XVI.

Urgently she pushed him away from her eager lips.

"We daren't be happy, Norm," she said. "We daren't be happy for one

single moment."

A disturbed and apprehensive look clouded the longing in her eyes, as

if she had become conscious of a great wall shutting out the sunlight.

When she answered his unspoken question, it was almost in a whisper, as

if even to mention the name might be dangerous.

"Mrs. Carr--"

Her hands tightened on his arms, conveying to him in a physical way the

immediacy of their danger.

"Norman, I'm frightened. I'm terribly frightened. For both of us. My

soul has learned so much. Things are different from what I thought. And

they're much worse."

He took hold of her shoulders, straightened her up. "You're safe," he

told her, and there was a scowling strength in his face and his voice.

"I've gotten you back, and I'm going to hold you. I've powers you don't

know about yet. They can never touch you again."

"Oh, Norman," she began, dropping her eyes, conflicting emotions

evident in her expression, "I know how brave and clever you've been.

Only I know the risks you've run, the sacrifices you've made for

me--wrenching your whole life away from rationality in the bare space

of a week, enduring of your own free will the beastliness of that

woman's naked thoughts which I was able to endure only because I was

forced to. And you have beaten Evelyn Sawtelle and Mrs. Gunnison fairly

and at their own game. But Mrs. Carr--" Her hands transmitted her

trembling to him. "Oh, Norman, she only _let_ you beat them. She

wanted to give them a fright, and she preferred to let you do it for

her. That's always her way. But now she'll take a hand herself."

"I think you're exaggerating," he said slowly. "What you've gone

through was enough to finish you a dozen times. But ... we'll talk

about it. First I'll get a drink."

And yet, he began to think, Tansy is not the sort to exaggerate. The

fact that she's gone through so much and come out so magnificently,

is itself a proof that she would not give way to unnecessary fears.

He would have to watch himself. His physical weakness, coupled with

repugnance for what he had done, was liable to bias his judgment and

make him believe anything that promised peace and rest. He rubbed his

eyes and blinked them, shaking his head. Relief was making him relax

too much. He downed a stiff drink, and poured himself another. Better

go easy with that, though. Up to a point it would help, but then it

would be worse than nothing at all.

Mrs. Carr, eh? He hadn't paid much attention to her. He'd even wondered

if she were concerned at all. Still, that might only mean exceptional

cunning. And yet she seemed such a silly old goat. But that might be

pretense. Tansy had been in a position to learn a lot.

* * * * *

When he got back to the bedroom, Tansy had changed from her torn and

creased dress into one of white wool, which he had always liked very

much, but which she had not worn for some time. He remembered she had

told him that it had shrunk and become too small for her. But now he

sensed intuitively that, in the joy of her return, she took a naïve

pride in her youthful body and wanted to show it to best advantage.

"It's like coming into a new house," she told him, with a quick little

smile that momentarily cut across her apprehensive look. "Or rather

like coming home after you've been away for a long time. You're very

happy, but everything is a little strange. It takes you a while to get

used to it."

Now that she mentioned it, he realized that there was a kind of

uncertainty about her movements, gestures, and expressions, like a

person convalescent after a long sickness and just now able to get up

and about.

She had combed out her hair so that it fell to her shoulders, and

she was still in her bare feet, giving her a diminutive and girlish

appearance that he found very attractive. He felt a growing impatience

with the possible dangers threatening him, although he knew such an

attitude to be unwise. He'd smash anyone who tried to harm her or keep

them apart!

She barely sipped her drink, and then put it aside.

"Back of everything, is Mrs. Carr," she began abruptly. "It was she

who brought Mrs. Gunnison and Evelyn Sawtelle together, and that one

act speaks volumes. Women are invariably secretive about their magic.

They work alone. A little knowledge is passed from the elder to the

younger ones, especially from mother to daughter, but even that is done

grudgingly and with suspicions. This is the only case Mrs. Gunnison

knew of--I learned most of this from watching her soul--in which three

women actually co-operated. It is an event of revolutionary importance,

betokening Heaven knows what for the future. Even now I have only an

inkling of Mrs. Carr's ambitions, but they involve vast augmentation of

her present powers. For almost three quarters of a century she has been

weaving her plans. Her real age is closer to eighty than seventy."

Tansy's voice was rapid, and she had grown pale again. Norman was

listening intently.

"She seems an innocent and rather foolish old lady, strait-laced yet

ineffectual--but that's only part of a disguise, along with her cooing

voice and simpering manners. She's the cleverest actress imaginable.

