitement; but the day was fast
approaching when these indexes she retained, should point to a clue that
should lead through a train of damning circumstantial evidence destined
to test her soul by an unexampled trial.
Paul Douglass had grown up to be a tall and handsome youth, of a very
noble, frank, attractive countenance and manners. To say that he loved
Miriam is only to say that he loved himself. She mingled with every
thought, and feeling, and purpose of his heart.
And when, at last, the time came that Paul had to leave home for
Baltimore, to remain absent all winter, for the purpose of attending the
course of lectures at the medical college, Miriam learned the pain of
parting, and understood how impossible happiness would be for her, with
Paul away, on naval or military duty, more than half their lives, and
for periods of two, three, or five years; and after that she never said
another word in favor of his wearing Uncle Sam's livery, although she
had often expressed a wish that he should enter the army.
Miriam's affection for Paul was so profound and quiet, that she did not
know its depth or strength. As she had not believed that parting from
him would be painful until the event had taught her, so even now she did
not know how intertwined with every chord and fibre of her heart and how
identical with her life, was her love for Paul. She was occupied by a
more enthusiastic devotion to her "brother," as she called her guardian.
The mysterious sorrow, the incurable melancholy of a man like Thurston
Willcoxen, could not but invest him with peculiar interest and even
strange fascination for one of Miriam's enthusiastic, earnest
temperament. She loved him with more than a daughter's love; she loved
him with all the impassioned earnestness of her nature; her heart
yearned as it would break with its wild, intense longing to do him some
good, to cure his sorrow, to make him happy. There were moments when but
for the sweet shyness that is ever the attendant and conservator of such
pure feeling, this wild desire was strong enough to cast her at his
feet, to embrace his knees, and with tears beseech him to let her into
that dark, sorrowful bosom, to see if she could make any light and joy
there. She feared that he had sinned, that his incurable sorrow was the
gnawing tooth of that worm that never dieth, preying on his heart; but
she doubted, too, for what could he have done to plunge his soul in such
a hell of remorse? He commit a crime? Impossible! the thought was
treason; a sin to be repented of and expiated. His fame was fairest of
the fair, his name most honored among the, honorable. If not remorse,
what then was the nature of his life-long sorrow? Many, many times she
revolved this question in her mind. And as she matured in thought and
affection, the question grew more earnest and importunate. Oh, that he
would unburden his heart to her; oh! that she might share and alleviate
his griefs. If "all earnest desires are prayers," then prayer was
Miriam's "vital breath and native air" indeed; her soul earnestly
desired, prayed, to be able to give her sorrowing brother peace.