Underneath she's hard as nails--cold where Mrs. Gunnison would be

hot, ascetic where Mrs. Gunnison would be a slave to appetites. But

she has her own deeply hidden hungers, nevertheless. She is a great

admirer of Puritan Massachusetts. Sometimes I have the queerest feeling

that she is planning, by some unimaginable means, to reestablish that

witch-ridden, so-called theocratic community in this present day and

age.

"She rules the other two by fear. In a way they are little more than

her apprentices. You know something of Mrs. Gunnison, so you will

understand what it means when I say that I have seen Mrs. Gunnison's

thoughts go weak with terror because she was afraid that she had

slightly offended Mrs. Carr."

* * * * *

Norman finished his drink. His mind was slipping away from this new

menace, fumbling at it instead of grasping it firmly. He must whip his

mind awake! Tansy pushed her drink over toward him.

"And Mrs. Gunnison's fear is justified, for Mrs. Carr has powers

so deadly that she has never had to use them except as a threat.

Her eyes are the worst. Those thick glasses of hers--she possesses

that most feared of supernatural weapons, against which half the

protective charms in recorded magic are intended. That weapon whose

name is so well known throughout the whole world that it has become a

laughingstock of skeptics. The evil eye. With it, she can blight and

wither. With it, she can seize control of another's soul at a single

glance.

"So far she has held back, because she wanted the other two punished

for certain trifling disobediences and put into a position where

they would have to beg her help. But now she will act quickly. She

recognizes in you and your work a danger to herself." Tansy's voice had

become so breathlessly rapid that Norman realized she must be talking

against time. "Besides that, she has another motive buried in the

darkness of her mind. I do not know what it is, but sometimes I have

caught her studying my every movement and expression with the strangest

avidity--"

Suddenly she broke off and her face went white.

"--I can feel her now ... I can feel her seeking me out ... she is

breaking through--No!" Tansy screamed. "No, you can't _make_ me

do it!... _I won't!... I won't!"_ Before he knew it, she was on

her knees, clinging to him, clutching at his hands. "Don't let her

_touch_ me, Norman," she was babbling like a terrified child.

"Don't let her come _near_ me."

"I won't," he said.

"--oh ... but you can't stop her.... She's coming _here_, she

says, in her own body--that's how much she cares for your powers! She's

going to take me away.... I can't tell you what she's going to make me

do--it's too _repulsive_."

"If she comes here, I'll stop her," he said in a flat voice.

Her babbling ceased. Slowly she lifted her white, frightened face until

it looked up at his.

"You mean--"

He nodded. "I've still got a few cartridges for the revolver." His face

was set.

"Norman, I can't let you do it ... except--"

"--that I am in as much danger as you are."

"Yes."

A semblance of control came back into Tansy's face.

"You might be able to do it," she said softly. "She wouldn't

be expecting physical violence. But you would have to be very

_quick_. If you hesitated for the tiniest _instant_, if you

gave her the slightest opportunity to fix you with her eyes, you would

be lost. She would seize control. You know the cobra that spits venom

at its victim's eyes--it's like that."

Dully he tried to remember what you did when you committed a murder.

There was the alibi--what would that be? And disposal of the body--the

furnace, or he could steal some carboys of acid from the chem lab. What

acid? And would it be wise to steal it? And then there was motive. That

would be his strong point. The courts would not recognize his true

motive.

He started. Tansy was shaking him insistently.

"Hurry, Norman. She's very close."

As if in some sticky nightmare of fear and rage and hate, he made his

preparations. The curtains drawn. The door barely unlatched, so she

could push her way in. Himself in the dark corner of the living room.

She would make a good target, outlined against that oblong of daylight.

Suddenly Tansy slipped into his arms. Her body molded itself to his.

Her moist lips found his own. Almost brutally he returned the kiss. He

heard her whisper breathlessly, "Only be _quick_, darling. Don't

let her _look_ at you." And then she had retreated to the bedroom

doorway.

There were steps hurrying up the walk. His emotions contracted to one

tight knot. He was conscious of the cold metal in his hand.

The door was pushed inward. A thin form in gray silk was silhouetted

there. Indistinctly he could make out beyond the sight of the gun, the

faded face, the thick glasses. His finger tightened on the trigger.

But the thick glasses were turned in his direction. And the

silver-haired head gave a little shake.

A dull, almost stupid look came over his face. His jaw sagged.

"Quick, Norman. _Quick!_"

The gray figure in the doorway did not move. The gun wavered, then

swung suddenly around until it pointed at Tansy.

"_Norman!_"

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